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Part 18
Ishita ran to her room crying while Raman too went out ruffling his hairs. Raman was just walking in the roads thinking what went wrong between them that ishita wants to go back leaving him alone .
Ramans POV
I don't know why ishita is behaving like this ,she is a grown up educated girl but is not trying to understand anything.Why she don't want to understand that here people live independently, they are not bounded .Can't she see that how much I love her ,I have done so much and is going so much for her but she is not trying to understand. I was happily living with my friends but I bought new flat just for her ,decorated it with her choice ,I tried to give her what ever she want ,tried to fulfill all her wishes but then also she is unsatisfied ,yaar I m also human galti ho sakti hai mujhse but no ,she don't want to listen anything ,just she has one and only one solution for every problem ,pack your bags and go back to India ,no I can't live in India,I have my own life here but she is not at all understand.
Ramans heart --But Raman you shouldn't have done this ,how dare you told her to go back alone .
Ramans mind - I told this because I very well know that she can't go leaving me alone .
Rh- what if she goes .
Rm- no no I know her very well she loves me a lot ,she can't go back .
He was having argument in himself but was not trying to understand what the actual problem is .He had a great argument with his mind and heart but he didn't reached to any conclusion, for him he is right and is trying to adjust with new changes of his life .
On the other hand ishita was crying bitterly ,she was too hurt with his careless behavior.
Ishita POV .
I can't believe this that to live his life without any interruption raman told me to leave ,he told me to go back and said he can live without me .I was fool that I thought that he loves me a lot and can do anything for me but now all my dream got shattered. Now I got to know that happy life is a myth ,but I m still not believing that raman himself told me to go back.how can he ,I came leaving all my family members and job ,everything and here he don't have time .OK as he want I will keep my bags ready but I know very well he will not let me go ,as I know he can ignore me but can't live without me .Yes ishu ,ye sahi rahega ,you keep your bags ready ,looking to which he will surely realize his mistake .
After thinking for sometimes and fighting between her mind abd heart she ultimately decided that she will keep her bags ready abd will pretend that she is going back and will stay back as she know Raman will not let her go .It was after noon when Raman came back ,he was thinking that now may be ishita will be back to normal but to his surprise he saw her bags ready , he got a shock on this sight ,he turned to her and asked narrowing his eyes
" ishita do you really want to go '.
I- yes you want me to go and give you freedom na that's why .
R(st)- I don't want you to go but will not stop you either ,I want you to choose me over everything .
I-(st) Raman I don't want to go leaving you alone but I can't stay here too till you choose me over your carefree life .I don't want to suffocate myself all the life ,Raman you have to know my importance ,you have to understand and realize that I m an important part of your life .
R-had you decided .
Ishita nodded in yes and went inside couldn't able to hold her tears .Raman too dropped himself lifelessly in the couch.That whole day non of them ate anything neither talked to each other .Atlast the day passed , next day Ishita got up and saw herself sleeping alone in bed ,she at first went to check him and found him sleeping uncomfortably in couch itself .She felt bad looking to him like this but she don't want to adjust in her life .She went in freshen up and sent yo kitchen to prepare breakfast for them ,but when she was preparing breakfast she saw him coming into kitchen ,he entered the kitchen and started preparing something for himself ,soon he made omelette and toast for him ,had it without talking to her ,she too didn't talked or forced him and had her breakfast in silence .That day also send without talking to each other .
In evening Ishita was sitting in couch reading to some book when he came back from office ,she got up to bring water for him when he stopped her showing his palm to her ,she stopped there itself, he kept her tickets and told her to pack her bags as the flight is of tomorrow itself ,ishita couldn't hold herself and went inside crying while Raman too dropped himself lifelessly in the couch ,both of them were sad and was going through same pain but non of them wanted to back off as they are considering themselves as correct one at their places but the truth was both were a bit wrong .Raman didn't wanted to give up his fun and carefree life while ishita wanted all his attention ,she want that if she has come leaving her family and country he should give all his leisure time to her .On the other hand Raman was getting difficulty in adjusting between his friends and wife ,if he want to give time to his friends ishita get angry and if he want to give his attention to ishita his friends were getting angry ,he was a kind of juggling between his old life abd new life not able to adjust a balance between two .
That day also Raman made his food by himself ,she told that she is making ,in return he told " its OK ishita ,waise bhi you are going leaving me ."
I- no Raman I m not going but you are sending me .
R- for you it looks like that but for me ,I m just doing what you want .
I- there is a lot of difference between you sending me and I m going myself .
R- may be you think so ,but from my point of view I m sending because you want to go and I think we actually need that too .we are yet to know the preference of our life ,this saperation will help us to find that .it will show the true picture of our life and love and I think we will be able to know what we actually want in our life .
Ishita nodded and went inside .The night spend and next day was a usual day ,he got ready for his office instructing her to be ready ,he will come to pick her at time .Ishita just nodded while he went .He came on time to pick her and both get in car with her luggage and reached the airport, non of them talked on the way as both were thinking that the other will stop but non were taking the first step .The reached the airport ,fighting with their ego and thoughts .
Ishita was sitting in the lounge waiting for her flight while Raman went to bring coffee for them ,he came with two cup of coffees and forwarded towards her ,she took it from him and started sipping slowly .Soon the announcement of her flight was done ,she completed her coffee and got up to leave .
She was walking slowly with baby steps thinking may be he will stop her while Raman was looking to her retreating figure with tearful eyes .She was gone far but still he was standing there with a hope that may be she will drop the idea of leaving and came back to her .
She was going to turn and before that she turned to give a last look to him expecting that may be he will open his arms for her , she will go running to him and secure herself in his embrace but she can only see his teary eyes .He too wanted to call her to him and secure her in his arms but their egos were stopping them to step forward ,soon she went from there leaving Raman alone .Raman closed his eyes and tears started flowing endlessly from his eyes while she to burst into tears not able to see him more .She boarded in flight sobbing silently .
That's all for now friends ,hope you like this .I hope you all agree with me that no one is fully right at their place .Enjoy reading and do comment.
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Edited by Divanru - 8 years ago
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