I am yoursPart 1Roli...
What are you hearing???...
Is it all true???
I asked myself...
yes.. i was unable to believe what i am hearing...
Swathi madam is standing in front of me with tear filled eyes...
No.. No... not because of any grief.. Its tears of happiness...
Why not??? How much she loves me since i entered into the orphanage???
I was just new born baby.. when my mother died in the hospital giving birth to me...
No trace of any father or any other relatives in my life...
She was infact admitted in the hospital by some stranger who saw her with labor pain on the road...
So none were knowing any of my mother whereabouts when i was born...
The hospital incharge was kind enough to handover me to this orphanage...
Which is run by Swathi madam...
She take care of so many such orphans who are like me...
Who is really in need of hands to lead their life...
I got such supportive hands and started growing in the orphanage...
Swathi madam did her best to give education & basic requirements to the extent possible to all the children there...
She was all alone... She was rich... still got none on her life too..
So she decided to run this orphanage to care of such needy people...
I too almost completed my schooling with help of her...
I cant expect her to put me in college for any graduation...
Still she helped me putting in correspondence course for graduation too..
Yes.. Seeing my interest in the studies.. she did that...
I too finished the graduation just few months back...
Now with help of her i am graduate...
I thought of going for a job...
But more than money through any job...
She required my support in the orphanage to handle the small kids there...
So i was just helping her in the orphanage instead of going for a job...
This sudden happiness.. and all started its base that day...
Yes.. when i went to near by temple with Swathi madam...
After having good darshan of Goddess when we were going around the temple...
I saw a purse dropped by a rich lady from her bag...
I immediately rushed to take the purse...
Then towards that rich lady...
I called her and gave back that purse...
She was looking at me surprised seeing me giving back her purse...
Yes.. when she opened the purse.. i saw so many note of 1000s & 500s...
May be she was surprised as i returned it with such huge money in the purse...
But i never thought of taking some one else things...
Also why should i... I never had any wishes or expectations to get anything...
Then why i even wish to take her purse which is never mine...
She thank me for my action while i just shared a smile and moved with my madam...
I dont know how that rich lady located me...
She met our Swathi madam today and asked that...
Yes.. she want to make me as her daughter in law by getting me married to her grandson...
She gave the photo of her grandson to Swathi madam and told to ask my wish and confirm her back to talk anything further...
Swathi madam was excited on hearing her wish as she said she knows about that rich lady family...
Her family is well known family in the town and very good family too...
I came to know through Swathi madam that her name is Nirmala Bharatwaj...
She got only 1 son Rajender Bharatwaj & his wife is Nirmala Bharatwaj...
Now they are asking my hands for the only son of Rajender & Nirmala Bharatwaj...
Yes... It seems his name is Siddhant Rajender Bharatwaj...
He finished his studies in aborad..
Then after returning back taking care of his family business efficiently...
Now Swathi madam with tears of happiness on getting such good alliance for me is standing in front of me with his photo kept inside a cover...
She is telling me all these details of his family & telling me to check the photo as well...
If i am interested then she want to proceed with this alliance proposal...
With her face & expressions i can get she is really excited about this...
When she is very much confident about that family...
When she is very much excited in getting me such good life...
Then what i got to tell differently...
Who else other than my Swathi madam can ever think good for me...
When she is thinking something about me.. then it is good for sure...
I am ready to accept this even without seeing his photo...
What i am going to even get seeing the photo...
It is just going to give the physical appearance of someone...
But not anything else like more than that... which really matters...
Still i cant deny to Swathi madam that i wont see the photo...
She may mistake me.. so i took the photo from her...
She told me to take time.. see the photo.. think well and tell her about my wish...
Swathi madam moved from there while i was standing speechless holding the photo cover...
I lift my hand and looked at the cover...
I smiled...
Part 2I looked at the cover with a smile...
I slowly went to the terrace..
Sat in a corner and looked at the cover turning sides with some sort of hesitation.. sorry... some sort of shyness to see his photo...
Still i need to as i cant deny Swathi madam wish to see this photo and tell my feedback..
Moreover i need to identify him tomorrow when i happens to meet him...
I slowly took out the photo from the cover...
I was amazed...
What a man...
Handsome...
Good personality...
Stylish...
Are they asking my hands for him...
I just lost my heart in just the look at the photo...
The opinion which i was having what impact the photo can create few minutes back got changed...
As the photo itself created a great impact inside my heart...
He stole my heart...
If this is my condition by just seeing this photo..
Then what will be my position when seeing him directly...
I just run my finger on his photo with passion...
I felt shyness taking its place inside me and i blushed...
But i was surprised why they selected me as their daughter in law...
They are rich...
They are well known family...
He is absolutely any girl's dream man...
Well qualified with overseas graduations...
Owner of big company...
Inspite of all these they selected orphan like me...
What i got which made them to select me???
I questioned myself...
Anyway.. it is out of my scope to understand and realise what made them to do that...
But i felt somewhat lucky...
Now i can very well understand why madam was in tears of happiness...
She was extremely happy that my life is getting set with such a family...
Now what i even got to deny in this...
I kept the photo inside the cover again...
But again before moving out from there... slightly took the photo from the cover and took near my face...
I placed a kiss on the photo...
Then i scolded myself.. about my actions...
I was not knowing what made me to do that...
Still it is not right...
They just talked about the proposal...
There is no confirmation on any proceedings...
Then what rights i got to do something like that with his photo...
I felt bad and ashamed on my act...
I warned myself not to do such madness again...
Still what can i do for the pic which is already registered inside my heart & mind...
i thought it is not good to sit alone anymore and decided to engage myself in some works...
I got down and went to take care of the works...
Couple of days passed...
Swathi madam called me...
She asked me for my opinion on the proposal as she need to revert to them...
I was unable to understand what to tell...
I just blushed and nod my head as acceptance and rushed out from there...
Swathi mam might have understood my interest with my gestures...
She might have conveyed our acceptance to them...
Which got confirmed when the rich lady with another lady came to meet me in the orphanage the next day...
Part 3I was surprised seeing them came all the way to orphanage to meet me...
I touch her feet and took her blessings...
She introduced herself as Nirmala bharatwaj...
And also introduced the another lady as Sujatha Bharatwaj...
They conveyed their happiness on accepting the proposal...
I just smiled...
what else i can do...
I cant tell them that i really lost my heart with their grandson and started craving for him...
Sujatha Bharatwaj... Sorry.. i should call her maaji from now on being she is mother of my man...
Maaji... took a kangan from her bag... she put the kangan on my hand...
I was pleasantly surprised and looked at them...
They said it is put as shagun...
They will revert with auspicious day for our marriage...
They promised Swathi madam that they will take care of all the marriage arrangements too...
Swathi madam was in excitement on the things happening while i was speechless...
Mataji & Maaji hold my hands and promised that they will be taking care of me like their own daughter...
I was overwhelmed seeing their affection...
That moment i got a doubt is he interested in me???
I atleast saw his photo... But nothing is seen by him...
He not even came with them to see me...
I am ok for the marriage arrangements & talks going on without seeing him...
as seeing photo itself is great thing for me...
But what about him...
My puzzle might have hit Mataji mind...
She told me herself as if i asked her the question openly...
She said... she liked me while seeing me in the temple...
My honesty.. my soft nature... my beauty...
everything attracted her about me...
Then she decided to make me as her daughter in law and enquired about me to the pandit of the temple...
As we are regular goers to the temple...
Pandit gave our details to mataji and she located us...
After giving the details of why & how she located me as daughter in law...
She explained about her grandson too...
He is foreign return and fully interested in the business...
His biz is like his wife...
Since morning to night... his only concentration is biz...
When they talked to him about me...
He was busy with some office works...
So he told the elders to proceed as per their wish...
Now i understood the reason for his absence...
Anyway... i liked how he is ok with the selection of his elders even for his life partner...
After spending some more time with me...
Mataji & Maaji started from there and assured Swathi mam that they will contact back seeing the auspicious day for the marriage...
After they moved out...
Swathi mam hug me in happiness...
She announced about my marriage proposal to all whoever there...
All the people including the kids congratulated me...
I smiled...
Part 4I was very much surprised...
I was not expecting this sudden change in my life...
Swathi madam received call from Mataji...
She informed the marriage is in just 5 more days...
On that Friday itself...
They accepted to do all the preparation and just told to be ready to attend the marriage...
Though everything that was happening was happy happy...
Somewhere i felt bad that i am going to leave the place where i was all these days...
Yes.. though i stayed in the orphange... we were living together like a family...
Now i need to leave this big family and go...
What can be done.. the time has come...
This happened even to others who were in this place earlier...
And of course this should happen...
Otherwise it will be difficult for swathi madam to feed everyone...
Some or other point we should go out giving relief of our burden to her...
Of couse she will be finding great difficulty without me..
I used to be like her own right hand all these days...
Still she is giving importance to the happiness i am going to get out of marriage..
Than the missing of help for her orphanage...
She is such a great lady...
The kids & my friends.. expressed their sadness on myself going out of the orphanage...
While they were also happy that i am getting married and going to live happily...
The situation was very odd where we all were neither fully happy nor fully sad...
It was great mixture of feeling which was within us...
That too the day is not very far...
It is just in counting...
I got nothing to pack from this place as i just got couple of changing dress...
But Swathi madam didn't leave like that...
She suddenly went out and came back with big shopping bags...
Then she gave all those to me...
I was surprised and looked into it...
It was all few new dresses... bangles.. new slippers... new hair clips...
More than the monetary value of those items..
I can see her love in those items...
She wanted me to go happily wearing all those new things...
I just hug her in happiness and shed tears too...
She consol me and advised me like a mother to manage in my in law house...
I accepted all her advise like a daughter and promised that i wont do anything which will give any bad name on her upbringing...
The just left out few days... just passed... just like that...
The day has come...
Friday..
I got up early and took bath...
When i was drying my hair...
Mataji & Maaji reached the orphanage in their car...
They bring big bag with them...
They were already dressed up for marriage...
They gave the bag to Swathi madam...
They said to put the new dress & jewels on me...
Swathi madam accepted with due respect...
Swathi madam gave it to me to get ready...
My friends helped me...
They swiftly made plait...
Then i changed to the new lehenga which they bring...
There was jewel box too...
When i opened it i was just astonished...
Costly jewelleries...
My friends took one by one and put on me...
Bangles.. chain.. necklace.. anklet... hip chain...
Every thing was beautiful...
I just got ready in a while and looked at the mirror...
I was surprised... myself...
I was never knowing myself so pretty...
When i was looking at the mirror surprised...
Mataji & Maaji already entered into the room knowing that i am ready through my friends...
They just admired my beauty...
They kept black dot on my chin..
They expressed i am looking so beautiful...
Also told that which made me to blush..
Yes.. they said he will sure get mesmerised by my beauty...
Yes.. they were talking about my man.. my would be husband...
Swathi madam, my friends, the kids.. everyone hug me and waved bye to me...
I got ready to go with Mataji & Maaji...
Swathi madam already arranged for a van to bring all the orphanage members in it together...
So she will be coming later with everyone...
I started missing her...
I know this is starting...
I am not going to be the member of this orphanage any more...
i get into the car...
Mataji & Maaji accompanied me in the car on both sides...
I started my travel towards the marriage hall...
Part 5I reached the marriage hall with mataji & maaji...
As soon as we reached...
They put the gungat on my head and covered my face with it...
It is their family procedure that girl should not be seen by everyone before marriage...
I got down and looked around through the cloth which was covering my face...
Am i dreaming???
Yes.. my man...
He was standing near the entrance talking to someone in the phone...
He was looking more handsome on that sherwani...
He didn't noticed us...
He was busy in his own call...
I started stepping towards the marriage hall...
I just crossed him and went inside...
Mataji who stopped near him told him to come inside as the marriage time is nearing instead of being in phone always...
He just nod his head.. not sure whether he even heard what mataji told or not...
He continued his phone as it is...
We just went inside...
Maaji took me to bride room and told me to relax for sometime...
My tension was increased...
i was playing my fingers in the dupatta...which showed my tension on facing this new environment...
Maaji sat with me so that i dont feel alone...
After sometime.. i can see Swathi madam entering into my room and i felt little relief...
Maaji got up and went out to attend their relatives leaving me with Swathi madam...
I hold her hand while she gave her moral support to me...
In a while... Maaji entered into the room...
She told me to come with her...
I started stepping towards the marriage mandap...
The pandit was already chanting mantras...
I was taken to the place where my man was already sitting and performing pooja...
I was made to sit beside him...
My face was already covered and he got no change to see me...
While i was able to see him through the dupatta...
I literally admired him through corner of my eyes and blushed...
He did Ganesh pooja...
Pandit told us to exchange garlands...
we got up and exchanged garlands...
One of my friends came forward to tie our clothes together...
We started taking 7 pheres...
He filled my forehead with sindoor...
But not sure whether he saw me even now properly...
Then he put mangal sutra on my neck...
We took blessings of all the elders including Swathi madam...
All my friends congratulated me...
One by one people started having lunch and disperse from the marriage hall...
We were made to sit in a chair to relax for sometime...
I was still in veil...
Maaji came near me...
She said i can take out the veil and sit relaxed...
When she was about to take my veil..
He got some phone call..
He just got up and went away and was almost near the entrance of the hall...
I was just looking at him from where i was sitting then & there when others doesn't notice me...
One of my friend looked this and came near me...
She tease me that i am becoming impatient to be away from him...
I just blushed... and down my face... in shyness...
I was surprised.. when i am behind him to see him whenever possible...
There is no trace of his interest to look at me...
Atleast i have seen him in phone and even saw today since i came to marriage hall...
But in reverse.. he never saw me...
Since i reached the hall i was in veil...
Even during marriage...
The only moment was when he filled sindoor...
Even at that moment.. i am not sure whether he saw my face...
Just now the veil was removed and he moved away with the phone...
I was wondering why i am expecting him to see me...
May be the eagerness on seeing his expression on looking at me..
Or may be fear whether he like me when looking at me...
In the meantime... All my orphanage friends & swathi madam started having lunch...
They waved bye to me and started from there...
I got tears when parting from them...
Still maaji hold my hands as support and consol me not to cry...
Now i am completely left with my in laws.. the new environment.. new relations...
We were called to have lunch...
He said he will come finishing his call...
In the meantime... maaji took me for having lunch...
we were waiting for long...
But got no trace of him coming for lunch...
Then finally maaji told me to have lunch and i started having lunch with mataji & maaji...
Though i started having food without able to deny elders words...
My eyes were searching for him...
We found no trace of him in the hall when we came back to the halll..
Mataji called him... and found he went to office for some works...
Mataji scold him for doing like that on marriage day...
I felt bad on someone scolding him though it is his own mataji...
Finally we were left with no other option other than moving to the home...
Mataji & Maaji were wondering how to do grahapravesh for me alone...
Anyway what can be done...
They told me to put the veil and i covered my face with my dupatta...
When Maaji bring the aarthi...
Suddenly they heard the horn sound...
All expressed he has come on right time and everyone face turned bright that the grahapravesh can happen with him now...
He just rushed to the spot telling so many sorry to elders and stood beside me..
Aarthi was taken and i entered into the house kicking the kalash gently...
Maaji told me to make foot & hand prints..
Then to lit diya...
We took blessings of God & Elders...
Even before i try turning towards him...
He got phone call and rushed towards his room with his phone...
I was surprised...