Originally posted by: -honeydew-
I think most people did pretty much say what I wanted to but I’ll share my thoughts as well.
- I think from word go Sai was always aware of the presence of this third element in her and Virat’s life and never sadly could get that out of her mind. And Virat also never tried to do anything to prove her wrong, at times when he had to assure her, he went and confessed his feelings for Sai in front of Pakhi boldly but never clarified or categorically stated to Sai that Pakhi stopped existing between the two of them. Had he used the same energy to opposite places things would have been diff for the couple i . e ignoring Pakhi and her overt gestures openly and boldly telling in front of the world that Pakhi was a closed chapter in his life and she is all that mattered. All his assurances to her were in private that too in a very unconvincing manner while his support towards Pakhi was always out in the open in front of the family ! So why would Sai, ever want to gain that faith- with time though she fell in love with him she learnt to love with despite the presence of Pakhi, making her own place , hoping deep down inside that when the time comes her partner would bestow her the respect she deserves ! Unfortunately that never happened so Sai never really got a chance to believe or think she was ever no 1 in his life.
- when she returned after the leap as well though she was shown extremely hurt that Virat had moved on; never bothered looking for her or even married Pakhi IMO it was hurtful but never shocking or surprising, because her worst fears had only come true, the times when she screamed her lungs out and said to him that she knew he would side Pakhi didi, he should admit his feelings for Pakhi didi, the times when she said Virat May have been upset that Samrat came in between Virat and Pakhi and he was upset, though Virat was upset she was over reacting, his subsequent actions only went on to point towards her logical deduction that she was always right about her assumption when it came to Pakhi and Virat. Like Virat was her first love, in her head Pakhi was Virat’s first and if he took this decision it was not totally unexpected but it was heartbreaking to know her subsequently being in his life perhaps held no significance in his life. That’s why she became cold and detached towards him because she was upset with herself for loving a man so much when he couldn’t return her love in the same magnanimity.
As far as her knowing about them consummating their marriage, I don’t think it really mattered to Sai so much then nor does it now because like everyone else here is saying physical consummation hardly could erase the insults and accusations and rock solid support he gave to Pakhi during all times when he should have actually been with Sai. Even if he decided to support his family and it’s honour before the leap and stand by PL despite all the proofs against her and Sai begging him to see reason, after knowing she was dead, he didn’t do anything to show his solidarity to Sai. It became evident to Sai once again that even her death didn’t evoke enough love in him, in wanting to see all the wrong she had committed. Had he really been right he would have married PL for Vinu, but continued to punish her for Sai leaving the house and subsequently dying. Instead he married her, and continued to have a happy life with her, and even after Sai returned he went out of his way to show how he was not just grateful to PL for standing by him all those years he would never leave her no matter what.
When she broke down in front of him two times once in the cafe and once in a state of trance, she never meant for him to come back to her. She was simply venting because she didn’t have anyone else to share her feelings with and it just meant her letting off some steam , while to Virat those two meltdowns gave me clarity about the pain he put her through and guilt of making the mistake he had committed. That’s why he softened towards her after seeing her emotional state, because knew and very well knows he is solely responsible for her being in the condition she is today while he is still in a happier space. He continues to be mild on PL citing mental health as a reason, because in his head he is this mahaan being who is born to endure pain at the cost of his happiness. But Sai constantly bursts that bubble for him by making him time and again realise, his actions have taken her far away from him, she will not show externally that him being seen with his wife will effect her- though he very well knows her feelings as she admitted them herself in her unconscious state. His ego isn’t ready to accept that a woman he is so drawn to and is so madly in love with will not openly admit she wants to be with him, instead she reminds him time and again that it was he who ruined their relationship and he will never be loyal to her - and she is aware of it. In that sense the presence of Sai is still a challenge in his life because he is with a woman who loves him and wants him but he doesn’t want her, for the want of being with a woman who he left himself and now when he doesn’t want her to think badly of him, she is maintaining a I don’t care attitude towards him. That’s why he time and again tries to remind her of the past hoping she will melt, but she shows him if she is around him it is because of the children that bind them.
However very soon there will come a time when he will want her to love him the way he loves her and he will want to be the right man in her life; and do the right things by perhaps going out of his comfort space and taking a few calls as heart wants it as opposed to it being his duty or responsibility. He is almost there, but Sai has moved far far away, and that is the biggest challenge in front of him. If they reconcile and it is for the sake of the kids it will be just like him
Marrying Pakhi for Vinu, and Virat surely wants more than that from his union with Sai. He is a weak and imperfect man working towards finding a comfort zone without ruffling too many feathers but this time he has to face his karma head on and Sai won’t let him have it easy either !
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