Few hours ago
Swara waited nervously as Niharika existed and Sanskar entered the house , she noticed that he had carried a file in his hand .
She waited patiently for him to speak up ,as she knew it won't be her who starts up the conversation ,after all the time she lashed at him ,including the last time where she went to the extent of slapping him . She was nervous as the thought she might be wrong had taken a firm place in her mind
" Swara, I wont be able to say everything i want in fifteen minutes. When Doctors advised us to not over burden you with information ,we thought it was best for you not to know about our marriage.
As you had a misconception about me which was evident when you taught i was the one who tried to kill you . But hiding things from you didnt seem to work at all, you found out all the things we didnt tell you at the wrong time from the wrong people.
Now you feel like you cant trust me the one person you used to trust more than anyone in the world. So i am sorry Swara but today i have to talk about everything but do let me know if you are not feeling okay at anytime i will stop immediately. Your health is more important than anything" Sanskar spoke up first and swara realized the truth behind his words , she never gave him a chance to explain before and she decided this time around she will listen and then will talk ,so she nodded her head in answer and waited for him to continue.
Sanskar knew to gain Swara trust words won't be enough ,so he gently handed over the file to her and waited for to take it from him and she took it from him with slight hesitation .
" I know you wont trust me unless you saw some proof. So here you go this is the FIR copy of your accident. It long and you can take it and read it later , but just read this last part i highlighted, it clearly says i shot Rajat,not Swara. And it also states i was deemed not guilty because i shot him to save my wife and that would be you.
So how can i both try to kill you and save you at the same moment. Plus look at the witness statements. Can you see the names that include your sister and father .Do you think all this people saw it wrongly .
And you were the only one right. Or you think they would be cold hearted enough to support me if i did shoot you. Also the report indicates they closed the case thinking you were dead.
To this whole world you were dead Swara but not for me.I knew you would be alive. See those posters of missing persons and the advertisement in the newspaper for missing persons in the file .
The police refused to search for you and only waited for the news if a body was washed ashore , as to them i looked like lunatic trying to keep thinking his wife is alive and not accepting the fact she is dead.
Even my family thought i was crazy to believe you were still alive Swara. But i knew that you were alive. And so I searched for day and night to find you. As fate would have it when I finally got to meet you , it was to hear you accuse me of trying to kill you " he spoke up and swara knew what he said made sense and yet she can't forget he paid goons to harm her either .
" What about the goons , I saw you pay them from my own eyes " she spoken up and hated the accusation in her tone .
" I only handed them the cash that fell from their pocket Shona , I know you won't believe it ,so I have went and found some CCTV camera in the park. The pics aren't that clear but if you check the last page in the file ,you will see the photos in sequence " Sanskar spoke up and Swara immediately turned the pages to find the one he mentioned . It was a series of screenshots from the cctv footage which proved that he was speaking the truth .
" I am sorry for the accusation but I don't feel like I loved you , I should know right deep down " Swara spoken up as she realized all her accusation were wrong.
" I think everyone has told you about how much we used to love each other.And i know you dont feel like trusting any of them. How can you when you dont have memory of us .
But i know you will believe one person. You dont remember Swara but there was a time when i refused to believe you loved me as well, not because i cant trust you but because it seemed like a dream i can never dare to dream .Do you know what changed my mind and he played her confession she recorded for him back in those days. Cant you hear the sincerity in your voice. Cant you hear the love in your Voice .I dont ask you to believe anyone but yourself.Not anyone words but yours."he spoke with confidence and swara knew the confidence stemmed from the fact he trusted her love for him unlike her .
Hearing her confession broke her resolve to stay unattached , she loved him the realization was bit overwhelming . Yet her mind was fixated on one question.
" But things might have changed later. Not all married couple remains happy forever . "She spoke up as the need to know she was happy with him came first.
" Well do you know what was the last thing you said before falling into the river. You can ask anyone who were there that fateful day they will say the same,even when my grip on your hand failed,even when i failed to hold on to you from falling into the river. You still said that you love me Swara. And now you cant believe we used to be happily married .Fine you want to know if we were happy not just when we got married but recently too. ." he asked and took out his mobile and handed it to her ,at her confused look he directed her towards the folder named Swara .
She did as told, hoping to see some more picture of them that was taken recently but it was password protected and she couldnt access it with out a password.
" It is password protected "she told him and waited for him to say the password.
" Check the hint ."he said and it made her angry .
" Can't you just say the password " she demanded instead .
" I don't know ,it a folder you created swara and only you knew the password " he answered back which made her anger deflate as she realized how frustrating it must be for him that she lost her memory.
" It says important day of our lifes " she spoke up as she checked the hint and he gave list of dates and she tried each one of them after three tries the app locked itself for next five minutes which frustrated her ,for she expected him to atleast know the important day of their life's .
" It locked for five minutes, now tell me what those three dates significance because apparently it seemed like I didn't find it the most important one" She answered back and regretted it when a flash of pain passed in his face at her remark
" It was our wedding dates , Because we got married that many times Swara.It might be hard for you to believe but we had three marriages, one simple house wedding with just one ritual,followed by kind of forced wedding for both of us and lastly our recent wedding where you even escaped from jail to marry me.. " he spoke up and it took swara a moment to come to terms with the fact she married him three times and the realisation she didn't remember gave her a slight headache
She let a small moan of pain as she clutched her head which made Sanskar freak out as he insisted they stop and almost went to get back Niharika.
" Sorry Swara.I didnt mean to burden you with all this information.Let stop for now ."he insisted and yet swara wanted to know everything and the phone in her hand indicated she still needs to know what in the folder
" No i am fine.I want to get this over with and i am not backing out.Tell me some other dates "she answered back
Sanskar Maheshwari thought he knew his wife.But why cant he guess the date that was important to her.Finally he came up with an another date and it worked the folder was opened much to Swara relief.
" What was the date. " Swara can't help but ask in her curiosity.
"It the day we finally got back together after one hurricane named Kavitha happened.You dont need to know the details as you already got headache .Just remember that day was when we both mutually confessed to each other ." he answered back with a wistful smile as he remembered the day .
While swara fumed with anger over the name Kavitha and she wasnt in the mindset to think more about it as she opened the folder to find so many audio files
" It your personal diary for me" he answered at her unspoken query at her confused expression he explained in detail
" I didnt believe you at first when you said you loved me.But your recorded confession changed my mind. So later when he finally got back together.I told you that i would love to have lot of recording like that from you. From the day onwards you started recording a small clip about the day,about us. For every single day.You didnt let me listen to it . And you told me you will give it to me once an year has passed.
But sadly we are here even before that .Now go on listen to the latest entry and see if we are still happily married or not " he spoke up and waited for her to do so
Swara quickly searched for the latest entry , It was the day before her accident no longer her attempted murder.She pressed the play button. And her voice soon filled the room.
" I am worried Sanskar, I know we can save Uttara and Pari bhabhi.With you by my side i can do anything but for some reason i have this uneasy feeling about tomorrow. Rajat is pure evil and i really feel something will terribly go wrong . I hope nothing like that happens.But still i cant stop worrying.If anything happened to you i wont be able to survive. I am sure we both will laugh at this message when you get to hear it still I am worried now " her voice ended with the note of fear
That was the last entry.So as everyone said they were happily married enough that she was more worried about him than anyone else. Back in real time she looked at Sanskar who seem to be more affected by her words.
" As you can see swara you loved me that much and i love you more than you can imagine and please trust me , i wont even dream of harming you. Take the file , listen to the recordings and you will realize your Sanskar will never harm you. All i am asking you to give me a chance.
We started from being enemies,to friends then only we fell in love with each other.I know you have lost your memory .I know i am not a part of your memory. And I dont expect you to accept me as your husband like right now. All i ask from you is that you trust in the fact i am not your enemy , And if possible can we become friends.
You used to think of Kissan as your friend right.Instead of thinking of me as your husband .Think of me as your friend Sanskar. Take all the time you need Swara but please dont keep believing my intention was to harm you .
And it seems like a tough ask but all i am asking you right now is to trust me. Trust me that i will not harm you, trust me that i will not force you to accept our marriage. All i am asking from you is a little trust ,so that you can get to know the real me.While Swara Gadodia can live without Sanskar Maheshwari..I cant. So allow me to be a part of your life atleast as a friend for now. " Sanskar finished speaking up and swara tried valiantly from not letting the tears fall at his words. It moved her beyond words and yet she hid behind silence and her mind was filled with million thoughts.
Of course it looked like he was right and she was wrong in her opinion of him .And all his actions and words so far have made one thing clear that he loves her and all her words made it clear that she loved him as well .
But the fact is she doesnt remember anything.This beautiful story seems like someone else story not hers. How can she stay in this marriage when she cant love him the same way she used to love him back then.
Her thought process came to an halt when Sahil barged in .Thus bringing an halt to their conversation when Swara was very close to accepting his friendship .
Now she was back in her room , With his phone on her hand ,headphones in her ear contemplating what to hear first.She choose the very first one.It was a very short but sweet message of her. Telling Sanskar how much she loved their first date . She heard Ragini her sister explaining the date. She saw those pics adorning her walls . But to hear her say it out was something else. She could feel her happiness bursting forth and swara cant remember a moment she was happy like how she sounded on the record.
Then she choose one more entry randomly, Apparently it was the day of their marriage. She dont know why but it looks like they got separated on that day, Swara recording of that day was filled with sadness at being apart from him on the very special day.
When Dadi said she will walk like a living Zombie if separated from him she didnt believe but hearing her voice filled with such sadness at being separated from him, Swara can finally realize just how much she loved him .
Slowly she listened to few more of those recording. As each one get played , Swara realizes that she was wrong once again. She loved him and He loved her . She was the happiest when she was with him and Saddest when she was not without him .
At the moment she realized maybe she should have said yes and accepted his friendship While Swara doenst know how she feels about her marriage. She cant have him Suffer her hatred any longer when all he did was just love her. So if he wants friendship of Swara .She was more than willing to consider that option. And now the biggest problem she faced was how to say it to him .
P.S :" That it for now , Let me know your thoughts and feedback .Hit the votes if you liked it "
Love
Nita
A widow, Gauri met her long lost friend Omkara in a family function, who still ...
Life Journey of two people poles apart in career, status and style. One is the ...
Drabbles for Shrimad Ramayana Contest
Comments (0)
View all