they boarded the flight..she sat on window seat and he sat beside her...
they were not able to talk to each other or to look at each other..
they din't even know why they are going back to their home..
after whatever happened between them.. they din't have courage to look into each other's eyes...
their was some kind of uneasiness..
antara...!! she was broken... it was being very difficult for her to stay in front of him..
her throat was dried... her eyes were moist...
raghu din't utter a word.. neither she spoke anything.nor he asked..
they silently sat on their respective seats...
he knew she was not in a state to say anything...if he would ask anything.. she would cry.. he knew she was controlling herself...
she leaned her head on window and kept staring outside.. and when view was blurred after some time.. she closed her eyes..
he looked at her in surprise and shock..
antara held his hand and kissed his fingertips..
then she placed his hand on her waist
she touched his face with one hand and pulled him down on top of her...
love me.. she whispered in his ears...
she opened her eyes with a jerk...
she looked at her right side.. his eyes were closed...
she knew he was pretending to sleep...
tears rolled down on her cheeks... she covered her mouth with her palms and leaned her head back on window...
she couldn't dare to close her eyes this time...
since they were traveling in night.. so no one was able to see her...
after a few minutes two air hostess came and asked for food..
antara lowered down her head and pretended as she din't see or hear them...
they asked raghu and he opened his eyes..
sir, would you like to have something...
hmm.. yeah!!
antara..?? he looked at her..and saw her tearful eyes...
he felt a sharp pain in his heart...
he turned immediately and ordered two coffee and sandwich..
meanwhile antara wiped her tears.. "nahi mere liye nahi.."... she said..
sir? 1 coffee??
two..!! he said..
okay..
after serving their order.. air hostess left...
raghu din't say anything..but gave her the coffee and half sandwich..
she could hardly eat something and finished her coffee in 20 minutes...
she was hurt and was not able to forget the moment when he left from the room without even looking at her...
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they reached home...raghu opened the door and came inside.. antara too came after him..
raghu kept their bags on table and called to antara's parents to inform that they reached..
and left towards their room...
and again she was hurt..when he avoided her...
she was standing near table only.. and kept staring at him leaving from hall...
when she reached at door of their room.. she heard him saying bye on phone..
she came inside.. raghu saw her.. and continued to speak on phone..
he took his towel and went into bathroom
he din't know she saw him when he cut the call...
his ignorance was hurting her...
she opened her closet and took her night suit..
raghu came in the bathroom.. he kept his mobile in his pocket and leaned his back on the door..
he closed his eyes and his heart ached..
moments of that night flashed in front of his eyes...
why did i do that...?? why??
i lost her... i don't know if she will be able to forgive me..
he brushed his hand in his hairs...
i did hurt her.. again..
i always do that...
that moment flashed in front of him..when he proposed her for marriage...
why don't you want to marry anyone..
because i don't trust anyone.. she replied...
raghu closed his eyes and clutched his fist in anger..
i broke her trust... he hit his fist on door.. and antara heard that outside..
tears rolled down on her cheeks..
she was not able to foget those eyes when he looked at her in shock
and now she felt that he was angry...
they both made their own perception...
she sat on the corner of bed and hugged her clothes...
i made him to do that... he did stopped...
why did i loose myself..
i made him to do that.. i did that...
love me...!!!
she closed her eyes and shook her head...
she hid her face in her palms and her night suit fell down...
they both cared about each other...and blamed themselves for hurting their other halves..
raghu turned on the shower... he really needed that...
he placed his hand on wall and leaned over it..
cold shower made him a bit relaxed...
he wiped himself with towel..
he took his vest and came in front of mirror...
he wore it and then he noticed something...
he slid the strap of his vest and saw her nail marks on his chest...
he turned left right. and saw some scratches on his biceps...
he closed his eyes.. and held his head from behind...
he removed his vest and looked at his back in mirror...
and then put it on.
he came out of the bathroom ...
antara heard the click of knob.. and she got up from bed in hurry...
she picked her night suit and lowered her eyes...
she went in to the bathroom..
none of them could dare to meet their eyes...
she came out after a few minutes... raghu was sitting on the bed and was lost in his thoughts...
though she was wearing her full patiala suit... yet she covered herself with her towel..
her hairs were left open to hide the red marks which were more clearly visible on her milky white skin...
though they had no courage to speak at the moment.. they both were uncomfortable in front of each other..
but he was her husband.. she needed to take care of him.. no matter how's the situation is...
kh..khana.. she asked in very low voice.. her throat was choking...
her grip got tighter on her towel...
raghu looked at her.. and she lowered her eyes..
she was feeling weak...and was not able to stand on her own feet...
uhuh..
she din't ask again...she knew he was upset..so was she...
so jao... he said...
hmm..
she stood there for sometime...and then she left for kitchen...
raghu saw an uneasiness in her eyes... he looked at his left side..
he got up from the bed.. and sat on his chair..he opened his laptop and started working..
she came in the room after a few minutes..and saw him sitting on the chair...
"i have some work to do for tomorrow's meeting.." he said in very lo voice even before she could ask..
i... she was about to say something...
tum so jao..main thodi der mien so jaunga.. he said..
she kept mum..
she walked towards the bed and laid down on her side...
she took the blanket and brought it till her neck..
she kept looking at his back.. and soon she dozed off...
after a few minutes raghu saw her sleeping...
he too turned off his table lamp and leaned his head down... he brushed his hand in his hairs.. and got up from the chair...
after whatever he did.. he couldn't dare to sleep beside her... he thought and took his pillow and laid down on the recliner...
he kept looking at her angelic face and soon he dozed off too...
after an hour.. suddenly antara woke up with a jerk..she was panting hard...
raghu..!! she whispered..
she had a nightmare...
raghu too woke up hearing her voice.. though she only whispered his name...
he got up and switched on the table lamp...
she took water from the jug and gulped it...
she was about to slip in his blanket.. when she saw his pillow on recliner...
raghu looked at her to ask if she was okay.. but he saw her looking at his pillow..
and then she looked at him...
they both were going through with so much emotions.
they din't know war they were feeling..
they both were guilty..din't want to face each other.. and yet din't want to stay away from each other..
she too wasn't comfortable to sleep beside him.. still she din't expect he will actually sleep on recliner..
a pain appeared in her eyes..
raghu wasn't able to look at her..
wo... main kaam karte karte...
antara got up from the bed..her heart was heavy.. so was his...
she ran out of the room.. raghu wanted to stop her.. but he couldn't...
antu!!! he could whisper...
she came out in the hall and sat on the couch...
raghu was standing in the balcony..
why the hell i slept there..
it's been so long to our marriage.. we always shared the same bed..
and when she was sleeping there why the hell i needed to sleep on that recliner..
he brushed his fingers in his hairs...
she was very much hurt this time...
i din't sleep beside her..so she won't feel uncomfortable..
she was crying all the time in flight..
she din't show..but she is uncomfortable with me..
i broke her trust..
will she ever forgive me... he thought...
antara was lying on the couch...
how can he do that...
is he hating me for what i did..
he doesn't love me.. but still i asked him to love me...
he is right.. he should avoid me.. it was my fault..
i broke our promise..
"bt what could i have do.."...she cried and hugged herself...
he makes me weak.. it's been so long... still i feel uncomfortable when i look into his eyes...
that moment flashed in front of her eyes when she saw raghu first time in class...
she still remembered that smile of his...
i am so sorry... i am so sorry...
i should have controlled myself..
you never came so close to me... when you touched me with so much love and care...i lost myself...
everything has changed in one night...
she remembered when their friendship was so pure that he slept hugging her close to his heart...
when they were both comfortable with each other in every manner..
and now.. she again saw those eyes of him when he ignored her and left from the room..
when she thought of him sleeping on recliner tears rolled down on her cheeks..
he doesn't trust me..
she closed her eyes...and leaned back on the couch...
but then again she opened her eyes and got up...
antara how can you think so low about him...
he is raghu..
you know him..
no matter what happens he will never be rude with you..
she talked to herself...
what if he is feeling guilty too
he did talk to me for once or twice..
i know if he would have been angry or upset on me..
he would have not even looked at me...
i should talk to him..whatever happened .. we both were involve in this..
and he touched me only when i allowed him...
i'll tell him.. that it's not his fault..
and i allowed him...she wiped her tears and got up...
but she stopped...what if asked me why did i do that...
should i..??
she felt pain in her heart... as if some one scraped her old wounds...
she went in to the room with all her strength...
she was scared but she blossomed thinking that she will tell him what she feels for him...
she came in the room.. and saw him standing in the balcony...
she walked towards him...her body was shivering...she closed her eyes and took a deep breath...
mujhe baat karni hai aapse... she said in barely audible voice...
but raghu turned to hear her..
a few hours before she was not able to look at him but now again her eyes fluttered seeing him...
he nodded in yes.. she came forward and stood holding the balcony with one hand...
she lowered her eyes...aap naraj hai mujhse??? she asked...
raghu looked at her.. for a second, he couldn't understand her..
no.. he said...
you know i can not be angry with you...
aap wahan us sofa par..???... to mujhe laga...ki... her voice was breaking...
raghu looked at her...
i am sorry...he said in very firm voice..
she looked at him... he held her hand...
her fingers were cold and she was shivering...and he felt that...
antu.. i know you are hurt with whatever happened...
i know you are..
she nodded in no with tearful eyes...
i din't know what happened to me.. and i am sorry for that.
i couldn't control myself..
i broke the promise i made to you...
she nodded in no...
nahi aisa nahi hai...
for past few weeks i don't know what's happening with me...
when i came to delhi i misbehaved with you..
jo kuchh bhi hua wo nahi hona chhaiye tha...
i din't expect you to be there...n that too like that...
you were wearing my fvt shirt..n you were looking so...
he couldn't speak further...
i...i..i lost myself...
antara's brows frown hearing whatever he was saying...
raghu din't realize he was loosing himself again...
i would have stopped but when you kissed me...
antara's eyes were getting moist...
and asked me to...!!! raghu couldn't complete his sentence...
agar tum na kahti to shayad wo sab na hota...
i was lost in you.. n couldn't deny...
i...i...
antara's throat was choking hearing each and every word of him...
she removed his hand from her hand... and looked at him for once...
he realized what he spit out in all tension and uneasiness...
antara came here to confess her feelings for him and to say that he doesn't need to feel guilty..
but after whatever he said she couldn't believe it was him..
raghu tried to hold her hand in his..
but she din't let him..
i am sorry that i did that...you are right.. i should stay away from you...
and you don't need to feel any guilt because it was all my fault...
she said and left...
raghu ran after her.. antara.. i din't mean that...he said.. but she has already left the room..
precap: fight to pakka.. patch up ka abhi pata nahi...
Pati Patni Aur Panga
Kyunki Saas Bhi Kabhi Bahu Thi 2
