Part 14
Madhu had successfully ignored RK the whole day. She had to decipher her own feelings. Though she was not getting time for even that. The movie was wrapping up and they had to shoot their final scene in 2 days. All that could happen was that they would see each other. Madhu was getting afraid of her own feelings. The way she felt dependent on RK for even her smile made her fear. She managed to have a look of RK every hour or two but whenever she felt RK was coming to her she would just disappear from there.
RK was confused and irritated with all this. He wanted to be with Madhu. He had been dreaming of a life with her though knowing full well that at the most he could just be a friend. But Madhu was distancing herself even from that. After trying for a few times he decided to leave her. He decided to let her go. He knew he couldnt maintain the friendship alone. Sometimes it seemed as if she wanted him, it seemed that she wanted him to initiate a talk so he would go to her but the next second she would just go away.
He had wanted to give her everything she had missed. But now he seemed that he was just trying to stick around her unnecessarily. He now believed that Madhu didnt want to be around him, he had known about her mood swings and now he believed that being with RK was also one of her mood swing. And now as the time has passed maybe she has gotten over with him. So he decided to let go off her.
The next day Madhu came around RK's set and looked at him through her sunglasses. She wanted to go to him. She wanted to talk to him, she wanted to get that night back and live in it. She knew if RK saw her he would try to talk to her so she decided to move away soon but just then RK looked up and saw her. But Madhu felt something had changed. He didnt move. He just saw her with blank eyes and after staring at her for 10-15 seconds he lowered his head back in his script.
Madhu was stunned. RK was ignoring her. Has he moved on. RK would always come to her on seeing her but today he saw her clearly and still didnt even gave her a smile. Is she not important. Are they not friends anymore. Has RK really forgotten her. The questions clouded in her mind.
She felt tears threatening her eyes. And she ran away from there. She entered her vanity and looked in the mirror. She removed and threw away her sunglasses to see her own self. Her eyes were red and tears were ready to spill out. Seeing herself, tears rolled down her eyes. She started to cry. She remembered RK going away the last time she had been with him. The tears kept on rolling down her eyes, and she just stared at the mirror and The kohl draiining down her eyes, along with the tears.
Just then Neha entered the vanity, "Mam we have a shoot in half an hour and..." she said as she stepped in but stopped on seeing Madhu's condition.
Madhu turned to look at her with painful eyes. She just stared at her.
"Mam... what happened are you okay" she said as she came forward and kept the script away on the table.
The tears increased even more in Madhu's eyes as she heard her asking. She just dropped on the chair behind her.
"Please mam... please tell me?" Neha sat down beside her on the floor.
"Am I made to be lonely? " she asked Neha with tear stung dejected eyes.
"Lonely? No not at all... you are never lonely" she said trying to comfort her.
" Dont lie Neha... you know i am alone..." she said arguing her.
"Why do you feel like that?" Neha gets restless.
"One friend... one friend i had tried to get... it was all i wanted and even he went away... When I had thought I have a person to call mine, he was taken away from me... Neha, again i am left here... here sitting alone... " she said restless.
"Its nothing like that... he is still your friend.." neha said to her confidentally.
Madhu looked at her with hopeful eyes like a child as if trying to believe her and Neha nodded her head.
"He is your friend mam, thats why he asks me daily about how you are and are you happy... he had been trying to talk to you but then most of the time you used to be busy soo..." she told her as she held her hands.
Madhu's eyes glistened with hope. She realised that she had been the one ignoring RK. Neha had asked her a lot of times that RK wanted to meet her but she would make some or the other excuse as she got nervous everytume she heard his name. But what should she do now... Now RK wasn't talking to her. Maybe he doesnt want to talk to her. She looked around restlessly and saw a magazine kept on the table which had her as the cover picture. The superstar, the arrogance, the attitude, the perfection, The Madhubala was there. She looked herself in the mirror and saw tear strained eyes and cheeks stained with kohl.
Madhu got up and scrutinized herself in the mirror. Her face. She wasnt this. She rubbed her hands vigorously on her face trying to remove all the tears and the kohl and dejection and the pain. Not only from her face but from her soul. Neha watched her painfully. She knew Madhu wont accept her own feelings easily. She had a blind fold that this industry means being alone so she had accepted to be alone. But RK going away from her was making her feel the pain of that loneliness. Neha wanted to make her realise that she need not be alone. She need not lock the real herself in this vanity and walk out of it like a hard shelled person.
But she didnt know how.
After half an hour there was a shot. It was an action shot for RK and Madhu had to be in the scene too. Though the scene had very less interaction between them. It was mainly a fight sequence for RK. Normally they would feel excited to have a shot after long. Even in the past days when they were not talking much the shoot with each other made them feel excited even when both the scenes were of an argument. But today something was empty. In both of them.
The shoot started and RK continued with the fight sequences while Madhu stood at a distance and watched him with painful eyes. Trying to understand what she wants from herself and RK. She wanted to stay away from him but still she wished him to be around her. She just tried to understand her own storm.
RK had to jump from a height now. He jumped down but fell on his elbow and had hurt himself. He winced in pain and held his elbow.
"RK!!" Madhu shouted and ran to him and held his elbow. "Are you okay...??" She asked worriedly as she panicked.
But RK pulled his arm away from her grip even though he winced in pain because of it. Madhu looked at him in shock. She was hurt as if he had slapped her. She stared at him in pain as RK stood up as others came around to help him. RK looked at her still sitting on the floor and staring at him with painful tear stung eyes. He couldnt see Madhu like that. Neha had already told him that Madhu had cried a lot in her vanity and that had made him even more angry that Madhu didnt regard him even that much of a friend to discuss her problems with him. He realised Madhu's tears were about to spill because of his rudeness but he could never be a reason for it. He stretched his other hand for her to hold and stand up.
Madhu was stunned again seeing his hand infront of her face. Just now he was so angry at her and now he is giving his hand for her to stand up even though he is the one who is hurt. But she just grabbed his hand as if her life depended on it. RK made her stand up and gave her an empty smile but Madhu couldnt smile. With the people all around they couldn't give themselves to their feelings, so RK walked to a chair and Madhu just went along with him. They both sat beside each other.
The director said- "It seems we would have to cancel today's shoot..." he said disappointed. "I am sorry Rishabh, I have really been spoilt by you and Madhu. I gave such a long shot in one go... I shouldn't have done that" he said guilty.
"Come on Director saab... Its not about you... I just slipped... And i think we dont need to cancel the shoot... we can continue in some time.." He said examining his elbow.
"how can you say that? You cant shoot like this..." she said with wide eyes.
"Madhu it was a light fall... Its okay... It would take no time... " he said assuring.
Madhu tried to argue but RK made her understand but he had to agree on Madhu calling her doctor for him. And the shoot got rescheduled after 2 hours.
After 2 hours the shoot started again and this time the scene went good. RK was brilliant in the action scene. As the shot ended Madhu tried to walk to RK to talk to him but before she could take her step towards him RK walked off from there leaving behind a perplexed Madhu. When she thought that RK was angry with her, he had given her his hand and when she thought that everything was better he walked off from there ignoring her. She stood there watching his back in despair.
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