LIBERATE ME'

Hi everyone, peace be up on you.

I never had a time to post anything since i became a member but if i can get readers intresed in my writings you are most welcomed.

It all started i dont know when but as i grow up my mind opens to much greater nice new thoughts as i had on my self before.Saying that i can explain in deatails,I have been taught about cinderella,ugly duckling,sleeping beauty and so on but i think its all for giving a bright future and a desire to see more ahead of me.i had my translation to the stories ican explain as well but truly what imagination is are not the storybook but this we call real life.

As in ugly duckling i see my self into her the only difference is i started by being beautiful,the word BEAUTIFUL was full in me and before knowing it is the most fake word in the world i started seing my self as an ugly duckling among my critics the more i grow the more i started working on my looks,i felt that i was nothing more than a bad copy of the standard.igrew up in critics world especialy men all i new was to be beautiful so that i could be loved and appreciated without knowing that i'm forcing my self pleasing others in their eyes all i wanted is to be a real SWAN.it was not my fault but is what i had in mind which learned from the book brought by my mom as a birthday present.

As a cinderella which also i was given by my parents to read all i knew is to put makeupon,new garments and acsessories could make someone win the most men desired by all girls and also i can be appreciated by everyone.so i worked on that put on make up,wearing short skirts expose my self as well to win the hearts of my critics,i was worth only to the degree that i could please my master so i spent my life on the covere of cosmo and gave my body for people to sell as i was my own slave.i kept the saying i'm free this is a free world i can do what i want (was i) is that all i'm doing for me?iwas an object but convinced it was a success,i knew the purpose of life was to be on a display to attract.always serching for approval and comments,i have been used to advert cars (ride this you ride her).i was a slave in me only my looks could decide my fate a mirror,lipstick and fashion stores were my saviours.which most of the time changes.

Above are only two among many books that i read as a young girl the teaching were beneficial for today world but is that all women wants?Grown up lied to me about the purpose of life and the way i should lead my life,they anly looked at the happy ending of the stories but forgot about what the characters went through.

I'm on my late 20's now thank ALLAH i did not stop from children's books as i have passion on reading and serching for the purpose of my life.iread many books danniel steel's barbara's,bible,quran and even many of the other faith's teachings serching for what i had in my mind.Suprised to see there is more to life than being beautiful and beautiness started with love.if i love my self so i'm beautiful,believing in my inner soul is the most precious thing in the world.

I thought my self that i belong to me my body,my soul,my life is all about me i started love my self i was taken by the teaching of the quran and islamic teachings,i covered my self up.i hide my beauty as to treasure for the love of my life.i am not a slave of me any more my life does'n mean to please critics or man any more.So i'm honoured but it is not my relationship to human or critics,my value as a woman is not measured by the size of my waist or the no of men who likes me,my worth as a human being and my purpose in life despite the fashion magazine or just looking good.

After discovering my self leaving behind the slavery world i lived most of my younger life in and started loving,caring for my self with many thanks to ALLAH for making me realise what i was into i am now highly respected woman,approved by every body even those who do not see my beauty,my husband was my friends brother never saw me before or i seen him but hearing each others characters and our way of life we came to love each other we are hapily legaly in faith and state maried couple with a lovely daughter who doesnt have snow white or ugly duckling dreams.till now.

i wish to thank everyone who gave their time reading this and i welcome feedback please.

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