Chapter 14

With raged breaths and the sigh of frustration Arnav rested his head on his pillow and then with the tilt of his head he gave a deep glance to Khushi who was lying on the same bed facing the other side, he knew she was fully awaked but she wasn't acknowledging his presence on the bed near to her, it was the third day after their last argument in the washroom when she gave him news about her pregnancy. In these few days he tried to think any possible way to mend the things between the two but couldn't come up with any as the things were getting messed up between them and the news of an unborn baby in their life had jolted him inside. He didn't know what he do? He was now feeling tired of her stubbornness. He clenched his teeth in anger clutching the sheet with his palm, what the hell she is thinking she is doing? Why doesn't she try to understand me? Don't I mean to her?

He took an unsteady breath try to soothe his anger, I can't let the things go in this way---I can't. He made a firm decision letting out a breath and then shifted his weight toward her side, She could feel her pulse flutter, her heart beating in her chest as she felt his scent and the weight of his body shifted to her side she held her breath closing her eyes tightly'she can't let this happen again'she can't let him get his way.

"Khushi! I know you are awake. Don't try to ignore me"

Tears stung the back of her eyelids as she opened and lifted her lashes to look at him stubbornly as his plea touched the sensitive part of her heart, It was the first time in few days when she saw him so closely to her "I don't want to talk to you." She turned her eye balls in other side as Arnav leaned over her to meet with her gaze. He let out the sigh with the shake of irritation and then again looked down at her face, this time he leaned so close to her that she could feel his hot breath on her cheek and his hands were on her both sides.

"Please talk to me'we can't let things go in this way between us'we've to mend the things between us"

This time she didn't protest but opened her eyes and looked straight at him, "is there anything left between us? You've cleared that you don't want this baby and what is my value, my presence mean in your life you've been told to Riya"She exploded spilling out all the anger, frustration of all these few days and he looked stiffen for a moment to experienced the havoc of emotions but then he gasped and cupping her cheek he stroke the strands of hairs that were making his view unclear, "I've been said sorry for that'I'am an Ass for saying all that bullshit, I know I did a huge mistake but can't you forgive me for that"

His tone softened this time and she felt the edge of guilt in his voice'she could forgive him for that mistake but couldn't forgive him for not accepting the unborn baby that was His own seed.

"Do you want the baby?" She sank her elbows into the soft tick pillow, propping herself up and Arnav let out the frustrated sigh. "We'll think about the baby later firstly we should clear the mess between us and---"

"No'first you'll tell me do you want this baby or not?"She spat interrupting him and tried to push him away but this time he laid his free hand on her mouth to silence her, "why are you creating the fuss about this issue? Why don't you try to understand me?"

He released her and she gasped looking at him who was giving her an irritating look at her stubbornness, "Same goes to you Arnav. Why don't you trying to understand me?"

He shook with the frustration and then gasped and let his hand rest on the pillow just beside her cheek giving her a deep look, "I know you want this baby but this isn't the right time for us to have a baby as I'm still not stable as financially and we need time to think about our future"

He sighed and slid his fingers across her cheek, "we'll think about this issue later. Is baby more important in your life than me?i missed you Khushi'I missed you so much in these few days'please don't do this to me..Don't act like a stubborn child'you know I can't stay away from you" he tried to meet with her lips and she pushed him keeping her hands on his chest, "No---first you'll have to---"

This time he didn't listen her and silenced her with his mouth,Khushi opened her mouth in protest and he claimed her lips for deep kiss, "I missed you Khushi'please don't protest" he said as he raised his lips from hers to draw them across her cheek.

"Arnav you can't---you can't do this'I don't want this"

Her words came out like a groan of anger and she tried to escape from his grip but he didn't hear her plea, "I won't leave you'I know you want the same.Don't be stubborn Khushi'let me make love to you "He drew his mouth to her earlobe and whispered again.

"No" she groaned loudly as she felt his hands moved towards her back working with the zip of her dress.No'I won't let this happen'I'll have to stop him'I won't let him have his way this time'I can't be a weak person again.

With her all strength she pushed him hard and rolled herself to the other side of bed and then slid out from that before Arnav could catch her. "No'I'm tried of all this'I don't want to share my body with you'I've been given you everything now I've nothing to left in me"

She exploded and her body shook with the rage Arnav gasped and his eyes widened to see the anger flushed in her eyes, "No Arnav'I can't give you anything more until you make decision about me'about the baby that the symbol of all the nights we made love"

She placed her hands on her belly and then shot him a firm glance; He gulped the lump as slowly her words registered in his mind, "Don't you trust me anymore or you think I'll leave you?"

He slipped down from the bed and stepped towards her, she didn't move from her place to see him coming closer to her and met with his deep gaze, she could see the hurt flushed in his eyes and she knew her words had hurt him but there wasn't any other way for her'he didn't leave any other way for her'she couldn't bear the fact that he had another woman in his life and he was still hiding about her. He still didn't want to make decision about their lives---their future together or about the unborn baby that was his own seed. She let out the uneasy, shaky breath parting her lips.

"I trust you more than myself but I can't bear this thought that you don't want this baby'you don't want our baby because of your future'because of your dreams."

Tears stung in her eyes and he felt something pricked in his heart he felt like pull her in his arm and crushed her under his strong grip but then thinking the way she had pushed him away burned him all over, he couldn't bear her rejection'he couldn't bear to think the unborn baby was more important in her life than he. He shook stubbornly jerking away her thoughts.

"So what's wrong if I don't want this baby'I'm not prepared for fatherhood'I hadn't thought about it'this news came like a earthquake in my life'you know how much I've struggled to get my dreams and now you are saying me I should leave everything because of this baby and commit to you, plea in front of you to marry me"

Something broke in her heart so loudly that clenched her heart; she gasped giving much needed oxygen to her lungs and looked at him with the blurry eyes. Her breath caught in her throat to see there wasn't even a flicker of regret, guilt in his eyes.

"Do you think I and this baby are coming in your way'this baby is getting --problem in your smooth life?"She spat, her voice choked with the emotions, He shook his head in frustration and then looked at her "I didn't say like this but--"

"But?"

He gasped getting irritated at her stubborn behavior'She knew everything but still she didn't want to understand anything..Why she wasn't try to understand him? She knew he wanted her in his life and he had been confessed it to her thousandths of time but still she wasn't ready to listen him'she wasn't ready to give him chance to get what he dreamt of?

He let out uneasy sigh and then took a deep breath to keep his anger in his control as he didn't want to mess up the things more between them. He stepped closer to her and then cupped her face in his hand leaning to kiss her forehead and then pulled back to stare her face, "I can't lose you at any cost'you know very well what you're mean to me---I don't want to lose you'please Khushi try to understand me"

She soaked back tears in her eyes as she felt his lips touch hers and then giving her a deep kiss he moved away, she opened her eyes, he was now lying on his bed'he didn't force her to join in bed he might wanted to give her space so she would've re considered her decision and Khushi let out the gasp of grief to get his answer'he didn't want this baby'he wasn't ready to give name to this unnamed relationship'for him she was just a soothing, warm body in his bed nothing more and if he would've cared for her he would give name to this relationship.

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