Needs to get out of the TB land, so I can carry on with my normal life. So here goes my thoughts on today’s episode.
Meerab’s monologue in today’s episode is the highlight of it. If you forget her monologues from the Ep. 47, there are only very few monologues given to these characters, hence it signifies the importance of this one. TBH, this is one of the most sensible one coming from Meerab after the longest time. From the moment her alliance to Murtasim was announced by Ma Begum, everything that happened in her life up until now, are nothing short of chaos. And not once she has paused to think and sort her life, everything that came out from her side were just ‘reactions’ – sometimes violent, impulsive and sometimes senseless even. She agreed to marriage as a reaction to her becoming homeless, she made the contract to preserve whatever of herself that she could, and the list can go on. It seemed that she was getting on with her life, but honestly, she was just going with the flow. Her inability to understand and accept her feelings can also be stemmed from this unstable state of her mind. One needs clarity to make coherent decisions – and Meerab’s has lost the clarity of her mind with the chain of events that has happened in her life.
It is said that we need to learn to ‘unlearn’ – things we learnt for a lifetime should be kept behind and should start anew if one hopes to be atop of the game. It is significant to move forward; learn, then unlearn and again relearn. Meerab needs to refocus her life too. Because what she was put into is not the life that she once believed. She must purge what she already perceived for her life, revisit and reanalyze her priorities and go for a fresh start. She must lose everything she had so far to find the true meaning of her current life, without losing herself – then only she will become the fearless, courageous Meerab we saw in first few episodes – Murtasim’s ‘meri Meerab’
Standing with the idea that ‘there was never MR planned in the story, just a disgusting illusion created to divert the mind of the audience’, with this monologue, it makes perfect sense of why she left. Again, her decision was drastic and impulsive, but exactly what she needed. It also explains why she didn’t want to stay at her adoptive parents’ house. Simple, Murtasim would have come for her. And she didn’t want that to happen. Could she have done this ‘time out’ with any other way? I don’t think so. Taking time out to sort your thoughts and reanalyze life decisions is not a favorable concept in most of conventionally traditional up bringings, so I am not sure she could have done this any other way. And I highly doubt that NM’s audience will understand this thought process of her FL with clarity as well – may be that is why she imposed the fake MR, if then everyone would have easily understood Meerab’s leaving!
There are lot more to say, but my real-life deadlines are beckoning. Lastly coming to the promo, Murtasim saying that it is about his ‘izzat’ – there is nothing new or wrong in it. Isn’t that what he told to his mother after bringing his wife home after the accident fiasco; have not many of us believed his fallen shawl in the previous episode is a representation of his wife and his pride. As Gundamwing beautifully put in one of her posts, his pride and his wife are synonymous for him. And he was always portrayed (from the series teasers) as a man who values his pride the most. Coming to one last thing, though one should not count the chicks before they hatch; Murtasim’s dialogue in the promo does give me jitters. But what I want to remember is that he did mention that his relationship with Meerab is till ‘qayamat’ and he only mention that the ‘ring’ will be Haya’s when he loses the last hope of finding Meerab. I hope against the hope, that he meant only the ‘ring’, but not the hand that put the ring on Meerab’s finger (the title ‘Without You’ has always frightened me, I actually didn’t want to start watching TB because the title. But as Murtasim said, it kept happening and I couldn’t stop myself!).
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