Chapter 5

Cannot Touch, Cannot hold..

Your touch always made me feel like I am the luckiest person of this world. But now I..I just cannot feel that.

Cannot be together..

I know you want to know the truth and want us to be together again but it's not possible. I don't want you to be the victim of this cruel world like I have been.

Cannot Love, Cannot Kiss..

Cannot have each other..

I still Love you, the love which have no boundaries, no limits. But this time, again I have

to show that I don't wanna be with you but the actual reason will always be that I don't

want to ruin your life.

Must be strong and We must let go..Cannot say what our hearts must know..

We really gotta be strong and you should move on because I can't give you the happiness you deserve. I know that you love me and you know that I love you too but this love should remain hidden.

How can I not love you?
What do I tell my heart?
When do I not want you here in my arms?
How does one waltz away from all of the memories?

I really don't know what to do when you are so near to me, when I have the chance to be always in your arms, safely. I have to stay away from you but what can I do when your memories haunt me.

Cannot dream
Cannot share sweet and tender moments
Cannot feel how we feel
Must pretend it's over
Must be brave and we must go on
Must not say what we've known all along

I should stop dreaming about you now because you are someone else's dream, the one who can give you respect in this world and love which you deserve. I can just give you the darkness of my life...Nothing else!

How can I not love you?
What do I tell my heart?
When do I not want you here in my arms?
How does one waltz away from all of the memories?
How do I not miss you when you are gone?
How can I not love you when are gone?

Kriya wrote her morning diary as usual and tried to concentrate on the newspaper she

was reading but the scenes from yesterday were never leaving her mind. His soothing

touch and appeasing voice was like a band-aid on a bleeding wound. On his touch

once she thought that it's the end of her miseries but her mind struck and reminded of

her cruel past and seeming to be horrible destiny. So she made up her mind that night to

stay away from him.

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Rey on the breakfast table with his mom.

"Mom wo jo larki, I mean Kriya.. Uss ko aap kub se jaanti hain?" Rey asked reluctantly.

"Uss k bachpan (childhood) se" Aanchal replied casually.

Rey: Mom aap janti hain kia k uss k saath kia hua?

Aanchal: Kiun tum kiun pooch rahe ho?

Rey :Aap bus bataen naa..

"Beta, Rey main jaanti hoon tum ye sub kiun pooch rahe ho." Aanchal said as a matter of fact.

What..Kia jaanti hain aap? (Rey asked almost getting out of his seat).

Aanchal: Rey wo ye k...

Rey: k kia mom aap.. aap mujhe bata kiun nahi rahi hain.

Aanchal: Beta ye k tum aur Kriya Mumbai may relationship may thay She replied calmly.

Rey: Tou phir aapne mujhe pehle kiun nahi bataya? (He was also calmed now)

Aanchal: Kabhi sahi time hee nahi tha.

Rey: Aap ye jaanti kese hain?

Aanchal: As you know main aur Smriti, uss k maa childhood friends hain. Hum college

time tuk ikathay rahe per phir main tumhare dad se shaadi k baad shimla chali gayi. 2

saal baad loti (returned) tou phir Smriti k husband ki transfer Mumbai ho gayi.Uss k

husband ko dance se nafrat thi but Smriti ko dance buhut pasand tha. Aik din uss k

husband k aik dost ne unko aik dance show kaa ticket bheja. Wo Smriti aur apne dost

k kehne per wahan chala gaya. Wo apne dost k saath backstage kuch kaam karwa

raha tha k fire dance stunts k equipment se kisi tarha uss k kapro ko aag lag gayi and

he...he passed away...Uss din se Smriti ko bhi dance se

nafrat ho gayi. Kriya uss waqt do saal ki thi. Uss ne Kriya ko humesha dance se door

rakha cuz wo nahi chahti thi k woh Kriya ko bhi kho de. (She paused)

Rey who was listening patiently moved here and there a bit on his chair with an annoyed expression on his face due to his mum's pause.

Aanchal started again, "Smriti Kriya ko le kar wapis Dehradun , apne hometown aagayi

kiun k woh uss ko Mumbai may bhi rakhna nahi chati thi as uss ko lagta tha k dance

uss city ki jaron (roots) may hai sur woh kisi bhi tarha Kriya ko dnce k paas bhi nahi

rehne de sakti thi. But Kriya k andar chote hote se hee naturally dance kaa talent tha

and when she grown up into a young lady that talent changed into passion. Yahan

Dehradun may dance kaa koi future nahi tha so uss ne apni maa se buhut zid ki k woh

Mumbai shift ho jaen. Smriti ne Kriya ki baat maan li but uss se promise liya k wo

kabhi dance nahi karegi. Woh donon uss promise k saath Mumbai shift ho gaeen. Phir

tum tou mujhse ziada jaante ho k wahan uss ne kiun aur kese apne passion ko fulfil

kiya. Smriti ko uss k dance yaa tumse relationship kaa nahi pata tha but one day she

found out everything. Uss ne Kriya se phir promise liya k woh apne foot-loose elims

per jaa sakti hai agar woh uss k baad humesha dance say aur tumse apna rishta tor

degi."

Rey face turned into a shocked O shape. "Aur phir uss ne college chor diya, Right? Rey asked impatiently waiting for his mum to speak up more.

"Haan uss ne college chor diya. I don't know tum donon k beech tub kia hua yaa kese

break-up hua. Anyways Smriti aur Kriya wapis Dehradun aagaye. Smriti ne mujhe sub

kuch bataya jis se mujhe ye pata hai. Tub se Kriya ne hasna bolna chor diya. Wo pehle

wali Kriya nahi rahi. Smriti buhut tension may rehne lagi aur us ski tabiat bhi kharab

rehne lagi. Kriya ne apni Maa ki ye halat dekhi tou uss ne apne aap ko forcefully theek

kiya. Uss ne dobara yahan college join kiya aur apni maa k liye khush rehne lagi. Smriti

ki health be better hone lg gayi but aik din achanak uss ko...uss ko heart attack ho

gaya.." Aanchal paused and took a deep cold sigh.

Sadness was visible on Rey's face too.

"Phir..phir wo bhi ye dunya chor gayi" Aanchal started again. "Kriya was again heart-

broken. Aik aur beloved one kaa lose...uss k liye bear karna buhut mushkil tha..Main ne

buhut koshish ki k uss ko wapis normal life ki taraf laoon. Uss ne mere bar bar kehne

per wapis apna college join kiya. Wahan kuch gang k log as students parhte thay. Unn

ko kaheen se pata chal gaya k Kriya ki mom ki death ho gayi hai and us ski mom ki aik

property jo uss k dad ne uss ko gift kit hi ab Kriya k naam hai. Issi liye wo uss k

peeche par gaye. Kriya ko tou ye pata bhi nahi tha k wo property uss ki maa legally

uss k naam kar gayi hai iss liye woh gang jub bhi uss se questions poochta wo humesha

deny kar deti."

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