Chapter 60

Smita,😊

Here is the interpretation to Part 13.

This update is about the feeling of being secure, elements providing stability and security, in a word, MOORING.

As Arnav ordered Khushi to go with him she asked him, where to? He just asked her to go with him, without telling her where. Only when they entered his bank did she become aware of their destination. Soon, he had opened a bank account in her name with a large amount credited to her SB account and she became the possessor of FD's, ATM card, with the works. Her protest, Arnavji, her reprimand, Arnavji what is this? her reproach, what are you doing? fell on deaf ears. He was determined to give her all that she never had. Of them right now his top priority was security, that she had lacked both emotional and monetarily. He was determined to keep her safe, never to leave her helpless... He was bent on giving her a foothold so that she knew there was someone to safeguard her, there was someone who was her support. Even if she was far away from him, she would be under his protection. He was being her anchor, providing the much needed anchorage in her life.

That evening saw Khushi pack her bags, while Arnav sat watching her fold her clothes. She packed them neatly in her new suitcase he had purchased for her. Though his heart wept, he was careful as not to reveal his pain to her. Khushi frowned at the amount of clothes she had and were hanging in the wardrobe and told Arnav, that she would not be able to take everything. So asked him should she pack the rest to be left at Buaji's? Arnav was definite when he replied asking her to take whatever she needed with her and to leave the rest as it is in the wardrobe, as she would be needing it on her return. It was his way of saying, that he was her mainstay and she was a part of him. As Khushi called out, Arnavji, with a doubt, he looked at her challenging her to refuse. It was in defense to cover his feelings, that she was not seeing what was obvious to the rest, that wherever she flew, her landing would be right beside him, in his arms. She was hooked to him and all she needed to do was not refute the obvious. Seeing the confusion and pain in her eyes, he relented and calmed down. He soothed her saying that if she ever decides not to return to him, he would pack everything and leaves it at Buaji's. She looked in to his eyes for a moment before nodding, not wanting to get into a verbal duel over it. What he implied to her was that he would be her pillar and would support her in each and every step she took while protecting her, safeguarding her. That was what his eyes showed that she did not want to refute.

She asked Arnav worried about the response of Naniji, Mamiji and Di, when they go the next day? Her fear of hurting his family and the sadness they would plunge into were playing havoc in her mind and it got conveyed to him. Arnav, with a smile trying to allay her fears told her, that he had already told them that he was taking her on an overnight trip. He handled it, so that she need not face any emotional turmoil in addition to what she was already undergoing, by sorting out things for her that was quite easy for him. He did not want her to carry an emotional burden with her, the guilt of leaving them, when she went. So he did what he had to do, become her emotional support too, her safe harbor. They agreed? was her shocked response. Seeing the simple way her mind worked and her attachment to his family, he smiled with a naughty gleam, flicking her cheek with his finger told her that she was his wife, he could take her anywhere and no one would object. He made the innocent words sound utterly naughty making her redden. Then, he suggested getting ready to go to Laxmi Nagar and explain to Amma, Babuji and Buaji that they would be going to be out of Delhi for two days, providing Khushi the comfort of his presence when she tells them and the much needed emotional support. Khushi who was trying to bite back the sob that was rushing out of her throat found that she could not control the betraying tremble of her lips.

Their last night was spent lying in each other's arms, with sleep far away from both and when the tears that came out of the silent bitter sobs, that drenched his arm, Arnav just hugged her tighter without asking her any questions, showing her that was where she could depend to dock if ever she deemed it fit to give their relationship a chance. Both were desolate, she showed it with tears and he with silence. He just kept hugging her tight and kissing her hair every now conveying to take care while her tears conveyed her fear of losing him. This was what made them cling to one another and though Arnav knew that she was his mooring, the source of his emotional stability, the source of his emotional security, he had to wait until she realized that he was hers.

That is why this is titled MOORING.

"People can't, unhappily, invent their mooring posts, their lovers and their friends, anymore than they can invent their parents. Life gives these and also takes them away and the great difficulty is to say, Yes to life"

~ James Baldwin, Giovanni's Room

That's it from me. Hope you enjoy it.

rulama2013-08-30 22:04:25