Chapter 63

Often when people look back on their lives at the end lap of their journey, they all wonder how they had no idea that the best day of their lives was gonna be the best till it happened to them. Often times the best day starts in a crappy way. More often than not it makes one wanna give up. It is not until that moment comes that alleviates your whole life & your entire existence with its occurrence, the best day seems like any other ordinary, crappy day. When Khushi had got up from sleep that day, she just had a feeling that the day was gonna suck. & when she couldn't find Arnav at the Havan, her suspicion was confirmed. & then her day brightened slightly, when she received the package containing the blouses around afternoon, but it had again darkened when she couldn't spot Arnav at the Hall. & then Khushi had felt as if her whole existence had been under an apocalypse when Arnav had misunderstood her gloom & asked her to go away from him. & now, when she was snuggled close to Arnav's body by the secure hold of his arms, she felt the brightness from every direction she looked would blind her soon, if she didn't close her eyes & hid her face in the crook of his neck.

Once the door was closed by Khushi's steady hands, Arnav walked further into the huge room, & when he was in the center of it, a few feet away from the king-size bed, he stopped. Then all the while holding her gaze, he gently lowered her down on the ground, relishing how the scent of vanilla seemed to engulf his whole room. Then he stepped a couple of steps back to look at her angelic white form in the dimmed, shadowy overhead lighting of the room. He saw her eyes glittering like a 100 year old cognac as her restless glance roamed over the chiseled contours of his set features. Arnav's suddenly smirked, surprising himself as well as Khushi, & a glow entered his eyes that was sinfully suggestive as he whispered teasingly, "Having second thoughts?"

His sensuous growl had a catastrophic effect on her already fluttering abdomen as Khushi felt her skin was tingling with heat. She clutched her dupatta pinned on her left shoulder & getting rid of the pin she let the heavily embroidered stole fall to the ground by the pull of gravity itself. & then reaching down, she pulled out the corner of the dupatta tucked inside her Lehenga at the side of her waist & got rid of the dupatta completely, & her eyes seemed to tell him, "One down.. many more to go!"

Arnav saw the challenge in her eyes, & a sound that was close to a purr vibrated in his throat as he ripped the neckline of his white kurta a little bit in his eagerness & then reaching down, he pulled the thing off of him over his head in one swift motion. & he instantly heard a kind of trapped moan shriveling up on Khushi's lips at the sight of his naked torso. He looked up at her, & then hooked his left eyebrow up, & gestured to the close door behind him by jerking his head towards it to issue the challenge loud & clear.

Khushi swallowed at the smoldering challenge in his eyes, & then squaring her shoulders, she moved forwards toward him. She stopped directly infront of him, her Lehenga brushing against his legs. & then, averting her eyes from his, which seemed to be gauging each reaction of hers for any signs of withdrawal, she tentatively laid both of her hands on his taut pectoral muscles. She immediately felt his whole body coil like a tight spring under her fingers. She hastily looked up at him & his tight face gave her nothing. Feeling out of her depths & breathing heavily, Khushi slid her hands up over his smooth, hard chest, all the while looking at him for some reaction, when he refused to give her any, Khushi looked down at his chest left bare before her eyes in all its glory.

Khushi couldn't possibly imagine what an amount of superhuman effort it took on Arnav's part to not react to the touch of her soft fingertips touching his heated skin & her smooth palms grazing against the harsh pane of his torso. But he contained the urge to just haul her up against himself, kiss the life out of her, then throw her roughly on her back in the middle of the bed & just let out all that he had been harnessing inside himself since the time they had first kissed. He gritted his teeth, & made his body still & his face expressionless. He didn't wanna unleash the full force of his hunger for her on her. Neither did he wanna scare her nor did he want her to feel obliged to carry on with what she had started, if she didn't want to anymore. He wanted her to have the courage & opportunity to leave this room anytime she wanted to, anytime she felt like this was a mistake. But just at the moment he had this thought, & started to give Khushi some excruciatingly painful, but free advice in the lines of, "You should probably stop now!", Khushi did something which literally blew his mind away.

Khushi didn't want the chance Arnav was offering. The chance to change her mind & give into logic & reason. She had made up her mind, & she wanted him to get on board too, but she was not really sure how to push a person with his expertise off the edge. Having no experience, no prior idea, & no clues or hints from him whatsoever on what to do next, Khushi did the only thing she felt like doing. In fact, Khushi didn't think she had ever wanted anything with this type of a raw hunger before, as she wanted to do what she did next. Wrapping her arms around his waist, she bent down & kissed his tight male nipple. & just before she felt Arnav pulling her up, taking it in her mouth she rolled her tongue around it.

Arnav let out a string of the choicest swear words she had ever heard. & coloring instantly, she said in a high voice, "Hey! No dirty talking!" Arnav shook his head repeatedly unbelievably & said in a very dry voice, "That's not dirty talking, Red.. That's me loosing my mind." & then scooping her up again in his arms, he said matter-of-factly, "Come on.. Playtimes over.. & with that your chances of backing off too!" The urge to feel her skin against his own, soothing atleast some of the heat that seemed to be burning him down, was over-whelming. If he didn't satisfy this primitive urge, Arnav felt like he was practically gonna go mad with the wanting.

As he set her down on the bed, Khushi immediately slid back on it moving on the middle of the bed, & then sitting there like some white nymph, she held out her arms to him & he went in as if under her spell. He took her in his arms as her arms went around his shoulders, & pressing kisses to the side of her neck & her shoulder, he undid the Dori of her blouse first. Pulling at the neckline of her blouse, he kissed the more exposed parts of her shoulder possessively while his hands undid the hooks of her blouse. As Khushi felt his fingers caressing her bare back, she shivered with anticipation, & then at the persuasion from his lips over her collar-bone, she slowly, shyly, pulled back from his embrace as he pulled off her blouse as she went back. When his eyes fell on her rose-tipped fullness for the first time, she heard him take in a fractured breath & then he mumbled in a drunken voice, "Crap, they are exquisite.. If I could think, I swear I'd make it sound less lecherous, but they're.. You are.." Then unable to get a word out of his jumbled head, he reached out & felt the weight of one perfect mound in his head, & then as if compulsively, he bent down & ran his tongue across one swollen peak first & then showered the same attention on the other.

Desire shot through Khushi like a flame though a volcano, rushing to reach the top & erupt out of herself. She arched her back as she struggled to catch her breath. Her throat ached with the struggle to breath for so long, & strangely, she felt such an unbelievable pleasure that she wanted it to go on forever & at the same time she wanted the agony to stop. She couldn't believe the pleading voice was her own as she almost cried, "Arnav!" & she didn't need to say further. Pressing a bruising kiss on her parted lips, he moved down, & undoing the Dori at her waist, he pulled her Lehenga down over her hips until she lay there shaking with anticipation. Then he rid himself of his remaining clothes & came over her to cover her body with his own.

Arnav leaned down & whispered in Khushi's ear, & even before he had got to half the sentence, Khushi slapped his chest away, & said angrily with a red, embarrassed face, "I said, no dirty talking!" Arnav looked non-fazed as he bent down & trailed kissed around the outer line of her ear as he explained to her, "Again.. that's not dirty talking. That's me thinking about protection.. as I don't have any! You keep surprising me, Red.. & I wasn't prepared for this." Khushi looked away shyly as she got his meaning & informed him in a small little broken voice that her cycle ended the day they all came to the Farmhouse. As she heard Arnav saying that they should be safe then, Khushi felt her mind wander away.

Khushi couldn't remember ever wanting anything as much as she wanted Arnav at that moment. She wanted to be possessed by him. & it was such a relief to want him so completely as it soared her beyond remorse. She was tired of all the soul-searching & trying to make a meaning out of all that was so meaningless. Even if this was the death of hers, even if she spent her whole life regretting it, Arnav was, & had been for quite sometime, more important to her than her next breath. For the first time ever in her life, Khushi understood the meaning all encompassing love. & then she quivered back to reality as she felt Arnav's hand sought her inner thigh.

Arnav saw her looking at him with bewildered eyes as his fingers started to tease & stroke. Khushi gasped for breath almost like a fish out of water as she felt a pool of heat gather around her core. She felt all of her blood rushing to her ears & out of sheer desperation she started chanting his name over & over & over again. As her feelings heightened & her heart seemed on the edge of seizing she almost screamed his name out as she felt him move over her & place himself between her legs. But Khushi didn't care about anything else in the world, as at the same moment her whole world exploded & she stopped chanting his name, because she had simply forgotten it. & in the next instant, she forgot her own name, as a startled cry left her lips & she felt Arnav's body fusing with hers in the most intimate way possible.

Khushi had heard tales about it, read fictions about it, & she knew it was supposed to hurt. But nothing had ever prepared her for the sharp sting of pain she felt, & as painful tears fell from her eyes, Arnav leaned down & kissed them away, whispering soothing words, & begging her to just relax. & Khushi just concentrated on his voice, letting it wash over her, clinging to him like a second skin. & when he started moving, Khushi didn't feel so uncomfortable anymore, & she felt her whole being focusing on the sequence he repeated over & over again, until she again felt that intense, nerve-racking feeling of pleasure explode inside her. & soon afterwards, she felt Arnav pressing his face to the crook of her neck, & her name escaped his lips in a harsh cry. & as suddenly as it had started, the hurricane died down. She felt Arnav rolling off of her to take his weight off of her & dragged her towards his body, & after several breathless minutes, out of sheer exhaustion from too much frazzled nerves, they both drifted off to sleep.

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Arnav woke up to the sound of something falling, & while his eyes were still closed, the first thought he had was that, Khushi wasn't bundled up in his arms as she was when he had dozed off. He sat bolt upright while his ragged voice called out alarmingly, "Khushi!" & immediately he heard her soothing voice guide her, "I am here only, Arnavji!" Arnav turned his head sideways & saw in the faintest hint of moonlight coming through the heavy curtains that, Khushi was clasping the hook of her blouse on the back, her Lehenga already in place. Suddenly seeing her all dressed up & getting ready to leave without even waking him up first, something shifted inside Arnav. He asked in a gruff voice, "Khushi, you were gonna go away without even waking me up?"

Khushi detected the tight anger in his voice & she bent down to pick up her offending phone, which had woken Arnav by falling on the floor as she had bumped it accidentally while picking up her blouse from the floor. Then straightening up, she looked at him surreptitiously & said in a small voice, "You were in a deep sleep.. I didn't wanna wake you-" But she broke off in a shocked gasp as out of the blue, Arnav's right hand shot out & grabbing her wrist, he tugged her with a jerk towards him. Khushi lost her balance, tumbling on the bed, & promptly rolling, Arnav trapped her under him & rasped accusingly, "& what was I to think, waking up in the middle of the night, & not finding you here?.. As far as I can see, you weren't even gonna leave a note!" Khushi looked at him guiltily & said sadly, "I didn't even think like that.. Sorry? I just wanted to get back to the Guesthouse & in my room before dawn.." Then she looked at Arnav's eyes as suddenly something striked her & she asked him incredulously, "But.. why are you so alarmed? I was just gonna go to the next house.. where else was I gonna go away?"

Arnav looked down at her wordlessly for several seconds & then he rolled off of her, laid on his back, & with a hand running his eyes, he just said simply, "I don't where.. but I just know that, people I care about do. They go away from me without a notice." Khushi listened to him in a stunned silence, & then without a word, she rolled closer to him, & snaking an arm around his waist, she kept her head on his chest, & said with her lips against his heart, her words muffled, "You wake up early, right?.. You jog?.. Just wake me up then. I am gonna sleep now. I am so sleepy!" & then she really yawned, indicating she was actually exhausted, because she had woken up shortly afterwards they had fallen asleep as she wasn't used to sleeping with anyone except Payal or Garima by her side, let alone a man. Especially not when that man held her body close to his in an almost choking entanglement of their limbs. But as she tried to relax in the feel of his hard body against her & felt his arms tightly going around her again, Khushi started feeling contented lying there in his embrace, & she kicked at Arnav's sheen accidentally trying to get the messy Lehenga out of her way, before she finally drifted off to sleep.

Arnav finally felt her going off to sleep after kicking & thrashing to her heart's content, & he gathered her sleeping form closer to his. & he suddenly couldn't bear it that, if he had woken up minutes later, she wouldn't be there beside him! He had never felt such a drained feeling of peace that he had felt earlier. When they had been together.. every time she had moaned, every tear that had escaped her lashes, & every time she had screamed his name.. she had taken a little of him emotionally, so that now he felt completely drained. He again looked down at her sleeping face, & ran his fingers lightly down the smooth skin of her arm, & then he suddenly noticed it.

Their breaths.. not only mingling together, but coming in the same rhythm too. As if they were following each other. & at that moment, he felt it. If she stopped breathing, his heartbeats would follow too. & the inevitable just tumbled out of his lips, "Khushi nahi rahi, toh Arnav ki saanse ruk jayengi!" He didn't know from when, but she had become his life for him. & as he felt her snuggling up to his body more, her hair mussed over his chest, something else left his lips, that shocked him more than everything else that had happened that night, "I love you, Red!"