Chapter 02 : Selfless Love

Vishva

@Guruvishva

Chapter 02

 ▌│▌║ Selfless love ║▌│▌ 

Aayesha's POV

"Hussain,

We needn't see each other every day...

We needn't speak every day...

We needn't be together...

We can be away from each other...

This journey was meant to be this way

This journey was meant to end before it even got into its destination.....

I loved you and still, I do...

This will be forever...

I will always love you....."

With the last few drops of tears, I kept my pen down. I'm sorry Hussain for everything I've done. I know a single word will not vanish all the pain I gave you. Wherever you are I want you to be happy. You deserve more. Masha Allah ! You will be blessed with more and more happiness.  All these months I and my diary had lots of things to say to you. You are my heartbeat, you are my soul but we aren't destined to be together.

The feel that I don't deserve you makes me go insane. Love; you were the one who showed me what was love, you made me live my life, every moment I lived with you... No matter what, whether you are with me or not you are always in my heart. I know you will hate me for what I've done to you. I want you to hate me. I'll never be back in your life Hussain; never again will I be in your life.

I tried a lot yet my tears betrayed me. Whenever I try to control it a fresh pair of new tears rolled down my eyes. All this pain and suffering. They say time heals one's pain but no in my life every moment I live the pain in my heart grows worse.

"Go away ..I never loved you...You were just a friend that's it. Yeah, maybe I was too much with you at times. Even I thought I was in love with you. No, I never fell in love with you. It was all a game, Mr.Hussain Asif."

I never thought such a day would come in my life. I broke your heart into pieces that can never be mended again. I broke your heart; I broke your trust, of all I broke your love. Even though love is described as the best feeling in the world, it is also capable of causing much sadness at times. I know that I am crying in vain. I know nothing will change. But it is difficult to ignore the person I love and to move away. It is difficult for me to live without you Hussain.

With much difficulty, I crawled on to my bed and hid under the blankets in search of sleep which I have lost in past months.  Today I was lucky enough as I slept without my sleeping pills.

The morning sunshine was peeping inside my room. I tried a lot to open my eyelids yet the efforts mattered a pin. I felt like tons of weight were loaded in my eyes.  With much difficulty, I rose up. I took my praying mat and went to pray to the Almighty when you have problems the one whom you could always trust was Allah. 

" Please keep everybody happy. May everyone get happiness in their life. Give Hussain all health and wealth he deserves. " When I pronounced his name unknowingly a pair of tears endured my eyes. Masha Allah "

Then I rolled back my prayer mat. It is true that whatever the problem you have once you share it with Allah you feel less burden and was I. With that energy I thought of starting my work. I had a bath. I dressed in blue jeans and a red t-shirt. I applied some lip gloss and some eyeliner because I always wanted to be simple as I could. With the last look of myself in the mirror, I got down.

I went into the kitchen and looked at something for my breakfast. Nobody lives here, I live all by myself. Thanks for Mr.Khurrana. If not him I wouldn't have got a house to live and a job to earn money.

I had nothing in my fridge. I took out a Maggi noodles packet then cooked and had it. It was already 7.00 am I've to be at the office at 7.30 am. After having my cup of milk I locked my house and rushed to the gate. There came my office car, after greeting  Mr.Shafaq, the driver I got into the car.

I greeted Zaina and Imran my besties in office. Here came the office " Khuranna's Company ". I've been working here for the last six months. The company was run by Mr.Aashiq son of Mr.Khuranna. He was in his late 20's, he was always very energetic and enthusiastic.

He was a successful business tycoon in this small age. Khuranna's Company was always placed first in the best construction company of the year. He took over his father's company on a great path. We all respected him and he was much friendlier with his employees.

I was Mr.Aashiq 's Personal Assistant, PA. He was always strict in his work. In spite of being friendly, he strictly followed rules. He gives great respect for punctuality. With a smile plastering on my lips I entered My boss 's room. It's a very large room. I still remember the first day I came here the first thing I did was to examine the room and wonder about its size. I was awestruck by the interior design. Anyone would love to work in such a place. 

I greeted Mr.Aashiq. " Good Morning Boss. Have a great day ". He always said every one to call him by his name but always I failed to do so. "Good Morning Miss.Aayesha. "Then I sat in my place and started my work. 

Aashiq's POV

"Good Morning Boss. Have a great day ", she greeted as always with the everlasting smile plastered on her lips. I always wanted people to call me by my name but Aayesha always failed to do it.  She is a very friendly girl. I have met many girls in my eyes but she was different, She had her own charm. Something in her makes her very special. I don't know why but I feel something towards her.

I saw her eyes were swollen. Very often I find here in such a manner. Her lips always endure a smile but I don't know why but I feel that her smile did not reach her eyes. For everyone out, she was very cool and normal but now she wasn't. I've noticed her many times. She controls her tears a lot. She is lost in her pool of thoughts. At times she forgets what's going around her. This girl has something in her heart but she's not ready to share neither did I want her to push.

At our lunch breaks being her friend I've asked her many times about her problem but whenever I questioned her she always plastered a fake smile on her lips and answered me that smile she had no problems. What else could I do? I even asked papa about her but even he replied to me that he knew nothing. Coming out of my pool of thoughts I cleared my voice and thought of asking Aayesha what was her problem. I know she would again do the same drama but yet I'll give a try.

"Aayesha are you not well? Do you need any leave ? ", when I asked this question I saw that she gulped the lump in her throat, and then as excepted she cleared her thought looked up at me with a frown, acting to be normal.  "No boss.umm...No Aashiq, I don't need any leave. I'm fine. Why what's the problem is any of your girlfriend coming to meet you today? If so I'll leave right now. I won't be there to disturb you guys" she replied trying to be cool.

At least she laughed in such a cause which relieved me a lot. But ..wait what my girlfriend? Who was that? " Aayesha who said you that I have girlfriends? "

Aayesha: "So Aashiq you have girlfriends? You never said to me ... Kamal hai yaar"

Aashiq: "No I never had any. Who said to you ? I promise I never had any such " I held my Adam 's apple and promised.

Aayesha: " Don't lie to me Aashiq. You don't have a girlfriend ! It's unbelievable !"

Aashiq : * Pulled my collars up * " Yeah no wonder you are shocked that such a handsome hunk doesn't have a girlfriend, But truly I have none "

Aayesha: " Shokiii(Person who shows off) ...Here comes the boasting king " 

Aashiq: " Don't be jealous ... I know I'm pretty handsome and no girl can withstand me and I don't have to boast "

Aayesha: "Oh yeah! Ok ok,I agree you are hot, handsome and pagal (mad). Loll "

Aashiq: "Ayesha!!"

Aayesha: " Ok Ok, apart from jokes have you ever fallen in love Aashiq "

I never believed in love and when Aayesha asked this question deep in her eyes I saw something but I wasn't able to figure it out. When I tried to reply something hitched in my throat. What was that? Why couldn't I reply to her? 

I never believed in love but now my own voice betrays to say it aloud. Why was that? Have I....? No that is impossible .. Then what was this ??

Ok, this is awkward. I cleared my throat. I scratched my neck and started to speak ."Ummm. ..Aayesha..."

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