Chapter 04 : What shall I do?

Chapter 04. 

 ▌│▌║ What shall I do? ║▌│▌ .

Aayesha's POV.
Where are you Zaina? What's wrong with you?? I've been running through each and every cabin in our office I've almost run through all corridors yet she's nowhere to be found. What type of friend I am? I can never be a good friend or soulmate to anyone. My best friend was going through some sort of problem and I was just roaming around.

The last place left was the washroom. I have no way so I've to go and check her there. I opened the door and the sight in front of me sent a shiver down through my spine. Zaina? She's crying in between her hiccups ...her voice is horsey which says she has been crying for a long time. Her knees are pulled onto her chest and she has buried her face in it ...oh my God. What’s wrong with you Zaina?

Without wasting any more seconds I ran towards Zaina and embraced her in a hug. Very soon a pair of soft arms tightened around my shoulders. " Everything will be fine. Everything will be fine Zaina. I'm here with you " I tried my best to console my friend.

"Why Aayesha? Why do girls have to go through so much? You know one thing neither my life nor your life has given us anything but only pain and sorrow" Zaina said in her horsey voice which remembered me of Hussain and an unknown tear rolled down my cheeks. Before I could stop it Zaina said "I'm sorry Aayesh.. I didn't mean to hurt you. I’m sorry ". " No Zaina...nothing like that. please don't cry."

We remained in silence for a few minutes. Sometimes what you need is a peaceful environment.

Zaina's POV

The pain in my heart is unbearable. Why? Why should I be such a mess? Why is my life so messed up? It was nothing like this before. Everything was fine. Everything was right in place until I fell for him. Until I fell for my childhood best friend. IMRAN...

The pain in my heart is stabbing me like a knife. Why did I fall for him? How didI? When did my feelings turn into love? I always saw him as a friend until...I know I have been acting weird all these days. Days. Aayesha would keep on asking me what was the matter. Though I managed her with my small excuses and fake smile I knew Aayesha never believed me...But I have no other option. How can I say I've fallen for my best friend? What will Imran think of me?

Imran was good in every means. He's so cool and charming. Flirting...Umm...flirting is good for health......his formula. I never had a problem with it but nowadays seeing him with a girl kills me alive. Today I saw the way he was talking with Rosyand how Rosy was talking to him. I know he always saw me as a friend and would never love me. But I fell for him. Why Zaina? You know what will happen Zaina? then why Zaina?

Thinking of this, again and again, makes me sick. I was watching both Imran and Rosytalking. Aayesha was talking to me but my mind and soul were not listening to any of it. Every atom in my body was on the verge of slapping Imran and pullingRosy away but I know I can't. I didn't wait anymore. I didn't want to break in front of anyone. I ran away. I didn't know where I was running. I ran away as my legs carried me. 

Nowhere I am. Broken into a million pieces. Just like a piece of crap. I can't hold this anymore. I will say everything to Aayesha, "Aayesha. Aayesha I'm in love with Im--ran”. “I know that this is not good but I don't know why. I fell for him. I know I'm not a very good friend who fell in love with her best friend but Aayesha's love is all about heart. It falls for a person before your mind could even process it" an unknown tear ran on my cheeks.

"Iknow Zaina. The way you looked at Imran always told me that you were in love with him. But I was waiting for you to spit it out. But why are you speaking like this? Imran was and is a good friend for you and he will be a good life partner for you too. It isn't a fault to fell for your best friend. Understand itZaina. Talk with Imran. I know he loves you too" Aayesha said honestly. Though it sounded good I know she was saying that to console me.

"NoAayesha. It’s not like that. It's not so easy as you think Aayesha. What will Imran think of me? He is a very good friend of mine. Yet, see me I 'm loving him not as a friend but more than it. I don't know why this is so complex?" I spit out what was in my mind.

"Zainalisten to me. There is nothing like that you think. First, speak to him. No problems will be solved unless you speak and stand against it. Don't try to run away. Loving your best friend isn't a crime. You say him what you feel for him.I know what the answer will be. But yeah if you think he will say no I promise still you won't miss Imran. He will always be a good friend and bestie beside you. I will always be there for you too. Now listen to me Zaina. Go and speak to him" Aayesha said.

"ButAayesh..” “No, but and what Zaina. I don't want to hear anything from you. Talk to him. He was worried about you too". Aayesha told me. "Thank you. Thank you Aayesh ...Love you my crazy" I hugged Aayesha. No matter...whatever it is, a friend in need is a friend indeed, Aayesha was always there for me.

"By the by once you are with your Romeo don't forget this poor soul" Aayeshatold faking a heartbreak. "Well, I will think about it" I faked a thinking act. "You ... how dare you leave your poor friend? The one and only Aayesha?" Aayesha told with her signature smile. "Well no worries poor baby I'll try my best to have some time for you" and I ran with that before Aayesha could get me.

"oh really?" "Wait before I rip you into pieces" Aayesha ran behind me and in few seconds she caught me. For a few moments, we were silent until we both broke into fits of laughter. Everyone around was seeing us like these fellows are crazy... Who minds it?? " I love you, my angel," I told Aayesha. " I love you lots Shaitaan" Aayeshahugged me.

Now I have to face Imran. What will I say to him? How can I say him I'm in love with him? Idiot me...Stupid Imran you ruined me a lot. But Zaina is not going to back up. I will speak to him. I will express to him what I feel for him. I really do it? I've been neglecting Imran for the past few weeks. What do I say to him??

Talk about the devil and there he is. As I was hugging Aayesha I saw Imran passing by. He smiled at me which sent a tingle through my spine. But I saw something in his eyes. His smile didn’t reflect in his eyes. Was it Hurt? Angry?Love? He didn't walk to us but left the place with a smile to be said correctly a fake smile. Now, what's wrong with Imran?

Omg is everything fine with him? As a best friend, I should have been with him but because of my stupid feelings, I feared so I neglected him for weeks. Was he in any problem? What kind of a friend am I? He was fine this morning when he was talking with Rosy. Mentioning her name brings out the devil in me, I fisted my fingers to control my anger.

"Madam...Madam.Where are you?" Aayesha brought me out of my chain of thoughts. "Where are you Shaitaan? In the moon with your Romeo?" she nudged my arm. "Shut yaar. Don’t let the cat out" I smacked Aayesha’s head.  "Let's continue with our work before we are called by Aashiq'". " Then when are you going to talk to Imran?" Aayesha asked me.  "Very soon bae" I replied to her.

"Listen Zaina. Don’t waste any more time" I know Aayesha is not going to leave me very soon but I need some time to prepare myself " No worries Aayesh. I will speak to him. I promise. " Promise?" Aayesha repeated. "Promise". " Sach much?". " Sach much". " Pinky promise" Aayesha was really hilarious. “Pinky promise “I promised her.“Zaina." "Aayesha stop it yaar... Enough" I pushed her into her cabin and ran away before she starts again. 

Finally, I guess my problem is half solved. Now I've to talk to Imran.