CHAPTER 7
Searing Pain
A gush of wind blew in as she tried shutting the window.
It was then that she saw him . . . drenched in rain.
Instinctively, she ran out into the lawn.
Panting she yelled "What the hell are you doing"
"Leave" Geet said rather calmly.
He kept looking at her, expressionless. The look in his eyes was breaking her strength; she was not strong enough to see him in that state.
"Leave NOW" Geet repeated.
He stood there like a rock, his eyes blank.
Closing her eyes she exhaled air and said "Fine, come inside"
He was stiff. His eyes were red and face was pale, she couldn't see him like that, no matter what he did with her.
Holding his wrist she tried dragging him as she shouted "For heaven's sake MOVE"
Sighing she cupped his face as she said "You're one stubborn ass, aren't you"
"Don't you love me anymore?"
She gulped as she heard him say that. What was he trying show by doing this? She was not strong enough to go through another break down. She couldn't afford that, she had a daughter to take care.
"You're drunk" Geet muttered under her breath, realisation dawning at her slowly. Lifting his hand he held her palm as he brought it near her lips and softly kissed her as she recoiled in horror as she felt her eyes prick.
"Do you not love me" Maan said, seizing her arm to hold her back.
"Maan . . . Please" Geet murmured as she shut her eyes, she was at the brink of tears.
"Tell me . . . You do" He pulled her as her back crashed against his chest.
"Leave me" Geet bit out, as she wriggled under his strong grip.
"You cannot stop loving me" Maan commanded as he cupped her face, his eyes spelling . . . love.
Kissing her eye "You cannot . . ." He kissed away the tear that rested at her cheek "You love me" He planed kissed all over her face "Say you love me"
She just stood there with tears falling down her eyes. When she didn't as much react, he fell to his knees as he hugged her. With his hands encircling her waist he dug his face in her tummy as he pleased "Please Geet . . ."
Her hands moved to comfort him but just when she was about to hold him closer . . .
She stopped as her hands fell right back to her sides. She knew he would leave her yet again; she wouldn't fall for it again.
Raising his face to see her, he left her waist as his hands fell lifelessly to his sides. Her silence was killing him. This feeling was way worse than what he had felt that day when he confessed and she took steps away from him.
"I'm sorry" Saying so she pulled back her hand as she moved backwards.
The moment her hand slipped out of his, he felt his world slip away. With every step that she took away from him, he felt himself a step closer to hell.
She was going away . . . away from him.
The fear of losing her wrenched his soul.
"Geet please listen to me once" He called out as his heart shrank with fear of never seeing her again. He had to tell her he didn't care if she loved him back or not. All that mattered was her being there . . . be it as a friend. He had to let her know he expected nothing from her, just nothing but her presence was enough. But at that point of time, her silence killed him. He was not afraid of rejection rather he was terrified to even think what would happen if she broke their friendship.
What is she didn't want to see him ever again.
Would he be able to survive without her?
Mustering all his courage he spoke "Geet . . . I don't expect for you to love me back. Yes if you would I will be the happiest person alive but if you don't although my heart will be in pieces I will be content to just call you my friend. If you walk out now, if you break our friendship I'd die. I promise you my feelings will never be hindrance to you. I'll lock them in a corner of my heart but please don't walk away. What I feel for you will always remain as it is but it will never be a block in your path. I just need you in my life . . ." He came in front of her as he held her hand "Be it as a friend . . ."
The thing he hated, the one thing he despised beyond boundaries . . . her tears.
She was crying, and that broke his heart.
He had set those tears there.
If he was giving her pain, he did not deserve her in his life. He would die a million deaths for that one smile that lightened up his life. If his going away from her was what gave her happiness . . . be it so.
Wiping her tears he apologised for making those precious pearls escape her eyes.
Kissing her forehead he said painfully "If you don't want me in your life . . .
He couldn't complete as he simply walked away.
With every step he took away from her, it broke his heart. Subconsciously his soul begged for her to stop him.
His heart pleaded for a word from her.
His mind blank, she did not stop him.
He had lost her forever. That one truth was enough to strangle his heart and soul upside down.
She saw him breakdown as he held the grass in pain and frustration. She saw the look of dejection in his eyes when she did not answer him. Somewhere she knew he was hurting, she wanted to hold him tight and never let go but she knew he would leave her again. Taking a step backwards she turned her back to him.
With his eyes downcast, he let the rain wash away his pain, it was too much too bear.
Her smile was what enlightened his world.
He closed his eyes in pain . . .
Her laughter was the music in his life.
He curled his fingers into a fist . . .
Whenever he would falter; her eyes were what gave him strength.
A lone tear escaped his eyes . . .
Whenever he would be bored; her endless, far from logic bantering was what made his life interesting.
He jumped as he roared in frustration . . .
Her presence made his life worthy of note.
His fist hit the ice breaking it into tiny pieces . . .
She lived in him. Everything around him seemed to be suffocating without her, he felt himself fall deeper into a black hole which was slowly sucking the life out of him.
"Maan" he heard her say.
His heart jumped in joy. She had come back to him. But the next moment as soon as he turned and saw her tear streamed face, he cursed himself for having imposed pain on her.
He was by her side the next moment, wiping her tears he pleaded "Please don't cry"
"You did not wait for my reply" she said as his breathing constricted.
He waited for her to continue. Thousands of possibilities sprung out in his mind. A few were hopeful but most were dreadful.
"My mom . . ." she said as she moved to stand at the window sill.
"She left my dad . . . for another man . . . I was eight she left me too . . . I don't believe in anything as much Love . . . I am scared"
Did she fear he would leave her? No, he could never do that. Did she have the slightest idea just what she meant to him.
He held her from behind as he kissed her cheek and whispered "I will never leave you . . . I can never leave you"
"Trust me" He pleaded as he held her tighter.
When she held his hands, it was like she was pulling him out of his hell. But she pushed him right back as she said "I do trust you but . . .
He left her as he took a step backward and turned his back to her. Did she feel he was imposing his feelings over her? He never meant to give her any pain but unintentionally he had made her cry. As much hard it was on him he gulped as he said "Is it that you don't love me . . . Geet like I have said, it is no compulsion for you to feel the same way, I just need you to be there be it as a friend"
It was then that he felt her hug him from behind.
Her hands clasped around his chest as her cheek rested at his bare back.
And then . . .
He felt tears something rolling down his back . . . her tears. He tried moving away, not wanting to give her pain but she held onto him.
"It is me I don't trust"
OK. If till date he had doubts that one odd screw in her brain was lose now he was dead sure all of her nut bolts needed handling. Out of all things, this girl was scared she would hurt him. Somewhat it pained him that she didn't trust herself but it also amused him that she could be so stupid. He asked her if she was scared of hurting him and naturally, the tease that she was, she kept quite. When she should speak she wouldn't utter a single word and when she should not, she would with absolute ease eat the other person's head off.
He cupped her face and resting his forehead against hers he said softly "You trust me . . . Right"
"Yes" he heard her whisper more to herself.
"Then trust my trust on you"
Then she threw her arms around him as she clung to him.
His eyes crinkled up at the corners as he smiled and lifted her off her feet. He was on cloud nine.
As the memories of that day clouded his mind he rasped painfully "You love me, you can't break my trust . . . I trusted you that you will always love me"
That broke the last of her resolve.
"Yes I do . . ." she cried as she sank to the ground and cupped his face "I do love you . . . a lot"
They both cried and without warning she smacked her lips onto him.
Instantly his hands pulled her to him as he fervently kissed her back. Their hearts were beating for each other, against each other. The longing to be held in his embrace, to feel his love, was finally coming to end. He was back and she did not need any other confirmation that he loved her. He did, she just knew it. Her heart was elated, her soul live again. A smiled traced her lips as she kissed him.
Her hands moved into his thick mane as her nails dug into his scalp. He squeezed her to him as his tongue penetrated her mouth. Slowly his hands slithered up her waist and cupping her face he continued kissing her passionately. She was on cloud nine. He was back. The dream she dreamt subconsciously was coming to reality. She needed him just as much as he needed her. She could feel his need in that one kiss.
They broke apart for air as he smiled at her. That smile was what her eyes craved to see for the past two years. It was a smile that assured her he loved her. Her eyes twinkled as she beamed and cupping his face she kissed his eyes one after another. She missed him . . . missed him so much. She cried as she kissed him all over the face.
He held her nape as he tilted her head and captured her mouth in a searing kiss. Her hands went round his neck as she hugged him. She cried as she forced herself away from him and held his collar. She looked at him with anger, she was furious. She was angry at him for having driven her away. It took him two years for coming back as her Maan.
She was about to chide him for his behaviour when he spoke the damned words "Is he a better kisser"
Her grip on him loosened as she recoiled in shock.
He seized her waist as he bit out the words that spelled the doom of her trust "Why are you going, Trust me I am much better than Arjun . . . don't go"
His each and every word sent daggers through her heart.
The pain she felt when that day he left her abandoned was nothing in comparison to what she was going through then.
That was when she cursed the day she fell in love with him.
That was when even her tears dried.
That was when she slapped him.
PRECAP: No matter how hard was it on her to work with him, she was a professional and she would act like one. She would feign indifference, as long as it was professional she would bear his hurtful presence around her but it ended there, beyond the point of professionalism, they shared no relation whatsoever. That was the borderline and further she would avoid him and show him he was nobody to her . . . just nobody.
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Guess what I was going to leave it at when she kissed him but then I got this feeling . . . if I had done that a lot n lot n lot of galis and juttis and rotten tomatoes were on my way . . . although even now some of you must want to strangle me, that I know but I needed to this.
PM's Later
This update was for Shika Di and Reva for gining me hundreds of names . . . did u guys leave anything . . . i mean u did not even spare jung food . . . di from what angle did u find me like Kurkure . . . Reva u called me chillar . . . chalo i love you both anyway . . .
And Arzoo . . . this is also for you as u were stalking😆
And ofcourse my guessing gang . . . Jia, Aash n shreya . . . i have a suggestion for u guys . . . not really my idea it is Shika Di's idea . . .start a FF where Maan's cousin is Meha and Geet's cousins are pia and jia one who's a vampire, another a pari..🤣 u guys have good imagination u see the FF will b interesting coming from u
Edited by 7thHeaven - 14 years ago
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