Tu safar mera hai tu hi meri manzil # 4 Epilogue on pg 79 on 12/4 - Page 31

Part 34

It was lunch time till ishita's table was installed in his cabin . Now ishita went back to her table and tried to start her work when Raman interrupted her and spoke " its lunch time ,you should eat lunch first then continue your work ".

I- I told you na ,you need not to worry for me as I can take care of myself.

R- ishita it's not necessary to argue all the time , I was just reminding you ,in case your forget it .

I- no , I do know that I have to eat on time and had already taken my lunch ,when you were in the meeting and the workers were gone for their lunch , now if you are done with your taking care mode ,can I work a little .

Raman looked at ishita for sometimes , he was not liking ishita's rude nature and her ignorance towards him but couldn't do anything about it as he was the one who was responsible for this , he walked to ishita and spoke " ishita listen to me ".

She looked at him with questioning eyes while he held her hand and spoke " ishita don't be so indifferent with me ,I know I was bitter but you already know i didn't mean it, those were only words " .

I- I agree those were mere words . It won't had meant me if someone else has spoken those words but it came from your mouth and hurt me alot ,so even if you didn't meant it ,it will take time to me to get over it .

R- you mean to say ,you will keep ignoring me till you get over my words.

I- yeah .

R- ishita this is not done, let me take care of you, let me pamper you ,its my baby too .

I- exactly that's my point ,it was your baby too ,how can you talk about your baby and me like that moreover if I m a middle class mentality woman ,then let me away from you ,why is it bothering you .

R- ishita cut it now ,enough of being angry ,I know you love me and I love you too then why this distance.

I- it's not me but you ,who is responsible for all this,you ruined everything . People get overjoyed when they listen about their baby , but what you did ,you shouted at me like anything, got sad with the news and compared me with your ex .

R- ex not late ,ishira for God sake shagun is dead ,stol jealous with a dead person ,she is not coming between us ever .

I- that's hurts most, I agree she will not come between us physically but she was ,is and will be always between us because you are not trying to get over your past .

R- don't you say that ,I was over her ,tell me had I ever talked about her after we got together.

I- yeah you were drowned in alcohol and smoke .

R- I m talking about our consummation not marraige, tellme had I ever talked about her?

Ishita thought for sometimes then shook her head in negation .

R- then how can you say that she is between us , I agree I had loved her in past and had gone mad when I lost her but I m thankful to you that you brought me out from those old memories and made me live a new life with you and your love .

I- but it doesn't changes the fact that you loved shagun but only attracted towards me , you love her but had lust on me .

R- is it bad to lust on your wife . If its once , twice or thrice then its lust but if its always then it is love. I agree I m not getting enough of you ,everytime I love you I want you more and more but that's my love not lust ,got that . Ok if you need time, I m ready to give it to you . Take your time but remember you are mine and will always be mine , how much you try to push me away from you ,I will be always near you .

Saying so he return back to his chair and started doing his work while ishita was still looking at him ,lost in her thoughts ,wondering she is right or unreasonable. The day ended , ishita wrapped her work and called her father in law to take her home, he agreed and instructed her to come to parking,she nodded and hung the call . She picked her belongings and got up from her chair , Raman too got up and walked along with her ,she thought that he is also coming with her and didn't said anything. He walked her till his father's car, Ishita settled in the car and Raman was going back to the building when his father asked " Raman puttar where are you going ".

R- I have work back in office ,I just came to drop ishita .

Mr bhalla - that's a good step ,I hope you always take care of her like this .

R- I will surely do that .

Saying so he walked back to office . Days started passing ,Raman had now accepted the changes in his life and was now excited for his baby . He was taking good care of ishita and her needs ,also was trying hard to seek her apology. Ishita was also now normal but still they are away , she let him do her work and take care of her but not more than this . They still live in different rooms and ishita was still trying to push him away from her.

Today ishita has her monthly appointment with doctor, she has completed her first trimester and was going for her first sonography. She knew that Raman had changed a lot but was still confused about his feelings for baby ,so she asked toshiji to come with her ,toshiji happily accepted her offer and told ishita to took the day leave for that . She informed same to Raman ,he agreed and even offered that he can come over to hospital with her but she denied saying she will be good with his mother . He didn't pushed much and left for office. Ishira and toshiji went for the hospital, appointment ,the doctor checked ishita and informed the every thing is ok and under control. She did the ultrasound and spotted a small black spot as their baby. Ishita was so happy to know about her baby's wellbeing, she had tears in her eyes when she heard baby's heartbeat. Her appointment was over, doctors prescribed some medicines for nausea and some vitamins. Toshiji had ishita came back home happily ,toshiji happily shared the news of baby's wellbeing to Mr bhalla ,she even showed the ultrasound reports and make him listen the heartbeat which they had got in a CD from doctor ,he too was overjoyed to listen it . He blessed ishita for giving such happiness to them . They were still talking when Raman entered the hall , he looked at her mother and asked " how was your visit ,is everything ok ".

T- haan puttar ,everything is good , it would had been nice if you would had come with us . Every husband was there with their wife but you didn't bother .

R- that was not my fault ,ask you daughter inlaws, hadn't I asked her .

Toshiji looked at ishita , she nodded and said " yeah he asked hut I denied , I thought he won't be interested ."

Saying so ishita took all her reports and went to her room ,Raman too made his way towards his room . After changing he came back to have his evening tea ,where toshiji talked to him about the ultrasound and baby's heartbeat, Raman got an immediate urge to look and hear at his baby , he wanted to go to ishita's room but he knows that she will again deny like earlier ,thinking sk he thought to wait till she sleeps . Thinking so he didn't went to the room while ishita was eagerly waiting for him in room ,thinking he would not be able to stop himself after learning about the ultrasound and baby's heartbeat from toshiji but she got disappointed when he didn't showed up . Though she was telling herself that she is not at all bothered about him but deep down she was waiting for him . She didn't wanted to feel bad but couldn't help and started crying seeing his indifference for his baby ,she was firm to take care of baby alone but at times she feels sorry for the baby thinking his father didn't love him .

That whole evening ishra spend alone in their room ,being angry, sad and disappointed with eachother . Ishita was not ready to eat anything for dinner but toshiji forcefully made her eat some food and made her sleep. It was late night, almost midnight, ishita was still wake and was sobbing silently ,laying on bed . When she heard the sound of door opening , she always kept the door unlocked, so that anyone can come and check her . She thought it must be toshiji ,thinking so she opened her eyes but got surprise seeing that its Raman. Ishira didn't opened her eyes but pretended to sleep , he walked to her ,was going to touch her face when he looked at the report kept beside her along with the CD. He picked them and went out from the room , ishita opened her eyes and looked at the door ,she sat on her place thinking about his reaction after seeing the reports . She was waiting for him sitting in the room ,he returned after about fifteen minutes. The moment she listened his footsteps, she lay down and pretended to sleep . He entered the room ,kept the report and CD on their earlier placed, and went to ishita . He settled beside her,took her hand in his and spoke ,placing a soft kiss on her knuckles " thankyou somuch ishita , thankyou somuch for such a beautiful gift . Thankyou somuch ishita for being with me ,thankyou somuch for conceiving my baby and fighting for him , thankyou somuch for taking his care when I behaved like a jerk . Thankyou somuch ishita for being my wife and mother of my baby , I love you and will always do, but now my love has been divided ."

Ishita frowned listening to him when she felt his hand on her tummy and listened " now our tiny baby is going to share my love with you ,ofcourse I love you more but you have to share. Now excuse me ,I want to talk a little with my baby . Hello baby ,this is papa ,I know you deserve a better papa but have to settle with me only as I m your papa in this birth . I wanna say sorry sweetheart , earlier I was confused about my feelings for you even was hesitant to accept you but now I know what I want . I love you and want you . You know your mom is mad at me ,but it's not her fault ,its mine . She is not even talking to me nicely but you don't worry, I m in a mission to manofy your mamma and will succeed, till you arrive, ok . So don't worry and be healthy, papa loves you . "

Saying so he gave a air kiss on her belly then got up, he bend a little to kiss ishita's forehead but then stopped , he noticed the tears rolling down from her eyes . He wiped those tears and pressed his lips on her forehead, she took a deep breath feeling his touch on her skin ,while he spoke " ishita I know you are up ,please open your eyes ,we need to end this all ".

That's all for now ,enjoy reading and do comment.

PS- I was busy for last few days and can't update anything . Sorry for that but I can see not much people missed me , does it mean that you people are bored reading me . Should I stop bothering you all .