Abhigya FF:Night To Remember LAST ch PG 75 NEW FF LINK pg 1 - Page 32

" this won't last forever. Sometime later moon will come out again and night will embrace it.. Then night won't remain dark and alone." I said trying to instill some positivity inside her.

She smirked and looked into my eyes confidently before saying," but you know sometimes this moonless and lonely night stretches so long that life itself comes to an end."

Shaking my head I thought, why was she so bitter and harsh on herself? Why was she holding on to her painful past so tightly, especially when it was not allowing her to move on. I frowned at her and asked in surprise," why is there so much of bitterness in your words?" she blinked her eyes agreeing with me and replied," truth is seldom sugar coated."

Curling my lips I took some sand in my fist and told her," our past is like this sand. No matter how tight our fist is, this sand will slip away because it's past. It has to pass. Whether we want it or not." Life didn't stop for anybody nor should we allow our past to ruin our present, that's what she herself taught me, if her presence, her fiercely possessive and protective attitude toward me and her undying support could free me from the clutches of my past, couldn't I do the same for her? Opening my fist I told her," don't cage yourself in your past. Open your hand. Set yourself free."

She needed to forgive tanu, forget her past and look ahead. Why was she restricting and depriving herself of the happiness around?

She glanced at me with pain filled eyes and didn't utter a word, it hurt me to see her hiding her sorrows from me. After spending so many months together, was I still not worthy enough to share her pain?

" what kind of grief is this, that floats in your eyes but refuses to escape your lips?"

She lowered her gaze at once and replied sadly," not every grief lessens when shared." Frustrated and annoyed with her silence, I dropped the sand from my palm in irritation.

Suddenly she let out a cry, the sand had accidently gone into her left eye and she was rubbing it vigorously. Moving her hand away I cupped her face and said firmly," stop rubbing your eye, it will hurt more." I blew into her eye slowly for some time, then asked her," is it okay?" she stopped getting hassled and looked at me. I didn't know why but her eyes welled up and she appeared so distressed and helpless that it broke my heart into pieces.

" pragya, I am and shall always be there for you, if you see darkness around, I'll be your light, if you stumble, I'll hold you and not let you fall ever." I wished she gave herself a second chance, happiness a second chance. Her lips quivered as a tear trickled down her eye and landed on my thumb, though unwillingly but for the first time she shared her tears with me.

I moved back and said," it's getting late. Let's go home" she nodded a no and said," no, I wish to stay here some more. The sound of crashing waves shall silence the noise inside me."

She rested her head on the rock behind and closed her eyes, within seconds again she had closed herself to the world and to myself in particular, suppressing her inner voice by the sound of waves crashing on to the shore. I glanced at the tear drop on my thumb which shone like a pearl in the moon light, there was a time when I wanted her to cry and vent out all her grief and tonight when she was doing just that it twisted my heart.

It was close to midnight when I stood up and brushed off the sand on my clothes, turning back I saw her sitting peacefully with her eyes shut, even though I didn't wish to disturb her but still the night was getting cold and we'd to return home.

" pragya !" I called out softly and extended my hand, she opened her eyes and her gaze moved from my hand to my face and then dropped. My open palm hung in the air for some seconds before I brought it down thinking she'd not hold it and turned my neck to the other side when her soft and slender fingers touched mine and she stood up holding them. Our hands met only for a moment as she took it back immediately. I began walking, hoping a day would come when she'd hold my hand on her own, without any hesitance.

I'd never imagined that someone could have such a deep impact on me, whose smile would brighten my day, whose tears would weigh so heavily on my heart and whose pain would make me forget mine completely. Since when my life started revolving around hers, I had no idea. Lost in my thoughts, suddenly I felt her dupatta land on my head and shoulder. It was getting chilly and looking behind I found her rubbing her arms. Taking two steps back I wrapped the dupatta around her securely and was about to turn when I noticed her eyes getting wet once again. I didn't know why but this time I felt that those tears were not for tanu or her past but were meant for me, which made feel all the more horrible.

I parted my lips to ask but then stopped, maybe tonight I'd said more than I should have, maybe tonight I'd managed to touch some untouched chapters of her story which made her eyes turn moist.

Rose