Driving aimlessly on the road, with no hope left in her anymore. The feeling of walking barefoot on a deserted road with no destination, was what she felt. Her already broken heart was bleeding again. Life which she once thought will be colourful again, was drowned in darkness. The walls of her heart were crumbling down and this time never really to be put back together. It wasn't a fairy tale and to her life was and will always be cruel. It would only inject pain on her, never leaving a single chance and always snatching away her happiness.
She applied the brakes and the car stopped. Alone on the road at late night. So like her life. All alone and lost. She closed her eyes and buried her head in the hands. Uncontrollable sobs were the only thing she could hear. Her mind wandered back to whatever happened hours ago. She was so happy that things would mend between him n her. Breaking news... She was a fool to think that they could reunite, given their history.
She was all dressed up, trying to look her best; for him. She reached the place where he called her in a hope to see the place to be decorated beautifully with balloons, a yummy chocolate cake and champagne. But this is life we are talking about, it doesn't goes like we plan it. It always has different plans. She saw him standing there and he was saying something. Was he talking to himself, she wondered and giggled. She stepped closer to see him talking to tarun. She was shocked was an understatement. Quite a shocker, it was. She had no idea what was happening but there was one thing she was sure of. Her anger resurfaced. She hasn't forgotten what happened last night. She left her own house and still hasn't gone back there. Nor will she go there anytime soon.
Abeer saw meher and smiled at her. Meher returned the smile and looked at tarun. Tarun, who once loved and adored her anything, looked at her too. Meher looked at abeer and tarun in confusion, not understanding any of it. Abeer made meher sit and then went on his knees. He held meher's hand and her heart fluttered. His single touch and she was ready to melt in his strong arms; forgetting all her pain and sufferings. Ready to give them another chance. But they advice not to live in the fantasy world and meher realised why they say it. A blow of reality and you land down on the ground in seconds. Abeer's words hit her like a tornado. She never in her wildest dream thought that abeer would call her there for that. He apologised to meher for tarun's misbehaviour and for every single time he has been rude to her. He thinks its his fault and he feels responsible. He wanted meher and tarun to sort out their differences and get back to what they were. Tarun also apologised to meher with tears in his eyes and meher forgave him. After all he was her kid brother whom she always loved like her own child. Tarun asked meher to return home with him but meher told him that she will come on her own but after sometime. She had some incompleted business.
Meher kept looking at abeer when tarun left the place leaving them alone. Abeer smiled at meher and awkwardly sat in the chair opposite hers. He knew meher wanted to say something and he patiently waited for her to pour out her feelings to him. He wanted to listen to her before things change. At least this time.
"So that's it...??" Meher asked, feeling disappointed.
"Not exactly... I yet have to apologise for some things..." Abeer replied, hoping meher would listen to him. He knew he had hurted and disappointed her today. He didn't give her false hopes intentionally. It all just got messed up.
Their first meeting after years and they are again started with things going wrong and then apologising stuff. Great Start buddy.
"Go on..." Her voice cracked by the end. She hoped he wouldn't say what she wasn't ready to hear.
"I'm sorry... Sorry for running away last time... I saw no scope for us... Not because I didn't want you but I was scared... Scared thinking what if I let you down again. What if I couldn't make you happy... Again. So I walked away. But meher... I always wanted the best for you. How ironic I was never the one to be tagged as best. Anyways I... I want us to start over...-"
"Abeer..." She whispered his name in happiness and a tear rolled down her eye. He wanted to start over and how stupid of her to think he wanted nothing from her. Not now always all those years.
"Meher..."
"Let's start over..." Meher told him with her eyes speaking volumes.
"Start over as friends... Just friends..." Abeer cleared the confusion.
"Friends...???"
"Meher I want you in my life but as a friend... And -"
"Friends don't kiss each other like that..." Meher stood up from the chair and looked into his eyes.
"I know... I shouldn't have... That kiss... It shouldn't have happened... We clearly got carried away..." Abeer calmly said, not looking at meher.
"Carrier away... You regret kissing me... Don't you...???" Meher asked, not bothered about her look or her make up; which was being ruined by her tears.
"I don't regret it meher... I don't... Its just that... We weren't supposed to kiss each other.. We are not dating... We are not married... Reality check. We are divorced. And honestly I don't want us to fall for each other. Again. You deserve better..." Abeer said standing close to meher.
"Who are you to decide it for me...?? Who I deserve or not deserve, is something I will decide for myself... You don't have right abeer. You dont. Not anymore. Ever thought that I might not want to be with the best people alive on earth. I might want to be with YOU... Only You... I couldn't move on in life after you left. Because you were the one I wanted... I still want you abeer... I still love you..."
"You don't have to love me meher and you shouldn't actually. I have to tell you a few things... Meher I... I moved on in life... I have someone in my life. She brought me back to life. I almost lost myself back then. She was my only friend, my companion and my support system. A ray of light in my dark life. She filled colours in my then colourless life... She took my broken heart in her hands careful enough not to hurt me and take care of it. She healed me meher..."
"You... You love her...???"
"Not like the way I loved you... But I feel something for her... The feeling is there though. Its not that strong and passionate it was for you... I know one thing meher that I might want you; like I did in your cabin today; but I need her too. You are my first love but she... I need her to be there beside me. She keeps me going.." Abeer poured his heart out to meher.
That was the final straw. They were history. He had another special someone in his life. The place which was once hers; now belongs to someone else.
"You are choosing her... Really...??? But does she loves you I like I do... Does she look at you like I do abeer...??? Does she understands your unsaid words...?? Does she gets the same big rush when your fingers accidentally brush each other's or when you look at her the way you looked at me...??? Tell me..." Meher asked cuping abeer's face.
"She makes me feel wanted... She makes me feel what it is to be hugged and kissed and to be loved. She loves me... I can see it in her eyes... Like I saw it in your eyes then... I can't betray her meher... I spoiled things between us. We both know that. But I don't want to spoil what I started to have with her. Please meher... Please forgive me... I am the reason of your pain and misery but unfortunately I can't do anything to undo it. I'm sorry..."
Meher walked past abeer without saying a word. What was left now between them...?? Nothing... Nothing...
"How could you do this abeer...?? How...??" Meher said while sobbing bitterly.
She was still unable to believe what abeer told her. His words were yet to be sinked in, in her system. She still hoped that it will all be a prank of his, hoping he was just fooling her. But was he really fooling her... Didn't she hear the fondness with which he was talking about her... HER... Meher hated her, although unaware of her name or identity. But that girl deserved her hatred as she has snatched abeer from her. A random girl snatched her love, her husband from her.
"He is mine... Only mine..." Meher whispered.
How could that girl have him when she can't. After all that happened. After what they shared for years, when she can't have her abeer. Then why would that girl have abeer... Two years... Two years that girl gave him. Just two years.
"I gave him 12 Years of my life... My life, happiness, heart, soul and virginity... I gave him everything I could... I can't lose him... I can't... Not to a random girl... No ways..."
Meher wiped her tears and brought the engine into ignition. She was determined to win him back. She will love him with all her heart and he would have to return to her, in her life. He can't be serious when he said he wants her and then next moment covering it up with 'I need her in my life as well'. He is confused and she will give him time to clear his head. When he is done with all the mess created in his head, he will choose her. She is her home and he will come home. Certainly.
"I hope everything is good now..." said kuber.
"Yes... It is... It is great to be back..." Abeer replied and madhvi joined the duo.
"I'm so happy that you are back abeer... This place wasn't home without you..." Madhvi told abeer.
"I know maa... I missed you both..."
"Is she coming anytime soon or not...??" asked madhvi after hugging abeer.
"She is coming... We wanted to you know... I was hoping..."
"What are you saying abeer...?? Are u in love...??" Kuber asked interestedly.
"I think yes but I'm not sure... Are you now happy dad...??? You wanted us to happen... Right..?? If not then why in the world you would have chosen London... " Abeer asked raising his eye brow.
"She is my friend's daughter... I know her plus I liked her for you and now you also like her... Whats the issue...??" replied kuber.
"Hehe... Nothing... But we are not up for marriage... I'm not at least... So don't bring that in front of her... Pleaseee..." Abeer said to his parents.
"Ok..." They replied in unison.
Shiv Shakti
