Days passed... and then weeks... and there was a silence in their house..
earlier this house was used to echoed with their laughter.. now they barely talk to each other..
Antara had increased the distances between raghu and herself..
she was not able to face him after what he said to her..
whatever happened that night was a weak moment for her..
and all she did was to express her love for him that she hid from him for years...
but the way raghu talked to her.. she felt disgusted..
she loved him with all her heart.. her love wasn't less than an austerity and penance..
she always cared for him.. but this time he hurt her more than anything..
she wasn't able to forget that incident and it was killing her inside...
her pain was visible on her face..
in morning now she used to wake up before him..and used to leave for college earlier than before
now she started to go college everyday and tried to keep herself as busy as she could..
she avoided him but completed all her duties she did before..
she used to sleep before him.. and avoided to talk to him unless it was necessary..
when he was not home.. she used to hide herself in a corner and cry so that he never knows..
"how can he do that with me...???? "
even if he thinks that whatever happened that night i made him to do that...
he should have consoled me..
even before we got married..
even before all these things happened between us.. we were friends.. best friends..
how can he hurt me like this... she wanted him to hug her.. to tell her that we are good like always..
and nothing can come between us.. she wanted him beside her to sooth her pain..
On another side Raghu was not able to forgive himself..
he was dying in guilt for hurting Antara...
He tried to talk to her.. but she never let him..
her ignorance.. her cold attitude towards was killing him...
in all those 9 years it was first time when raghu faced her cold behavior..
he was used to of her pranks.. her laughter when he was irritated..
he was missing her smile.. which was lost somewhere only because of him..
he used to sit beside her when she was asleep..and confessed her many times...
Antara I am sorry.. I know you are hurt.. knowingly or unknowingly i have hurt u a lot..
please forgive me. please talk to me..
please..!!!
why is all this happening between us..?...
we were not like this.. whatever happened was not your fault...
that day i said all those craps.. because i was nervous.. n i din't had courage to talk to you..
i am sorry Antara...
but she never knew all this..next day they had same routine..
he was not able to face her...
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Raghu was pacing in his room.. it was 7:00 PM..
and Anatra wasn't home yet..
he was getting upset..
her phone was ringing.. but she din't pick up..
he called in her college.. and guard told him that she left an hour back..
her college was on 30 min distance.. but she had not reached home after 1 hr even..
he decided to go and check for her..
he got the keys of his car and went out..
he opened the door and she was there..
as soon as raghu saw her.. he ran to her..
"kahan rah gayi thi.. main itna pareshan ho gaya tha..." he cupped her face and complained..
"wo bas clg mein thoda late ho gaya tha.." she replied and came inside..
raghu followed her..they both came inside..
Antara was about to go into room for change but raghu stopped her..
Antu!!!!
she stopped and turned..
ji..!! she said in very low voice..
he walked towards her.. she was looking pale..
kya hua hai???
kuchh nahi..
Antu!!!... kya hua hai..??? he asked with anger and concern in his eyes..and showed her dupatta...
her clothes were dirty in dust...
and her face was covered with scarf...
kuchh nahi.. she replied in firm voice..
raghu removed her scarf from her face and head and saw blood on her forehead..
his eyes got widened..
she clutched her scarf.. and then he saw her arm.. it was bleeding..
"Antu..!! kya hai ye sab.. tumhe itni chot aayi hai..he said in concern...
..he tried to make her sit holding her by shoulders..baitho main doctor ko.....but she cut him in between..
"Main Theek hoon.." she said and before he could say anything she left from there..
raghu followed her in room..
she took her clothes from the closet and went into the washroom..
Raghu knocked her door..
"Antu khoon bah raha hai...mujhe dekhne to do... tumhe bahut chot lagi hai.."
his eyes were welled up..he was hurt that she is so angry with him that she din't feel necessary to tell this to him..
she took bath and came after 15-20 minutes wearing a loose fitted top and tracks..
raghu was sitting on the bed..
as soon as she opened the door he ran towards her..
but seeing her cold face and he stopped few inches away from her..
she was about to leave.. when raghu came in her way..and stopped her by his hand..
Annn...!! before he could even call her name.. she looked at him..
her eyes were tearful..but she pretended to be strong..
he moved back..
she walked towards dressing table and took first aid box and sat on the corner of bed..
she folded her sleeved and it caused pain in her wounds.. and after taking bath..all scratches and wounds were clearly visible to her..
Raghu came and sat in front of her..
he held her hand and tears rolled down on his cheeks.. he looked at her with tearful eyes.. and she pulled her hand back..
Antu.. please let me see this.. you're hurt very bad...
you please go..!! m fine..she said slowly..
he din't move a bit..
he held her hand once again and took ointment..
he applied it slowly on her arm..it caused burning pain to her.. she tried to pull her hand back but he din't let her..
she hissed in pain and closed her eyes..
he looked at her.. and blew air on her wounds..
she opened her eyes and looked at him..
she pulled her hand back again and ointment fell down from his hand.. before he could take it.. she picked it ..
you please go..!!
Antu.. main janta hoon tum naraj ho mujhse.. magar itni kitna gussa ki t...
I SAID GO!!! she almost shouted on him even before he could complete his sentence..
he looked at her in shock.. she never raised her voice on him.. infact on no one..
he realized her pain and anger in her voice..
she too realized what she did..she lowered her eyes immediately
Aap.. please bahar chale jaiye.. mujhe dressing karni h..she said..
Raghu's guilty was killing him inside for hurting her... he cupped her face in one hand..
and came out with tearful eyes..he locked the door from outside..
when she heard the sound of knob.. she sat on bed with a thud and cried her heart out...
she came out after 30 minutes and saw him sitting on the couch...
she had small bandage on her forehead and arms.. and wrapped crape bandage on her feet and legs..
Raghu saw her and understood that she met an accident..
he wanted to hug her but her behavior was an evident of that she can't bear his sight..
she wasn't able to move properly.. raghu was about to get up to give her some support..
but remembering her words he sat back with a heavy heart...
he was looking at her continuously.. when she looked at him he looked down..
she felt guilty for shouting on him like this..
she walked towards him.. but couldn't dare to sit beside him..
aa...her throat was dry.. she licked her lips and gulped her saliva..
i'm... raghu looked at her and her voice got stuck in her throat..
i...i..
its ok Antu.. he said slowly and smiled meekly...
tum yahan aaram kar lo.. main chala jata hu... he said and before she could stop him.. he left for the room...
she sat on the couch and leaning her back on cushion to take some rest..
she closed her eyes in pain...
after a few minutes...
raghu was sitting on his chair.. working on his laptop... trying to distract his mind..
but nothing helped him.. and finally for some peace he was looking at her pictures only...
after a few minutes he heard some sounds and came out..
Antara was in kitchen..his anger reached on 7th cloud..
he forgot everything that she said and he ran towards her..
ye kya kar rahi ho??
kuchh nahi... khana..
aapko office se aaye hue kafi der ho gayi h.. bhookh lagi hogi...
BHAAD MEIN GAYA KHANA... TUMHARA DIMAG KHARAB HO GAYA HAI KYA???.....he roared in anger..
she got shivered seeing him like this and dropped the pan...he looked at her and felt guilty..
he composed himself immediately and ignoring everything that happened a few minutes before..he turned her holding her shoulder
he cupped her face and lifted it to make her look into his eyes..
today raghu could not stop himself.. after seeing this condition if antara he was already upset then this carelessness of her made him angry..
Antu.. kya samajhti ho tum baare mein.. apni halat dekhi hai tumne..
tumhe kya lagta hai..???
hmm...?
tumhe yun... he felt disgusted in himself...
yun aise dekh ke bhi main aaram se khana kha sakta hoon..???
tears rolled down on her cheeks...
he turned and brushed his hairs with his fingers..
kya ho gaya hai hum logo ko.. hum aise to nahi the..?
hmmm??? he turned towards her..
batao...?? kya aise the hum...??
a...
aa..aap...aapne... she tried to say something but she couldn't..
maine kya antu?? maine kya..??
main manta hoon us din jo maine kaha.. galat kaha..
lekin tum bhi janti ho.. wo sab sach nahi tha..
main pareshan tha.. upset tha.. wo sab mere muh se nikal gaya..
theek hai.. tumhe naraj hona chahiye..bilkul hona chahiye..
magar tumne ek baar meri baat sunna bhi jaroori nahi samjha..
Raghu was shouting on top of his lungs...
they both were crying..
lekin aap us incident ko lekar guilty to the na...
raghu lowered his eyes and din't reply to her..
there was a pause for a moment..
raghu looked at her again...
main manta hu maine tumhe hurt kiya...
tumne mujhse baat karni band kar di.. theek hai..
magar khud ko kyun itni saja deti ho??
kya mujhe dikhta nahi hai..??
Antara looked at him..
hmm??
10 10 ghante college mein rahti ho.. subah se shaam tak kaam mein busy rahti ho..
kya mujhe nahi dikhta.. ki kab tumhe kaam hai?? aur kab tum mujhe avoid karti ho??
she lowered her eyes hearing him...
bolo??
tumhari rag rag se wakif hoon main Antara.... he said..
kash! kash aap hote... kash aap samajh pate... she said deep inside in her heart...
tum nahi chahti main tumhare paas aau..? main nahi aaunga..
lekin iska matlab ye to nahi...tum khud ko hurt karo..
ki tum sare haq chheen lo mujhse...
kya maine kabhi roka tumhe kisi cheej se..
kya maine kaha.. mujhe tumhara bana khana nahi chahiye..
ya tumhare rakhe kapde nahi chahiye...
lekin mujhe tumne har waqt ye mehsoos karaya ki main tuhari jimmedari hoon..
wo sab meri duty hai...she said slowly...
DUTY?? HAAN??
right!! DUTY!!!..
he paced here and there in kitchen brushing his hairs with his hands...
he turned towards her and again roared in anger...
I MEAN F*** WITH THIS DAMN DUTY... I DON'T CARE!!!... he roared..
she looked at him in shock.. he never used such language..not in front of her...
iske alawa hai aur kuchh hum dono ke rishte mein..?
kuchh aur bacha hai???
aur agar hai bhi to bas tumhari hi kyun?? meri kyun nahi??
sare rishte bas mere hi liye kyun tod diye..
now tears rolled down on his cheeks.. his voice was breaking..
he knew she met an accident and he din't want to shout on her..
but her behavior hurt her a lot...seeing her shivering with his shouting he composed himself and talked to her softly...
in sab mein tumhe haq hai ki tum meri jaroorato ka khyal rakho..
aur mujhe itna bhi haq nahi ki main apni biwi se ye bhi puchh saku ki use kahan chot aayi hai..
agar ghav maine diye hai.. to unpe marham lagane ka haq to tab bhi mera hi hai...
kisi aur ka to nahi.. biwi to tum meri hi ho...
her heart was crying with every word of his.. she din't know if she was happy to hear all this.. or she was hurt..
aur main tumhare paas se chala jau..??... theek hai main chala jaunga..
tum mujhe avoid karti ho.. main khud tumhare samne nahi aaunga...?
she lowered her eyes hearing this...
kya us waqt bhi tum yahi kahti jab tumhara nahi balki mera accident hua hota..
ye sab mere saath hota.. ya agar main mar jata...
bo...??? before he could say anything she put her hand on his mouth...
he looked into her tearful eyes..
she nodded in no.. raghu removed her hand from his mouth and she looked down..
her knees melt.. she was not able to stand on her feet.. she sat down on the floor and cried... she hid her face in her palms and nodded in no...
raghu sat beside her... and took her hand in his...she was not able to meet her gaze with his..
he pulled her hand and kept it on his heart..
bahut dard hota hai yahan tumhe aise dekh ke...
bahut dard hota hai...
tumhari khamoshi bardasht nahi kar sakta main..
she looked in to his eyes..
tum janti ho...tum duniya ho meri...phir bhi???.
tum kaise bhool gayi ki tum us zindagi se kheench ke bahar layi thi mujhe jo maut se bhi badtar thi..
tumhe bahut chahta hoon main... bahut...
jo zindagi tumne sanwari.. tumne banayi.. use khud hi tabah kar rahi thi..
ye din maine kaise kate hai.. main janta hoon...
kyunki mujhe wo zindagi ganvara nahi hai.. jismein tum mere saath nahi ho...
she cried and held his hand...
he moved forward and placed a soft and warm kiss on her forehead..
she closed her eyes..he wiped her tears and took her in his embrace..
they both cried.. all that questions, sorrow, pain, doubts.. everything flew down in those tears...
"I am sorry..."... "i'm so sorry.."
I am sorry...he patted on her head and kissed... he pulled her more in his embrace and placed his chin on her head..
please dobara aisa kabhi na karna...
she nodded in no..and he tightened his grip on her...
they both kept sitting like that...
after a few minutes raghu lifted her in his arms and brought her to their room..
he made her lie on the bed and covered her with duvet...
he stood beside her and looked at her..
"I am sorry..." he said.. and a lone tear escaped from her eyes..
he nodded in no.. and left..
he came out and leaned back on the wall and wiped his tears...
he was satisfied that even after so long he finally said what he had in his heart..
and Antara was lost.. she was looking at the ceiling still lost in whatever he said to her...
"tumhe bahut chahta hoon main... bahut..."
and tears were rolling on her cheeks continuously..
"kyunki mujhe wo zindagi ganvara nahi hai.. jismein tum mere saath nahi ho..."
she was not able to understand if he means everything to her..
or actually she means everything to him...
Kyunki Saas Bhi Kabhi Bahu Thi 2
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