Do read my thank you note above...
sorry if i have missed out anyone in PM's..
I LOVE YOU GUNJAN
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears."
And these were the words i saw on the first page of her book. Such gracefully and calligraphically written. Sitting in this classroom during a free hour was the last thing that i had preferred to do! An dafter reading this, my head started spinning!
"chashmish, you actually believe all this?" i asked her with a shocked look on my face. Somebody who did not know what the matter was would definitely think that she had asked me to jump from the 10 storeyed building, if that person were to go by my expressions..
"okay now seriously, you need to stop calling me chashmish. I have a beautiful name. Gunjan. How hard is it to call me by name? And believe in what samrat?" she said as she continued to jot down points for the next hours lecture, without looking up at me.
"all this love quotes and stuff? You actually believe in this? I dint know you were the poetical type" i said as i waved her book in the air, so as to draw her attention.
"samrattt" she squeaked and tried to pull the book from my hand... "That is my personal diary, you're not supposed to read it, give it back to me"
I dodged her hand and did not give her diary back. "oh diary eh? Then i should be reading it" And the moment i said this, her eyes popped out.
"No, you are not doing anything as such, give it back to me." She stood up and tried to snatch it, but all in vain.
"Come on chashmish, it's almost a month now that we are in a relationship and it's my right to know what is written in it. Although i know that it must be all about me, still it is my right." I said it in the most melodramatic way possible.
"Gunjan Bhushan" a voice called out for her from the entrance of the classroom. It was our college peon. "Principal is calling you." He stated and disappeared in a blink.
"haan haan, go now. Principal is calling you, you shouldn't delay" i said with a broad, naughty grin on my face. She probably knew what was on my mind. And just when she was about to open her mouth, Mayank appeared.
"Gunjan, come soon. Principal wants to meet us both. Its regarding the IT fest. I suggested your name instead of nupur's, since she will be attending the Culturals. Let's go." He said and dragged her along with him.
If it was possible to kill with the look of the eyes, i would probably be dead by now. She narrowed her eyes, indicating not to read her diary. but i was Samrat... The Samrat Shergill, who does what he wants. And so, ignoring all the warnings, i opened her diary and began to read it silently. Not because i loved reading, but because i had this tendency to do what was not supposed to be done.
The diary was quite neat, just like any other note book she had. I flipped pages and randomly stopped at one entry. It was almost 3 months back.
10th Mar, 2011
"Today Di prepared breakfast and called me over to their house to have it. good try. Poor mayank jiju had to eat without any complaints coz di threatened on cancelling tonight's dinner. The look on his face was worth a laugh. Shukla sir's lecture was interesting, but somehow i couldn't concentrate coz samrat was punished. He was throwing chits at sheena. I did feel bad. It hurts to see your love giving out his heart to someone else, specially when he treats you only like a friend."
I was taken by surprise. Chashmish treated me more than a friend long time back, even when i was dating sheena. Now i was curious. I flipped few more pages and read another entry.
25th Mar, 2011
"samrat proposed to sheena, and she said yes. "
and near the word yes, there was a huge drop of water.. or maybe tear. I could tell since the ink on the page was smeared. I felt as though someone pricked my heart. I had caused tears in her eyes. I recollected those days, when she avoided talking to me. Now i knew why. I flipped a few more pages. I was unsure as to what i would get to read next. But i was sure of one thing, it would be about me. And so, i went on reading randomly, one after the other.
20th Apr 2011
"sheena broke up with samrat. She found some Rannvijay more attractive and rich, and she dumped samrat. He was shattered. And so was i. I couldn't see him cry. But somewhere i was at peace that he and sheena were no more together. She was definitely not the girl for him. Di was asking me plans on how to seduce Jiju. How would i be supposed to know? It was embarrassing and finally she changed the topic."
1st May, 2011
"Samrat is finally back to normal. Phew i am so relieved. And finally he practiced basketball and played the guitar today. I am so happy to see him back. Di and mayank jiju had a fight today coz di burnt his shirt while pressing the clothes since she was watchin SRK on TV. Poor jiju... lol "
19th May, 2011
"Samrat hugged me. I felt over the moon. He won the basketball championship and was extremely happy. I don't know whether i was imagining things, but i felt it was a different hug; not the usual one. anyway, i was very happy today. *wink* "
2nd Jun, 2011
"Samrat proposed to me. He asked me "will you be my girlfriend" and i said yes. I am so numb today. I never thought that the person whom i loved will be mine... only mine!! yayy!!"
I was happy. Finally i was reading some good entries, but the moment i read the next one, i was proved wrong.
23rd Jun, 2011
"20 days have passed and samrat has not yet said 'I Love You'. I know he loves me, but i wish he would just say it. Di is planning for a job to support jiju. I wonder what will jiju's approach be."
The minute i read this, i closed the book. I realized i had not yet said 'I Love You' to her. I dint realize that it meant this much to her. But then it dawned on me that she dint want me to just say those words. She wanted me to mean it. I was always a person who took people and relationships for granted, be it my mom, sister or even gunjan.
"Samrat... " she called my name and broke my chain of thoughts. "lets go to the canteen na, i'm really hungry. And after the next lecture, i have to meet Sir along with mayank. Lets go na" she said as she packed her bag and pulled me by my arm.
We placed our order at the canteen and occupied a table. I was still lost and that dint seem to be hidden for long from chashmish.
"samrat? Something happened? Why are you so quiet?" she asked as she held my hand in hers.
I dint say anything to her. I just went down on my knees and took her hand in mine. She was shocked and surprised and confused, while there was pin drop silence in the crowded canteen.
"i read your diary." I confessed to her. She looked at me with such a look that i dint really understand what it meant. Anyway i continued to speak as i looked onto the floor.
"i never said I Love You to you. I never took any relationship seriously. When sheena dumped me for that Rannvijay, i was shattered. But you stood by my side. And the day i asked you to be my girlfriend, you said yes. But it never occurred to me how come you said yes to me. Today i know it was because you loved me. Not from a month or so, but way before that. I'm sorry chashmish. I am really sorry"
No one uttered a single word. Not even chahsmish. With great effort i looked up at her to see her smiling at me. The girls around our table seemed to be lost in a trance as to what was happening at our table.
"samrat, it's okay. It's not really as bad as you think. And you are a wonderful person and the best that a girl would hope for. It doesn't matter whether you say those threewords or not. I know what you feel for me. Relax."
she took my hand and indicated me to sit. People started chattering again. And cheenu, our canteen guy, rang the bell telling us that our order was ready. Without waiting for me, she got up and walked to the counter.
"I Love You Gunjan" i spoke with all my strength with eyes shut, while i was still on my knees. "I really love you"
And she just stood there at the counter with the vada-pav in her hand. And the canteen became silent again. I and the rest of the people in the canteen, including cheenu, were waiting for her reply.
And she smiled. She smiled with tears in her eyes trickling down her cheeks.
"arrey Gunjan" nupur squealed "what are you just standing there for? Go hug him and say that you love him" while mayank side-hugged her, and both of them grinned at me and her.
She walked to me, kept the vada-pav on the table, took my hands in hers and asked me to stand.
"i love you too samrat" she said softly, while the entire canteen was hooting and howling. And then i hugged her, hugged her as though my life depended on her. And as we walked out, hand-in-hand towards class for the next lecture, i made a silent promise to myself. That i would love and adore this 'angel-in-disguise' and make her mine and be with her until the end of time.
P.S. I know its not come out very well, as i thought it would. i promise to write another one on sajan and make up for it. hopefully this is bearable.
Edited by rapunzel_angel - 14 years ago
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