SanDhir FF: Espresso Love (Ch.39 P.111 Dec.02) - Page 72

Originally posted by: GERUA

wonderful update

Originally posted by: Sarim.fatmi

awesome

Originally posted by: CrazyKupKakes

Heartiest congratulations to you on reaching 100 pages! :D
May you have many more to come! :)
& Riaan is too cute *_* , I really doubt the fact that is he really sameer's son?
I want a full fledged encounter between SanDhir 😆
And not to mention, i was really happy with the quick update <3
Haha! Waiting for the next , update soon :))

Originally posted by: BornAries

Congratulations Hinal 🤗 on reaching 100 pages 🥳 , and thank You for giving us the opportunity to read such a brilliant work ...

Riaan *_* is so cute ...I loved the way You described Riaan ...I love the way You write the flashbacks ...absolutely brilliant ...

And the last line <3 She always had been his Farzi <3 Yes <3
Beautiful update

Thanks for the PM 🤗

Originally posted by: Jade0001

Congratulations on reaching 100 pages

Chapter was lovely

Originally posted by: howardscarlett

Congo for 100 pages🥳👏

hope for many more milestones

Superb update

Rian is carbon-copy of Sanyukta

well mannered n cute

Sandhir flashbacks are always enjoyable

I too love solving sudoku's, so can relate to Sanyukta n Rian's behaviour😳

Parth's smart plan, hope it works

Randhir's farzi, she is still the same

waiting for next one

Originally posted by: lovetoread08

Nice update. Keep going with good work

PART THIRTY ONE - FRESH HARVEST

I stood there at the bus stop, leaning awkwardly on the wall of the shelter. With a dozen files in my hands, I tried to grab my phone. Unsuccessfully so, but good timing as Parth had just come.

I somehow managed to open the door without struggling much, and sat in, crashing into the seat. "I'm so glad you came to pick me up today Parth. You have no idea how tired I am from work today. I didn't even manage to get a seat in the stupid bus," I went on a rant, fuming about the long and strenuous day I just had. But as I straightened myself out, I focused on Parth who hadn't said a word yet. "What's wro--," but I stopped midway as I realized it wasn't him.

"Randhir?" I asked, taken by complete surprise. I stared at him, confused to be honest. "I'm sorry I didn't realize," and I hesitantly put my hand on the handle.

"I'm here to pick you up..." he paused for a moment, before adding, "Actually Parth was busy so..."

"Yea of course," I replied a little too quick, for I could see his shield back up again. "Thanks for coming!" I said, trying to casual out the atmosphere.

I put my seat belt on as he drove off, silence engulfing the air. "Erm, so how have you been?" I asked him, dreading the silence. We might not be together but that doesn't mean we are strangers... right?

I was hopeful that I was right, but to be honest, I didn't know. Let what we could be alone, I didn't even know what we were anymore.

"Not bad, I guess. Keeping myself busy with work!"

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"You know Sanyukta, I really want to forget everything, but I can't. I just can't pretend nothing happened and move on. But what's even worse is that the more I try, the more I fail!" He threw his head back and closed his eyes, almost looking as if he felt... defeated.

Tears made their way down my face as I saw, in front of my eyes, what I had turned him into. "Randhir I am so sorry," I finally let my emotions free. "I should never have come back. I don't know how I'm going to forgive myself for making you so vulnerable. I swear to you Randhir, this wasn't how it was all supposed to go down. When I returned back here, I wasn't even expecting to meet you, let alone work for you. If I didn't need this job as much as I do, I would've left the minute I saw you in the interview room."

He smiled, his eyes still closed, "I know you would've," he said softly. I paused, unsure of what to say. He always saw the better in me, and proved it today too.

"I'm angry Sanyukta, I'm just angry. All these years I waited for you, but now that you're back, I don't know what to do."

I turned and took his hands in mine, "Randhir tell me one thing honestly. Are you ever going to be okay with me around?" My heart broke as I said the following words, but I knew if I had to make a decision now, I would deal with it. "I know moving me to another branch was a good solution, but that doesn't change the fact that I am still here in this city. If I am only making it harder for you, then I promise you I will go away. You have no idea how guilty I feel every single day. Guilty, and ashamed. I feel like I've always taken advantage of your understanding, and this time, I can't. I can't and won't."

In all these years, he always gave. This time, I wanted him to take.

He took his hand away and let out a small laugh. "It's not you," he whispered with a sharp exhale at the end. "I just can't picture you with another man. Even though I know what happened. Just the thought of..."

I looked down, knowing very well who he was thinking about. He began driving at this point, and so I kept my gaze to the front.

"But Sanyukta, I'd be lying if I said that's what makes me angry. I'm angry at myself. For being so unsure. I'm pushing you away yet I'm torn about if I'm doing the right thing."

"You know before I gave you a transfer to the other branch, I never used to visit that office, knowing everything was working smoothly. But after that, I used to visit often. I came to that branch, under pretenses that I believed were the real reason despite knowing how wrong I was. You know why I came?"

I shook my head. "Because I wanted to see you. No matter what has happened in the past, seeing you makes everything alright in the moment."

I smiled after what seemed like a long time. "What?" he asked. "Don't take it the wrong way," he tried explaining himself.

But I interrupted him, "I know."

We were right in front of Vidushi's apartment, but we remained seated.

"What do you mean you know?"

"I know that you came quite frequently to the office. And at first, I thought maybe it was for me. But then I figured I shouldn't over-estimate my place in your life."

"Why didn't you ever say anything? Or ask?"

"It was your call this time Randhir. Entirely your call!" I confessed, voicing out everything honestly this time. "If you wanted me to not know, then so be it. I was hopeful that one day you will talk to me, or not hide from me. But that didn't mean I'd be the one to initiate it."

We got out of the car but stood there. "And were you ever planning to let me know about the fact that it takes you over an hour, sometimes two, to get to work? Or were you waiting for me to ask you myself?" a sarcastic undertone lining his voice.

I ignored the sarcasm; "I don't have any problem with it and so there was nothing to complain about!"

He lashed out, "Goddamnit Sanyu, just stop it!"

"Stop what?" I asked, sincerely confused. "I'm not doing anything Randhir. You kept my financial situation in mind and didn't fire me from the job, what more could I ask for?"

"I don't get why this job is so important to you Sanyu," his quiet voice held a lot of questions for him.

I propped myself on the bonnet of the car and patted the empty space beside him, asking him to join me. As he did, I began; "Okay so you guys only know the truth about my past. I haven't really told you anything about, erm, well my present."

He drew a quick breath, his face a little pale. "It has to do with Sameer, again..."

He looked away but I quickly put my hand on his, "It's nothing like what you are thinking!" I added. "So although we mutually decided to get a divorce, we are now fighting a battle in court for child custody.

He looked at me with an expression that, if I read correctly, were mirroring mine when I had found this out. "Riaan?"

I nodded, tears threatening to spill. "So I need a job, an internship, basically anything which guarantees a stable financial future. He has his own business set-up and everything, so it's hardly an issue for him. But in my case, I don't even own an apartment Randhir."

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In the past, it had hardly been the case to hear Sanyukta voice out her fears. She was never afraid of tackling her obstacles. But she seemed to have changed completely.

"That's why you need this internship..."

A part of me couldn't help but feel hurt; all this while I thought she wanted it to patch everything up with me... I guess I needed this reality check.

"It's part of the reason... After our first encounter, I had almost made up my mind to decline the offer, but I thought I could somehow win you over," she bit her lips. I wouldn't ever acknowledge this to anyone, but I did smile at the revelation.

"Anyway it's been quite some time, I think we should head inside!?" I asked, offering my hand to her to help her get off the bonnet. She smiled first, and then grabbed the hand.

"And don't give up Sanyu. I'm with you. We all are!"

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He brushed his lips against my cheek for merely a couple of seconds, but the whirlpool of emotions I felt churning in the pit of my stomach would last much, much longer - that I definitely knew.

"Don't do this to me Randhir. Don't give me hope," I said dejectedly.

"Maybe I want to?" he said coolly before leaving me there, breathless.