Hello guyssss
So yes…I am back with an Update as promiseddd….and to be honest to you guys when I started writing this out – I did not intend to have this stand out as one Single Chapter of its own…and this long too..but as I was writing it…my fingers just went with the flow with the thoughts in my heads that I felt would do Justice to Khushi’s innerself as she was preparing herself for this for so so long!
And its 17k plus some words Guys.
I totally wanted to just focus on this bit since its so so so important to our lead protagnists Khushi’s character development and I totally felt that Our Sunshine deserved these moments to herself – for she has come such a long long way and this was so so important to her!!
And now I shall let you all dive in without further Delay!
Please put on your seatbelats for a emotional Roller Coaster of a Update as Khushi sits on her first flight after the Crash with her Hoodie Guy by her Side!
Please ignore editing errors guys as I have not proofread!
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CHAPTER 45 – Some Destined to be‘Monumental’ Days of Our Lives
Khushi's POV
So.
I had been shoved straight against the wall,within two minutes of us starting to kiss each other.
And I think we have been at it for a bit.
Yet..
I cannot let go of His Lips.
And He cannot Let go of Mine.
There is absolutely nothing new about it though.
The Two of US CAN LITERALLY NEVER Kiss each other enough!
LIKE NEVER!
FOR IT IS SO SO SO SO SO SO SO FREAKING ADDICTIVE!
And.
We both Know we need to rush to the Airport Soon.
But we still can't Stop.
And just the way Arnav is holding me right now and his lips continuing to duel and dominate over mine over and over again – and his hands already caressing my back frame with both his hands over my jeans and the way he now pulls me closer into himself tells me that he is definitely not going to be the one to break away from our crazy sensual deep kiss, and I would have to initiate to break away reluctantly or we would probably get late now!
Ohh Godaamit Me!
I soooooooo do not want to pull apart from his Lips though.
But I have to.
So I try as I break apart now and I am heaving with my eyes closed,as he has buried his head now in the crook of my neck and immediately starts to unleash his magical Carnage on my neck and I tremble as usual but I say getting the words out – “ Love...I think...we need to get...going..now..dont we??..Ar..nav..”, I finish with a sensual moan as I feel both his hands now cup each of my backsides and caress it deeply as he pulls my lower body closer into his and pushes his closer into mine making the moment in between of us electrically hot and torturous and on reflex...I end up tilting my head to the side to give him more access to continue with his torture and I end up pushing my lowerself into him too and he groans in sheer desire now as his hands deepen their caress and his lips leaves a hard and urgent stamp over the base of my side neckline and then he starts to soothes it with its tongue sensually and I whisper trembling- “ goshh...Love...we..r.eally..need to get going...or we would...oh..Arnav..please...”, but he wont stop with his torture but now he sends out a curse in my ear and he whispers into my ear,in between sensual kisses on my earlobe – “ Sunshine...the drive to the airport is a quick one and I think we have some more time...Ravi will call us on the extension when we all need to get down...and I can’t beleive you are thinking about anything else at the moment...you surely haven’t been intoxicated enough...I think I need to make this scotch drink off my lips a 90 ml neat shot...don’t you think Sunshine...so that you are so drunk on US that you cannot think of anything else..”, and the next thing I know is that he’s titled my head to the other side and is now starting to leaving another hard and sensual stamp on the other side of necklines base.
I shiver and tremble as always!
Ohh Goshhhh.
And I say trembling – “ ohh love..I’d love for you to make it a 90ml neat shot of our passionate scotch Love...ho..w..e..ve..r..”
And Arnav now cups my face and brushes both his thumbs on my cheek and he whispers looking into my eyes – “ however what Sunshine??...”,and my eyes give me away as I remind him silently that we are pushed for time and he groans and whispers now – “ Okkk fine...one Moore kiss...just let me kiss you hard and deep one more time because I know after this we wont get any privacy until later tonight so.....”
And I look at him dazed and my attention does get diverted to the point he just made and I knew he was right,because we were absolutely not going to get any privacy until much later and so…this time I kiss him almost immediately and madly and we break apart about five minutes later and he now kisses my forehead lovingly and he asks in a concerned tone - “ ok..so now… i need to know something.. tell me are you feeling better Sunshine??”
Wait.
What is he talking about??
WAS I NOT FEELING BETTER BEFORE THIS?
OH HOLY MOLY BLOODY YES!
IT CLICKS!
The end of that Live Chat – that left me so vulnerable and tearful in his Arms!
Oops.
I had literally forgotten about it all already!
OH.
DAMM.
ME.
CRAZY.
ME.
Such was the power of this addictive man on Me!
I now cup his face and look into his eyes and I narrow my eyes at him mischeviously , and he winks back and one of his hands continues to caress one of my backsides and the other now starts to caress one of my upper curves over his jersey ,making my breath hitch due to the dual torture of his hands on two very intimate places of my body and he now gives me a mischevious grin and I admit heaving in his arms but i dont look away from his intense smoldering gaze– “so…love…I am pretty sure I have no clue what you are talking about..did something happen....I mean..was i upset about something.. anything st all????I am having difficulty in recall..right now..”, i pause MISCHEVIOUSLY and he smiles now and winks again and his hands continue with their torture and I whisper looking into his eyes – “.godaamit you.....Love...right now...you are looking at your very own addictive prisoner of passion..ahann…so...what’s my name again??”
He chuckles now and we immediately start to kiss again madly and a minute into our lips touching and dueling each others again – the landline buzzes which immediately makes us pull apart and we look at each other heaving for a second and we now burst into laughter together and we entangle ourselves from our heated embraced bodies and I admit honestly ,walking to now drink up some water– “ you FREAKING have the ability to drug me insane..”
Arnav chuckles and winks and picks up the landline now and he listens to what’s being said at the other end and then hangs up and turns to look at me And walks towards me – “ so yes...that was Ravi...everyones waiting in the lobby for us as we need to get going for the airport in like max ten minutes Sunshine...”, and I give him half my bottle of water now and he drinks it up now and once he is done he cups my face lovingly as he asks concerned – “ seriously Love...I need to know if you are ok??because we are now about to go to the airport and this is a big big step for you...”
I keep my finger on his lips and admit honestly- “ shhh...Love...I cried it out in your arms and then I got my passionate drinks too right...what more do I need? I am ok Love..please dont worry.. i am ready to do this...I am..let’s go now...today is destined to be just one of those monumental days in many ways...all I need is you by my side, and I will be ok….i honestly cannot wait to get on that plane now…”
Arnav now nods and kisses my forehead and kisses my hand lovingly – “ I am so proud of you Sunshine...you know that dont you Love??? I swear on all of the gods above this…I am so so so so proud of your courage and strength within…you know that don’t you?? You awe with me that…every single second…you know that don’t you??”
I nod and I say sincerely- “ I know..”,and I look at my phone now ans I say – “and I think as we go down love..ill just message everyone that I am ok…for I have texts from Zara, zain, asher, diya and rahul, uncle and aunty, asking me the same..”, and he nods and I kiss his hand and lace mine through his and he kisses my forhead and we hug one more time tightly and then we walk out the door, and I continue to reply to all my near ones texts and messages.
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Five minutes Later , as we now set a foot in the Hotels lobby hand in hand, I smile at Arnav as I see everyone is gathered together in a cirlce up front chatting, everyone as in all of the team, sachi maam, little zoya and Cap.
And just as they spot us now walking upto them, Ravi first comes up running to us and he pulls me into a brotherly hug immediately and he pulls back a coupld of seconds later and he looks at Arnav and asks us with a grin – “ and the smile on your faces tells me that our iron woman’s iron suit of strength is now back on…”,and he pauses and keeps his hand sincerely on my shoulder as he asks again – “ little sister..please tell me that you are ok??is it ok? If I call you that Khushi?? I would like to call you my little sister…you know I don’t have one..i am the only son of my parents…although I am pretty much tempted to ask them to legally adopt you before your wedding to ASR..”,he finishes with a wink.
My eyes well up with happiness and emotion and I admit – “ well…ofcourse you can call me little sister Ravi..id love that…”
Arnav pats Ravi’s shoulder now and gestures him with his eye to ask something and Ravi answers – “ at it buddy…they are tracking that IP..hopefully soon we should have a heads up..”
I look at Arnav and I ask with a small smile – “ love…but maybe not be so harsh…I mean definetly have this tracked because I do think this person needs to be given a warning atleast…because if not…they can just continue being a mean bully online….but…please…maybe just a a warning.and not be so harsh…”
Arnav sighs and he admits – “ let me think about that Sunshine..that was really brutal and way below the belt and I cannot spare that…look..lets get a heads up first…and then talk about it maybe?? I will not do anything until we discuss this out in between of us…you know that…”
I nod my head – “ yes Love..i know that…”
And now we walk up to join everyone and everyone now starts to ask me one by one if I was Ok, and starts telling me how they couldn’t believe I had held my composure through that last bit and I am now pulled into a warm hug by Sachi maam and she says pulling back minutes later – “ that was amazing Khushi….i swear I have no clue how you held on to your composure towards the end…for I was crying…ask Cap…”
Cap pats my arm concerned and he says – “ she sure was Khushi…but you amazed us all..they call me Captain Cool…but the way you gave it back…trust me..i think I want to admit that I am very much inspired by you in a lot of ways today…”
Arnav smiles and I look at Cap and Sachi Maam and I admit with a warm smile – “ thank you ..you both are so kind…and amazing…thank you so much…so much…”
Cap smiles – “ and you are most welcome….you ok right??”
I nod smilingly and right then Shiv, Kunal, and Singh and even Yuvaan come up to me and Shiv grins as he says – “ ohh…Khushi…you have no idea how bad that lord Voldemort is being bashed up by the supporters and fans…oh man the love that’s being sent your way…”
Kunal grins – “ insane….insane…new hashtags trending… on twitter already #HoodieGuyandhisWifiRock…..#thatlivechatwasaweinspiring………..#Khushisurelyknowshowstocastapatronus…..#bravokhushi….#thatsthespiritSunshine….”
Singh and Yuvaan continue reading from their phones – “ #we lovethismoderndayfairytale….#ASR’sWifiIsNoLessThanAKnightInAShiningArmour…..#WeRespectYourPositivityandCourageKhushi
Arnav grins now as his arm goes around my shoulder – “ oh I love that second last one…for my princess surely is my knight in the shining armour too..”
I chuckle now and I admit – “ the dynamics of the social media spectrums are pretty much a mystery to me…I mean…I don’t quite understanding the workings…but…I sure am happy to hear this too…”
Yuvaan grins – “ oh ASR..Khushi…hear this one…#HoodieGuyUberGirlForever…..”
Singh grins – “ and this one too…..#Khushiwritethatbooksoon…”,and he pauses and looks at us – “ oh the clips from live chat has gone viral guys…and trust me its mostly love that’s pouring in…”
I look at Singh as I ask – “ really no dementors??”
Singh chuckles – “ yes yes…few dementors still coming up…but they are now being bashed by the rest of the sensible netizen world…whose hearts you have won today Khushi….”
Arnav now chuckles and kisses my forhead – “ see Love..i told you…you won a million hearts today…”
I hug him from the side as I admit – “ I was just being who I am love…and…”
Arnav hugs me from the side – “ exactly…that’s what’s come across…you were unapolegitically and loviingly You…and that’s whats touched a string in lot of hearts my love…I told you and the word didn’t i? its you heart that’s true goldmine that it shines…”
And Shiv grins as he adds – “ oh memes are now starting to pop up of the clips from the live chat with comments saying and someone just tagged me in it so clearly they want to get this across to you Khushi – a pure heart shines brighter than gold.we know now what ASR meant when he said that he had struck Gold.Khushi hats off to your courage.I have no idea how you composed yourself through those last two questions.And your Reply to the Last one calling them lord voldermort was epic.Respect…”
I smile at everyone and right then Coach comes in from the entrance as he says – “ cmon then everyone lets leave…”,and everyone now starts to head towards the private bus arranged by the Hotel as this trip back was not sponsored officially but was arranged by all the members in between of them personally.
And Coach comes up to us and I smile at him and he asks – “ I want the two of you to come with me in the car..will that be ok??..”,and I see Arnav stiffen up a little and I say immediately – “ yes sir…sure…why not…we can come with you…right Arnav??”,and I clutch on his hand to gesture to him to just play along and he nods in silence.
And I wave bye to everyone on the team as they get on the bus and Ravi gesture to us that he will catch us up at the airport and I nod at him and wave a bye and I smile at everyone and we not get in the backseat of the SUV and Coach Sir takes the front seat and the chauffeur begins to drive and I turn sideways wanting to snuggle into Arnav’s side immediately and was hoping to have him smiling down at me and gesturing me to do the same…but he is looking out of the window in silence and, his body language is a little focused towards the other side and he is typing into his phone.
I feel a little nervous within now.
Is he mad at me? For agreeing to ride with Coach Sir alone?
I know he has not yet forgiven Coach Sir and I do not want to push Arnav into anything…I know he will come around to forgiving Coach..he surely will..all he needed was time…but I agreed to ride with him because of all the support he extended out to me earlier and I need Arnav to know that and not misunderstand that this was me being pushy or something…and because I cant talk out loud too, I just quickly pick out my phone and I write him a text..since he was already on the phone.
Me : Love…did I upset you? Im sorry…this wasn’t about me seeming to be pushy or something..i mean..I know..i understand…you need time to come around to that forgiveness and its ok.I understand…and I am with you…I don’t want to push you into forgiveness by seeing things from my viewpoint…I literally do not want you to feel that I pushed you into an awkward situation you didn’t want.oh holy shit…as I write this to you…I think… I did…im sorry…but it wasn’t intentional love as in….i just agreed to riding with Coach sir because of the way he was so supportive to me when I stepped out of the car in front of the hotel earlier.I haven’t upset you in the process have i??i should have waited for you to answer too maybe??are you like..mad at me right now?
And I tap send and I look at Arnav sideways nervously, hoping he wasn’t mad at me or something.
And right then he looks up at me sideways and grins at me amused and our eyes lock and my heart warms up feeling immediately relieved…and he returns to type something in his phone and my phone beeps.
Him : Sunshine…are you insane??can I ever be mad at you…and I understand as in I already know why you agreed to the ride! I do understand your Unsaid.. Love…I do…I know you in and out..just like you know me…and yes you are right…I just need time maybe to come around to that point of forgiving him..thats all.and btw what made you think I am mad at you anyway?
I look at him and we exchange a heartfelt smile which releifs me and he gestures me to reply to his text and I do , so honestly.
Me : so..hoodie guy..could be me being silly…but…usually you ask me to come snuggle into you the minute we get in the backseat…I mean since yesterday its been that way and right now..you were looking away so..ok so I thought maybe you are mad or something…so..i thought I will just text you to clear my thought behind that action…maybe this is really silly of me I know…but I will send it to you anyway…
I tap send.
And he looks up at me amused now as he finishes reading what I’d sent and he winks at me and he returns to typing a reply to me.
Him : Sunshine…godammmit…can you get anymore adorable??but Love…your equation with Coach sir is different and I would never want to influence that equation because of what I feel within…yes we love each other…and that does not mean that your equations have to change with anyone because of how I feel in my personal equation with someone.I respect your space and your mind and your decisions…you know that don’t you??its something I learnt from Anjali…remember how she didn’t expect or ask off me to change my equation with Ravi when things went downhill for them?? So yes don’t worry about it… and on that note…just so you Im fighting every urge to kiss you insane right now.and I was looking away and typing into my phone because its something I must do for what I have planned for us tonight and I do not want you to catch a glimpse of what it is beforehand..haha..you amuse me so much Love..
And just I finish reading that bit and I feel like a stupid embarrassed idiot!
Ohhh youuu…crazy goofy Khushi….!!
And I just give him an embarrassed smile now and I look out my side of the window and I spot the Signage on the Road that gave Arroways towards the Airport and I take a deep breathe as I close my eyes for a bit and lean my head on the window next to me.
Goshh.
So ok Guys.
A Tiny Miny Secret.
As in I am obviously more than ready to do this.
As in – I am surely going to do This.
But yes.
I was feeling a little nervous within.
Like just Tiny Miny One percent off it.
Ok maybe Five Percent.
Normal right???
As in I know I’v gained so much of Inner Strength over time in the last one year and especially in these last two days too – but still – I did feel my stomach knot in nervousness as I saw the signage of Airport.
Like I am about to Sit on the Plane for real – in a shortwhile from now.
Like for Real!!!!!
I take deep breathe now and I keep my eyes closed as I take off my cap from my head and I open my hair from the ponytail and I brush through my hair with my hands and adjust them to my sides and right then I feel Arnav’s arm go around my shoulder and i feel his other hand lace through mine and I open my eyes now and hes shifted right next to me and pulled me into a snuggle into his side and I turn to him immediately and my eyes meet his loving and concerned ones and he kisses my hand now and asks in a soft whisper – “ nervous much??”
I look at him in surprise as I ask – “ how do you know??”
He chuckles and kisses my hand – “ you did read my text didn’t you Sunshine…I really do know you inside out…don’t i??? I know this is a big big deal for you…and its obvious for to be nervous…”
And i look at him as I ask honestly , fidgeting with our hands nervously – “ tell me something honestly Arnav…is it weird that I am nervous???i know I got this…as in…but…still..”
And he kisses my forhead now and whispers looking into my eyes lovingly – “ not at all Sunshine…its absolutely ok for you to be nervous…tell me what can I do to make you feel more comfortable or something that will help you ease that nervousness …?? Im here…right here…by your side..”
I smile as I admit feeling love wash over my nervousness – “ well that’s all I need Love to be honest..you by my side…but maybe you can tighten your hold on me..id like that…”,and he immediately tightens his hold on me and I snuggle into his side deeply, feeling the warmth of his embrace now starting to wash over the nervousness.
And I know I can and so I admit looking into Arnav’s eyes – “ I don’t know what I am going to feel as we take off or take a descend into landing at Cape town…as in..i have absolutely no clue even though I am prepared..so…as in a part of me is really nervous…as I know I want to do this…but I have no clue over what will I feel when I I experience.. but I do think its going to make me very emotional...I just hope I will be ok...as in..to be able to do this....this is huge.. for me..Arnav...well you already do know that ”
Arnav now kisses my hand again – “ and you will be ok and…you will do this…im here..ok?? right here by your side..i promise I will hold your hand throughout the flight…we have our seats next to each other anyway…”
I grin now feeling relieved – “ we do right??”
He chuckles now and asks lovingly – “ really Sunshine?? Did you really think I will not be next to you??”
I admit feeling a little embarrassed – “ well, I don’t know…I thought maybe all of us are flying together…as in the whole team…so..”
And he immediately kisses my forhead now – “ shhh..relax…im with you….through and through…don’t worry about anything…just focus on telling yourself that you are going to do this…and I want you to promise me that you will let your emotions flow with experience of whatever you feel ok??”
I nod now and right then we hear Coach sir’s voice – “ Arnav…does Khushi want some water??”
And Arnav gestures me to ask if I do and I nod and I say – “ yes sir…water would be good…”
And Sir now passes a bottle of water to me and I drink down some off it and Coach Sir says taking a deep breathe – “ I know Arnav you will forgive me eventually but you need time…and I am ok with that…I just want you both to know that I am really sorry about it all…I think I need to say it out loud to you both together… I sincerely apologize..once again....”
And I say immediately with a smile – “ sir..please…as in like I have told you…whatever happens…happens for good maybe…all that time apart for us really made us stronger…as in it really did help me heal myself in a lot of ways for real …I mean it…and it also really prepped me up with so so much…so from where I see it…you don’t have to be sorry at all…it was just meant to be this way maybe..”
Arnav takes a deep breathe as he admits honestly too – “ Sir…like you said…I just need some time to get around this in my head..thats all…I don’t mean any other disrespect or anything…”
Coach Sir looks back and smiles at us both – “ oh yes…I know that…and…”,and he asks me – “Khushi…beta you ok right??”
I nod as I smile – “ yes sir…I am ok…just a little nervous with the thought of getting on the plane for real now…after all this while…but…apart from that all ok…”
Coach sir smiles now and looks at Arnav – “Arnav…I have known Khushi but still I was stumped by that courage and strength towards that last bit of the chat..”
Arnav gives him a small smile as he says – “ you were stumped Sir..i was freaking hit wickted to the edge of space…”
And we all now share a warm laugh now and I snuggle into Arnav again and he kisses my forhead and I take a deep breathe as my eyes fall on the signages through the window on the other side.
We were going to reach the airport in less than three minutes maybe.
And I just clutch on Arnav’s hand and I remain silent now as I prepare myself to set afoot on the airport where my Family never Landed.
We reach the airport now, and Coach sir gets down and I can see that the private bus with everyone has pulled up in front of us and everyone is now starting to get down and are obviously being snapped by the media and reporters who are all lined up.
Arnav kisses my hand and he asks – “all set Love??”
And I nod and he adjusts the cap lovingly on my head and he whispers leaning into my ear – “ its good you opened your hair Sunshine for I think I can see a glimpse of a mark of one of my stamps…”
I blush now as I look into his eyes, smiling at the memory – “ gosh…Arnav…is this the time?…”
He chuckles – “ exactly the time my love…I needed to see you smile that way…”
My heart warms up and I admit – “ don’t worry I am ok…its just natural…”
He nods – “ I know…and love theres a lot of hustle bustle by the media outside right now.. mostly positive it should be after the chat...and you know them the media will probe out questions…”,and I ask nervously – “ Arnav..is it ok if I ignore that for now? As in my focus is just on this..as in you know…”, and he smiles and kisses my cheek – “ ofcourse its ok…ignore them…thst is what I was coming too...you just focus within Sunshine..thats more improtant right now for only we both know what this means to you…im here ok I wont let go of your hand…”,and I nod and kiss his hand and we now see a knock on the window and its Ravi and I see Arnav now get of the other side and he comes to my side and opens my door now and gives me his hand which I hold tight and we lace it through each others grip as usual and I see Ravi come to his side and Coach sir to Mine as Arnav now starts to lead our way through after the rest of the Team.
And I can feel the constant flashes of the Camera as I just smile politely and then just keep following through and right then I hear a reporters voice’s probe questions my way – and this time more positive ones mostly as some were asking me about how I was feeling after that live chat or if I was ok? Some were asking how did I even come up with that answer to the last question…some were saying how they were inspired by the way I voiced out my thoughts…some were wishing us all the best…and were asking us to pose together for one shot, but I focused on within like I wanted too..and just smiled politely at everyone as Arnav led us through holding onto my laced hand gripped in his tightly to the departures entry now.
And as we near the entry, I just take deep breathes now and Arnav’s tightens his hold on my hand as we are now about to set afoot inside..and I do stop in my tracks for a second, as I feel emotions starting to overwhelm me a little.
And Arnavs stops in his tracks too and turns to me and my eyes lock with his and his with mine as they encourage me softly and gently and lovingly and I take a deep breathe as I nod and I finally take a first step into the Airport.
And I am overwhelmed With a Onslaught of so many Emotions.
So so so many of them – there is happiness..there is daze..there is a little nervousness...there is a little reflection of a little bit off the angst and grief too that had held me chained to itself until a while ago.
And so I just stay silent and let Arnavs grip power me through for even though I am silent...inwardly I am not silent at all.Theres so much reeling within me right now.So I just now continue to follow Arnav as he takes us to the check in counters for the formalities and I still look around dazed and overwhelmed because yes – i just realised one thing even though I was feeling so so so much within – there was absolutely no Hint of panic for real.
Like for real guys....I had entered the Airport – without experiencing even a single second of a moment of panic within.
And.
Oh my Blimey Heavens Me!
No panic at all.
Just as that Realisation sinks in – I feel so so so so light and even more confident from within.
We pause by the check in counters and Arnav asks me if I was Ok with a silent gesture of his eye and I nod at him Dazed and I smile at him as my eyes tell him that I am doing much better than I expected silently and he gave me a i-told-you-so – look and then kissed my forhead again and returned to handle the formalities for us along with Ravi and Coach Sir.
Gosh.
I take a deep breathe within.
And I close my eyes for a fraction of a second.
Daddy.
Mommy.
Krish.
You are watching this aren’t you?
I am so happy that I am doing this finally!
And I know you are proud of me.
I am surely A Zillion Times sure of that.
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Thirty Minutes Later
Khushi’s POV Continues
So we were all done with the security check and everything and are awaiting in the lounge for the announcement of the Boarding – which should begin in fifteen minutes I think.
I had also got on a quick call with uncle and aunty first as we got to the lounge...assuring them I was really ok and once they heard my voice they were all relieved and wished me all the best for the flight and then I had also got on a quick call with Diya, Rahul, Asher , zain and Zara, as they were all together in hit wicket your tongue anyway and I had assured them all the same – that I really was ok because Arnav had obviously seen to that and I really was more than ready to sit on the plane too. And then I had gotten on a quick call with Dr Priya too and she congratulated me first and was so happy for me and then I discussed it out with her that I was finally going to sit on the plane and she asked me to keep a note of everything within and then asked me to meet up with her to talk out it out in a session before I left for India with Arnav.
And post that call – I had excused myself to the washroom to just freshen up and as I step out now – I feel like I need some splash of cold water and so…I wash my face with cold water and soap a couple of times and that obviously washes away my natural look bb cream but my lip stain remains a little on my lips anyway and I let it be but I wash my face completely two more times over.
And right then once I was done and I finished drying up my face with a tissue and I turn around– I see Sachi Maam standing behind me and shes looking at with a smile as she asks – “ you ok Khushi??”
And she has little Zoya in her arms and she smiles at me and I smile at her lovingly and I ask sachi maam – “ can I hold Zoya..pleaseee?”
She smiles at me and nods – “ ofcourse…we just finished freshning up and once we stepped out..i see you washing your face so intently that I was worried youd been crying maybe…are you ok??”
I take little Zoya in my arms now and she comes into mine Lovingly and I grin at her – “ aww look at you…so so adorable now aren’t you Zoya..…”,and I kiss her forhead
Little Zoya is a little over two years old and she now happily giggles in my arms and Sachi Maam asks again, concern evident in her voice – “ are you ok Khushi???”
I nod as I admit – “ yes yes maam totally ok…I was not crying…but to be honest I think I will get emotional on the flight so better to have a bare face…or I will look like a mess after landing…”
She touches my arm with concern and asks – “and why is that Khushi? I hope you don’t mind me asking??”
I smile as I continue to play with Zoya and her energy was so infectious that I am literally grinning as I am saying this – “ no Sachi maam why would I mind you asking…”,and she says immediately – “ call me sachi please…”
And I give her a small smile now as I say – “ ok…so I’ll try let me stick with Sachi maam for a bit and then I will cut the maam out soon..I promise...”, and Sachi Maam smiles at me and nods and encourages me to go on and I take a deep breathe as I say – “ so Saci Maam…I haven’t really sat on a plane ever since the crash…this is like the first time I am stepping into one…I had a lot of paranoa with regards to air travel after the loss of my family…i have been working on it for a long time now…and I wanted to take a flight with Arnav next to me…so…yes..thats why I waited until this one...its just kind of a big big deal for me....”
She smiles and pulls me into a instant hug and she pulls back and cups my side cheek lovingly and she says – “ wow…look at you…today is a big big day in so many ways then...” ,and I nod at her as I say – “ yes indeed just feels like it’s one of those days in my Life that are destined to be Monumental in so many ways...totally feels like that this day is just destined to be that day I’d finally be able to heal myself completely from that massive paranoa I had for all this while....”, and she hugs me tight again lovingly and she pulls back again and cups my cheek lovingly again and says – “ and I want to wish you all the very best for it Khushi..I totally understand your perspective...this is a big deal …and you will be ok…dont worry about it...I am sure arnav will make sure of that…but just know that we are all with you too…”,and I nod at her with a smile and she looks at LIL Zoya in my arms and says – “ zoya…when you grow up…you better take inspiration from Khushi aunty ok...shes like lady Hercules...”, she finishes with a wonderful smile at me.
Zoya chuckles and giggles at us both happily and I thank Sachi for her graciousness and kindness to me and we now make our way out.
And just as we do.
I am in for a Surprise!!!
For.
We come face to face with the sight of the entire team huddled together near a lounged sofas and they are all saying in unison – “ so guys….all fans out there…catch us all – the Indian cricket Team ...or as you all fondly call us – The Men In Blue for a meet and greet at Hit Wicket Your Tongue, Cape Town at 830 PM..tonight…”,and everyone now hoots and claps amongst themselves and then Arnav continues to speak with the happiness evident in his voice – “ ok and fun fact…for all of you…My Sunshine has totally named this place Hit Wicket Your Tongue…because when I first out confessed to her how deeply I loved her…i used the term Hit Wicket because all you cricket fans would know what that means to a batsmen right???so as in I told her that for You My Sunshine…it totally felt like I – Hit Wicket My Heart…so yes…that’s the story into the origin of the name for hit wicket your tongue…and another fun fact…theres a amazing coffee drink to my name too …and it’s the same Coffee drink that she first ever offered to me the very first time we met,and I was coming across as the creepy theify Hoodie Guy…”,and he pauses with a chuckle and then the entire team in unison again – “so we will all see you guys there…830 PM…@ Hit Wicket YOUR tongue, Cape Town...”, and they all give a thumbs up together to finish the message and Coach sir cannot stop grinning too as he is recording this video and once he stated he was done, I hear Arnav say out loud to everyone as he hugs them one by one – “ guys thank you so much so so much for that…now please help me make this viral by posting it out loud on all your respective social media handles …you guys are the best...”
And I am looking at everyone dazed and surprised and I look at Sachi maam as I admit – “ oh my god…this is unbelievable…as in…I knew Arnav was going to come with me…but you all too…oh gosh…this is going to be so so wonderful for Hit Wicket…and look at him being all cheeky dropping in those fun facts..”,and I spot Arnav now look at me and our eyes lock from across the room and I gape at him in surprise and that mischevious imp is grinning micheviously as usual and I am gesturing to him with my hand that he just freaking waved a wand again….and Sachi Maam now grins at me as she nudges me from the side and winks at me mischeviosuly and she says – “ the look on your face is priceless…Khushi…and we are all so happy because we really do want to see Hit wicket your tongue..and I even read up on reviews online too which are only amazing and I totally loved those fun facts..….cmon now…goo hug him…”,and I nod at her happily and I immediately run up to where everyone is and I hug Arnav immediately, who already knew I was rushing up to hug him so he was chuckling with his open arms to me grinning at me and I just hug him hard now as I say – “ohhh goshhh…Arnav…you are freaking crazyyy….look at how you were being so cheeky with those fun facts…Hoodie guy… thank you so much Love…this is going to be so so amazing for Hit Wicket…”,and he kisses my forhead and hugs me back lovingly and he whispers – “ well its going to so much fun to have that go up on the social media…you know like another shot from our end full of just Love..…”,and I look into his eyes and I nod happily.
And I now quickly start to thank everyone and they are all grinning at me and telling me that they are so excited about it themselves to taste the dishes to the various players names and I cant help but feel my heart warm up with their support and I say feeling ecstatic – “ guys seriously…this is going to be huge for hit wicket your tongue…I mean…oh my god…I need to tell Rahul…we need to prep up…I mean the crowd will surely be insane tonight…”,and I take out my phone to make a call to him.
Arnav chuckles now and I look at him sideways and he says shaking his head – “ god Sunshine, do you really think he has no clue? He already knows….theyv prepped up well back at hit wicket…”
And I look at Arnav wowed and I ask – “ wait what???”
And he chuckles and kisses my forhead – “ and to be honest…this idea isn’t really mine…as in getting the team to hit wicket…its Asher’s…”
And I ask my eyes widened – “ wait what..come again...?????
Arnav chuckles – “ so yes…remember I told you about the first time when me and Asher met he anyway suggested if I could come along with the rest of my team to his friends cricket themed cafe called Hit WICKET your tongue...and...i skipped this part of it out to you yesterday for obvious reasons..because I was going to tell you now.…”,and I look at him with my eyes widened in surprise and daze and he now starts telling me everything and once he is done I look at Arnav and I ask honestly and softly – “ goshh…Arnav…how can I ever thank Asher enough???i mean…please help me figure this out…we gotta thank him for real...”
Arnav nods and he kisses my forhead – “ i know...we will Sunshine…don’t worry…”
And right then everyone else starts to tell us about the amazing response they’ve started to get on their social media handles and how theres been a lot of love being sent mine and Arnav’s way after those cheeky fun facts revealed by him and how there were people commenting that I really had to get around to writing that book on us soon…for they were dying to read it….and everyone around me as in as in all of the team members are grinning and high fiving themselves ....and I cant help but feel my heart overwhelm with so much gratitude, as I just continue hugging Arnav in awe of my emotions.
Look at all this Love and Support around me Guys!
How can I not feel like the Luckiest girl on this Planet right now???
Oh.
Thank you God!
Please accept my deepest gratitude from the sincere corners of my heart and soul.
Oh Daddy – you were always right – if you just focus on the bigger lines of positivity, love and gratitude – everything negative will loose its signifance by default – for everything that happened in those last minutes of the live chat totally gets shoved down the recycle bin of my Head – like ten more times!
And.
NOW
I was feeling so Powered Up – that I couldn’t really put it in words.
Oh Daddy, Mommy, Krish – you’v sent me a thousand of Angels right from the lanes of Heaven above – haven’t you????
And the Most magnificent of the Angel was the one who had his arms lovingly around my shoulders pulled me into himself in a warm side embrace.
Godammmmmit.
DumbleDore Dammit You!
Can I ever thank the Gods enough for you??
Can I Ever??
Nahhhh.
Never!
………..
Five minutes Later
Our boarding has been announced and I catch Arnav give me a loving yet a concerned look as he now laces our hands again as I finish taking a sip of the coke I was drinking and I keep it aside on the table and I clutch Arnavs hand lovingly and I admit with a smile – “ yes I am nervous...like nervous yes Love...but I am doing so much better than I had thought Love and it’s all thanks to you..the things you do for me...the happiness and the love...Arnav...thank you for being there for me....”
And he looks at me amused as he states with a grin – “ well I love the fact that you are doing better than you expected and honestly if you ask me...you aren’t just doing better...you are FREAKING splendid my love...but yes because you thanked me again...you shall be fined tonight...after that meet and greet at hit WICKET..”
I gape at him – “ wait what? That is not my surprise??”
Arnav chuckles – “ nah that is just a part...you are so funny Sunshine...I told you I am whisking you away...I have permission already by the way from Uncle and aunty...just you wait...just you wait tonight...the carnage I have planned for you..”, he finishes with a wink at me.
I blush now furiously as I smile at him and then say narrowing my eyes at him – “ again giving me references that will make me smile right before the most nerving bit...godammit I love you...”
For..I know he said that bit purposely to ease me a little more as we are now about to walk towards the plane.
He chuckles and kisses my hand lovingly and he says – “ you got this ok?? I am right here...ready to go??”
I nod as I say softly – “ I might just be silent for a bit..dont worry though...”
He nods in acknowledgement.
Like just the way he understands me and vice versa too.
IT’S REALLY True!
It’s like We Really Are Destined Soul- Mates Guys!
And we now get up and Arnav starts to lead us through with everyone, and I just smile at everyone and I keep walking now..keeping an eye on my footsteps and the path they are taking and then Arnav’s frame next to me holding my hand tightly laced in his grip and I see us now near the aero bridge.
AND.
LITERALLY
LIKE
LITERALLY.
Everything around me hazes except for Arnav's presence and his grip on my hand and this aerobridge and my focus on my own steps...as I take them in a determined silence...facing that inner onslaught of natural thoughts.
How were Mommy, Daddy and Krish feeling when they must have walked down to boarding, on that fateful day?
They must have been so excited!
Krish must have been so excited!
He must have been hopping around in excitement with that adorable smile of his and that twinkle in his eye!!
Mommy must have been trying to school him into not acting like a crazy joker!
Daddy must be surely grinning to himself and enjoying the scene unfold next to him, in a calm and loving silence.
I love you Daddy, I love you Mommy...I love You Krish...I love you Arnav...I love all of you my near Dear Ones....I keep chanting this to myself over and over again as I walk with Arnav on the aero bridge.
Okkk.
I can do this.
I am going to do this.
I am finally doing this!!!!!!
And
By default again, a image of Daddy,mommy and Krish laughing and walking towards the plane flashes through my mind again and my heart experiences an onslaught of natural angst as It tells me that- that I would never know…I would never really know what they truly felt…and that this was just my imagination of the scene and I halt in my tracks on reflex.
And my eyes do well up on reflex.
And Arnav stops in his tracks next to me almost immediately and he asks Shiv ,kunal, Singh and Yuvaan to carry on for they were behind us and he tightens his grip on mine and he now turns me around and cups my face and makes me look into his eyes and he wipes a tear that was now threatening to fall off the corner of my eye and he says , concern dripping in his voice – “ are you ok Love?? If you feel like you aren’t ready… now that you are actually in the moment...just tell me...we can go back...now..”
I look Into his eyes and I admit – “ no no...I am doing this...I just halted in my tracks because of the onslaught of emotion within...i have to face this Arnav...its going to happen...i know...this inner onslaught...i have to face it head on...just hold onto my hand tight ok??”
Arnav nods and he kisses on our gripes hands – “ tighter??”
I nod – “yes tighter please love...tighter..”, and he does just that as he tightens his hold further on our gripped hands and I now gesture us to continue walking and he takes my hand and starts to lead us the remainder of the way and I follow in a determined silence again fighting that inner onslaught of angst as that imaginary picture keeps coming back to flash in my head and I now decide to take power from it as I tell myself that this is probably my family’s way of telling me that they are watching me and grinning down at me from the heavens above! That is why I had this picture flashing through my head – daddy, mommy, and krish were sending down their love from the heavens above!
Yes!
They could do this!
They are watching Over Me!
They Areeeee!
And I remind my self of that thought and experience I had the day outside the burnt restaurant – as if it was Daddys way of telling me to let go of grief and move on for real.
Yesssss….just like that!
This is their way of being with me right now!
Take Power from This Khushi!
Take Power!
And I continue with even more determination now as I speed up my slowed steps and Arnav looks at me and smiles and now increases his pace to match mine.
All throughout this walk to the plane he has literally matched the pace of his steps with mine.
Initially my pace was slow.
His pace was slow too, to match mine
Then.I stopped.
He stopped too.
I fastened my pace now.
He fastened his,now.
And all of this in perfect sync like the very next as I altered my pace as if his senses were all tuned with mine right now!
I think they were!
GOSHHHH OUR CONNECTION WAS OUT OF THIS WORLD!
And I also think I just fell on love with This Man ALL over Again!
And now as we near the aeroplane gate and entry - I spot the crew and ground staff greeting the people in front of us.
A thought comes through- The ground staff and crew members must have greeted every passenger getting up on the plane that day too warmly this way!
I fight another onslaught of angst within thinking how no one had survived – just like Mommy, daddy and Krish – for the plane had burst into massive flames mid air due to failure of both engines before it finally sank into the water.And by default – the image of the visual of the crash and the plane bursting into flames and then sinking into water -as it was telecasted on the news and media flashes through my head.
Goshhhh.
It’s Like A Sudden Whack within Me!
I take deep and steady breathes in and out.
I know this onslaught is only Natural – and I decide to take power from it and not let it pull me down.
I will be stronger about this!
I have to be like the Strongest right now!
Think of a analogy Khushi!
Think hard.
And it clicks.
So Like you know how some Tea leaves or Coffee beans - gets it perfect colour and taste when poured over with Piping Hot Boiling Water- Yes that’s what you are going to feel like Khushi once you do this - like brewed up fresh with the perfect colour of inner strength and courage – for this onslaught of emotions within is no less than Piping boiling water!
You can do this!!!!
You will do this – Now!
Now or Never – It is.
Just.
One more Step Khushi !
And You will be in the Plane!
Just.
One more Step!
Just.
One more Step!
I tell myself again that every step I am taking will be worth this while for I know when I finally embrace this phobia and conquer it – i will be healed even further and that is why I have to face this process...its an uphill slope...and I am not supposed to Loose Hope and Light within...and I shall not Loose my sight on the Light and Hope -Within – No Matter How Hard This Is!
And I didn’t realise amongst all this inner onslaught going in that I had halted in my tracks again and Arnav had halted in his too and he was smiling at the crew members and staff and looking at a silent statued me with concerned and loving eyes every now and then as he held my hand tight and had us pause a little towards the side and I finally look up at him and my gaze lock with his – and his are emotionally moved too and his own very eyes have welled up with emotion for if theres anyone on this planet who knows how deeply huge this is for me – its Him! I have voiced out my deepest of the thoughts to him always – the ones I have never voiced to any one else!
He knows me Strong!
And he knows me Weak and Vulnerable too.
Hes the only one who has seen me sitting down in my knees vulnerable and weak with my familys stuff in that room next to my studio..where no one has ever stepped in!
He knows exactly what this means to Me!
And I am gobsmacked now as I feel his eyes silently talking to mine as they tell me – that I could do this for real...I was just one Step Away and his eyes also told me that he was there for me!!
And I nod at him and I smile through my tears and he nods at me back overwhelmed too and I gesture to him that let’s step in together.
And he Nods.
Guys.
I am going to do this!
Finally!
I take a deep breathe now and I finally take the step up in to the plane , along with Arnav and I feel my insides Sigh in a bittersweet victory and I now smile at the crew thinking off how Mommy ,Daddy and Krish would have greeted the crew in excitement and I ask for water though and she helps with it warmly and I gulp it down feeling more determined within.
I am going to keep trying to take more Power from these flashes and imageries.
And I feel Arnav tighten the hold on my hand now and he leads us to our seats and I am kind off glad we are all in the premier economy section of the plane and not the business one because the seats are more closer into each other.
The Men in Blue always flew economy or premier economy in domestic flights in international countries or in India too mostly if the flight duration was below four hours.And our duration in flight today was just about two hours.
And we now come to a halt near out row of three seats and Arnav asks me softly– “ middle, aisle or window...Sunshine which one do you want? You have the window one assigned but if you dont want the window one, just incase you want to avoid the view....”
I take a deep breathe – I am not going to run away from avoiding the view and I say, determined – “ window Love..I’m going to take the window one...”, and he nods at me in silence and I finally let go of his hand and get into the Window seat now and I sit down and I place my sling bag under the seat And Arnav gestures to me that had just be back and I nod at him and then I look out the Window!
I can see the rest of the team and everyone else around us settling in and some passengers walking by asking for everyone’s autographs along the way, some asking for Selfies and everyone obliging the delighted fans and I take a deep breathe as I continue to look out the window feeling like so so so relieved because I feel like I have won and conquered half that onslaught of emotions within – like half th battle within in conquering this phobia has been successfully overcome.
Two More Major onslaughts will come naturally though- I know!
One when we finally take Off!
And another when we descended into Cape town!
Like about 20 minutes before landing because that’s the point around in the Sky where it all went down for that Plane carrying Mommy daddy and Krish – shortly like 20 minutes after take off.
And I focus all my energies within and I tell myself over and over again that I was doing so so so good! And I also have to keep a note of everything I felt in my head because I will be talking it out over the with Dr Priya as well in a couple of days in a session before I finally leave for India.
And I think I want some music now...my Hoodie guys favourite playlist is exactly what I want right now and I take out my phone and earphones now – and right then I look up to see Arnav finally walk back to the seat and just as I spot two bottles of water in his hand now...my heart swells with Love again!
He'd probably gone to the crew to get me those bottles of water – he knew I would need.
And he now smiles at me warmly and slips in the seat next to me and I hold his hand immediately lacing my fingers through his and I ask him by leaning into his ears – “ you went to get me Water… Love??”
He nods and kisses my forhead now and whispers back in my ears – “ yes Sunshine...I know you would need own full bottle at take off and one around 20 minutes to Landing...I thought it’s better if I keep it handy...”
And my heart swells with Love so much so that I think it’s going into burst and I cup his face as I whisper – “ thank you so muchhh Love...thank you so so so much...”
And he kisses my hands now and he smiles at me and winks – “ ahaan a heavy penalty shall come your way now Sunshine...later tonight for that..just stop thanking me…please…its me love…or wait why am I axing my own feet…ok you keep saying thank you…and I will keep adding it to your penality..for later tonight…”
And I chuckle on reflex and I nod at him lovingly and our eyes lock and he asks softly now with concern - “ you ok no Sunshine??well technically you’v been silent...but i know...within it’s probably been no silence at all..”
And I nod in agreement as I whisper – “ well you do know me in an out...but it’s ok love..as in not that bad...all natural thoughts...its an onslaught of a inner whips but theres no panic within which is a good sign..its hard.. yes...but I’m holding up much better than I expected..but it’s like I have to face this onslaught within..i did speak to dr Priya too for a bit…and she says I should consider this process a Catharsis too...she said to keep a note of everything I’d feel within...because we have to talk it out in a session before i leave with you for India..”
And he tightens his hold on my hand as his eyes lock with mine and he asks softly- “ can I come with you? I mean when you go to see Dr Priya?? I mean I can wait out when you are having the session because I know that would be too personal but...I do want to come with you.. and meet Dr Priya too...will you be ok with that Sunshine??”
I gape at him gobsmacked with Love and I ask softly- “ you want to come with me to dr Priya??like really??”
And he nods sincerely and kisses my hand – “ ofcourse Sunshine...I’d love to come if you’d have me come with you...”
And I smile as I admit – “I’d like that...Arnav..thank you...”
And he chuckles now and winks again- “ another thank you...some more penalty for you noted...”
And I smile now and he asks holding onto my earphones – “ music??”
I nod as I admit – “ I was about to listen to your playlist..I think I need that as we take off...I mean I might not be able to talk because of all that emotion within but I think your favourite music will help me deal with it better....”
And Arnav grins and his eyes well up with emotion and he says – “ let’s listen to it together then..lets put the phones on the flight mode first...I have texted everyone that we have now boarded..” and I nod as I put my phone on flight mode and he puts his too and I open up his saved playlist on my phone now and he says – “you take one earphone and I take one.. and I will keep holding onto your hand tight as we are now about to begin taxi...and we listen to the music we both love as finally take off.ok and you keep having your water too..ok??you will be ok Sunshine...ok? Dont worry about it...look at you …we are on the plane...for real...I am so so so proud of you...”
I smile at him and I kiss his hand and we see Ravi now slip into the seat next to Arnav and he asks me if i was ok and i tell him that Arnav made sure of that and he winks at us and tells us that he was also going to listen to music and take a nap and we watch him plugs in his headphones too in his phone and he closes his eyes.
Arnav winks at me now and he says – “ Ravi knows this is very important to you and he himself said that he was not going to bother us with his chatter in the flight and ...and let me focus on just being there with you…and I want to do just that sunshine..im here ok.....”
I smile as I lean into his ears – “ godammit...you dumbledore you..I think I just fell in love with you again a thousand time over....”
And he kisses on my hand now and our eyes lock – “ really oh did you now Sunshine?”
And I nod honestly.
And he clutchess on my hand tighter now as we hear the safety instructions being given and once that was over and we see the crew take their seat and the taxi begins , Arnav kisses on my hand, as I take a deep breathe – “ it’s time to take off Sunshine...”,and he now opens up the playlist on my phone and plays it and plugs in a earphone into his ear and gives me one with a heartfelt smile
I nod as I take it and I plug it in my ears now and just as the music flows through, it starts to soothen me more and I immediately feel my heart tell me a thought which I now voice out to Arnav, pulgging out both our earphones on relfex, surprising him and I admit honestly – “ maybe I don’t just need your music Arnav...i just probably need you more right now…can we talk? I want to tell you something.....”
And he gives me a heartfelt smile and says – “ whatever you want Sunshine...I’m right here...we can talk..or we can listen to music…here..why don’t you drink some water now…”, he offers me a bottle of water as I see that the plane is now heading towards the runway.
And I gulp down half the bottle of water and once I was done, I turn a little sideways into him and I gesture him to lean in closer into me and I lean in forward and admit honestly looking into his eyes for a intent second and then whisper in his ears– “ I meant it Hoodie Guy...”
And Arnav looks at mme puzzled and asks – “ huh??”
And I take a deep breathe as I admit now looking into his eyes intently – “I mean I meant what I said in the reply to that Lord Voldemort… I didnt just say it because it was the first thing that came to mind as a reply...but I said it because I truly meant it too...i have thought over it…as in the question made me wonder within…too… why didn’t I sit on the plane that day when daddy had got the tickets for me too, the ticket I asked him to cancel just one day before on the grounds that too much work had come up in Uni…and I couldn’t join them…and even though krish was so upset..i made him understand that I didn’t enjoy cricket as much as he did anyway and then how mommy asked me atleast ten times before cancelling my ticket if I was sure about it…and that question from that Lord Voldermort really made me feel and believe very strongly that I truly wasnt destined to sit on the plane that day because I was yet to meet you....because if destiny or fate hadn’t stepped in that day and made me change my decision…Id be with them and id be..go..ne..too..and we would have ne..v..e..r....”, I pause as emotions choke my voice box.
And his eyes well up with emotion as he kisses my hand and asks me to just shhh by keeping a finger over my lips and I do keep quiet too becuase even I am unable to voice this out further and he says softly– “ godammit Sunshine...please..don't ...please..don’t.just pleaseeee and...I am going to delete that last latter bit off what you just said...and ...please don’t ever say that to me even in reference ever again....just the thought…it kills me..i cant take it…please..dont…please…”, and I think emotion chokes his voicebox too and I just keep my forhead over his in silence and keep my eyes close as I feel him cup my face lovingly and his caress on my cheek is so gentle and so loving that it overwhelms me with Love…and I now feel the plane start to speed up on the runway which tells me that we are going to take off any miunte now and I open my eyes and Arnav opens his too and our eyes lock in intense emotion and he asks – “ Sunshine…why don’t you have that water??”
I nod and I quickly gulp down the water now as I look out the window and the plane takes off and I fight a inner onslaught of emotions again, which I am able to again do so without panicking because Arnav was holding onto my hand so tight and was kissing on it continuously in small and tender kisses and I continue to sip down the water as I watch the view out – the view that tells me that we are heading straight into the clouds now and once I finish gulping down the water, I keep the empty bottle in the seat pocket in front of me but I do not let go of Arnav’s hands and I now turn to look into Arnav’s eyes which are looking down at me lovingly and he whispers - “I am so proud of you Sunshine…”, and I smile now as I feel my insides jump up in a bittersweet victory too and I immediately turn sideways into him and hold his hand and cup his face , and I keep my forhead on his – “ godammit you…I love you so much..i could do this without panic because you are with me…you know that don’t you…I could take this flight into the clouds because you, My Cloud Arnav are with me….”,and he cups my face and says with a overwhelmed smile – “ ahaaa…the reference of the Cloud Arnav analogy is back…you ok Sunshine??”
I turn to look out the window and the view tells me that we are cruising comfortably now and I turn to him and admit with a heartfelt smile – “ more than just ok Hoodie guy…love ok I wont mention that latter bit as you asked….but I will mention the first point again right now because I want to...I do think our fates are deeply entwined and entangled this way...because they were always meant to be...like for real...thats the reason why I wasnt destined to sit on the plane that day...I mean it Love....like seriously...this isnt just you and me finding each other in this Life love.. surely...this connection in between of us..its insane.and strong like so so so strong and it’s like out of the world…its probably not probably like more so definetly got some beforemath to it too..for..its like we were totally destined to find our way to each other like soul mates or something as deep as that.. and that is why we were brought together by the stars in the way we were....”
And Arnav now says looking deeply into my eyes , his eyes totally giving him away that he is way too moved emotionally right now – “ I freaking just Carnaged your lips Insanely in my head right now...all I want to do just now is kiss you hard and bad...”,and I smile now wiping my happy tear outta the eye and I say softly leaning in to whisper in his ears – “ well you can Carnage me all you want later tonight…Love...”,and I bend forward and kiss his forhead.
And he pulls up to look at me and he smiles and then looks into my eyes intently and he says – “ well I agree with the first point too…we were destined to find our way to each other Sunshine…and I am so glad I had my heart signalling me the very first time I met you that there was something special in this instant connection,something so special that I had to come back to look for you…god bless your uber really for that second day and thank you to my fate and destiny for making me step into Chai and coffee that day…although I am pretty sure that if it hadn’t been that way…my destiny would have surely figured out another way of making my feet nudge towards you…but still because it is the way it is – I have to tell you a millionth time over again…stepping into Chai and Coffee that day – freaking bestest decision of my freaking Life ever….”
I chuckle now and I kiss his hand lovingly and I ask gesturing towards our earphones – “want some music now my Hoodie guy??”
He nods at me grinning and he takes one of my earphones and I plug one in and I play his favourite song which we both Love and I continue holding onto his hand hard as I now turn to look out the window and I continue to channelise all my energy within.
For.
I was now heading towards the most trickiest bit – the bit that would come around 20 minutes before Landing.
But I knew I would be ok.
Because I was holding hands with My magical Dumbledore , and ours was a grip – that truly was the Light and Strength of Both of Our Lives!
…………………………
Meanwhile
Rahul finishes checking up on all the preps at the backend and he was glad that everything was in control..and he was quite excited actually- the entire indian cricket team for a meet and greet at Hit Wicket Your Tongue was huge for business in everyway!
And honestly the crowd here had only been increasing Insanely ever since the news of Khushi and ASR had come to light!
And right now his excitement was now being clouded by the worry he felt within for his donkey sister – for she had,had such a rollercoaster day already and he really was hoping that she was ok in the flight right now and not experiencing some sort of a panic or something.
Well even though he knew – Arnav was there with her and he would make sure that she would be ok because yes just the way he looked at Khushi gave him away totally – ASR was truly, madly and Insanely in love with his donkey sister!
He does smile to himself now as he recalls the sight of them from the live chat and how he hadnt let go of Khushis hand throughout or how he had stated out to the world that His Sunshine was the real Gold and just how he had answered that every damm troll and stated out to the world live that how deeply he respected Khushi for being the self made woman that she was and then how he had extended every bit of support and power and love to her towards the end of the live chat and then how amazingly his donkey sister had handled it.
He was stumped himself by that display of courage and strength by Khushi – just like everyone else around him too who knew Khushi on a personal level – Diya,Zara,Zain,Asher,and Varun,Jack,and Stacey.They all had – had a discussion amongst themselves after thr live chat ofcourse!
And each of Their hearts had warmed up greatly towards ASR even more as a person that he was – now that they looked at him as Khushi's soon to be Husband!
They were all sure in their Hearts after this Live Chat and everything that had been happening since morning... that ASR would always just always.. do everything in his power to make sure Khushi was happy and settled.
And that was all that really mattered to them all.
Infact messages from their entire extended friend circles were also flooding in as they stated how happy they were for Khushi.
Even Armaan had messaged Him the same that he was really happy for Khushi.
Rahul smiles a little to himself as he picks out his phone and right then as his eyes fall on the time on his phone,his worry returns and he sighs and picks up his cup of Coffee and walks out to join everyone – Diya, Zara,Zain,Asher on the table.
Asher and Zain and Zara had been extremely helpful and supportive as friends too on the personal front as Rahul and Diya had been overwhelmed with all that happening online and then even with the all the crazy backend preps that were needed at hit Wicket for the meet and greet tonight – they were not just friends anymore more like an extended family!
Rahul joins in everyone as he slips in next to Diya as they were all taking a little coffee tea break before resuming to get busy backend and Zain asks immediately – “ that look on your face Rahul...tells me that you are worried...all ok backend??”
Rahul nods and he admits to everyone- “ all ok backend surely...but..”
And Diya holds his hand – “ what’s wrong Rahul??”
Zara – “ Rahul...cmon out with it...”
Asher sips his coffee – “ dude..stop with the silent dramatic build up will you...please...”
Rahul sips his coffee as he smiles at everyone- “ just worried about donkey yaa..its been such a crazy day for her in every way..and now as my eyes fall on the time...30 minutes to their landing..soon she shall be near and around the spot where that plane flamed up and crashed...I just hope she is ok...I know this is huge for her...I just hope she isnt having a panic episode or something...diya you know right...wev seen her through those blows that initial phase...how bad it was...and then off all the days.. this donkey wants to sit on the plane today too...I mean the first part of the morning was crazy enough especially that last bit of the live chat...”
Diya holds Rahuls hand as she sighs – “ I know what you mean..weren’t we all so angry and shaken...you saw the way I was crying...”
Zara nods solemnly – “ yeah I was in tears too.. like I was so furious..iv bashed up that user online left right center like ten times over...in that comments section...sand to be honest...i have this worry at the back of my mind too...hoping she is fine on that plane...”
Zain nods and sips his coffee – “ yes me too...”
Asher takes a deep breathe now and sips his coffee In silence for a bit.He was worried too within obviously and he had been way beyond furious himself towards that last bit of the chat and he and Zain already had his tech team working at hounding down this IP address and user and he knew Ravi and ASR were on it too from their end for that last ten minutes of the chat were obviously overwhelming to watch for them all as Khushi displayed such courage and strength through it and how Arnav stood by her side as her pillar of strength and support! And to his heart personally within – it was a beautiful moment to watch and witness ...a little bittersweet ofcourse becuase of his unrequited love and emotions for Khushi and also because he truly was also very happy for her in that moment of time – he truly wanted only happiness and the best for Khushi always. And hoping and praying for the best for Her was kind of giving him the power to Heal himself too now and he had now for real begun working on himself and that is why he had decided that he would do his best always to support Khushi as a true friend – because he knew doing just that and seeing her and Arnav happy would give him the power push to heal himself and start afresh soon.And he didnt have any regrets at all...he was glad that he fell in love with Khushi the way he did...for he was proud that his heart had chosen such a beautiful person inside out to fall for.And he knew he would be ok to refresh and restart like very very soon too.He was heading to a sorted and peaceful space within now.
And Asher now looks at everyone and he says with a smile – “ well it’s ok for all of us to worry...but I am sure we are just being paranoid...Arnav is surely making sure that Khushi is ok...he loves her insane Guys...dont worry about this...I’m sure we will see Khushi smiling as she steps in here with a grin up her face as she tells us that guysss I finally did it.. I sat on a FREAKING plane...in that infectious peppy tone of hers ...”,finishes Asher with a fond chuckle and looks at everyone and sips his coffee – “ dont worry guys...I am sure ASR has got this...and Khushi will surely be more than just fine..”, he finishes with another genuine smile
And Rahul now looks at his friend as he says – “ yes maybe you are right....maybe there isnt anything to worry...”, and he pauses as he asks Asher softly – “ are you ok though?? Me and Diya are worried about you ...we just want to know if you are ok...even though youv never voiced it loud in front of us we know you do feel something for Khushi...youv been in love with her for quite sometime now havent you???are you doing ok?..”
Asher chuckles and smiles and looks at Zara and Zain and jokes – “ guys you didnt tell me that it’s so freaking obvious on my face ya...”, and Zara and Zain shoot a collective concerned look towards Asher too and Asher sighs as he looks at all and admits – “ guys listen to tthis once and for all ok....I am ok...and I am truly like the happiest in Khushi and Arnavs happiness right now...so much so...that I think this is the only thing that has the power to heal me through and move on and restart and refresh things for myself...which I am surely going to come around to very very soon...its ok guys...I’m not the only man in the world to have my love unrequited...happens ya...no worried no regrets...I’m proud of what I felt for Khushi..its just tough luck guys...and I am.surely going to be able to move on..I assure you all that...”,finishes Asher and everyone exchange a look of relief for they know by the look on Ashers face that he meant everything he said..that he was being honest right now.
Rahul nods and winks at Asher – “ tell me again...how is that even you lost your heart to this donkey sister of mine..I mean I would have asked ASR but I still get majorly fanzoned around him...??”
Everyone laughs at that and Asher chuckles and winks – “ well what can I say..to that...except for the heart wants what it wants...and in my case...I just have to wade around my way around the situation..and ask my heart to get out seeking again...which shall be soon...”
Zara grins as she keeps a hand on Asher – “ you are a good man..Asher...a very very good man..I am so so proud of you..”
And Rahuls phone beeps now and just as he reads what’s written in his text he chuckles amused – “ soo this is amusing...this donkey has no clue what she is in for tonight...”
Zara – “huh??”
Zain – “ what do you mean??”
Diya takes a phone from Rahul and reads the text and she says out loud amused herself- “ so that was Armaan on text...hes saying hes going to come tonight for the meet and greet and wish Asr and Khushi all the very best in person...”, and Diya pauses as she says – “ ohh ofcourse siya and sameer told me that Armaan had returned home for a bit for a vacation right on the day of the final...and we couldnt catch up because we were in JOHANNESBURG and so much has happened after...”
Zara looks at Diya and asks – “ wait wait..is this the same Armaan the onmy one who Khushi dated briefly before ASR??”
Diya nods- “ yup the same very one.. my sister Siya is dating his younger brother Sameer ..infact when Armaan left for London he was focusing on moving on from Khushi too...and he did meet someone too but I heard from Siya that it ended in between him and his girlfriend like about ten days ago...”,and Diya turns to her husband as she asks – “ it was me who told you this...or you who told me about it because Armaan told you...”
Rahul nods aamused – “ well we both told each other at the same time about it...well but he is ok...as in he truly is happy for Khushi..he messaged me earlier too...”
Asher sips on his coffee totally amused now and he asks – “ so you mean...Armaan is going to be here tonight??”
Rahul nods.
Asher grins amused as he looks at Zara and Zain – “ well what a day it is unfolding out to be for Khushi then...I mean Armaan , Me and Arnav..all under one roof...this should be harmlessly funy..as in do any of you have any clue if ASR knows about Armaan? I mean ...I’m sure he would because Khushi doesnt hide a thing from her hoodie guy...”
Zara nods – “ yess...well I dont know that detail yet...”
Diya nods – “ hmmm neither do I...”
Zain chuckles as he looks at Asher – “ guys this is amusing surely...I have no clue how will Khushi react...to seeing Armaan, Asher and Arnav together under one roof...”
Zara chuckles – “ and I have no clue as to how ASR will react to seeing Armaan...guys do you think he will he jealous? Because see with Asher hes so cordial because there was never anything in between of them ....from Khushis side...like Arnav knows that Khushi never even looked Asher in that way even for a second..sorry Asher...” and Asher chuckles as he says – “ ouch...”, and Zara chuckles and continues – “.but with Armaan there is surely history..and even though he must have heard about him from Khushi which is an obvious probability but he surely hasn’t met him yet in real..asher surely hasn’t been a potential jealousy threat to his eyes for obvious reasons...but I have a feeling...with Armaan around we might just get to see an amusingly jealous side of ASR...since duh...we all know how deeply he loves Khushi...oops...sorry Asher..again...” she pauses as she sticks out a tongue at Asher and Asher fakes a dramatic hurt to his heart with his hand again and grins – “ ouch three times over for that.. thank you best friend..”
Diya chuckles – “ ohh man...this should be fun..guysss let’s not tell them about it...totally us getting back at them for hiding the secret from us for so long...”
Rahul grins – “ well I agree because I know Armaan is going to be harmless..he does wish well for Khushi .so yeah...it will be fun..”
Zain chuckles- “ aww Khushi...I can imagine the look on her face...this is totally destined to be one of those epic days in her life...in a lot of ways...”
Asher sips on his coffee as he admits with a smile – “ true that.. destined to be an epic day in a lot of ways indeed...”.This evening was going to be very very interesting – He sure wanted to see who this Armaan was too – lucky him though he did have some history to remember atleast- his minds shoves the amused thought in his head and he chuckles to himself within sipping his coffee.
And look at the Irony – All of their names Begun with the Letter A.
Like literally!
Ha.ha.Ha.
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Meanwhile In the Skies
Khushi's POV
I walk back from the washroom and I smile at Sachi maam and Zoya and Cap in the seat diagonally in front of us and I rub little Zoyaa hair lovingly as she is fast asleep in Sachi Maams arms and Cap smiles at me and Sachi maam silently gestures me with her asking me how was I doing? And I nod at her with a gesture of my eye telling her that I was doing good!
And I was – all through after take off...I’d been chatting and talking with Arnav holding onto his hand and listening to our favourite playlists in between and I was holding up so well and completely prepped up to face that inner onslaught again soon for I know theres going to be an announcement very soon telling the crew to do their final checks before landing!
And I was right!
For
Right then theres a announcement by the Pilot that asks the crew to start doing the final check as it was about 25 minutes to landing at Cape Town!
I take a deep breathe as I nod at Cap and Sachi Maam and see Shiv,kunal.yuvaan still deep asleep in the row of seats next to ours..as I walk to my seat and I spot Ravi still deep in his nap.
And now Arnavs eyes meet mine as he smiles at me warmly and asks me to come on in and I smile at him nervously and I get in carefully without disturbing Ravi and Arnav shifts a little as I sit back in my seat and I look out the window now...its almost time to Sunset too.
And I now see a bottle of water shoved in front of me and I look at Arnav from the side and he smiles at me and says – “ three more minutes until twenty minutes to landing...cmon drink this up...sunshine...”
I nod as I gulp down half the bottle of water as I look out the window and I hold onto Arnavs hand now tight as I lean back in my seat and continue looking out in silence.
He just holds onto my hand tight and holds out Gripped hands together near his lips and keeps kissing on my hand gently and tenderly. Over and over again.
And right then the announcement comes through which asks the crew to take their seats as it was – Twenty Minutes To Landing!
I close my eyes on relfex as I lean back in my seat as that visual from the news of their plane bursting into flames right in and around this spot flashes through my Head – Over and Over Again.
I clutch on to Arnavs hand tighter now as the image flashes through my head over and over again and the memory of me going through what I did the first time I saw it on news comes back to shake my being!
And the onslaught of this inner turmoil continues and I now instruct my self to open my eyes and look out the window again.
For I have too!
But this is really really hard.
It’s taking a lot ...literally a lot from within!
But
This was it.
This was a Monumental Moment for Me.
That FINAL step!
To see the around the Spot in the Skies where I lost my Family!
I have to do this!
I am mustering all the courage within and I think in the process tears have now started to roll down my cheeks.
Overwhelmed natural Tears!
And I feel the grip in my hands now open and I feel Arnav's hands placing something in my hand now and I feel a coin and a small booklet in my palm and I know instantly what it is that he placed in my fist...my krish's facourite toss coin and the mini hanuman chalisa I had given to him to keep with himself long long ago..and I now feel overwhelmed with Love as I open my eyes and I turn to look At Arnav and his eyes are overwhelmed and worried and concerned as his hands wipe of my tears and I whisper softly emotions choking me – “ I need to let them flow...its hel..p..I.. n..g...me..”
And he nods now and he gestures to ask me if I wanted the music again silently and I nod now silently and he adjusts both the earphones in my ears now and his eyes tell me that they understand...my need for a quiet silence right now and he changes the song on my phone to one of our favourite slow songs and adjusts the volume to be soothingly comfortable and I nod at him and thank him with my eyes and he clutches onto my hand tight now as his tell me that he was right here with me again..and I nod and finally gather all my courage and strength within and I turn to look out the window.
The Sun is Starting to Set now – as in Almost set.
And the Cabin Lights have been dimmed for Landing since it’s late evening.
And I now feel a overwhelmed natural thought flash through my hEad again – Was Krish looking out the window towards the sky when the sudden flames happened??
Goshhh.
This is way too painful.
Why does my head have to Conjure these ACHING Flashes?
I remember Dr Priyas words – this was the process...I was going to have all that inner grief from the past onslaught me terribly becuase I’d held onto this phobia for so so long and that’s why my mind would act up in the most aching ...painful ways!
Goshhh.
I cant stop the flow of tears now as i gaze out at the Skies and clouds ....I lost my family too...and the Water below too where the plane sank in!
I feel another whip within as the visual of their burning plane sinking down into the water flashes through my head.
I take deep breaths.
I do have my seatbelt on but I am turned completely towards the windows side and my one hand is clutched with Arnav’s tight and I know he knows I am sobbing silently becuase I know my shoulders are shaking a tad bit little...I know he can read it – because his hands clutched mine tighter and his thumb is trying to caress my hand with love trying to offer comfort and support. And the music is helping me too..in this process.
And now as I see the Plane Turn a little Sideways.
I cant help but Wonder..
Did they have any warning to themselves at all??
As in when the engines failed...did they all have anytime to themselves to let the thought strike that they were all going Down?
Or the Burst just Happened so suddenly with no Moment of A recollection?
But.My Heart Tells me Somethign Deep now as I clutch onto it in Angst and Pain.
And the thought is - That
I am pretty much sure that either ways – each of them would have thought off me as they succumbed to their last breathes in their own ways!
Especially Mommy and Daddy!
Krish must have been too scared himself surely!
Goshhhhh.
The Pain that I feel within right now is a Insane Whip.
A whip I was prepared for!
But still now that I was experiencing it – I knew what Dr Priya meant that it was important me to experience this becuase it was going to lead me to that final step of healing within.
I love you Daddy!
I love you Mommy!
I love you Krishhhhh!
And I close my eyes for a second and I feel a image of their happy faces flash through my head as they waved bye at me at the departures at me!
And in my Heart – I instantly know this flash came from my Heart within – as it tells me that this is Daddys ,mommy’s and krish's way of telling me that they were very Happy that I had taken this final step into Healing Myself!
And another Image of just Daddy now Waving a bye at me Finally comes to my head the same one that I had felt go through my head outside our burnt restaurant and I feel that similar strong switch in between of grief of losing them and the thought of the Love that they are always sending my way from the heavens above in the form of their blessings surely and the fact that I have so many loving people around me because theyv been sent my way by my Daddy,mommy and Krish – who literally love me like their own!
And call me Crazy but I totally think it’s my Daddy who had some Love Angel’s send out a message to Fate and destiny to have Arnav step into Chai and Coffee that day – and also asked them to send Arnav that signal in his heart that told him that he needed to come back and look for me!
And just like that because I am crazy in my Head – I literally almost visualise a image of Daddy talking to the heavenly cupid above requesting them assertively – to send out whomever was destined for his little girl to her doorstep – in a conversation where he would be stating that its only fair that the Cupids listened to him because they all were taken away from me too soon too!
And i actually also imagine a Cupid nodding at Daddy and winking at him and sendd out his Arrow striking into Arnav!
Goshhhhh.
Guys.
I am crazyyyyy I know!
But this Helped Ok!
LIKE REALLYYYYYY HELPED.
FOR NOW I FEEL A SMILE COME UP MY FACE ON REFLEX THROUGH THE TEARS – THE TEARS ARE STILL ROLLING DOWN BUT I AM SMILING NOW.
And just like that I start to feel like that newly born phoenix again.
I start to feel Healed in the ways I cannot explain.
I open my eyes immediately and i look out.
We are now nearing the runway and we will be touching down soon and I now turn to Arnav and I smile at him through my tears and I wipe my tears away with my free hand and he kisses on my hand again as his eyes ask me if I was ok?
The look on his face tells me that watching me go through this was as hard for him too...his heart was surely going out to me in the ways he would never be able to word maybe!
But I am sure it was in the Vibe in between of us!
For those crazy scenes is my mind are surely an act of this Wizards Magical Wand Moves On Me!!!
And I dont care how my mind led me to this point – no matter how hard this had been!
All I cared about was the fact that I was feeling Healed within!
And I look at Arnav as hes looking at me with worried anticipated eyes...hoping to give me a gesture if I was ok?
Andd I now nod at him silently as I smile through my tears and I kiss his hand and he smiles now and kisses on my hand and I finally lean back in my seat and look out again and right then I feel the wheel of the plane touchdown at the Runway and I close my eyes and I feel my insides Jump up in a Bittersweet Victoryyyy and Hurahhhhh!
I did it.
We’ve Landed!
I finally did It!
I took the FINAL step!
I know if healed something deep today amongst this process!
I can sense it totally!
I feel free-er...I feel lighter...
I freaking feel like a newly born Phoneix again!
And the cabin lights are still dimmed as taxi is continuing and announcements are coming through and everyone around me is starting to wake up...and Arnav is looking at me with silent ...loving eyes ,his head trying to figure out what to say to me probably and I knuckle my seat belt immediately now and I smile at him wiping my tears one more time and I unplug the earphones and I hug him hard – I dont care if anyone around me watches right now!
And Arnav’s arms wrap around me hard an protective as his hands brush my hair lovingly as he asks whispering softly in my ears – “ Sunshine...are you ok?? Dammit please....answer me...you have no idea how much its pained me to just see you so achingly silent for the last 20 Goodman minutes...because I know you were anything but silent within....please tell me...are you ok?? How do you feel about this? Any difference???answer me dammit...please....”
I pull back a little and I cup his face lovingly and I look into his eyes as I admit honestly, whispering softly so that only he could hear me – “ wait till you hear about the last two crazy scenes that popped up in my head...they were so amusing I am telling you…but I don’t care about how crazy they were..all that matters is that I am feeling right now…I am more than just ok Love…more than just ok..i feel healed in the ways I cant explain..”,and he finally smiles at me relieved and moved and he immediately hugs me hard and he says whispering in my ears– “ godammit…you have no idea how hard it was for me to just watch you sobbing silently looking out the window…my heart was going out to you…I just wanted to say something…do something…but I didn’t know what could I do..i..I..”,and he pauses and kissed my cheek now lovingly and I pull back and I cup his face lovingly as I whisper – “ ohh what you did helped me immensely Love…you held onto my hand and didn’t let go…and I could totally sense all the love you were sending out my way…you didn’t need to say anything…the vibe in between of us totally did the magic…”,and I pause now and he asks in a puzzlement– “ really??are you sure??”
And I chuckle as I wipe out my tears and I look at him as I admit, cupping his face,and enact a little dramtically in whispers – “yes Love…I am sure…your phoenix just rose up from the clutches of a major phobia all healed and anew..Professor Dumbledore…”
And he chuckle now and looks at me stunned and amused and he says – “how? I mean…how do you do this??? It amazes me and stuns me everytime… you are freaking rock solid metal within…Sunshine…so so so brave..i am so so proud of you…”,and he immediately hugs me hard and he whispsers – “ I love you…I love you so godammit much…”and I hug him hard too as I say – “ I love you too..so so so much…and I am so so happy that you were with me and I was finally able to do this…”
And now the cabin lights come up and everyone around us starts to hustle bustle and I finally pull back from Arnav and I finally unclench my fist and I pick up krishs toss coin and mini hanuman chalisa and I look at Arnav, as I place it in his hand – “ thank you for that…Love..now cmon you keep them with you…”,and he smiles at me and takes out his wallet and tucks it in his inner pocket lovingly and he looks at me and winks at me – “ you just thanked me again…another fine on you later tonight…just you wait Sunshine..this day isn’t over yet…”
And I smile now as I admit – “ I know…I know…this day is destined to be monumental in so so many ways…”,and he kisses my hand now and Ravi wakes up too and he looks at me now as he asks – “ you ok Khushi???”
I nod at him with a smile as I say honestly – “ oh yes Ravi…more than just ok…just somethings I had to go through to get to this point…all ok now…?”
Ravi grins at me and then looks at Arnav – “ my little sister is a Iron woman surely…I am going to ask Mom and Dad to adopt her legally ASR…I hope you wont mind Khushi?”
Arnav and Me both chuckle naturally at that,and I smile at Ravi as I say – “ thank you…you are awesome…”
Ravi winks at me – “ i know right…I am..”
Arnav and me laugh again and he laces his hand through mine again and he asks – “ ready to go?”
I nod.
And as I stand up now, I smile to myself as I remember a quote that Dr Priya had shared with me after our talk on the phone – a picture quote from Bear Grylls stating – Being Brave Isnt the absence of Fear.Being Brave is having that fear but Finding a Way Through it Anyway.
Oh Daddy..Mommy and Krishh…
I hope you all are Proud of Me right now!
I am so so happy right now at finally being able to conquer my biggest phobia and paranoa.
Daddy – Mommy – Krish – everything about you all will continue to live in my Heart Forever and I know you all will be as happy as I am to finally see me Unchained off that last tie of fear and paranoa too.
The Scar of Loosing you all will always Remian…But this scar is truly Healed in every way…the wound is not open any more to give any sort of enetrance to anymore infective Fear and phobias within.
My Scar has Healed.
My Scar has Healed for Real!!
I close my eyes as I send out a message to My family silently through my heart – I love you all so so so so much..mommy , daddy and krish…and oh daddy..i have a extra special message for you .....
I am still your Bravest Little Girl Daddy!!
I always Was!
AND.
I always Will Be!!
………………………………………………..
Tadaaaaaa!!!!! Guyssss!!!
Let me know what you all think of that!!
I totally felt that Our Sunshine deserved these moments to herself – for she has come such a long long way and this was so so important to her!!
Would love to know what you all think as always!
I got quite emotional while writing out her POV – myself as she copes up with those Inner Onslaughts of thoughts – which were only naturaly to feel because shes only Human after all – very strong yes…but still Human!
Okk guyssss – so the next update will come on Thursday evening.
And yes as you all know Armaan is returning for a little fun cameo – I do want to give him a face…any suggestions for a male face that has had or you think would look like a crackling pair with our Sunshine – haha…lets have some harmless fun with Arnav no…please suggest names…tv world..or Bollywood too…hehe..since its fiction we have liberty to imagine! Haha!
Okk Take Care guys!
Lockdown in India is extended to 3rd May now!
Stay In and Stay Safe!!
Much Love Guys
Always!
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Jai Shri Ram @SoniRita
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1 years ago
Yay Khushi finally flew in an airplane, u go girl so proud