Chapter 132

Smita,😊

Here is the interpretation to Part 32.

After shopping the engagement ring, when Ganesh stopped at his office on his way to drop Anamika at her home, it was quite late and the building was deserted. Their footsteps echoed along the corridor as they strode along. While Ganesh was on call, Anamika browsed on his CD collection and found that he had a good collection of music. Then her eyes went to his vast collection of books on photography arranged on an antique rack. In a corner of the room was a big cabinet that housed, all the awards and trophies he had won over the years, that were dumped by him, as did not hold any such recognition in high esteem.

With a tender smile on her lips that reached her eyes, she looked at Ganesh, who sported long hair that was framing his face. For Ganesh it was not a fashion statement but the result of his forgetfulness to get it cut short. Once he completed the call he turned around to find Anamika standing close-by. Shaking her head she commented that his hair grew like a weed, making Ganesh smile. But that smile didn't last long, as Anamika fingered his locks gently saying, that it was soft, like raw silk. Ganesh knew that it was once again a test on his self-control. Bracing himself with a deep drawn breath, he let Anamika run her fingers through his hair, caressing his scalp, loving the feel of him. Her rather late, do you mind, had him say a guttural, no. Her whispered, you are so warm, big like a bear, brought in a smile in him and query, a bear? She nodded and said a grizzly bear, a bear who forgets to cut his hair till she nags him. His answer that, a bear who loves to be nagged by her, had her eyes widen and ask, really? Her innocent astonishment had him smiling. Anamika surprised him by leaning on to him, with her hands gripping his broad shoulders, lifting herself on her toes, kissed his cheek. While her action made him swallow a lump in his throat, she whispered, a promise to nag him every day of their life. His dry retort, Thank you for your kindness, had Anamika giggle and lower herself. This uninhibited action of hers, brought out a smile that made his eyes twinkle with amusement.

Once again, his smile froze when she removed his glasses and placed it on his desk. She trailed her finger over his face, making herself familiar with every part. Running her finger lightly over the bridge of his nose, it came to rest at his lips. While Ganesh swallowed hard, Anamika's eyes followed the movement of his Adam's apple with fascination. With her finger delicately touching the edges of his lips, she glanced at his hot eyes, then she slowly rubbed her finger against the soft curves and loved the feel of it. His lips parted involuntarily, at this assault on his senses. With Anamika removing her hand, they both stood looking at each other silently with only the sound of their loud breath echoing in their ears. Recovering, Ganesh asked, shall we leave, but Anamika like a stubborn child was reluctant and shook her head. Ganesh smiled and thought, how he felt like enveloping her in his arms and cover her sweet face with his kisses! Taking a deep breath to calm his tightly strung nerves, attempting to take their physical relationship a step ahead, he asked Anamika, whether he could touch her? Without taking her eyes of him, gulping down her fears, she nodded in agreement.

Her consent, made him feel all the more alive and messed up his mental state. He chanted to himself to take things slowly and not to spook her off. Giving soft assurance to her he asked Anamika, to take his hand. When she took his right hand in her left, he could feel her quivering. He curled his fingers on hers to calm her. Asking her to place his hand on her wherever she felt comfortable, he conveyed to her that this was his way of giving her all the choices and the power to decide where their relationship went. She wondered, how had she found such a good man? Lifting his hand she placed it on her face making him cup her cheek. She felt soothed by the warmth exuded from his palm. Inhaling the aroma of sandalwood she felt loved very much as never before in her life. She withdrew her hand that was over his hand and with her eyes shut, her cheek resting on his palm she luxuriated in the warm sensuous feeling it gave. Ganesh felt choked at her stance, at the love and trust she had bestowed on him. He stood silent letting her acclimatise to the feel of being touched. Taking care not to scare her, he slipped his fingers into her hair. Taking his own sweet time, he ran his fingers through the lustrous, healthy, silky tresses and traced patterns on her scalp bringing in a smile of sensuous pleasure in her. The feel of his rough, blunt fingers in her hair, had her roll her head back and relish the sensation it evoked in her. Getting in touch with her own sensuality, made her realize, how Ganesh must have felt at her touch. She let her mind drift along, imbibing the sensual pleasure and warmth it provided sensing the arousal. She felt how a mere touch of a man, could make her drift into a world of their own. It was very suggestive, capable of making her limbs go weak. When Ganesh brought his hand back to her soft cheek, in a move surprising both of them she she pressed her lips on his palms.

Arnav and Khushi were sitting on the charpoy, in Buaji's yard, enjoying the cool night air under the canopy of stars lit by moonlight. Khushi who was kissed by Arnav at the jewel showroom, was feeling embarrassed at the PDA. Feeling bashful asked Arnav, What would others have thought about him? About them? In front of all' She could not even bring herself to utter the word kiss. Arnav's eyes on her made her blush all the more, while he had a mischievous but satisfied smile glued on his face. Seeing his smirk, Khushi admonished him not to smile so. Arnav with naughtiness oozing out of every pore asked her, like what? Her retort, like the cat who enters stealthily into Buaji's kitchen and laps up the milk. That was how it smiles at her when caught in the act as she tries to shoo it away. Arnav finding a good opening to tease her, smirked at her posing, Oh! The cat smiles at her! Khushi who knew that the conversation was getting beyond her control snapped at him saying, yes after stealing the milk, just like him. While his molten caramel eyes were drinking in her furious face and his husky voice sending shivers down her spine, What did he steal? was his query. Khushi hugged herself, feeling the goosebumps pop out on her skin, with his seductive eyes and sensual voice washing over her.

Arnav with an impish smile asked her, what happened? Was she feeling cold? Khushi irked by his stance, asked him, not to divert from the topic and why did he have to..? once again was unable to verbalize. In an innocent voice he asked, what was it that he was supposed to have done? Khushi who was still smarting from his public display of affection, blushed profusely with just the thought. She asked him, whether he really didn't know what he did? Arnav relaxing himself with his arms on the charpoy, gazing at the sky, recounted what he did by saying, that he sat with her, looked at the rings, bought the ring she liked. What else did he do? Khushi gritted her teeth, raised her fist to punch in the air. As though recalling then, Arnav asked Khushi, did she mean this? while her gave a loud smack on her plump cheek.

This update is about make or become accustomed or used to something. In a word, HABITUATE.

When Ganesh and Anamika drop at Ganesh's office on their way to her home, Ganesh attends to some work that needed his immediate attention. Left to herself, Anamika, wandered around his room, browsing through the CD collection, books and the awards he had received. Once she perused the lot, her attention went on Ganesh, who had sported long hair. Finishing the work, when his attention drew towards Anamika, he found her standing close by. Her touch and admiration of his locks as soft, like raw silk, took him unaware. It made him draw in his breath. He knew he had to be in control of his emotions, as well as allow Anamika to unleash herself. That put the onus on him and his self-control. This was something that Ganesh has to get accustomed to, even though it would bring him to the end of the tether. Calling him a Grizzly Bear, she reminds him that unless she brings it to his awareness, he forgets to get a hair-cut. And she is told that he loves when she nags him as it gives him a sense of belonging. This is something that Anamika has to get used to, the sense of belonging. At his behest, she promises not to give up any time.

"You have power over your mind - not outside events. Realize this, and you will find strength"

~ Marcus Aurelius, Meditations

Throughout Ganesh is made aware that he is walking on thin ice, his self-control reaching its limits. He is unable to show how he feels about her as he does not want to scare her and remind her of the atrocities. Though she is able to touch him whenever and wherever she pleases, he is unable to reciprocate it at his will, until she feels comfortable with it. He has to get accustomed to this aspect in his life. There will come a time when he can express his love uninhibitedly, but until then it is just suppressing his emotions. Though he has been used to keeping his emotions and feelings to himself, twenty long years being the testimony, it was with the notion that his feelings were not reciprocated. But now knowing that it is given with the same intensity as his, he has to control his feelings, lest he scares her off. That is the difference that he has to become accustomed to, which is an extremely difficult proposition, by itself.

"The purpose of battle is to attain the greatest heights within your own limits"

~ Yukito Kishiro

Taking tentative steps, he asks her whether he could touch her. On getting her consent, instead of going ahead, he asks her to place his hand wherever she is comfortable. When she places it on her cheeks and snugs her face in it, he is moved to tears to see the love and trust she has placed in him. This is the emotional aspect of her love that he has to get used to. It showed him how lacking she was in getting warmth, solace and a sense of belonging. She had been a lone rider all along defending her territory as well as her child, though he was there, it was in the periphery.

"To handle yourself, use your head; to handle others, use your heart"

~ Eleanor Roosevelt

When he gently ran his fingers through her hair and her scalp, the sensuous pleasure she derived, opened her eyes to what he had experienced at her tentative touch. It was a pleasure she did not want to let go. Realizing for the first time she too wanted to give him the same pleasure as she received, she pressed her petal soft lips into his hard palm. This was something she needed to get accustomed to, the give and take of sensual pleasure.

"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart"

~ Helen Keller

Khushi who had been kissed publicly by Arnav was taking exception to his display of affection in public. He, who had scorned love and was bitter about matrimony, was now openly displaying his emotions and his intentions. He was ready to announce to the world and proud too that it was Khushi Kumari Gupta, who has accepted his proposal of marriage. But Khushi was being embarrassed by his PDA. This PDA was something that she needed to get used to. She has realized that he is not a person who would let go of any opportunity even if she inadvertently provides him with.

"It's true that nothing in this world makes us so necessary to others as the affection we have for them"

~ Johann Wolfgang von Goethe, The Sorrows of Young Werther

Though she compares him with a cat, that had its fill of cream, he is insatiable where she is concerned. She realizes that she needs to get habituated to this Arnav.

For him, teasing her, making her blush was a part of his camaraderie. When asked, why did he kiss her, though she could not bring herself to say the word, kiss, he pretended not to understand her talk. When she is thoroughly riled by his banter, he gives her a loud smack taking her unaware. For a person who hated to show any emotion other than anger he was displaying his love for her in full zoom! This was an aspect that she has to get accustomed to in her life.

"Needs cause motivation. Deep-rooted desires for esteem, affection, belonging, achievement, self- actualization, power, and control motivate us to push for what we want and need in our lives"

~ Lorii Myers

That is why this is titled HABITUATE.

"When the awareness of what is achievable brushes your life, your journey has begun"

~ Lorii Myers

That's it from me Hope you enjoy it. rulama2013-05-25 03:18:03