Originally posted by: aardhan
maybe a part of her is always aware that her decision was wrong..... she refuses to acknowledge that just like Ab she also too a life-altering decision in anger, stubbornness, and impulsiveness. And she involved Nav, from whom she cannot untangle, and her innocent son, whose identity she has altered. I feel ever since Ab came to Kasauli, this thought has slowly been eating at her.
For 6 years, she deluded herself saying she is right, no one wants her, and she is better off being alone. But slowly when everyone complained that she never came or let them visit her, the truth of her actions started pricking her more that it was her who kept them away. That first time after Ab left Kasauli, she spoke to Nav and confessed AB's identity. That day her only reason was that since Ab didn't listen 6 years back, she will not say the truth to him now.... which sounded more like a revenge or tit-for-tat scheme by her. But she did not have any other excuses..... Nav was not even in her radar then. Slowly she started adding them to her list, just to keep giving herself reasons to keep the facade and justify her lies in her mind.....
She added - Truth will disturb everyone's peace and she will be blamed again
The truth will spoil Ab/ Ar marriage which was just arranged. She could've told BP she refused considering there is a history but she told him she did not care!
Then came Abhir and Nav can't live without each other.
Next is Ab is not fit to be a father (as if she ever saw him being one!). He is immature and selfish and will break everyone's heart.
Tomorrow, she will add, since Ab cannot balance she can't spoil Ru's future.
Truth is she will surround herself with reasons so she can unsee and act ignorant of Ab's pain and yearning...... because the moment she acknowledges Ab's truth that is staring at her, all her 6 years of bravado, aloofness, stony facade of 'i do not care', tough attitude, all will come crashing!
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