I was lonely, depressed and homesick - Renee

Roadies Veejay Renee Dhyani is the latest contestant to be evicted from Bigg Boss. She says she has emerged from the brief experience in the Bigg Boss house stronger and more confident.

"I am a little disappointed and a little excited. Excited for the future. A whole road ahead waits for me. I want to start writing a screenplay and see where it goes. If it turns out well I'll be directing next year. I also want to to get rid of my tomboyish image and take up acting on television. I don't think there's much space for tomboys on television or in films," laughs the buoyant veejay.

Expressing disappointment at her early eviction Renee says, "I had lately become captain of the Bigg Boss house. That designation gave me the freedom and power to do certain things that I wanted to do, to try and set certain things in the Bigg Boss house in order. But I was evicted so soon after being elected captain. The only reason I wish I had stayed on longer is to make positive use of my powers."

But Renee has no regrets. "I wasn't quite enjoying myself in there. I was lonely, depressed and homesick. I missed my parents specially my father who was unwell. I am much relieved to tell you that my father is fine now. He expressed surprise that I was out of Bigg Boss so soon. But he was relieved for my sake as he too felt that if I wasn't comfortable in there I was better out of it. As soon as I finish my interviews I am rushing home to be with my family in NOIDA."

And why was Renee uncomfortable inside Bigg Boss? "I think the experience has made me prematurely wise. Although I was with so many people in there I realized I was on my own. I learnt to enjoy my own company. There are many things that you don't get inside Bigg Boss house. Birds in the sky, pictures on the wall, television...these are things that we take for granted in real life. They were denied to me inside Bigg Boss house. Returning to normal sights and sounds makes me realize what a precious gift life is."

Renee would miss only one thing from Bigg Boss. "The voice of Bigg Boss. It followed me everywhere for the past few weeks. It has become a part of life. I will miss that."