Chapter 62

UNSPOKEN LOVE

Chapter 57

"But we both want it. he said lightly continuing kissing her lightly on her exposed skin.

He knew and she knew it too that's it's wrong but they were too caught up in the moment to realize i. he leaned in further closer to claim her when his once done mistake strike in her brain and she immediately placed a palm on his lips.

"No A-Arnavji...you can't...I can't...we can't do this... she stuttered while speaking and moved a bit back from him looking out of the window to pouring rain. He can't to his when he is with someone else.

"Khushi...

"Betrayals hurt a lot Arnavji...and you can't cheat on Lavanyaji with me... and I can't give anyone the pain which I had been through. She told him as a lone drop of tear escaped her eyes as she recalled that night.

"Khushi I broke up with her. he said feebly and kept a hand on her shoulder to make her look at him and she did,

"You...

"Yes...I don't want to be with her Khushi...so I broke up. he told her.

"You can't do this. she said in disbelief.

"But I did...I did it for yo-...

"NO YOU DIDNT... she yelled at him making him look at her strangely.

"Is this so easy for you? Girl to girl, breaking up, moving on...is this so easy...don't you have a heart? Do you even realize how deeply it wounds your heart when you find out that person you loved doesn't even love you or care about you little bit. It's devastating Arnavji. she asked him and he looked at her with sorry eyes. he know he had hurt her, he knows he had wounded her hurt but he didn't know anything about her at that time and maybe that was his biggest mistake. And while she was throwing questions at him he could easily figure out those were the feeling she felt and these questions were what she wanted to ask him.

"I know I was wrong...but I want to change...I know that you love me... he said and she looked up straight in his eyes. is her love for him which she kept hiding everytime is so obvious? Can he see really feel her love?

"I don't. she said immediately.

"Don't lie Khushi...I can see it in your eyes. he said making her look forcibly at him.

She love him...no doubt she love him to her bits from the core of her heart but she loved her husband whom she was married yo. She loved the man her parents thought would take care for her forever but that man loved someone else and had cheated on her. she is angry, upset and everytime she thinks about love she is only forced to remember that betrayal which he gave her, accusations which he threw at her and for her now love is just the betrayal he gave her nothing else. But the love she kept masking away is so obvious that he can see...she tried her best to replace that love with hate, but she couldn't hate him, so she tried to hide it...but is she failing in that too?

"i-It's n-not love. She stuttered.

"Then what is it Khuhsi...answer me...didn't you feel the same what I was feeling when I kissed you the first time. he asked her.

"Yes I did...that kiss was a mistake for you and you regret making that mistake and so do i. she said angrily on the mention of that kiss. How many countless nights she had spent shredding tears when he simply told her it was mistake. How many nights she kept thinking what wrong she did? Why is he questioning her feelings when he couldn't even decide his. he told her that it was mistake but why is he telling her now that felt something.

"And what about now? he grabbed her face from both the sides and kissed her as deeply as possible. He bit her lips to seek an entrance. She clutched his shirt harder that her knuckles almost turned white. She protested that kiss initially and was too numb to react but he wouldn't let her go unless she reciprocates it. he was nibbling on her lips, showing every passion he had for her. this was not just a kiss for him, he wanted to prove and show her his love in that kiss. He wanted her to accept his love. Few minutes he kept trying hard and she tried to jerk him away but gaining all the strength in her she pushed him hard which made him tumble slightly back.

"Stop it Arnavji... she cried unable to keep a hold on herself. They both were breathing hard and she know if he would keep pushing her she would give in. it's no mystery that she love and he knows it but she don't want to give in so easily, especially when he had not just hurt her every single day of their marriage but also have sliced her heart in pieces by cheating on her with some other girl.

"I am not a toy Arnavji which you can use and throw whenever you like. I am also a human with a heart. she pointed hard in his chest over his heart which was racing quickly. "And I won't let you play with my heart once again. she said trying hard to stop those tears. Arnav was too shocked after hearing her words. Does she think so low of him? does she think he will use her for his needs and throw her away? he know he has did plenty of wrong things in the past but he is ready to rectify them, all he need is a chance but she isn't ready to give it to him.

"Khushi... he began but he moved to the far corner of the backseat. Far away from him. he clearly know she was crying and seeing her that way knowing that he is the sole reason of it makes his heart squeeze in pain.

"Khushi I now I did wrong but khushi I lo-... before he could finish what he was saying there was a knock on the window and he immediately turned back to see Akash standing outside holding an umbrella. Khushi instantly wiped her tears and looked in the direction. He opened the door and AKash offered them the spare umbrella he bought for them and lead them towards his car.

"I am sorry...I got a little late. Akash told him.

"No problem...it's okay. Arnav said as he sat in the passenger seat next to Akash while Khushi sat silently on the backseat.

"What happened to your car? he asked Arnav.

"Don't know. He replied shortly as he was busy stealing glances of his wife. She was looking away not even ready to look in front.

"Khushiji are you okay, Di gave me this for you. he gave her a shawl which she took hesitantly.

"Thank you. she muttered quietly but inspite of wrapping it around she just kept her on her laps too consumed by her thoughts.

"Drape it around Khuhsi...you are wet and you might catch flu. Arnav said and she got startled as she heard her name from his mouth/ she gingerly drape it around her.

"You are soaked BHai, you take my jacket...I didn't bough anything for you. he said while taking off his jacket.

"NO I am fine. He said Akash turned on the engine and drove them back o home. The entire ride back home Arnav kept looking Khushi from the mirror. There was a time where she would wipe her cheeks and he would know she was crying. It was hurting him seeing her like that. Everything was so fine when they left home, but everything got messed p. but in this mess he realized where what he did to her and her fragile heart. maybe the damage was beyond repair but he doesn't want to lose her now when he had so strong feeling for her. Arnav Singh Raizada never lose his composure, never give in to such lewd desires but this girl just made him crazy/ he never even cared for his bedmates before, it was just plain sex for him, no emotions involved, just a physical need but KHushi KhumariGupta gave it a whole new dimension.

He cares for her, he feels pure things coming straight from his heart. he had never thought someone else's tears would make him cry or someone else's happiness make him happy. It wasn't just a physical attraction. It was way-way more than that. But his girl deeply wounded and he the one to be blamed. He just saw the consequences where unintentionally things got in a rush. He has to take things slow, even slower just to show her what he feels for her. she isn't just a toy or her, but his love. And no matter how many days, failed attempts or rejections would take he wouldn't let her go., not now atleast.

They reached home and

And saw Anjalji waiting for them.

"They why are you still up. Arnav ask walking in.

"You want me to sleep when we get a call so late in night saying you got stuck in the rain. She told him.

"Di we are fine. Khuhsi told her.

"Look at you, you recently had a surgery and here you both are getting drenched in rain. She scoldd them and bought a towel.

"Sit. She ordered her and rubbed her hair with a towel to dry her hair.

"Chotte, she is your responsibility and you were supposed to make sure she doesn't catch flu again, did you just forgot what happened that day.

"Di...I told her...sss

"Di it isn't his fault I insisted him to go out and then the car broke down. she said and he eyes her in disbelief. Why is she taking all the blame?

"It was me who wanted to go out, you kept saying no but I was being a jerk to you. he defended her.

"Stop you both of you...you both are at fault and now get into fresh clothes quickly and I'll send warm milks in your room. she told them and nodding they both left for their room and got changed. Anjalji came in their room and gave them the milk and making sure they both drank Khushi who had some problem with the plain milk was given chocolate syrup in her milk. Coco was too excited n the sight of the milk and started jumping around in the room so the little one given some milk too. soon once everything ended and they retired to bed the room was deadly silent, only the loud poring of the rain could be heart. he looked at her and her eyes were open staring at the ceiling. He wanted to reach for her on the recliner but decided against it. he wanted to give her some space. Once he saw her falling asleep he too fell asleep.