Originally posted by: Gundamwing
Episode 29 Review (I will keep editing this)
TB or to TB is about perspectives and this is my perspective.
This is a story of trials for Khan Murtasim Khan to earn his wife’s love. Hercules had to pass all his 12 labors to reach atonement. Murtasism must pass only once, and every time he fails the next trial get harder. In episode 29 we will watch him fail second time. Meerab fate is tied to Murtasim, when he fails she will suffer with him. The journey of episode 29 with the ‘jump/promise’ is Murtasim’s attempt to amend their wedding vows.
Their original wedding vows, he promised her she will have first right over herself even before him, and she promised him she will place him ahead of herself. He said her vow was a sazaa for her, he didn’t know then that this would backfire on him, and it would become his sazaa.
In episode 29 both Murtasim and Meeerab will not realize that they made each other live through the worst trauma of their lives. For Murtasim it is when Meerab was kidnapped and for Meerab it is the abandonment of her fake parents.
When KMK fired that gun, the husband temporarily checked out, and didn’t check in back in till the end of episode. Now comes Meerab’s test as a wife, she has always been able to calm him down when in anger, but can she comfort him when he is emotionally disturbed. She plays three roles in this episode, one of a goddess, a nurturer, and a wife.
The episode starts with Murtasim pretending like he shot himself to induce panic from his wife, Nautanki. This brings us back to Meerab’s first car accident, 2 things struck me (First thing addressed now, Second later). He runs to her in panic cups her face in concern and she does the same thing for him. In everything and anything they will mirror each other. However, look at his response time, he was out of his car in a flash to get to her, but she is paralyzed with fear that she lost him and doesn’t run to him immediately.
Murtasim loves his wife so much that he has learnt Meerabish, now using it against her as he spouts gibberish about Sasta Salman in anger. He is packing to leave, and Meerab asks what about me 4 bloody times, this is her giving him consent to take her, but MK the husband has gone tata bye bye in his anger. This is the second time in their marriage he doesn’t understand her tearful eyes are pleading him to not abandon her, he throws her ‘meri marzi’ back in her face and storms off. The shock and pain on her face reflected as he unintentionally made her relive her parents’ abandonment all over again. She needed his assurance here that even in the abyss he will not leave her, and he failed her a second time. He wasn’t giving her agency of consent to follow him, instead he forgot his promise of ‘kabin Nahin’ as he let go of her hand.
But our girl is a fighter she dusted herself off, picked herself up and ran after her man. That ‘kabin Nahin’ was a two-way promise, she is not letting go just yet. She learned from before that his goooooooo doesn’t meant go away, she needs to stand her ground and fight back. Her plea to him that she didn’t come to Karachi to meet Sasta Salman (SS), WRONG ANSWER that is not why he is angry. The frown and the arch of his eyebrows, he stares perturbed at her clueless face, yes Mr. Khan your wife is a duffod.
Rain is a symbol of many things, but in the context of this scene it is a symbol of calmness, which is Meerab. This her first role in this episode, as a goddess she calls forth divine intervention to calm down the situation. She looks up at the sky and he only looks at her, she is his sukoon, the one he seeks to quell his rage. Rain forces them both to head for cover, a temporary retreat from battle.
Murtasim thinks rain are his tears, but they are really Meerab’s tranquility. She doesn’t like being ignored by her husband, but she keeps giving him the wrong answer again and again regarding SS and he tells her to shut up. It rains all the way through their drive keeping a lid on KMK rage, he won’t crash the car again and Meerab knows when to stay silent, they both don’t make the same mistakes twice they will just make new ones.
There is role reversal here with Meerab in the protective role as she follows concerned behind her disheveled husband back inside the house. Murtasim obviously will never tell his mother anything, but he sneers at ‘chori pakadi gayi’. This is the first time since their marriage he has mocked the wife he idolizes openly, reflection of how deeply hurt he is. MK the husband makes a brief appearance here, when Meerab talks about how they stole her haq and she just drifts aimlessly to keep herself engaged. This is the salvation of his great love for her, he can temporarily ignore her pain but never forget it, his eyes dim as he thinks of her loss, but he is not ready to move on just yet. Meerab is looking for Murtasim, he won’t answer her calls now, ignoring her, her ‘baad mei jao’ lasts for even lesser time than his anger.
To Bed or not To Bed
It is nighttime now whether they share the bed or not is irrelevant to the intimacy level they share, because regardless of which side you argue the answer is the same. She opens her eyes she subconsciously looks to the empty side of the bed, did he used to sleep there before or does she wish he did, answer is the same she will always seek him out.
She is sleeping on the very edge of her side of the bed, one roll and thud she is on the floor. When they shared the bed in episode 20 (hands hands episode) she eventually turned to his side, she didn’t sleep on the edge of a cliff. The answer is the same, no matter where he slept, she will move closer to his side subconsciously, and since he is on the sofa tonight she is on the edge closer to where he is.
She can’t sleep if he is not comfortable, she covers him up and her touch wakes him up or he was never asleep to begin with. She stares at his dishevelled appearance he didn’t even change for bed, nope this can’t go on she is going to put a stop to his antics NOW. His eyes open to seek her out, his inner peace returns as he sighs and goes back to sleep. In his half sleepy state looks like he forgot he was upset with her.
If I saw this scene in isolation, I wouldn’t even know they were fighting. Just another normal night for MeMu where Meerab watches over him, makes him comfortable and tucks him to sleep. He wakes up to look at her, he can’t sleep until he gets that care from her. Murtasim does this many times before he looks at her and sighs, it is like a drowning man coming up for air.
Her morning habits are telling, when she wakes up, she is used to seeing him and knowing where he is, but now the routine is broken, and she takes her irritation out on the maid.
Meerab and Anwar conversation addresses her POV regarding her husband and herself. Meerab trusts Murtaism to not discuss their private affairs with anyone. Meerub resents being reduced to just being MK’s wife as her own individuality is destroyed. MK’s wife has no right to talk to Sasta Salman but Meerab does, and Meerab is fighting back to keep that part of herself alive. And lastly anyone wants to know anything about her don’t ask her just please ask husband, even Meerab accepts Murtasim knows her best.
He was a dishevelled mess at night and now she is a mess. Her second role in this episode as she becomes the nurturer. She puts her comfort aside, prioritizes him and doesn’t change or clean herself up before going to cook for him. Meerab’s Biriyani for lunch ends up as uneaten dinner, what a waste. I felt sad for her excited face she was so proud of herself. Post Walima during the first hug and at the dance, Murtasim brings up the cigarette lighter and candle respectively symbolizing his passion for her. But now Meerab lights twin candles representing them both, and the candles are reduced in size by the time husband shows up. She waited 8 hours and doesn’t even get upset when he comes late, showing her patient side.
For Murtasim anytime food and Meerab are mentioned in the same sentence he subconsciously touches his stomach, things we sacrifice for love, no wonder he didn’t appear for lunch he wanted to escape potential stomach pain. Murtasim never eats without his wife, in his anger he is only punishing himself. He knows he is hurting her and is the first to cry. Meerab even used her tears against him to get him to fold, she knows her husband weakness, but he is not budging.
But Murtasim is making progress he doesn’t storm off like he usually does when his emotions overwhelm him, he turns back and asks her does she realize what she put him through for those 30 minutes she was with Sticky Notes. Alpha Meerab grabs him by the jacket makes him listen to her. Meerab reiterates SS took her by force and Murtasim gulps down his anger, his eyes are filled with concern, fear, and tears. Meerab’s Murtasim is coming back to her, he looks like he wishes he killed SS, hisabh is not barabhar. But Meerab screwed up when she says besides he is my classmate why can’t I meet him it is not a big deal, BUSTED wrong choice of words. She confessed what he suspected all along. He snaps he will show her what is the difference between ‘kitni choti aur kitni badi baath’.
To Be Contiued………..
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