Chapter 13

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Part 9 :: (Day 3) (Part 1)

Arnav groggily opened his eyes. He looked through the curtain to see that it was still dark outside. His gaze landed on the bedside watch to see it was still 4 a.m. He opened his eyes and his head on its own accord moved to his right anticipating to see his sleeping wife and he was not disappointed. There she was, sleeping with her blanket tucked till her chin , and her one hand out, as if she knows that he has a habit to hold her hand as they sleep. Smiling at her, he dragged himself near her and easily placed his hand on her and tangled his fingers with her. He took in her sleeping form, everyday she looks same, yet different. But will he get to see her like this for the rest of his life? He felt his heart sinking at the mere thought of that. He can't! He can't live without her. But how do he make her understand this? He is ready to do anything! Anything she asks for. And in return he only wants her old Khushi back. And he vows that once she is back, he will always treasure her, always love her, will never give her a reason to leave him.

"You have your all life to repent for your doing. Make her see the love which she sees in her Arnav ji's eyes"

Doctor's word rang in his ears. She wants to see love in his eyes. He loves her! Then why can't she see that in his eyes. And as if his heart has all the answers, he got one immediately. Who is he fooling? He had loved her, always, but he knows that from the day he had known Shyam's truth, he feels more guilty then any other emotions. His heart feels guilty and the same emotion reflects through his eyes. But he need to stop this. Doctor was right, he has whole life to repent but for now, he needs to show how much he loves her. He needs to prove her that he loves her and can do anything for her.

Tera naam

Your name..

Ye laal ishq, ye malaal ishq
Ye aeb ishq, ye bair ishq
Ishq ishq, ishq

This red love, this remorse of love,
this defect that love is, this enmity of love,
Love, love, love..

[In a little convoluted manner, it's said that love is passionate (red), remorseful, a defect or weakness, and even an enmity.]

Tujh sang bair lagaya aisa
Raha na main phir apne jaisa...

I have had such an enmity with you,
That I haven't remained like myself anymore..

[Here, he's talking to the one he loves, of course.]

Mera naam ishq, tera naam ishq
Mera naam tera naam mera naam ishq..

My name is love, your name is love,
My name, your name, my name, it's all love..

Yeh lal ishq, ye malal ishq
Ye aib ishq, ye bair ishq
ishq ishq, ishq

Arnav saw Khushi's eyes fluttered open and directly colliding with his. But this time he didn't witness any repulse in her eyes and sensed her hand tighten on his. He looked at her, too shocked to say anything. His hand immediately rose to cup her cheek.

"Khushi?"

Khushi stared in his eyes and immediately looked down.

Something was different in his eyes today. Was that...was that L...No...It can't be...He doesn't love her. For him, she is a characterless girl who was trying to ruin his sister's life. He doesn't trusts her. And if he doesn't trust her then how can he love her?

Khushi again lifted her eyes to look into his. But she can see...see...No!...No!! He isn't capable of loving her. He only loves his Di, his Di is the only person he loves.

"Khushi?" Arnav again called.

"You...you don't love me...you...you don't love me...so don't try to...dont try to show it..." Khushi pushed his hand away which was on her cheek.

"Khushi...Khushi, I am not trying to show...I love you...I really do, Khushi...please believe me..." Arnav said, determined to make her believe.

Khushi looked in his eyes. Her heart wants to believe whatever he was saying but the fear of getting hurt again, holding her back.

"You are lying...you don't love me...you are lying..."

"No, Khushi! I am not lying! Tell me what should I do to make you believe that I love you, please tell me. I swear on the dearest thing to my heart, I do, I really love you. Tell me what I should do. Tell me, Khushi" Arnav said like a desperate man, wanting his love to be accepted.

Dearest thing? Means his Di? She is his dearest thing! Then why he wants her with him? Why can't he leave her alone?

With all might she could muster, Khushi pushed him away from her.

Arnav caught himself upright just in time. He lifted his eyes to look at her, confused by her sudden madness.

"Khushi!" But his call fell on deaf ears.

And he saw her sit on the bed and throw everything her hands could reach for. All the pillows, the blanket, the watch from the bedside table, water jar, the glass. She threw everything like a woman possessed with some unknown force.

Arnav pushed himself in the sitting position and caught her one hand and before she can comprehend anything, he slammed her in his arms.

"Calm...calm down, Khushi" Arnav whispered softly in her ear and cradled her close to him.

Khushi felt her eyes sting with hot tears as she heard his soft voice. Her hand, ignoring her command, rose to his shoulder and clung to him.

Arnav just held her there, close to his heart. He knows she is hurting, more than him. And he is ready to take any humiliation and do anything to take away her every pain.

"I know you are hurting, Khushi...But just tell me what should I do to take that pain away...tell me...I will do anything...anything you want...just let me in...tell me what should I do...tell me Khushi...anything you want...anything" Arnav's weak voice held promise stronger than anything.

Khushi heard him. She wants him. Wants him to love her. To take her pain away. She wants the love in his eyes to be true. And she wants him All for herself. SHE WILL NOT SHARE HIM WITH ANYONE. ANYONE!!

Khushi lifted her head from his chest to look at him. Her breathing irregular with all the throwing activity done by her.

"Anything?" Khushi asked in an barely audible voice, but Arnav's sharp ears were even capable of hearing her heartbeat.

He looked at her petite form. Her sharp collarbone visible whenever she stiffed. Smiling, he cupped her cheek with his one hand and replied to her.

"Anything!"

And the smile just adorned on his lips disappeared as he heard her reply. His hand which was on her cheek, fell on his side.

"Leave your Di.."

Arnav looked shocked at her.

Apna naam badal doon
Ya tera naam chhupa loon
Ya chhod ke saari yaad
main bairaag utha loon

Should I change my name,
or should I hide your name?
Or should I just leave all the memories
and become a hermit?

Bas ek rahe mera kaam ishq
Mera kaam ishq, mera kaam ishq

So that there is just one work, love, for me,
My work be love, love be my work..

Mera naam ishq, tera naam ishq
Mera naam tera naam mera naam ishq

Ye laal ishq, ye malal ishq
Ye aib ishq, ye bair ishq

"OK...I will"

Now it was Khushi's turn to look at him, shocked! He is ready to leave his Di for her?

"You...you will?" Khushi asked.

Arnav slowly brought her again to arrest her in his arms. Keeping his head on her shoulder, he closed his eyes in pain.

"Yes, I will..." Arnav replied back as a single pearl of tears rolled down his cheek and disappeared in Khushi's white dupatta.

Khushi hugged him back. He will! He will! Her heart rejoicing for her!

Arnav broke the hug and cupped her face.

"Khushi, sleep now, its still dark outside,we will leave the house after breakfast" Arnav said.

"Leave these house?" Khushi asked confused.

Arnav looked at Khushi. How can he tell his Di to leave the house? He can't do that.

"Khushi, we...we will move out...I can't tell Di to leave this house...She...she has nowhere to go...please?" Arnav said, desperately wishing that Khushi agrees.

Khushi heard his every word. Move out? She don't mind that. As long as Arnav ji is with her, she don't mind whether she is in this house or somewhere else. She only wants to be with him. Alone!!!

"Ok.." Khushi nodded at him.

Arnav forced a smile on his face. Taking her in his arms, he laid down on the bed. He lay there with Khushi in his arms. He will have to leave his Di! Arnav again closed his eyes as few more tears took their course, which went unnoticed by Khushi. If this is his punishment then he will take it. He will move out with Khushi. And...and will...will leave his Di. Arnav swallowed that thought with great difficulty.He looked out to see the darkness, the same darkness which is engulfing his life. But he will not allow that. He will fight it! He tightened his hold on Khushi's waist. Anything for his love.

"Anything for you, my love"

Ye kaali raat jakad loon
Ye thanda chaand pakad loon..
Din raat ke bairi bhed ka
Rukh mod ke main rakh doon..

I wish to clinch this dark night,
and hold this cold moon..
I wish to change the way there is a difference
between the day and the night..

Tujh sang bair lagaya aisa
Raha na main phir apne jaisa..

Mera naam ishk, tera naam ishk
Mera naam tera naam mera naam ishk

Yeh laal ishq, ye malal ishq
Ye ayb ishq, ye bair ishq

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