In everyone's life there comes a time when you feel stuck or better say feel trapped. There is no way to run from your surrounding and no place to hide from circumstances. And it occurs when one donot want people, thing and the situation they are in or with.
Kanak felt the same when she roamed her eyes around the walls. This house is completely filled with guest. Some were laughing, some were busy chatting and some were irking her with teases. She was surrounded with many girls of her age who were giggling at almost everything said other aunties. She wanted to roll her eyes when one aunty self declared of her being the 'luckiest woman to marry Uma shankar.' only if she knew he had left her with no choices. Kanak so wanted to run from this place and ignore everything around her but she couldn't risk it doing. She knew she had made the deal with uma shankar and now this is her life. Her new life.
Definately kanak felt as if oxygen is being snatched from her lungs slowly as the rituals started. As the rituals began the thought of him replayed in her mind. The first time she had seen him. The first time when he kept his wish to marry her. The first time when he trapped her and toom her to his room. The first time when she felt herself completely helpless. A drop of tear slips from her eyes and falls on floor.
People were too much excited to see bride and groom together. She looked at her right and found the man who is responsible for her misery smiling lovingly at her. God knows how much she wished to snatch that smile off his face!! But was it possible? Nope! She couldnt risk putting her family name and prestige on stake. She is tied to him for eternity and she couldnt deny the fact no matter how much she wanted to. The feeling of her now being married made her tears flow freely. She didn't wanted all this rituals , games and fun . All she wished is to escape this place and run back to her home. To those people who loved her and not with this man. Who tricked her to marry him.
Her eyes roam to all relatives. They all looked happy. Especially maasima she had a bright smile all time on her face. Everytime when a relative complimented kanak for her beauty maasima felt immense proud of uma's choice. She flashed a smile at kanak when their eyes met. Kanak felt disgusted by all the dramas the relatives were doing, she has been handling since the time she has entered this prison.she has no grudge for her family, its not like they had an option. Ved had opposed her decision to marry him. But she couldnt take risk for her family happiness. They were trapped and to get the shop he had left her with no other option but to marry him. She cried silently. Time passed and all the rituals started to end slowly. Most of the games were won by uma it was obvious as she was least interested in it. Cursing him from the bottom of her heart she dare to look at him. He was happy, infact very happy. He was enjoying all the teases comments and naughty jokes the relatives were giving to the couple.
Maasima finally checked the time and came to kanak helping her to stand "its time for you to rest." she whispered in kanak ear making her hesitant. Kanak realised that unlike all other rituals she followed uma shankar was not accompanying her.
The long viel that covered her face , almost made it impossible for kanak to see steps ahead. She took small but tentative steps to avoid from falling. Soon she found herself standing before her new prison, his room. New stock of tears were ready for the flow but somehow she stopped them by biting her lips hard making it red in process. He had won with his illegitimate demand this time and she definately didn't wanted him to enjoy her vulnerability. She didnt want to give him satisfaction to see her tears. With a swipe of thumb below her eyes she wipes her unshred tears. she was surrounded by many girls who followed her to his room. They looked more interested in night than kanak. Their tease and laughter made no impact on kanak. All she wishes for mad run from this mad house. But she couldnt breach the deal. Especially not ,when the ball was still in his court.
"Stop it girls ! You are making her nervous" kanak turned head over shoulder and found maasi coming to her way.
"Kanak dont worry . my uma is very understanding. He knows it! And will be gentle" maasi winked at kanak and she instantly felt like puking on maasi statement
The whole ladnu toli got kanak inside the room and made her sit in bed. They were still passing adult comment to which kanak was genuinely not interested. She gave a deaf ears to it. Soon the clock on the wall announced with a bell 12 am. Maasi made every ladies in the room to leave. When two of them were alone she stood right in front of kanak.
" there is nothing to fear about. Every woman goes through this stage. It may hurt for a while but the pain will fade away soon. By the way, are you having your periods?" question of the period is perhaps offensive and kanak felt truly disgusted about it. Nontheless she kept her head bowed and whispered back, 'No.'.
"Good.." maasi gave a relaxing smile and told kanak she will send uma soon with that finally she left.
Kanak silently observed the beautiful room. The flashes of last time when he had got her here forcefully came running to her. She clutched her lehenga tight as the realisation of the night hit her. The time was coming near. Soon he would be here in this room and will claim her body with his lust. The mere idea filled her with disgust. She sent a silent prayer to god to save him today. But a small part of her knew even if she get saved today there will be more nights for his advantage. He would be standing before her soon as her husband today and for the rest of her life. A tears passes down her chin with the pain that pierced her heart.
More 15 minutes passed by and kanak sat in silence. Sleeping was the last thing in her list especially when she was at ravan house, sorry scratch that" raavan bedroom"
What will happen now? Will he force her? Will he...rape her?
She nods her head vigorously as more tears slips her eyes. Many thoughts were taking birth in her mind and she had no control over them. God! She was truly nervous.
Her head ached on plenty of thoughts arrival. She desperately thought for an idea to save from this raavan atleast for a temporary solution. But nope. Nothing came to her mind.
And then, she heard some whispers and knew he was coming. Few minutes later the knob twisted and he enters the room. Her heart sinked on realising so much could happen now that he is here.
Kanak kept her eyes shut. She wished things to get over asap if it has to be. With the lack of courage and wish she refuse to look at him. She heard his footsteps approaching towards her. She could imagine him giving her a smug look. Afterall he is the winner. She thought!
Please dont touch me..please dont touch me..she kept on saying to herself softly. Kanak got distracted when the bed in front of her dipped. She saw his cream color sherwani sleeves. When there was no moment for long time she felt an urge to see him. To ensure what is he upto. Instantly she regretted her action as the minute she checked him , her eyes met his and found him staring at her thoughtfully. His intent gaze were boring holes in her face.
" you look so beautiful."
Kanak hitched on her breathe at his confession. So he already started playing with her. She thought!
He was sitting close to her giving her compliments . she felt an urge to give him a proper answer to this but stopped herself when the awareness of her with her new husband in this room alone settled in to her.
Uma waited for a long time for some response from her. But when he didnt get any he took her both hands in his.
Kanak tried to pull it away but he refused to let them go. After a while she surrendered. He is stubborn, she made a mental note of it.
" open your hand let me find my name in it." uma said gripping her hands tightly. He didnt wait for long before he himself forced opened it.
She again struggled to get her hand off his grip but he was very strong compare to her. After some struggle she got fed up and sat quietly in failure. Uma smiled and started drawing patterns in her hand in attempt to find his name in it. The traces of his finger , tickled her hand and she pulled it with force.
He smiled again. " i have found my name. It there dow. Near you ring finger. " kanak rubbed her hand to drop the sensation he brought with his finger.
" now since i won. I deserve a gift. Give me where is my gift." with that he started closing the gaps between them. He was completely aware with the fact that her bride is reluctant towards this marriage and thus he didnt expected her to behave normal. Nor he thought of consumption of marriage . he just wanted a hug from her and thats it. His intentions were cleared.
He saw her backing away and thought for a little tease.
"Comeone kanak. Its our wedding night. We are allowed to do such thing." he leaned more closure and buried his face in her neck.
"I love you kanak..i really do.." he confesed again with his shut eyes. Only if she knew how madly he is in love with her, she would not think hundred of ideas to call off this marriage. But the main concern here of her for now " how to escape this night?"
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