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Part 7
I- then go back to her .
Raman was stunned listening to her ,he looked at her surprisingly while ishita pressed his hands assuring that she knows what she is saying .Raman pulled his hands from her hold and scolded her "ishita are you out of your mind ,you even know what are you saying ".
I- yes Raman I very well know what I m saying but...
R- ( interrupting her in mid )I know I don't love you but I also know it very well that I had married you and for me marriage is not a joke .
I- its not a joke for me too .
R- then how can you say something like this . I m telling na that I m trying and soon we will lead a good life .
I- you know Raman I m a well educated girl ,who thinks practically .i know if you had married me to save my life it would be only out of pity not because of love .
Raman didn't say anything but again looked at her with surprise ,she continued " yeah , I understand it ".
R- but ishita now we are married and it will be betrayal if I go again to her .
I- no raman it would notve betrayal ,but it is a mistake which you will correct it by going back to your love .
Ramanwas not believing his ears and eyes ,he was confused and surprised at the same time .He was confused looking to her state that is this sane girl who had committed suicide just because he has scolded her and now she herself is saying to leave her .How come the valberable girl is behaving so strong in front of him .He was surprised that the girl who wanted to do anything ,who almost forced Raman yo marry her is setting him free just after listening that he loves some one else .
I( with teary eyes )- don't look at me surprisingly ,never ever think that my love for you had ended listening that you love somebody but instead it has increased knowing that beside being in love with someone else you married me just to save my life .Raman I was ,I am and I will always love you but I know the pain which you have when you don't get any response from you love ,when you come to know that the person whom you loves ,is not loving you .Raman I know its late as we are already married but not somuch that we can't correct it .see if we will live together ,three lives will be ruined ,first my life as I will always think that you never loved me but I forced you to be with me ,second your life as you will try yo live happily with me but will never be happy genuinely ,third sha.. Sha yeah shaguns ,as she will think that you had betrayed her and now it must be difficult for her to trust on love .
R- but ,ishita what about our marriage ,I don't want to live you alone .I know I don't love you but I also know that I genuinely want you to be safe and sound .I actually genuinely care for you ,I want your happiness .
I- and I want yours.
Both looked at with each other and had an intense eyelock ,there was somuch love and care in boths eyes but something was amiss .ishita broked the euelock and spoke again
" achcha Raman can I ask something from you ".
R- why are you asking everything is yours ,even me .
I- nope ,don't lie you never belong to me and will be never mine either .
Don't know why but Raman's heart skipped listening her words .He was in delimma about ishita about their relationship ,about his relationship with shagun ,he wanted to consider ,ishita's suggestion but his mind and heart both are not allowing him ,he know that nobody will be happy with this decision as everybody loves ishita but a tiny part of his mind and heart was forcing him to think about himself .His small part said him that why he is always thinking about others ,sometimes he should think about himself also ,hr helped ishita as she needs him ,he married ishita to make feel good his and her parents but what about him ,is he actually happy .He knew its not right but ishita is also right that if he try to love her ,she will always think that he is loving her forcefully and what to say about him ,he is hanging between the two ladies one is his love another is his wife and the most important thing is ,he cares for both of them.
It was not that ,that he hates ishita because he loves shagun ,he do love and like her but not as a wife ,not as a life partner but like a friend .He cursed himself for messing their lives ,his one decision which he took emotionally is now becoming burden for him,he is now stuck .He nighter wants to leave ishita nor was able to forget shagun .He was concerned about ishita as he knows that though she is assuring him she will never be happy without him and on the other hand he is having hard time forgetting shagun as he loves her truely .
Raman again looked at ishita helplessly ,she again pressed his hands to support him and spoke " ok tell me something about shagun and your love story".
( PS - I know many of you will hate me for this but its necessary 😆)
R( lost in his dreamworld )- Our love story is not very exciting ,it just that we worked together in my previous company ,as she was beautiful I like her and as time passed we fell for each other and confessed our love.
I- How old is your relationship.
R-( smiling )- not much old only six months ago.
Ishita can see the spark in his eyes listening to shaguns name and talking about her .she felt bad knowing that ,he will never be this excited talking and thinking about him. witnessing this her decision of leaving him become more firm .,but her eyes got teary . till now she was being strong and was holding her tears but now it has become difficult for her to hold them ,she got up from her place and ran towards washroom ,excusing that she has to change .
Raman didn't stopped her though he knows her that she is going to cry her heart out ,as he also needs time to think about all this .
Ishita bolted the door was washroom , turned the shower and sat under it like a lifeless body while tears were constantly flowing from her eyes .
I( st)- why murugan why ,hadn't you had wrote a single happiness in my life .M I that bad that nobody wants to spend time with me ,amma and appa they love me but they never cared for me ,Raman he Cares for me but don't love me ,mummji papaji and simmi ,they love and care for me but they will not be mine anymore as my Raman is going away from me .why did you saved me Raman ,you should had left me and let me die ,you know the pain I m having now is much hurting than the pain of diying would had caused me .and in all this my raman ,no no not mine any more ,Raman is the person who is suffering most ,on one side he is trying to adjust with me and on the other side he is forced to forget his love .if I cannot forget him how can I expect him to forget his love .
Thinking so she cried bitterly ,merging her tears with the water .
On the other hand Raman was also crying he as cursing himself ,that why he listened to his heart that day ,he should have thought and took the decision of marriage after talking to everyone .
R( st)- why mararani why ,why this is happening with me .I messed everything ,I wanted to save ishitas life ,give her happiness by marrying her but instead I gave her a pain of lifetime .please show me the right path ,I don't wanted yo hurt her that's why I hided everything from her ,I was preparing myself ,I was trying to start afresh but again I ruined everything.
He was in guilt of hurting ishita ,both were crying but saprately and confidently both were crying for others pain not for themselves.
After crying her heart out ishita anyhow composed herself,she changed and come out from the washroom ,while she was coming out she strembed a bit and was about to fall but he held her in nick of time ,both again looked each other and were lost in themselves .They were looked each other deeply ,nobody wants to look away but both were guilty for the reason of other pain .Though both of them were done with their crying the tears made their way from both pair of eyes ,both don't wanted to leave eacotger ,ishita cannot take it anymore,she hugged him tight and asked crying bitterly "why don't you love me Raman ,m I that bad ".
R( pulling her more to him )- no ishita I m bad that I m not able to love you or say our destiny is cruel as we didn't meet earlier .
Pehle kyun na mile hum
Tanha hi kyun jale hum
Milke muqammal hue hain
Yaa thhe tanha bhale hum
Saware.. saware.. saware..
Na humaara hua na tumhara huaa
Ishq ka ye sitam na gawara hua (x2)
Sun bairiya sanware
Sun bairiya sanware
Pal pal ginke guzara
Maano karza utaara
Tum se munaasib huaa hai
Phir se jeena humaara
Sanware.. sanware..
Sanware.. hmm..
Na humaara hua, na tumhara hua
Ishq ka ye sitam na gawara hua (x2)
Sun bairiya sanwre
Sun bairiya sanwre
That's all for now friends .Hope you like this part .Enjoy reading and do comment .
friends I m very much sad and disherete disheartened with the response I m getting .I m talking to my buddies ,as I m sending 190+ PMS but not getting response from half of it .this time I m serious ,I will remove the names of those who don't show there presence .
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Edited by Divanru - 9 years ago
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