Hamari Adhoori Kahaani- YHM Fan Fiction Part 9

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PROLOGUE: https://goo.gl/o7rEME

PART 1: https://goo.gl/8je7NB

PART 2: https://goo.gl/bZsqwV

Part 3: https://goo.gl/S66JsN

PART 4: https://goo.gl/yLnTtS

Part 5: https://goo.gl/pWL3eE

Part 6: https://goo.gl/yNaSW9

Part 7: https://goo.gl/aSQ664

Part 8: https://goo.gl/xhdJk5

Iyer House:

Madhavi, Vishwa, Bala and Kiran are sitting on the dining table. They have just finished breakfast and Madhavi is very restless.

Madhavi: Main Ishu ko phir se bulane jati hun. Aise woh khana pina chod degi toh kaise chalega...

Kiran: Koi phayda nahin hoga. Uska mood aj kuch zada hi off hai. Bacchon se milne ke bad bhi aise bus baithi hui hai.

Madhavi: Par main aise kaise...

The doorbell rings and Kiran gets up to go open the door. Although she knew Raman would be coming she was still surprised to see him at their door mainly because his body language showed that he was a little nervous.

Kiran: Aap yahan?

Raman: Kya main andar aa sakta hoon?

Kiran nods and moves aside to let him come in. Raman walks in and looks around. He nods a silent greeting at Vishwa, Madhavi and Bala. They don't respond and are looking at him with mild curiosity.

Raman scans the room once more. He was hoping that Ishita would be sitting with them so that he could make a short formal apology and then request her to come over to his place to talk to Pihu. He knew that for Pihu's sake Ishita would never say no and once Pihu would see her all of her anger would disappear and Pihu would finally eat something. But all his grand plans seem to be for nothing cause Ishita is no where to be seen.

Raman: I'm sorry I hope main aap sabko disturb nahin kar raha. Actually mujhe Ishita se milna hai.

The Iyers are a little surprised as for a change Raman does not sound angry. He is talking very calmly and politely. However Madhavi who is very stressed out because she has been worried about Ishita since morning ignores his politeness and is about to stand up and interrogate him for she is certain that Raman must have said something to Ishita to upset her which is why she is so distressed. Bala notices the fury on Madhavi's face just as she is about to stand up. He firmly placed a hand on her shoulder and nods a silent no. Bala then quickly looks at Raman.

Bala: Raman woh apne kamre mein hai. Uski aaj tabiyat kuch theek nahi hai toh tum ek kam karo usse wahin ja ke mil lo...

Raman nods at Bala and then heads towards Ishita's room.

As he is walking towards her room he feels like a million thoughts are running through his mind at once. On the one side he is irritated that now no one will be around when he talks to her so she might not accept his apology easily. It might take more than just saying sorry to apologise to her. On the other hand he is happy that he gets to spend time with her alone. For him Ishita is a mystery he can't solve. He thinks that's probably why he is so drawn to her. To add to all this confusion that is going on in his head he can't ignore the fact that his daughter adores her. She thinks the world of Ishita. He feels she is a good person but then why does she always create problems for his family?

Excitement and anticipation builds up in Raman as he approaches her bedroom door. He notices from a slight distance away that her door is open. He stops at his tracks and pauses for a bit to listen but all he hears is silence. In fact it's so quiet that for a second Raman has a feeling that perhaps the room is empty or maybe she is asleep. He lets out a deep breath. He hadn't expected to feel nervous and anxious. After all it wasn't a big deal. He made a mistake and he is here to apologise for it and that too for Pihu- he has been repeating this line in his head non-stop since the moment Pihu insisted that he must apologise to her and he agreed to her wishes. He shakes his head and exhales deeply once again. He regains some of his composure and with determination takes quick steps towards her bedroom. He decides to make a quick and short apology which will be to the point and invite her to come see Pihu and that would be it. He resolves that nothing in the world should stop him from doing what he has planned and he decides he doesn't have a second more than the next 5 minutes to spare for this and then he shall leave and be back in the comfort of his room in his home with his family.

However as soon as Raman reaches her bedroom door and he gets the first glimpse of Ishita his feet freeze and he is rooted to the spot. He isn't able to move. He is so engrossed in taking in the sight of her that he might as well have forgotten to breathe.

He exhales and tries to take his eyes away from her but he can't. Ishita is looking beautiful in blue. She is sitting on the edge of her bed facing the wall with her eyes closed. Her palms are clenched into tiny fists that are holding on to the edge of the bed. He looks at her face and is enamoured by her beauty. Her features are so delicate. Yet as his eyes soak in this sight that has clearly taken his breath away he realises that he can feel the pain beneath her eyelids even though he can't see her eyes. His cool as a cucumber attitude disappears instantly. He feels very restless seeing Ishita in this state.

Raman just stands at the door unable to move. He just stares at her continuing to soak her sight in. He was so engrossed, his mind consumed that he could have been standing there for a few seconds... a few minutes or a few hours... he wouldn't know and honestly it did not matter to him. What mattered to him was that Ishita was upset and he was responsible for it. He could not bare that thought anymore neither could he bare the sight of seeing her this sad and broken. He needed to do something to take her pain away.

Without taking his eyes off her Raman raised his hand to knock the door. However he stopped and decided against knocking the door. He quietly walked in not making the slightest sound. He stands next to her bed and opens his mouth to say something but words fail him. He just stands and stares at her for what could have been a second or an eternity he would never know and in the moment it didn't matter to him. Finally he decides to sit down next to her. Without uttering a word or making any sound he quietly sits next to her. Ishita does not even stir or move. Her eyes are still closed and it looks like she is lost in deep thoughts. Raman is still silent and staring at her mesmerised.

Ishita: Mr. Bhalla, aap yahan?

Raman is stunned into total silence! He thinks how is this possible? Ever since I reached her door I haven't taken my eyes off her for even a nano second so I know her eyes were shut the entire time. I didn't make a sound or utter a word to make my presence known to her. Then how did she get to know that I am here?

Raman: Tumhari akhein toh band hai. Phir tumhein kaise pata ki main hoon?

Ishita still doesn't open her eyes and smiles to herself.

Ishita: Aapko mehsoos kar sakti hoon main. Aapki har aahat ko janti hun... pehchanati hoon main...

Raman is stunned hearing her response. Of all the things he had expected she might say he did not see this coming. He stares at her with mild bewilderment.

Ishita finally opens her eyes and turns slightly to look at him. Their eyes meet instantly and Raman feels his breath has been knocked out of him. They both stare deep into each other's eyes. Neither of them moves an inch or says a word yet their eyes are doing all the talking.

Raman lost in her eyes wonders why does he get the feeling that she knows him better than he knows himself? How is it that she can read him like an open book yet for him she is a mystery that he cannot solve? Why is he so sad seeing her in this state? Why is there enmity now where there seemed to be the possibility of a great friendship when they first met in Budapest? Why in all these fights, tussles and arguments does he feel that he has lost a part of himself? Why in all this mess does he get the feeling that a part that is vital to his identity and his existence has gone missing? Why does she do so much for Pihu when she is just their neighbour? How is it that he forgot that he has a daughter but she reminded him of her and brought her back in his life? Why does he feel that she is the key to get all the answers to everything that he feels is lost?

Ishita is also looking intently into Raman's eyes. While his vision is clouded with confusion she feels that she can see through his eyes and into his soul clearly. She thinks to herself that she can clearly see what Raman is thinking. She knows that his heart is asking all the right questions but his head doesn't let him look for the right answers. She wishes Raman would see in her eyes what she is trying to tell him for days now. She hopes he can see in her eyes that she is telling him to trust his instincts and to follow his heart. What they really have is beyond this illusion of friendship and enmity. She wishes he can see in her eyes that their souls are connected. She wishes that Raman would understand that she is what is missing from his life, their love and children are not with him which is why he feels incomplete.

Ishita is the first to come out of this trance. She doesn't break eye contact with Raman but decides it's high time she says something.

Ishita: Aapne bataya nahin aap yahan kaise?

Hearing Ishita speak Raman finally snaps out of his thoughts and quickly looks away from her. He turns a bit and looks straight at the wall for he feels that every time he looks into her eyes he gets a feeling that she is able to look past his eyes straight into his soul and he finds the thought a little unsettling.

Raman: Tumse baat karni thi..

Ishita: Sab toh aapne thodi der pehle bol hi diya tha. Kuch baki reh gaya tha kya?

Raman: Dekho Ishita woh mujhe thoda gussa aa gaya tha isliye...

Ishita: Janti hun aapke gusse ko acche se. Lagta hai thoda gussa andar reh gaya aapke tabhi yahan aaye ho apni bachi hui bhadas nikalne ke liye...

Raman: Tum aisa kyun bol rahi ho?

Ishita: Toh aur kya kahoon main? Janti hoon aapke gusse ko par chahe aapko kitna bhi gussa aa jaye aap ek second ke liye bhi aisa kaise soch sakte hai ki main Pihu ka istemaal karungi us ghar ke logon ke pas aane ke liye kyunki main unhein hurt karna chahti hoon?

Raman: Tum hi batao... tum meri jagah hoti toh tum bhi shayad aisa hi sochti... aise hi react karti... tumne itna bada drama kiya... Shanno ban ke hamare hi ghar mein chali ayi!! Tum aisi tedhi medhi harakatein karogi toh koi aur kya soch sakta hai bhala?

Ishita: Mujhe koi shok nahin hai yeh sab karne ka lekin mere apne reasons aur majboori thi...

Raman: Aisi kya reason aur majboori thi ki tum aisi giri hui harakatein karne pe aa gai...

Ishita: Yeh aap puch rahe ho... aur aap kyun janna chahte ho... aap ne toh than rakhi hai meri har baat ko sun ke ansuni kar dene ki... toh ab kuch keh ke hoga kya... dhakke marke mujhe door toh aap karoge hi main kuch bolun ya na bolun isliye ab main aapko koi explanation nahin dena chahti.

Raman: Dekho Ishita mera irada kal tumhara insult karne ka nahin tha par main yeh bardasht nahin kar sakta ki meri family ko koi pareshan kare ya unhein koi takleef ho.

Ishita: Unki takleef nahin dekh sakte ho samajhti hun main... aapki yeh baat mujhe hamesha se acchi lagi hai... par mujhe takleef dena aapko accha lagta hai na?

Raman is really taken aback hearing her say this.

Raman: Nahin Ishita! Tumhe jaan ke main kabhi koi takleef nahin pahunchana chahta... but tum halat hi aise create kar deti ho...

Until now Ishita has been trying hard to keep her cool and stay composed. But her emotions get the better of her and she isn't able to hold back her tears any longer and silent tears start freely flowing from her eyes. Raman senses her tears before he even looks at her. He finally looks away from the wall and turns to look at her.

Ishita continues to talk through her tears making no attempt to stop her tears from flowing.

Ishita: Really? Aap jan ke mujhe hurt nahin karna chahte? Agar aisa hota toh aap mujhe Pihu se door karne ki baat kabhi nahin karte... aapko jitna gussa karna hai karo mujhpe... kaun sa pehli baar hoga ki aap apna gussa mujhpar nikal rahe ho... lekin gusse mein ya normal mood mein ya kisi bhi situation mein aapne mujhe Pihu se door karne ke bare mein kaise soch liya aur uske baad yahi baat mujhe dhamka ke kaha kaise apne? Aap jante ho na Pihu se main kitna pyaar kari hun aur woh mere liye kya hai toh phir kaise? Meri jaan basti hai usmein. Aap soch bhi kaise sakte ho ki main aisa kuch kar sakti hun jisse Pihu ko takleef ho? Apne kaise maan liya ki main Pihu ka istemaal karungi? Kaise Raman... Pihu pe agar koi takleef ayengi na toh use main apne sar pe le lungi aus haste haste seh bhi lungi lekin uspe aanch tak nahin aane dungi! Aur jisse aap apni family apni family keh rahe ho
Na woh Pihu ki bhi family hai... agar main unke sath kuch galat kabhi karungi na toh takleef Pihu ko bhi hogi toh main kisi ke sath galat kaise kar sakti hoon? Kya aap mujhe itna hi jante ho... samajhte ho? Ab aap yahin kahoge na ki mera aur Pihu ka jab koi rishta hai nahi toh main hoti kaun hoon yeh sab kehne wali lekin aapko bata doon ki naam ke rishton se aur khoon ke rishton se badh kar jazbaton ka rishta hota hai lekin Aap...

Ishita isn't able to say anything further. All her pain and anguish takes over and what started as silent tears turns into loud sobs. Ishita is crying uncontrollably. Seeing Ishita break down like that Raman feels like he's been transported to some kind of hell. He isn't able to see her in this state and in a desperation to comfort her he moves closer to her, puts his arm around her and she automatically rests her head between his shoulder and his chest and continues to cry uncontrollably.