Kind Hearted Khushi
EPISODE 109
[Diwali Special Part 1]
Diwali dias[circles of protection]
The Diwali or Deepavali festival marks the victory of good over evil.As Darkness represents ignorance, and light is a metaphor for knowledge.
"meri ankhon mein tu muskuraye meri dadkan peh hain tere saye"
Celebration in both houses is in full swing at this felicitous and fortunate moment which is spreading the circle of peace within for each other but this peace is surrounded by the vortex of emotions which need to come out and root out all the weeds of auspiciousness within so a clear peaceful sky full of brightness of love and affection can emerge. A light always tears apart the darkness no matter what.
Khushi along with family does the puja .Is this the day or her beauty is ravishing with a new bride glow in red avatar.She is ready for her groom with special sweets which she made only for him .She made his father hand's touch the DM murti which was gifted by Anajli during the exchange of gifts to put the protective circle around his fears and amazingly puja was done by other daughter who is also waiting for the father's blessing to be safe in this circle too.[I wish they have explored the story of Babuji and Anjali] .Payal as an elder sister reprimands Khushi for going to RM at this auspicious day but Khushi's fate and DM's divinity is pulling her in that vicious circle of relationship with Arnav including with Raizadas.
Khushi made special sweet for Arnavji and the way she stopped explaining her joy to her sister explains the stance of her heart who just found out how to do Dhak Dhak.She came a long way.The day she took care of him and fed him her fav sweet he became special to her. From Nainital to hospital his shoulder was there for her and her sweet innocent caring nature for him along with Devi Maya's signs which turned her Rakshus into Arnavji for her today.
In RM La's friends come with music of our office days with sim and pam and they get astonished seeing La in a split personality who can talk to a goat and really cares about elders' wishes ,their respect, and their happiness.La's complete circle of her character's change from office chick to bhenji but cute one.Love her dialogue"agar tum kissi baat ko nahin mante lekin ussi hi baat se humare kissi bade ko khushi milti hai... toh usey karne mein problem kya hai, guys"
Translation:if you don't believe in something but your doing it makes some elders happy, what's the harm in doing it, guys.
Naniji and Khushi's joy and satisfaction over La's answer is worth watching as La today did move Naniji and she Thanked Khushi bitya for that.The circle of changing views are circling around Naniji.
The bride our Khushi is here and this is very religious day too and as I mentioned so many times whenever there is a day of pure Puja or any such occasion devine forces create such a circle around Shyam so his presence becomes negligible at that specific time and that's happening now,He has to hide just like he was late on Teej,he came after the right time, during their wedding anniversary and many others because God always gives evil chances but evil don't look for them and commit more sins and becomes the most discordant in God's eyes for forever.God puts stamp on them.
Anjali instruct Om Parakash to not to put pineapple in Suji Halwa.
Khushi is decorating the whole house with dias as Diwali is the event of brightness not noise and that's what she explains to La while making circles of these protective relationships.
Misty ,gusty , and chiming winds started circling in the surroundings with the shrieking noise this time with increasing intensity by closing the gap of proximity of the beauty while stepping down in his grey avatar with his frozen phone in the air.
He gets frozen in that moment and here she is sitting around the tiny twinkling dias which are increasing her glow and reflecting her red avatar more and more riveting and enchanting and here is that nimbo aachar totka,the magic the spell of which is gripping his heart and compelling him in this "chakravyue" to fall for her completely .
His frozen eyes don't stop his yearning for her as he can't look away from her as Di's words "who jab samne ayegi tou tumhain pata bhi nahin chalega'''aur tumhari sansein ruk jayengi"are circling here somewhere.That day he laughed and mocked his Di and today these words are mocking him.
That day in his office coming down the stairs with the phone in the air with Raba Ve Bg score first time enchanted by red beauty got froze in that mesmerizing and deviling sight of two hurt and complaining eyes during the brightening lights of photo shoot.But that fatal attraction did not remove his Grinch look but he did not come out of his frozen state from that captivated red beauty.
They have crossed a mileage since then and today he has pride in his eyes ,a pride of his selection which is very delectable to his heart which is thriving through his smile and his feet has no control over here and are heading towards her.
This "mehsoos" is being sensed on the other side too as his misty wind reaches her and her blown out matches get frozen in the air and she feels his burning gaze piercing her skin and a bafflement which she had couple of minutes before after knowing about the saree now making her realize what had just happened .
Her uneven breathing with quivering lips did not go unnoticed and that widens his smile with pride as he is very much aware of the effect of his yearning and gazing touch by his eyes which he takes as his RIGHT over her and she never refuses either.
They both are lost in this mesmerized and enchanting moment unaware of their intoxicated surroundings .He is completely drawn by this red alluring, bewitching, tempting, riveting and compelling beauty which arousing his desires with tenderness and the indulgence of which is making him inebriated with perplexed and mixed emotions are circling both of them.
La startled them,"arrye'.yeh kya kar diya tumne... tumne toh apne aap ko diyno mein ghair liya..."
Translation:what have you done, you've surrounded yourself with lamps.
Khushi is trapped in her self made circle of dias."chakravyue" and its hard for clumsy Khushi to come out.
.La,"ASR 'plz help chamkili" and how can he refuse as he made promise by putting his hand to take her out from any distress circle and here he is with her in the middle of it under the Sehar[spell] of RED eternal beauty''
Episode 110
Diwali {PART 2}
Continue from Part 1
Arnav's feet are meant to proceed towards its destiny to protect her to keep his promise with her. Isn't that one of 7 vachans during the wedding. There is nothing in this world that can stop him from reaching her to remove her obstacles in her way whether he has it or not but he will create the WAY to Khushi always and that's the beginning of it. He reaches to the center as this is the beginning of "jab humari Dhadkane eik ho jati hain"[when our heartbeats become one]
Episode 110
Arnav and Khushi are destined to walk together forever hand in hand to love, support, and protect each other!
His gazes and yearning over this mesmerizing and stunning beauty are not taking rest by putting its guards down as this is his right.He gulps down his arousing desires and casts his right by asking her hand and she hesitantly but willingly gave him his right to hold on.She trusts her Rakshus now as she knows he is the reason of her Dhak Dhak.He is completely under this intoxicated "Nasha" [drunk] while holding her hand He is taking her out without breaking the gazes but she is guiding. hmmm'. interesting.
Remember Khushi puts dias of light as she is the light in Arnav's Dark life to guide him but he is in her life to take her out from the mess she creates during this guidance.But they both are coming out of it together meaning they both will be always clearing the mess of each other.
Khushi's hand on her and his desire to see her reaction, her quivering lips with blushing cheeks makes this circle more desirable as he knows his touch and proximity melts her too.
Khushi trips and holds on to him sum up the future. Khushi is the main cause of shaking and tripping all the relations as they are among circles of Dias meaning relations and Arnav is the one holding on to her to keep all the dias in order meaning all the relations at its place. Khushi holds on to him as her dependence on him starts from that hug which she initiated but he provided the confidence in her by protecting her from the goons.
Arnav is always there as "Hamesha Sanbhalta Rahoonga" from Sheesh Mahal till Karva Chauth.In love or hate.
She is getting scared with his burning yearning over here,she has to step back from there but Arnav[Arjun] is bringing her out at any condition for their success.They both are out of this circle but not from each other's yearning and dwindling till La intercepts by bringing the circle of memory of Anklet which is not gone unnoticed by him.
His gazes over her make her drapes her saree quickly but that action clears his drapes of some possessions of hers which is her Mother's touch and who knows the meaning of that more than Arnav.He is nowhere in the vicinity when Khushi's eyes were searching for him. Regardless that payal[anklet] is Khushi's tender touch for him which he holds in his hand but for her it's her mother's relic preciousness and above all she is distressed for not having it and he can't let that happen after that night when she shared her most precious feelings and fears with him.
He is in his room holding silver payal in the air remembering how he got in this spell of protection by that day."Majbori thi tab bhi aura ab bhi" as her words are fitting on him now as he was helpless then and worse now in her captivated "Seher" [Spell]
Hand in the air like this shows dominance meaning I'll decide when to let it go and that's what he is doing he is willingly giving her, her own payal today. The same way he found his payal and held under the stars with dominance and pride with parent's permission.
Di and Naiji come to encircle him with the new avatar of La and want to proceed with the new avatar of life for him with her but he is adamant to remain bachelor in case of La.Naniji and Di leaves him by telling him to reconsider and think about it again but not happy with his confused avatar.The circle of his dark past is very much circling around him still fresh as day one but at the same time he is way scared with these overhauling and fiddling feelings of Khushi which are driving him nuts and his brain vs heart war is so not making him rest here.
Just like him Khushi's perplexity and distress over La's excitement is very much visible just like the other day her lonely tears slip through without her control and grabbed attention of Arnav ,today her kneeling heart is throwing sadness on her chubby cheeks which is very much noticed by La.
Shyam hides during too many predators and that's exactly what is he doing here.Khushi by the grace of Dm is here to find his truth too but just like last time while hiding from Arnav in this room,today again his truth is hidden by her.[just wondering a big pic of their wedding she couldn't see.hmmm]
Just like last time"khushiji ka iss gahr mein ana band ho jaye"[to make Khushi stop coming here] he is throwing his slouchy moves to sting quickly.
"Jadu Hai Nasha hai madhoshian tujh ko bhula ke ab jaoon kahan"
Dekhti hain jis tarah se teri Nazrain mujhe
Mein khud ko chupaoon kahan "
His burning gazes on her making her hide but he's right on her is not letting her do so. She gets startled by La,he gets caught by another guest but still their sense of feeling each other's presence is totally unaware of surroundings just like new groom wants to be with his bride he is as anxious as he could be with her alone and she wants to be away from his hankering as her uneven breathing with her shivering avatar is again making him so on . They steal glances with each other all the time and she sneaks out when La gets her attention but his eyes keep following her.
They know each other's sense of longing. Amazingly he turns around first and walks towards her and she walks backward while facing him meaning even though their distances, her engagement to the scorpion and his to La,they are still in the same phase and that is Devi Maya whose striking lights shows her anger in this matter to keep em together.
Khushi in her Eternal Heaven [poolside] lightening Dias to stay away from his gazes as its hard for her to stay away from him when their eyes met as this "sehar" entwines em really stronger to be escaped.'
"Khushi "and here he is with his entangled heart with Khushi's magical share. Stunning beauty is stunned by his presence again but she twists her ankle in this escape.He holds her and she holds him and wants to be away but her pain is not making her staying away from him.
He made her sit on the chair but her closeness is making him lose all of his control just like the other day while removing dust he was complete uses his right same here.Her nervousness in this closed proximity is quite natural as the other day her eyes were closed but today she can see and feel her burning desires for her.He grabs her foot and lifts her saree.She looks at him with baffled eyes but he lowers his gaze with respect the very same way he turned the other side after giving her Dupatta. His fingers fondle over her foot to shiver her through her spine as she is noticing his every move.
"Thoda dard ho ga"[you will feel some pain] and she yelps while holding his shoulder tightly and his feel for this sensuousness is way dripping from his gulping to yearning while looking at her.She squeezes her grip on his shoulder again by breathing heavily.Her uneven breathing is making him lose his control again but he regains his strength and "ab theek hai"[now its ok} and she realizes the awkwardness of the moment while releasing his grip but he did not want this awkwardness to be ended.She tries to release herself but his grip becomes stronger. Her questioning look makes him kneel down and brings out from his pocket ,her payal[anklet] her mother's presence as he is proposing her by keeping the payal in the air dominantly as that's what he wants''
Episode 111
Diwali Part 3
continue from part2
He takes out the payal from his pocket and deliberately but humbly shows her. She looks at him with riveting emerging feelings with so many questions .His silently offer is circling in her with astonishment as her mother's only sign the one she thought she'd lost he has it but why?. She is completely speechless and he puts the payal around her ankle with his complete right on her but with delicacy ,Is this the same Arnav Singh Raizada for whom"mujhe kissi larki se koi farak nahin padta"[Not a single girl matters to me] is sitting by bowing his head down and giving some girl the feel of being special to him but this is not some girl and he would definitely not do this for anyone else either but its Khushi and for whom he wants to do it to make her feel better ,may be because he wants to lift her fears which she shared with him only and since then he shows concerns or may be its for him as he knows she values his the same way.
He gets up and two steps backward,she gets up without leaving her sight which she was missing couple of minutes before when he disappeared but this time with unresolved questions are circling around without thinking anything else.Their eyes met and it becomes unbearable for her so she turned first and then he turns to leave but then after two steps[2 is sexual tension] stops and turns back to her to follow his heart to its Dhakan by putting all the guards down to let go of his shell behind.
His intoxicated looks ,her innocent beauty and these burning desires which were making her with quivering lips with her uneven breathing which is adding fuel to fire for him as he can't or does not want to control these appealing desires of her.He wants her to be closed to him with all of her avatar but just for him.He wants to gulp her glowing beauty,wants to devour her innocence , inhale her essence, taste the nectar for life .
These arousing desires make him step forward and its not hard to understand his intentions as she flusters immediately but anticipates along with him as she is not leaving just like she did not stop him for having his right on her everytime.She steps backward with each of his forward one with the same rhythm which clearly shows him her intentions.
"Jadu hai nasha hai" circles around em with enchanted winds along with arousing waves of hidden desires in the pool of their bodies which is quivering the water in the pool along with flickering lights.He wants to go any length with her at this moment to make it his ,to make it for them to cherish "hamesha.
She hits the wall and he hits her avatar so close to feel her heaping bosoms to lavish her quivering petals which are lusting the intoxicated and liquorish nectar to devour.He caresses her hair from her forehead and then keeps his warm palm on her cheek , she closes her eyes by clutching her saree as she is flushing away with these overflowing heaping desires along with her bosoms with half opened lips as she is craving for it.He holds her other cheek with the gentle but warm breezy touch.They look at each other to get the admired permission as she did not stop him or said "no" and he took that cue as a "yes" which weakens her with closed eyes along with his hazel liquorish ones which are having firm focus on her rosy petals.
And there it is a phone ring ,a circle of waves to shun their intimate act at this moment.
If Aman [ want to kill him if he ever comes in front of me] would've called imagine this act would've been ended where.hmmm'''.The Act of the moment of inflated desires is now startled them from their traumatic yet beautiful charisma which is going to get nastier each second.
ASR is back with closed eyes but with fears and shattering disbeliefs how he could let anyone allow to break his shell to make him that weak.He needs to walk away from there with his armored walk.
Khushi, "yeh kya hua... hum iss tarah kaise? aur... arnavji ke paas humari payal? matlab kya hua iss sab ka... humain pata lagana hoga... poochna hoga ."
Translation: what happened ?... how can I?... and my payal is with arnavji? what is the meaning of all of this... I have to find out... I will have to ask. she wants to know about the payal, but above all..." woh sab."
ASR in his weak and vulnerable atate," "kaise kar sakta hoon main yeh... kya ho gaya tha mujhe... kyoun... kyoun kamzore padh gaya main."
Translation:How can I do this... what happened to me... why did I become weak.[weak in love MR Yummylicious]
He avowed for not letting any woman matter to him or come even close to his heart.Near the window, finding his calm and strong shell but here she is with her determination to seek answers of her questions which are bothering her since couple of days and this is the moment she wants confirmation not other than anyone else but him as he is the answer himself but for the sake of peace of his inner turmoil he leaves her there baffled.[I wish she did not go there to seek answer right away as his storm needs time to settle down but it was meant to be that way totally my POV]
This time she follows him for her answers as couple of minutes he was doing so.She finds him in their eternal heaven,he knows this sehar ,this whispering steps in his heart just needs to pretend but if she let be.
Khushi," "hum jaante hain ki iss waqt aap phone pe nahin hai..."
Translation: I know you are not on the phone, she said standing behind him with uneven breath circled with intensity and worrisome.
Khushi,"humain aapse kuch baat karni hai," [I need to talk to you.]
Arnav with his classic firmness,"mujhe tumse koi baat nahin karni," [I don't want to talk to you,]
Khushi with her determination and persuasion "karni padegi.. aapko humari payal kahan mili.. kabse yeh aapke paas hey.. aur.. aapne humain pehle wapis kyoun nahin ki.. sirf aaj hi kyoun"
Translation: Tell me, where did you get my payal and why didn't you return it to me before and why only today? Today she wants real answers and only from him who just gulped down every word of her quietly and obstinately
Khushi,"bataeye--- jawab dijiyeh... ," [ tell me, answer me] she is persistent and assertive.
Arnav, 'Eik baar kahi hui baat tumhe samajh nahin aati hai? just leave me alone"
He attacks with his nastiness... [don't you understand first time when told]
"In fact, tumhari shaqal bhi nahin dekhni hai...aur na baat suni hai do you understand." [In fact, I don't want to see your face or hear you, do you understand? ]
Khushi with deep hurt at his remarks but still insistent with steadiness,
Khushi,"nahin understand... aap samjhaiye humain,"[ I don't you make me understand]
Arnav"nikal jaao yahan se..." [get out of here..].
He wants to leave... she advances to stop him.[my older one does that every time when I am angry and want to leave his room lol] She is getting angrier along with him and as whenever she gets upset to seek answers she asks too many questions .How can she let him go after whatever happened.Transformation of burning desires to determination and from there now turning it to bitter agitation.
Khushi,"humne kaha samjhaiye humain... bataiye kyoun aapne humari payal apne paas rakhi... kyon ab tak wapis nahin ki.. iss sab ka kya matlab hai..."
Translation: I said make me understand... tell me why did you keep my payal... why didn't you return it before.. what's the meaning of all this? You can hear the glare in her voice'.and then suddenly loses the intensity "aur wo sab," [and all that?]
"aur usska jo kuch dair.pehle..." [and that which a little while ago...]
Arnav's half turned away face now gets that glare from these two words and becomes untolerable for him
"I said just leave me alone..." He is weakening now and he needs to do something to stop her and by stepping forward grabbing her tightly with gritted teeth and biting words and hiding his weakness for her in anger
"Ab Eik shabd bhi bola na toh..." [If you say one more word now]
Her pain and rolling tears in her eyes... his pain and staring with glare melts him, shatters him and he releases her with closed yet painful and inconsolable eyes as he can't see her crying and above all he can't meet her eyes today.. Rabba Vey circles more pain in the surroundings of this eternal heaven.Two soul mates in pain with longing for each other but whose fault is here ,no ones in my POV ,it meant to nbe like that as they both are right and wrong in their own ways.
Khushi, "aap iss tarah bina humara sawal ka jawab diye nahin ja sakte."[ you can't leave like this without giving me an answer]
Arnav"jawab? mujhe tumhe koi jawab dene ki zaroorat nahin hai..." [answer? I don't need to give you any answer] and he leaves without giving answer
But he left being decisive as he has to stop this tidal wave from reaching to shore and this was his decision to marry La...The girl who he refused to marry just a while ago in front of Di and Naniji and now he is saying what they want to hear "Shaadi kar rahe hain" [we are getting married] to just push Khushi out of his life who was making him "kamzor" weak but did he get stronger by saying that "no" as he is not meeting anyone eyes here ,can't see or enjoy their happiness for him either as his yearning eyes are screaming for one and only one and that is Khushi on the other side of that glass window whose small world again collapsed as she saw him ,heard him with his mysterious action which is impossible for her to understand why did he do that.
A man who aroused her feelings up to this level ,kept her payal, gave her that much respect by putting it on her , flushed himself against her and now this...She is unable to connect dots as only one dot she can connect she is no one here and he was playing along as "character Dheela" but she does not feel that way for her as her Mind Vs Heart war is so on just like him.
Now he is marrying with her friend and the whole family is happy how can she do anything to hurt these people who she loves so much ...What a night where his eyes never left her in passion or in abhorrence ,If ASR is back so is Khushi with tears...which always make him "Kamzor" weak!
Episode PART 111-112
Continue Diwali PART 4
What a night!? a girl who felt the amorous touch of her beloved first time and got an annulment as well on the same night but not the first time [as he is being doing that for a while].,the night for which she dressed up in red saree and prepared sweets ,lit brightness around but her own "choti si Duniya"[her small life] couldn't get a glimpse of it and became more darker.
What a night?When he knows he is wrong"galat" as his eyes are quivering ,cursing and blaspheming him each time by her shattering sight.But Arnav Singh Raiada ko kissi larki se koi fadak nahin padta ...nahin... main galat nahin hoon...to keep his control intact.
Translation:Not a single girl matters to me...I am not wrong.
He left her that night in the rain for punishing her making him lose himself against red beauty and first time felt he was wrong"galat".
He left her in the middle of the road by splashing muddy water because she was successful dodging ASR for Aarti ,and being"galat" [wrong] roamed around by calling her name.He threw her in the middle of the road for pushing her out of his Dimag[mind] where she stirred his strings to make him "kamzore" [weak]to beat up those goons and being wrong ended up putting his protective hand on her.Tonight there is no difference he is shoving her aside by crushing hearts hers and himself too as she completely tranquilized and weaken Arnav Singh Raizada's Dimag[mind] and shattered into pieces his Armored shell which took years to build.How can she do that?"Nahin Arnav Singh Raizada ko kissi larki se koi fadak nahin padta"[No ,not a single girl matters to me]
Is that so then why you can't look away ?Why her tears are still making you "kamzore"[weak] Why this time you want to become weak to hold her desperately as you can't see her shattered but no"itna kamzore nahin hai Arnav Singh Raizada...Keh eik Larki keh khiyal ko na nikal sake"[No ASR isn't weak that he can't stop thinking about one girl]
But she is not just a thought anymore She is REALITY...which Arnav Singh Raizada does not want to face as he is weak in my eyes...as this journey of his towards regaining control is going no where... So a pure "PEARL' is thrown away again...
Lets take two steps back Arnav Singh Raizada ,from inveigle state to frightened one ,you were ready to take those scrumptious ,luscious, heavenly, quivering lips in yours with command and you wanted her to look at you while doing that as you stroke her hair and she was ready to give in as she looks back at yours in your response ,in her innocence without even realizing it but you both came back to REALITY for say but you were still in that stance as you took steps back keeping your gazes at her as it was the moment you wanted to show her "tum se fadak padta hai mujhe"[you matters to me] as in evidence you stayed there in that delusional state and then gave her back that intense look after seeing her state as your heart says "you do matter to me ..but I'm sorry [I know tumhain yeh sab shaadi se phele" is reflecting here some where] because Arnav Singh Raizada can't be weak in Love.
What a night? where his eyes never left her in passion or in abhorrence ,If ASR is back so is Khushi with tears...which always make him "Kamzor" weak!...Unbearable pains for both of them,If its hard for her to leave so is impossible for him to watch her going away.If her steps are refusing to leave him ,his pondering eyes are doing the same.Seriously iss pyar ko kya naam doon...
Khushi in gripping agony says to La,"Aap ne jaisa chaha...jise chaha aapko mila" in return of her asking twice.."tum mere liyeh Khush tou ho na".Khushi as usually hiding her pain behind her strength "smile" but today even smile is not getting any light from this night "I am so happy for you" ..."Bas yeh soch kar ajeeb lag raha hai keh ab aap ko humari zaroorat nahin padegi" [Its strange you won't need me anymore] How beautifully she declared her success in La' win but La can't get this as its Khushi not her he is announcing to be with...Khushi gives her assurance by hug and with a broken smile for herself behind tears...which are shedding on someone's heart.But I love this girl here as her cold attitude and ignorance now making him to seek the real Khushi behind this mask as no one can fool The Mighty ASR.Love the taste of your own meds now.
yeh tou Khushi keh aansoo hain Lavanya keh aansoo tou Lavanya ki ankhon mein honge".[yes these are Khushi's tears because La's tears will in la's eyes] Future indication ...
Earlier gloated behavior changes into regret now.He just gulps down her unanswered painful questions which are flowing through her tears but there is a hint of surprise ..."kiss mitti ki bani hai yeh"[what kind of girl is that]as she is delivering sweets under smilely mask of vivacious and chirpy KKG.He was seeking he real Khushi behind the mask.His astonishment changes into perplexity when Mamiji indicates Khushi's last day at work.She will not be here anymore...hmmm
Love mamiji here ,her salvo hits him badly...
Khushi keeping her chin up,"hum apne kam mein safal huwe...ab humain yahan se....[I am successful in my task and now from here...] ends up in front of him as she wants answers as "nahin understand"...but...got a long pause as million questions and answers were explored in this stance facing each other bidding goodbye...and now its unbearable for her to be "kamzore" [weak] in front of this ...Rakshus...LaadGoverner...her Arnavji...and she leaves giving him the taste of her "meve ka halwa" which she made only for Arnavji...[not for Rakshus or LG] but through Anjali regardless of the reminder by La "ASR does not eat sweets".
Khushi did fool everyone but Arnav while freezing in front of him and he wanted so alone time with her at that moment...and at the top she gets more chirpier when Arnav found out she made special sweets only for him which showed him the extent of Khushi's concerns and care for him.[at this point he knows she loves him]The expression on Arnav's face when Khushi leaves without even looking at him ..closing the door of paradise on his face!
And that makes Arnav to leave for her to seek answers now and of coarse for her safety but with ASR BG score..But time and tides waits for none.as when answers were needed he was mum...and when he wanted to give answers permission was not granted...[love her for that]
...from The thrill and happiness which brings Anjali to her Slouchy Rajkumar whose stingy back is waving with slickness to attack as "Khushiji will not come in RM anymore"
from the Family who wants to arrange the marriage as quick as possible but how can he ?its just a decoy ,no one can understand just like Khushi"nahin understand"
Shyam is being cupid here as he calms the family one more time by favoring Arnav and buying time for him.I wanted him punished so badly by man handling two important assets of ASR...Anjali and Khushi...but my wish never came true.
Khushi with her tiny steps with distance of mileage in her mind with "nahin undrstand" to connect the dots [as she knows he has fallen for her and now is behind the mask]...and here he joins in to increase these distances more.
Love the exchange of looks here as she asks him what the heck you are doing here and he is saying how can I leave you like that...
Khushi with agony behind smile," aap yahan kya kar rahe hain..aapko tou ghar pe....[What are you doing here.you should be at home...]
Arnav by cutting her in a firm tone ,"sit in the car ...I'll drop you home"
ASR BG score with higher notes mingling intensity along with their yearning and pain by pushing each others away.
Khushi avoidingly,"nahin ...hum chale gyenge"[No I will go by myself]
Arnav imperviously and unyielding practicing his right ,"Shut up and sit in the car..."
Tonight he wants to push her way far by breaking her completely but her safety is still upmost duty for him as this is his right too...what a night and what a man?He opens the door and waits for her and she listens and follows.From Nainital he owns her and she obeys.BG score changes in their meeting notes...
Both of em stealing gazes in this awkwardness .Khushi with perplexity,"I forgot to congratulate you...Congratulations for your engagement with La"
Khushi by keeping chin up"hum bohat khush hain...[I am very happy]
Arnav with taunting notes,"tou tum khush ho.."[so you are happy]
Khushi with enigma, "are hum khush kyuon nahin honge .hum bhi tou yahi chate thay"[why shouldn't I be happy?
I always wanted that..]
Arnav mockingly and sarcastically , "oh really so you wanted this...
Khushi trying diverting the subject,"Why wouldn't be I happy...and its good you are leaving me home...Amma and Bauji will be happy to hear that too..." He can feel the complexity of her pain as she wants to be with her parents and it brings one layer on his face but he is on mission to gain control of ASR over Arnav so he does not stop there.
Arnav pinning her down to find the answers ,"Todi dair phele tum Khuch pooch rahi theen...apni payal keh bare mein"[you were asking me about your payal ]
Khushi with affliction and throes and trying hiding the severity of it,"Oh ! that ..that is nothing]
How could a man be like this cold and shrewd on a mission to shatter a girl like this.He knows it matters to her as he has seen this in her eyes ,he has felt that in her every move and even her heart beat says that but he is adamant to make her realize that it matters to me or not but it does matter to you , because she is the one who could break the shell of ASR and because she has guts to ask and corner him with "nahin understand...samjhaeye humain"[I don't understand .make me understand] the MIGHTY ASR had no answer...hmmm...not so shatir in my eyes...
Arnav by taking and digging daggers in hearts,"tout um apni payal keh bare nahi janna chahti"[so you don't want to know about your payal]
Khushi in abhorrence avoiding and diverting his questions purposely being deaf about the matter,"Naniji ne tou kaha keh roca hoga aur bohat jaldi shaadi hogyegi...Lavanyaji tou bohat khush hongi..aur waise bhi aap dono ki jori kitni aachi lagati hai...
Translation: Naniji said your wedding rituals will be soon with marriage and above all you and La look so good together]
Arnav by halts the car vehemently ,"Get out"
Khushi silently in perplexed state keeps staring at him...
Arnav commandingly," dekh kya rahi ho...I said get out"[What are you looking at I said get out]
Khushi looks at him helplessly which provides him power as he thinks regardless internally he is shattering more than her but his blatant actions are helping him in this mission to keep her away .
She looks out side and realized her destination has arrived during the web of deception she was weaving,He did bring her home unlike last times ,[loop is closing here he will never leave her abandoned] He helps her removing her belt but not her saree"s palu and she steps down crying bitterly as she can't be strong anymore ,the mask slips away showing aching and broken Khushi,and her "kamzori" is making him strong.He with his coldness just keeps watching her un grappling her Dupatta[sarees palu] which always wants his proximity.As Khushi tugs to free herself , Arnav watches Khushi's raw face, A denuded face of deception, A face reflecting her love for him, A face reflecting her despair, her affliction at the news of his hovering engagement with La ...He had come in search of answers.. and he got one !!
She runs her home with her choti si duniya filled with tears and she knows more is awaiting for her at home too...but his eyes are not willing to leave her yet ... [This Tycoon does not deserve her but he is in the same pain as she is or may be more .my heart goes for both but today Khushi's tears are making me to punish him]
What a night? where his eyes never left her in passion or in abhorrence ,If ASR is back so is Khushi with tears...which always make him "Kamzor" weak!..Just like now he was gulping the pain while watching her coldly and shrewdly...
EPISODE 113
Diwali...Part 5
What a night where darkness is prevailing inside and outside the door.Inside she is facing the wrath to say yes for a deceit who is waiting for her with open
arms . Outside her heart is awaiting with his eyes who are not ready to leave her tonight at any state...at any cost
na paas aa sakain hain.na door ja sakain,...Raba...
Arnav with debility"tumne gadi mein chhor diya tha,"[you left it in the car]. He came back with her wallet but why..Khushi with bafflement...with questions .why is he here again ?
He hands her the wallet, eyes dark ,cold but still with a flicker of firmness "tumne gadi mein chhor diya tha... "
Khushi like a statue,no words...while Buaji intervenes and calls him in vehemently like her own son"babua...andar aao na "[come in son]He will be loving and caring her later like her own son...
Here he is first time meeting her father,the most important person in her life.His concerns for her family leaving another "nahin understand " moment in her mind .He bids good bye after saying "happy Diwali". He gets another convulsion "Nahin amma inhain meetha mana hai"[he can't have sweets] from Khushi's concerns for him.[hubby and wifey talk]What a night where in this dark Diwali the light of their love is still flickering .They share their moment quietly.Another ritual is done ,groom in his in laws for the first Diwali.
His gazes are still refusing her sight..."shukriya..." [thank you ]she said... in tension. , she's perturbed and disarrayed within as you can feel this discomfort in each of her move here...[it felt she was thankful for him to come back]
"humara batwa lautane keh liye..." [for returning my purse]
He stops, clenches his jaws as he had enough of her resilience against his wrath and every move of her tonight is bubbling his lava to erupt and this is the last straw in it.He wants to break her to keep his shell on even its shattered one.My heart goes down when he turned with his stone exterior behind of which a king , a young man wants to embrace her queen in his arms for eternity but he is on a mission to hate her as much as he can to get his control back and he got another reason to distend here...[just want to hug these both]
"apni cheezain yahan wahan chorne ki aadat hai tumhain. jaise apni payal mere pool par chori thi... tumhari payal mere paas thi iss baat ka koi galat mattlab mat nikal laina... yeh mat sochna eik amir adami tumhari payal ko apne seene se laga kar baitha tha...Mujhe in sab se koi fadak nahin padta"
Translation:stop leaving your things her and there like you left your payal by my poolside, don't take any wrong meaning of it that some rich was holding it near to his heart ,it has no meaning for me and that is the last nail in the coffin.[My heart breaks in million pieces with her as her first love who made her feel which she never did before is telling her all this that she is nothing ...]
Khushi in abhorrence and revulsion with baffling around his concerns,care , and delicacy while not letting her out of his sight the whole night ,putting her payal on her and above all luring his electable lips near hers..."Koi Matlab Nahin Hai"[has no meaning] by emulating ASR...
Arnav like an ankle biter going in for ruthless and intimidating way to kill her innocent spirit,""shayad tumhare liye hoga..." ..."tumhain toh laga hoga keh tumhari zindagi ban gayey." ..."mere liye uss baat ki, ya tumhari... koi ahmiyat nahin hai."
Translation: maybe for you it is.. you must have thought your life is set now. But For me neither you nor that thing has any importance.Here is proving her "haan nahin hai Dil ASR keh seene mein..."[ASR does not have any heart]
Sad Raba Ve slides in to increase the pain...to intensify her sudden reaction in her rejection "meant nothing" by the very first man who meant everything to her.
Raba Ve changes to Tu hi bata mere Maula[fourth time as this is the new beginning of new phase of their life]...
Khushi in tears jerks up by his slamming door.Her tears makes him "kamzore" but he is the reason of these scattered pearls all the time.
He will make this whole world pay for her tears Shyam,Dadi,Garima and more and will do what ever will it take to bring her smile back..."bas yehi tou mein chahta tha keh eik bar tumhare chehre peh smile aajaye"[I just wanted a smile on your face] ...all the way "humara eik aansoo aap keh dil ko hazar bar chot pohnchahta hai"...Har bar[my each tear hurt your heart.Arnav...every time]
Her clutching her wallet shows how strongly she is still clutching on Arnav...
Her ambling ,holding and sitting every move tells stance of her broken and shattered state even which turned into completely break down when Payal reminds her about lost anklet...
Khushi in mortifying state"uss baat ka koi matlab nahin tha, jiji."[It means nothing jiji]
She ran into her room ,locked Tu hi bata BG scores high notes in her convulsion state.Khushi with excruciating pain by hugging herself with endless tears, which are rolling down without control monotonously...[ I feel like hugging her badly]
Gar pyar in ko kheeche takrar in ko roke...Raba...
Arnav roaming around aimlessly like a stone figure pretending without heart but her pearly face is roaming over and over in front of his eyes pulling him in the vortex of love and hate as pyar and takrar...tu hi bata mere maula in the BG intensifies to bring these two who neither can live with each other nor stay away from each other .Her sniveling is unbearable as it always make him "kamzore"...as he halts the SUV by closing his eyes leaning his head backward in his turbulent state as there is no way to run for Arnav Singh Raizada this time as he can't hide anymore from the pain he caused her...[I want to hug him too so he can let it go]
Raba...Iss pyar ko kya naam doon
He just refused to enter this paradise which Khushi created for him with arousing yet beautiful feelings like roses to enter which he crushed today with his own thorns .
He remembered how her pearly tears were shedding and falling from her eyes during the announcement of his engagement' intention to marry la then her embracing la and her teary and questioning look at him, eyes were moist,only her tears just tears which are making Mighty ASR "kamzore" [weak] yet "Arnav Singh Raizada ko kissi larki se koi Fadak nahi padta"[Not a single girl matters to him]
One side A man who just broke her in million pieces but can do anything for her life her father and her family and other side the other man who is playing deceitful games with her Sita like wife and is ready with his slouchy games tonight to sting this middle class family's honor and above all can manhandle and use a poor father as a weakest link to get what he wants "to play with the honor of a young girl "if she will not accept his marriage proposal .
She is hurt and can't see the truth behind father's hurting eyes or may be it's written that way ...as Buaji's pressure is increasing with her blackmailing on an orphan regardless of Garima and Payal's intervention once in a while but the Lava which was building up this night flows up with the sense of responsibility towards its family especially towards Babuji...
She remembered the payal and his reverberating words ""mujhe iss sab se koi farq nahi padta, [doesn't mean a thing"] she finally retreats and gives in.
theek hai" ...hum tayar hain"[ok I'm ready]
Love this girl and her "himmat"[courage] she is full of flaccidity and resiliency as her heart is broken but not determination and strength.She is Khushi not for name's sake only.In my POV if he did not announce his engagement with La ,she would never said yes either no matter what .For her he is another woman's man now...
One man's complexity is pushing everyone's life up side down but may be this is "Bhagiya" Fate which will bring a lot of devastation in their lives and that day Arnav Singh Raizada will realize he can't write Fate by himself...but before it Khushi will give her reminder as a warning during her bandagement "aap ka haath pakad keh likhwaya hai..."but he will not listen to it regardless he will be in the Mandir...BUT HE IS THE ONE who will bring Khushi out of it and will place each relation to its place but together having her hand in his ...
What a night?Two young people flushed with their immense love and care for each other but ended up in tears for each other ..
Arnav said yes to run away from love to keep his beliefs "not a single girl matters to me...means nothing to me"
Khushi said yes to run away from that belief which means nothing to her now for which she was going against her family and saying No to Shyam...The reason of Her Dhak Dhak which means nothing now as she got the answer of "nahin understand" in her version...
A deceit has won just because truth was not faced and embraced by one man but in between these two a PURE pearl has been muddled and scared...
Two parallel scenes where two sisters know something is wrong with their siblings.
Anjali,"your eyes can't lie to me...Why do I feel that you are not happy"
"kahin tumne yeh faisla jaldbaazi mein toh nahin liya na?" you didn't make hasty decision , did you, asks di.
He stumbles with those luscious lips in his mind which are still lingering their thirst in her conscious.He has no answer ...
"chhote, hume batao... tum khush toh ho na?" chhotey, tell me, you are happy arent't you?
He turns around as always he does that during running from the truth.
"of course, di." Liar liar heart on fire...can't even act prpoerly
"main khush hoon." [I am happy.] His Di's happiness is more important but today it doesn't seem that important...
Di is happy and yes when chat is about wedding so Jijaji will be peeking in..."chote, jab faisle dimag se nahin dil se liye jaate hain na, tou sab accha hota hai." [chhotey, when decisions are taken with heart and not from the brain, then all goes well. ] .hmm...
Other sister with concerns,"tumne yeh faisla dil se liya hai na?" you've taken this decision from the heart, haven't you? Payal asks khushi.
Jiji, I have decided now, and did you see how happy everyone was and that is important for her more than her own happiness...
"aur tum?" and you, Payal abides by with her concerns.
Khushi with pain behind her mask trying to hide but Payal keeps drilling with questions, are you sure? ...didn't you take any hasty decision, did you?
And that took khushi to the memories of the poolside with her anklets, where she has this new experience with the man of her Dhak Dhak...
Khushi with her brain<"kuch cheezain bas yoonhin ho jaati hai... bina soche... bina samjhe..."
[certan things just happen like that, without thinking or making sense...]
Payal does not pay attention and talks about her engagement... and Khushi abhorrently hears him announcing, "hum shadi kar raha hain..." [I am marrying with La]
She with excruciating pain within sees him with La but he is looking at her why? And that confuses her more...
Rabba vey rubs in with his reverbrating words "you mean nothing to me"
She answers payal with firm tone ,"whatever has happened, I am ready to forget it" and that is Khushi's trait unlike ASR who has just anger on his nose...
Khushi is determined to move on,"anyway, i am not going there any more."which makes Payal confuse...
Khushi ,"Devi Mayya hain na, woh sab sanmbhal lainngi. [DM will take care of everything."]
How badly she needs alone time with her mother DM who is always there for her ...One day Devi Mayya will make him to be "Hamesha Sanbhalta rahoonga"
What a night ?The night which ends with despair on both sides under the stars with their parents along with their hearts who can feel it and know better now and one day she will command and he will obey with big SMILE...and with that message this night is prevailing to its end...What a Diwali?...
Shyam with Slouchy time ticking moves to fulfill his lusty desires as quick as possible and for which he as a benevolent man traps his RaniSahiba in a plan of charity for money and man handles Babuji to use him as a pawn to reach to his target.Babuji's exasperation makes it difficult to see this scene as this Scorpion has crossed his limits...What an enticer sweet talker ...who is going to use poor father one more time to step one step ahead and as yesterday he chocked him with sweets and today with bitterness[meds].
His moves to get money and to make poor guy sick is so making me sick..
He tricked Anjali for money who gets money each month from Arnav to buy the ring so technically ring is from Arnav and he is delivering it to Khushi as a family member but Anjali puts this ring on Khushi when Arnav finds out what a thought but making me happy...
New morning with rising sun and a lots of shine but not for a girl whose night is not done yet.Khushi affected by recent events but her resilient nature was ready to move on yet again stopped by Amma asking her to make a call to say good bye to the Raizadas.Killing BG music increases her abhorrence.
Khushi,"nahin humain nahin jana..." [no, I won't go] she says to Buaji, but as all the things mean opposite in their case same here...didn't she want to go?
Buaji,"so don't go",
Khushi,"haan nahin jana... hum kyon jaayein taake phir se woh humse buri tarah se baat kar sakain," [why should I go so he can again talk to me badly.]
Not talking [she looks so cute saying that very much a child with resilience with whatever attitude] and seems not so convincing even though she's been called a gold digger ,being muddled ,insulted and at the top he told her "she means nothing to him"[koi matlab nahi'] and
still wants to be with him, muttering to herself"not going".Awww, she misses him, he misses her, what say...stubborn kids...
"Youn jo badhe hain inn keh qadam inhain rasta tu hi dikha" Raba....
Rasta ,the way to bring these two hurting souls together is the "key"mannat ki chabbi" ...Khushi who is his mannat ki chabbi can't be away from him as this is HIS no matter what and divinity has to bring a way of light among em before dawn again prevails.[Shyam and his plan to marry her quickly]
Arnav's Mannat ki chabbi after pearls is the second most important elements of IPK---Khushi is again getting ready to face Arnavji as his heart's key is here in Khushi's palm which accidently or divinely came to surface through Buaji's bitter batter about her marriage preparation .The key of the door which Arnav closed on her apparently is right here with her since from the beginning since Dargah where he said to her "throw it" but she treasured it always god knows why .The key of privacy of all the events which remain in between them as always just like this key in her bag hidden from the sunlight...Khushi echoes the Dargha's scenes but still adamant
"hume isse koi matlab nahin... hum nahin jaayenge," [means nothing to me, I won't go] despite Nanij's sweet request.hmmm...but the second moment emotionally surrendered by Naniji's love"hum nain aap se kuch ziyada maang liya kya"[Did I ask you too much]...
The Same way she'd gone to his home to resign after throwing her anger on him found this key in her bag after coming back (episode 34) and held on to it to have this abrupt feeling "hum Khush kyuon nahin hain"[Why am I not happy?] because of yearning of his proximity unconsciously and same for him on the other side
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