Roli was sitting in the office garden alone , drenched in tears gazing at ground and was lost in her thoughts...
I was wrong , from the first day I was wrong , that day when he saved me from car don't know what was in my mind , how can I even think to share my whole life with a stranger but that day I felt like I know him but today it feels like I don't know a bit about him , I still don't know why his presence makes me feel good , makes me feel secure , don't know why always I get lost in his eyes in his smile , I was linking my future with him I was mad to have a dream to live with him , to have a family with him but he already have a family of his own and I don't know about it.. and he too never told me ..huh.. when will he tell we never talked ....we never talked , he was dropping me to my house every night but we never talked , no one is as foool as me , he knows everything about me ... he asked my whereabouts my family my past , present everything on my first day in office and me didn't even know that he has a son and prem , I myself went to him talked to him made him my friend but never asked who is your father who is your family , I was so dumb to think him just a relative of Sid , don't I have a common sense to think that why will Sid love prem this much even more than his life , Sid has never said that prem is his son but prem he too never called him Papa before , he always uses Hitler , superhero like words and the way Sid used to pamper him , treat him only a father does this , I was mad that I didn't even asked him about his family and made assumptions by myself and started dreaming about him who is already committed to someone ... after meeting him I thought I still have reason to live , reason to smile , I thought I have someone who will make me laugh , make me feel special , make me feel complete but no I was wrong he is not for me , he is made for someone else so what if she died I think he still loves her and prem to confirmed that Sid loves someone else and of course it's his wife who else , he has kept those letters till now it means he misses her and also loves her but if this is true then what was between us I am sure it was just not the friendship then what , why I feel that he loves me , why his eyes shows he loves me , he wants me , WHY... or it's just because I want to see those things , maybe it is my wish to see love for me in his eyes that's why I always try to find love in his eyes which in actual exist but for his wife not for me and he never confessed that he loves me , I thought he is everything for me after my family may be because I am searching a companion for me as I don't have anyone and that time he came into my life as a friend but it was me who was thirsty for love , for attention not he , it was me who was trying to search a glimpse of my family in him like that day comparing him with my brother when he treated my wound and next that day like my father when he kissed me, may be I would have been attracted to any other person if he haven't came in my life ..but I love him , Don't he knows that I think he knows that still he didn't stopped me even he too was coming closer to me then what was that , was that love or just he was flirting with me or he just ..just used me as I have no one to complaint about this , is he trying to take advantage of mine loneliness , he knows that I am falling for him , he knows that whenever he comes close to me I have always submitted myself in front of him and he knows that I am getting lost in him day by day still he didn't told anything and was spending time with me .. I was not knowing and was thinking him as a single but he...he already knew that he is married and also have a son then why he was trying to come close to me what was his intentions ..why he did like this with me .. whyyyy....he would have told me about his wife , about his son then I would have never been close to him and Never ever tried to go near him crossing the limit of a friend , then I would have been only his friend and also have not let him to come near me .... But no he didn't told me anything , he cheated on me , he betrayed me... nothing is left in my life , everything is finished and again I'm left alone , just ALONE....
Roli cried aloud thinking about her fate that she has no one in her life , she is alone all over again , she feels broken , the pain of being alone is killing her and over that Sid's behavior , she is unable to configure about what's truth and what's not , she thinks Siddhant betrayed her , he has broken her trust which she had on him from the first day , she thinks it's Sid mistake that he Didn't shared anything about his life and took advantage of her trust and used her as per his wish , he can tell her about himself but he didn't and even today she got to know it accidentally , if she wouldn't have reached at that Time May be he wouldn't have shared about this ever , she was feeling so cheated and being used by the person whom she trusted so much after her family ..
she was crying and tears were scrolling down her cheeks making it wet ... suddenly she felt a hand is wiping her tears , she looked up to see who is that , he was prem who was also having a sad face seeing her crying like this , somewhere prem feels that what all is happening is because of him and he is responsible for all her tears and of course Sid's almost broken relationship with his first love..
Roli was already angry on Siddhant thinking he used her and now prem is standing here in front of her , she wasn't In a state to talk anything so she removed his hand which was wiping her tears and said " prem please go , I don't want to talk anything right now ..please leave me alone go inside sir will be searching for you.."
Prem took his hand down , he was feeling bad that how Roli removed his hand , he kept his head down and said in low voice " he won't he knows I am in garden ... I informed him before coming here .."
" Ohh..but please leave me alone.." Roli requests from prem and turned her face another side against prem which hurts him little and of course to Roli too she doesn't want to took out all her frustration on kid so she was trying to ignore him before she becomes rude to him..
" Please don't cry ... I don't like you crying " prem states still looking down
Roli : please prem told you right leave me alone..
Prem : I won't go ..why are you crying Don't cry , you can share with me if you are in any problem...
Roli : what matters to you if I have problem or not ...and if I have any problem you won't understand that so please leave me alone...
Prem : it matters to me because you are my friend ...( Roli looked at him as he said 'you are my friend' , a tear fell down her eyes seeing him ) ...and I know I am not that much big to understand your problem but I didn't said I will solve your problem I just said that you can share your problem with me ..
Roli : but what is the use to share when you can't even understand and is not even able to solve it..
Prem : you know everyone In the house shares there problem with me even after knowing that I won't understand and won't be able to help them... once I asked Papa about this , you know what he said ( Roli nodded no and looked at him waiting for his answer ) ..he said it feels better , it feels like some burden is removed as he had shared it with me , he says when you are in any problem and don't find any solution then you get frustrated by it and negative thoughts started coming in your mind and when you share this with others you feel relieved thinking that someone is with you who is ready to share your pain , your problem this gives you confidence to stand strong and he said why they chose me because I won't take any type of tension over it because I don't have any idea about what they are talking and won't even will try to find any solution , it won't affect me at all but for them it will help them to remove some load from there head... honestly saying I don't know what he was trying to say , what was the meaning of all the lecture but I know one thing for sure that by sharing you will feel that you are not alone and I don't want my friend to feel that she is alone that's why asking you to share it with me...
Roli was looking at him for a moment then pulled him in a hug which she needed badly and cried on his shoulder silently and prem was stroking her back...prem released the hug and wiped her tears then asked " now tell me why are you crying..."
Roli was not knowing and was thinking what should she tell to him , how can she tell that she loves his father without knowing anything about him and now what should she do when she got to know he is already married ...she thinks alot and then finally came to conclusion and said " nothing ..just was missing my family and felt lonely that's it .. ( after a little pause she asks ) .. don't you miss your mom..."
Now it was time for prem , he was in dilemma that should he tell the truth or should he continue the drama ,he was not knowing what to do , once he thought to tell the truth that everything was lie but again he stopped as he is afraid , he don't want to make it more mess already he has done alot and this time he don't want to take any action before confirming it from Siddhant so he thought to continue the same but again stuck , what should he tell ....??? After so much of thinking he remembered that they had planned to show that his mother means Sid's imaginary wife died just after giving birth to prem so he doesn't know anything about his mother , he thought to use this and said " I will remember only when I will have any memory of her ..( Roli looked at him confused ...) Uhh...woh she died just after giving birth to me so I don't have any memory of her and ..and I am the only kid in the house so I call Papa's mom , dad as mom dad because everyone in the home calls them like that in this way I also have mom... that's why.."
Roli felt more pain as she got to know that he doesn't have any memory of his mother but felt relief that he still have someone to whom he can call as Mom , she hugged him and said " sorry I didn't mean to.."
Prem cuts her in middle and said " no friend , why are you saying sorry ..it's ok .. leave all that and tell me how are feeling now .."
Roli smiled and cupped his face then said " better because I have you with me ..and I am not alone .."
Prem : hmmm..and from now on you will never say that you are alone I am always with you and yaa whenever you feel you are missing your family then talk to your friend , me or anyone else it will make you feel better and if you want you can talk to Papa also he can help you in any of your problem , he too never leave his friends Alone and will surely support you..
Roli's head shrinks little on the name of Sid but she didn't reacted much and just nodded as ok and then asked prem to go inside as they will be tensed if you are not there and she will join him after few minutes ..
Prem accepted and went after kissing her on her Cheeks and she again lost in her thoughts..
Prem entered the office he was satisfied little after seeing Roli Normal again but now the tension is he has to tell about his lie to Sid and Amar so that they can handle it later ..he first went in Amar's cabin but it was empty he thought to share it from him first as he doesn't know that how Sid will react over it but Amar is missing...he was going to Sid's cabin but before that Nishant saw him and asked " what are you doing here , are you searching for someone .."
Prem : yes woh papa...
Nishant : he is in meeting with Amar sir in his cabin
Prem : ohh..who else is there ...
Nishant : Ravi sir , Adi sir and Rishu mam is also there
Prem : ohh...ok ..it means he is busy and it won't be good to disturb him let me wait for this meeting to end...( He looked at Nishant and said ..) uhh..can you help me..( Nishant nodded and asked " yes tell me.." ) can you inform him that I am waiting in cafeteria when there meeting gets over ...
Nishant : yeah sure you don't worry I will inform him..he smiled and ruffles prem's hair..
Prem thanked him and went into cafeteria ...he sat on the table which is always used by Sid and was watching TV which is present in cafeteria especially after his demand , he asked Sid to arrange a TV in his office so that he can use it when he comes here..after sometime there was no trace of Sid , he felt little hungry and went into the little kitchen of cafeteria which is in take care of ' Mohan Kaka ' who is the eldest member in this office and never allows anyone to use his kitchen other than him because they make it messy he asks them to order and he will make for them , everyone calls him ' Kaka ' , he is also an older member from rajendra time and everyone respects him too ... Prem went to him and he said " Kaka , I am feeling little hungry can you make chocolate milkshake for me .. please.."
Kaka smiled and ruffling prem's hairs said " ok beta , you wait there I will make your tasty tasty chocolate milkshake ok.."
Prem took his both hands and kissed it saying " thank you Kaka .." and then he went out to sit on the chair again leaving a smiling Kaka behind who was smiling on his cuteness and then he too went to make milkshake...
Another pair of eyes were looking at prem and was smiling evilishly , it was Naina , from morning she was finding an opportunity to take her revenge over prem and now only he is alone and Sid is also not with him so she thought it's the chance to play her game and now for that she made a plan ...
When Kaka was done with milkshake he poured it in a glass and was about to go out Naina entered inside and said " Kaka woh.. actually coffee machine is not working can you see it once.. you can give him milk later actually I have lots of work and don't have time so can you see that first.."
Kaka : ok ok .. I will see to it ..he went out to see that what happened to Machine and in mean Time Naina mixed chilli powder in prem's milkshake and mixed it properly then was smirking thinking " now you will get to know what happens when you go against me... prem baby ..." She remembered how she removed the plug of machine from behind and told kaka that it's not working , she laughed but stopped after seeing Kaka entering ..
Kaka : it was nothing beta , woh plug was out from shocket that's why it wasn't working...
Naina making an innocent face said " ohh...and I thought something is wrong with machine and thanks for your help " and then she moved from there after giving a glance over milkshake..
Kaka took the glass and gave it to Prem ...and prem too took that and thanked him again then was about to drink but Kaka warned him that it will be hot so he stopped and was waiting for it to be cooled and Naina was waiting eagerly to see him drinking that chilli milkshake...
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Otherside in garden Roli was still in thoughts , she was not able to come to any conclusion ...she was thinking about prem's words and said to herself " prem was right , as I'm unable to get solution I am getting frustrated and that's why all these negative thoughts are coming in my mind ...and I Know Siddhant is not that type of guy who will do like this , it's my misconception that he used me , he is not a person to do this cheap thing, definitely I am only thinking over and I can't blame him alone , it was my mistake too I also should have stopped him , it was my mistake that if he didn't told anything about him than it's my responsibility to ask from him ... it's totally wrong to blame him like this...first I have to talk to him over it and this time I won't stay silent and will surely ask that what relationship is between us..."
Roli stands up from the bench and then with a determined face went inside towards Sid's cabin.....
The promo was a perfect prompt for me to write something in my ishtyle! ...
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Soujanya @Soujanya_ROSID
+ 3
3 years ago
Nice update... Roli and Prem scene was cute... Good that roli thrown her negative thoughts... Stupid naina is trying to take revenge on Prem... Hope someone will stop Prem from drinking milkshake... Eagerly waiting for next update...
Manasa @MessyMind
+ 2
3 years ago
Prem comforting roli was cute and emotional. Good that roli thrown her negative thoughts away about sid. But, naina.. evil b!t¢# trying to take revenge on kid. Hope someone will stop prem from drinking it. Update next soon.
Vardhini @vardhinirosid
3 years ago
Super update, sorry for late comments, felt bad about roli , poor her so many negtive thoughts sorrounded her felt bad when she cried saying she became alone again, loved prem gesture and his words saying sharing pain will reduce her negtive thoughts he asked her to share even though he didnt understand, and he want to tell truth but he didnt want to mess again his thinking was nice and naina😡 that idiot how can she be such heartless fellow showing her dirty tricks on little soul i want sid to throw her out of office such an idiot she is 😡😡 so roli decided to talk with sid, she felt she mis understood sid that was nice now hope roli get to know the truth waiting for next dear