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Chapter 25
My life has been turned upside down ever since Maan decided to interfere in it. My relationship status with Armaan was already complicated that Maan had to step in and ruin everything. He would stop by my office for different party planning, everyday for every single occasion. Sometimes he would throw party for himself for being happy, for getting a contract, for being happy, for his employees birthday, for his helpers birthday, etc...It was becoming so annoying. Of course my staff loves when he is over since we are getting more business but i know why he is here. He just doesn't seem to get that I am engaged and will marry Armaan soon. He doesn't get that our opposite worlds will never meet nor I would let that happen.
"Geet Maan is here again" (Meera came in slamming the party file on her desk in anger. Even she was fed up with him)
"Okay, let Pari deal with him..I have some other important things to worry about"
"Listen Geet I think its better if you tell him on his face not to come here. He is practically stalking in daytime. What the hell!'
"I have tried he just won't listen and we can't stop him anyway..he is a client and if we turn him down am sure he would tell everyone which means us loosing our higher end clients. I can't take this risk for myself and you guys just because of him"
"I know Geet but we all have had it enough. If you don't talk to him today then I will speak with Armaan and let him know what is going on"
"NO!" (Geet stands up) "I will talk to Maan..in fact send him in right now" (Meera nodes her head and turns to leave the office. When she opens the door Maan was standing there smiling. Meera nudges him on his shoulder on purpose as she walks past him in anger. Maan steps inside the office closing the door. He casually walks toward her desk and sits on the chair relaxing)
"May I ask what are you doing here, Mr. Khurana?" (Geet sits on her chair, she wanted this meeting to over with so that she can resume her work and figure out how really messed up her life is. She looks at Maan waiting for him to answer but all he did was just smile and look at her as if she was an alien) Mr. Khurana I am asking you something? What is this joke?"
"Its not a joke Geet. Its not my fault I have so many unexpected celebrations. Its been a busy year for me. Everyone is just talking about your company and I want the best of everything, after all its about my reputation"
"We both know why you are doing this. Why don't you just get it?"
"I am not doing anything and I don't know what you are talking about...unless"
He gets up walking toward her slowly with a sly smile. Geet was about to get up from her chair when Maan encloses her between his arms. He leans very closly toward her while Geet rests her back completely as much as the chair would allow her to go. She could feel his breath on her face as she closes her eyes feeling his close proximity. She could smell his clougne, that brought the same kind of aura she had remembered him since college. His unique seneses is what made her fall in love with him. She opens her eyes slowly looking at him while his eyes showed love and respect he had for her. Was this right?
"Why are you stopping yourself? Why can't you see that I love you? Geet it wouldn't have mattered to me if you were chubby, I would've still loved you..."
"That is a lie Maan..." (She pushes him away while standing up) "You and everyone that says this to me is a liar because no one wants a chubby or fat person as a wife or even as a husband that is how the society is. You didn't notice me when we were in college together and I was myself back then and now you are saying that you would have loved me the same way? No one is that much of a saint Maan...Not even me. Please Maan try to understand whatever you want cannot happen.
To tell you the truth, there was nothing even between us that we could say move on..we were not friends nor enemys we were and still are strangers. I am afraid we will be nothing more then that. You don't love me, you just love the idea of me looking the way I do. I don't want you to feel bad Maan but you have to admit it with yourself and know that I am right. You were not the only one that made fun of me, when I moved to another graduating college, I was made fun of there too but when I changed my appearance, the same people started liking me and tried to become my friends. You are living in a dilousional world...our worlds are opposite..just accept it"
"How can you be sure my love is fake? Your eyes have been haunting me for a long time Geet...during college it was your eyes that attracted me to you...your eyes have so much of innocence in them..."
"yes my eyes might have haunted you but did your mind or heart ever tried to piece together to whom those eyes belong to? NO! Your heart and mind chose to ignore the body of which those eyes belonged too because I was not perfect. I have come a long way Maan and I don't wish to become the Geet I used to be again."
"But I want you to become that Geet...the Geet that used to be so clumsy, the Geet that threw up on me, that used to fall at any given moment, who used to Geet three ice creams at one time thinking its the last one in the world. I am not perfect Geet and maybe I am lying to myself saying I would have accepted you if you were chubby but all I know for today, tomorrow and in the future is that I want to be with you. I could see myself spending my life with you whether you are chubby or not." (He comes near her and holds her hand in his)
"Please Geet, I know you are engaged and it just kills me...please tell me that you feel the same way and I will leave you alone..tell me that you love me just as much as I love you..Please"
Geet looked directly into his eyes, there was so much of honsety and love for her in there...she did wanted to scream yes, yes she loves him, yes her heart belongs to her only and yes she feels the same way but she couldn't! Her promise to Armaan, her family and her promise were stopping her. She felt like she was betraying Armaan, she belonged to him now. Slowly, she lets go of his hand and turns around hiding her tears.
"Please leave Maan..please"
"Geet..." (he was about to touch her shoulder when the door opened. Armaan stood there looking at them in confusion. Maan steps back a little and smiles at him)
"Hey...were you guys having a meeting or something? Did I distrub you guys?"
"Ohh no..I was just uhh leaving" (maan says..he looks at Geet one more time who still had her back toward him and leaves. Geet composes herself and smiles at Armaan)
"Hey what are you doing here" (Geet asks as she sits down pretending to do work and act normal)
"I came to talk to you about last week. It has been a week since we talked Geet and I don't know I just want us to start anew and see where this goes. I know you are not ready for a relationship and I don't want you to force yourself either just because you have to."
"I will like that Armaan.." (She says in tears and hugs him tight letting out all her pain she had felt a moment ago with Maan..Armaan wraps his arms around her not knowing what was going on. Why she was crying)
Two days, has been passed and Maan never came to the office again. He never called or bothered her again. She should be happy right, he finally left her alone? Then why wasn't she? Why wasn't she satisfied with herself? Why did she miss his presence? Ugh her life is so weird right now.
On one hand, Armaan is trying to become the perfect boyfriend she once knew and on the other hand she is missing Maan and hoping he would collide with her one day. She felt like she needed to go and escape from this world where everything was so complicated. She just wanted to be gone where there were no problems and no people to worry about.
Armaan on the other hand gave her the privacy and space she had needed to understand their relationship. Their marriage was still on the talks and thankfully nothing has been finalized yet but that day is not too far either. Sooner or later she will have to accept this reality and stop avoiding it...marriage...For how long as she prolong this?
Geet sat at the same beach where she had the converstaion with Armaan. Nowadays, she likes being alone. The sounds of the waves crashing against the rocks, helps her mind tune off, helps her forget this.
"Thinking about me?" (Geet looks to her left side where Maan sat there with a smile. Great just what she needed right now)
"what are you doing here?"
"this is a public beach Geet, in case you haven't noticed. I was just walking by when I saw you" (Geet looks at his attire)
"Walking at the beach with your business suit?
"Yes, its quiet different and Maan Singh Khurana loves being different" (Geet roles her eyes and gets up to leave)
"Well you enjoy your uniquness. I will be going now"
Maan gets up too and starts walking few paces behind her. Geet trurns around to look at him and the minute she does, Maan stops lookign up at the sky as if it was the most beautiful thing in the world. She starts walking again and Maan does the same. Everything Geet stops Maan would pretend to look somewhere else.
"What do you want?"
"I am not doing anything...I am just taking a walk on this public beach...is that wrong?"
"Maan i already told you that.."
"Your name sounds so sweet from your mouth..please say my name again" (He says with a sly smile and steps closer to her..Geet steps back trying to maintain distance and not to loose herself with his aroma)
"I thought you had decided to leave me?"
"Yeah I did and after two days I decided I can't...Geet call it lust but I call this love...I can't stay away from you too long. I know i don't know you but I want to get to know you. Please"
"I am enagaged Maan and soon will be married why can't you get that?" (she yells at him in anger and tears. Maan holds her by her arms pulling her close to him so close that their bodies touched)
"why can't you understand that I love you? huh! I don't care if you are engaged or if you are going to be married, I will not leave you alone"
"You are acting like a psycho"
"Yes, a psycho that is in love with you and a psycho that will eliminate anyone that tries to come between us."
"You can't force me to love you"
"I know you already do and the day is not far when you start admitting it to yourself. For now, I will take your hatered and turn it into love sooner or later" (Geet tried to push him away seeing his intense eyes that were only looking at her..she felt like she was being hypnotized so she avoided looking into his eyes before she does something that will regret later on.)
"Please let me go"
"No, not until you admit that you love me..i can see it in your eyes.." (He pulls her more closer to her if that was even possible)
"I don't...I never did...it was just attraction that I had when I was in college now that attraction is gone...Happy?" (Maan smiles noding his head no...he knew she was lying)
"If it was just an attraction, then why did you keep a diary dedicated to me only? Why did you have pictures of me while I hung out with friends, why did you write Mrs.Maan Singh Khruana in the diary? Each and every word in that diary was dedictated to me...you call that just attraction?"
Geet looks at him as if he had grown an extra head...how does he know about the diary that she had destroyed long ago? How does he know what is inside that diary?
"Why are you lying to yourslf?"
"Wha...how how did you" (Geet couldn't form a sentence..she didn't know what to say..that diary was private how did he get it...)
"Your friend Meera gave me that diary after the party incident...she kept it all these years...that diary opened my eyes Geet and it made me fall in love with you all over again..give me a chance" (His eyes had honesty and depicted nothing but love for her...the love that she wanted to see in his eyes for her long ago, she felt so secure around him...she slowly raises her hand to touch his face lost in each other)
"Well, isn't this a beautiful scene"
Geet comes out of her thoughts, when she felt a push on her body. She looks at Maan hurt while his eyes remanined past her. Slowly, she turns around to see Armaan standing there looking at them with anger.
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