Chapter 1

Firstly, I want to thank Soumya (krazyinlove) for posting "I Too Have A Love Story" and her, Nikitha and Iptisha for supporting me in this. I don't know why I am doing this and I have a feeling I might regret this but then, I also feel that after this I'll feel lighter and relieved.

So here it goes...

9^th July, 2013, the date when I saw him for the first time. No, I don't remember the date because it was love at first sight; I do because I'd noted it in my tuition notebook. 🤣 It was the first day of chemistry tuition, for me. The tuition I'd been attending previously did nothing to my grades so I wanted to change it. This tuition usually started from 3:30pm. It was my first day and I was 5-10 minutes late.

I reached the tuition with my mom, as she had to talk to sir, personally. We had never met him, just talked on the phone before. You could call this my 'demo class'.

Sir was already inside the class. Seeing us, he smiled and motioned with his hand to us to sit in his office and he'll come in a minute. Seeing his action, everyone turned back to look at us. They started staring and gossiping among them, I was the new student after all. Just one guy, sitting on the first seat, wearing a collared white t-shirt smirked at me and looked in front, again. I frowned. Of course I didn't want him to stare at me ... to be honest, I would have been glad if everyone looked away, too. But smirk? So rude? Like I was nothing?

"A guy with those looks ... He'd sure have loads of attitude, Kriti" I thought.

I was to be proof wrong, soon.

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After 15 minutes, I entered the class after sir. My mom and he had talked. And, now, was the time for the class. I took a seat in a row in the last, trying to avoid all those curious eyes. But was I that lucky? Nah.

"Kriti, come sit in front" sir said and I took the seat diagonal to that rude boy. I looked around me and saw a guy, sitting behind the rude guy, staring and smiling at me.

I rolled my eyes. "God, what a start!"

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Sir started the lecture. It was the first lecture on surface chemistry.

As the class continued, the white t-shirt guy answered a question.

I did stare at him.

That was the deepest and the best voice I'd ever heard.

He said something, to sir, again and I just kept on staring.

Then I shook my head.

"You're to ignore him Kriti" I scolded myself.

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Days passed by and I tried to ignore both the guys. The creepy one, because if I hadn't, I would have ended up punching his nose. The rude one, because I thought I used to hate rude people and I thought this guy was HOT? Smh! Where did my sanity go?

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And, then, as I miserably failed to ignore the rude guy... I noticed few things about him that would make me wonder. He was bizarre to me.

This guy used to sit on a seat very close to mine but never next to me. He'd look at me but would look away if I caught him staring, floor being his favorite escape. His body language ( I know it because I'm good at it ) changed to defensive whenever that creepy guy talked to me or smiled at me. But, then he never even said "Hi" to me, neither did he smile at me... rather, he ignored me!

To say that I was confused would be an understatement.

And, you might have heard, "Jiska koi nahi hota, uska google hota hai"

So being the genius I am, I googled it.

And, bless the makers of google, I found out he was a shy guy and ... he liked me!!

By then, I knew I liked him, too, not love maybe...but definitely a crush..a huge one. But guess what? Till that day, I didn't even know his name.

And, the next name I found out that too.

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I was in the first row and only one seat was empty in the row, that too, besides mine. When he came, he sat far behind me, ignoring the seat next to me, being the shy guy he was.

"Navjot, idar aa ja aage" Sir said. Oh, so that's his name.

He rolled his eyes and said, "Sir, it's Navya" Navya? That's a guy name too?

"Yeah, right Navya...Navya" sir corrected himself while Mr. Navya got up and sat by my side.

After a while, sir scribbled down some question on the board and said "Haan, Navjot iss ka answer btao"

He rolled his eyes again while I bit my lip to hide my smile. This time he didn't correct sir and rather, started to answer. I looked towards him and he knew I did, as he saw me looking from the corner of his eyes. Unbelievably, he started stammering. I looked away, flushing red.

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And, this wasn't all. This guy used to stammer whenever I looked at him, sweat at 18 degree Celsius, sitting in air conditioned room, if I happened to sit right behind him, stare at the guy who would try to irritate me. He'd stay in the parking lot in front of tuitions till my mom came to pick me up, making sure that I go safely. Damn, he was adorable!

And me? I'd turn into a girl from the tomboy I was used to be! I even risked my life just because there was a chance to see him. I had sketched him. He haunted my dreams and what not!

The things I felt for him was very different from what I felt for any of my previous crushes. It wasn't just butterflies and nervousness; it was tons of happiness too. It wasn't like I wanted to be my little secret; it was like I wanted to shout out to the world, telling them how perfect he was. I would be shocked if someone on IF has managed to scrap me every day and they don't know about him. 😳

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Days went by and I wanted to share what I was feeling with my bestie, Madhav. But, I knew he would either laugh at me or shout on me... I was wrong, he did both.

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~Replay of my conversation with Mr. Madhav~ (P.S. - WARNING! We are mad people)

Me : Oye Pagal! Remember I told you how hot a guy in my tuition was? :D

Him : Vahi na jo tekko bhav nhi deta xP How can I forget? :P

Me : -_- aap mar kyu nhi jaate?

Him: Right after you, bitch!

Me: To hell with you bas***d!!

Him: Acha bta to kya hua?

Me: I think I like him.

Him: acha hai, maze maar ;)

Me: Not like that, bimbo, like serious waala Like!!

-And here is when the Ladai started-

Him: Fer se nahi...teko sab ullu de pathe he pasand aate hai, Vivek jese..gadhi kahi ki!

(P.S. Vivek is an ex-crush who turned out to be a drug addict)

Me: Dude vo vesa nahi hai!!

Him: Tu ye Vivek k liye bhi kehti thi..Maene keh diya na nahi toh nahi

Me: had hai!!

-And we fought for like 20 mins-

Him: Okay fine, naam bata uska.

Me: Navya ... you know? Navya means "new" in Sanskrit, "young" in hindi and "happy" in Arabic (Yes, I had done that much research by then)

Him: Navyaa???? Tu lesbo ae? ROFL !!

Me: Shut up! He's a guy! It's Navya, without the "aa" ki matra!

-And we fought a little more-

Him: ok na, pagal c...pehle mae pta lagaunga banda kesa hai, tab tu haan kahegi

Me: O chandni chok k pagal, I said that I like him, not that he proposed me -_-

Him: Yeah, whatever!

-After some hours-

Him: thik hai tera banda...jis jis se pucha, bather tareef ki. Drummer hai ek band ka..Shy type hai and single bhi hai..badha le baat aage

Me: Yayy! Maddy, I wub you!

Him: Vese naam dekha h munde ka? Navya! Kudiyon wala! And fb pe bhi saare munde hi h dost.. Gay saala!

Me: That's because he goes to an all guys school.. and naam kitna acha hai, unique sa..Hum dono ka merge kare to Kavya bnta h .. tu avenhi faltu bakwaas krta h

Him: Mae bta rha hu jaaneman, gay hai vo ... tujhe pasand hi saare gay aate hai.. Pehle JB ab ye!! :P

~Do I need to say we fought again?~

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After a few days, I collected all the strength I had and sent him a friend request on FB, he accepted.

21^st January, his birthday. I posted a simple "Happy birthday! Enjoy!" on exact 12 on his timeline. And, out of 100 wishes that he got, he just chose mine and his best friends' to "like"!!

That was also the day when I did a big mistake...

I stalked his profile...reading post of past years.

Reading his posts, I could make out that he had been in a relationship, twice...and got hurt, both the time. He is from a very rich family and those girls, probably were with him due to that sole reason only.

He had lost all hopes on love. Even if he loved me back, he would never accept me or never say it because he feared getting hurt, again. Maybe that was the reason he was so defensive, so shy.

That night I realized the truth that all the writers say... when your heart breaks, it never hurts in the left; it hurts in the middle of the chest.

He awoke the writer in me that I'd sent to sleep, long ago. I wrote a line that night, a question rather, which suited his and maybe, my situation too.

"Have you ever fallen for somebody so hard that you're STILL picking up your broken pieces?"

I decided I'd keep myself away from him as it was obvious that he could never love me back.

But, Fate is a cruel bitch!

I soon realized what a gentleman Navya was. He was the carbon copy of the guy I'd always dreamt of.

Can you imagine?

Both of us had another tuition after this one, and that was in the same sector!

Whenever I used to miss a class, Magically, every girl's no. I knew would either be switched off or busy..and at last, I would have to msg him on FB!

He usually used to drive himself to tuition, but on Sundays(test days) someone or the other from his family used to come and pick him up. Weirdly, our tests kind of ended at the same time and then, our parents would come at the same time to pick us.. making up spend all that time alone in the parking lot...and still, being the shy creatures we are, we never talked.. though we did steal glances of course.

Then one night I wrote this which we even used in LikeKnifes as it fitted the situation.

"How far can you run away from the north that the compass of your heart points to?"

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And, then he did a thing, no one else ever did for me.. and I just knew I couldn't try to ignore him anymore.

It was start of November; My Chachu had recently passed away. No one knew about that in my tuitions. And, neither could anyone guess my sadness, not even my friends.

But, that guy!

Lemme tell you, he's a pure nerd. He used to come to the tuition and instantly open his notebook and start revising..Certainly, not a class joker. After all, he was shy!! But he...

It was like sir asked a question. We were to put organic compounds in decreasing order of basic strength. So, being him, he replied instantly "Sir, 2314"

Sir replid "Nahi, Navya ( by now, he did get his name right xD ) We'll name the most acidic 1 and the least 4"

And, Navya, being not-so-him said "Fine, sir, then 1234"

The whole class laughed. But he didn't notice, he was looking at me, to make sure that I laughed..and I sure did.

He was the first person to make me laugh after Chachu's death.

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Can you believe our fate game didn't end here? We both were in different schools but we got the same board center.

I remember when I saw him there I said "Wow! There are over 100 of schools in Chandigarh and he has got to have the same center as mine?"

"Destiny, you know" My friend had said to me an winked.

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Oh, damn, there are many more incidents but it's already 9 pages of Word. I think I'll end here saying that soon we shifted and that I never confessed my feelings to him.

I'm not asking for advices but I'd sure be happy to see some.

I just wrote it down because I'm missing him and well.. I thought maybe if I let it out, I'll feel better...

So sorry to waste your time with this stupid life story of mine..

LoVe

Kriti ❤️

[NOCOPY]

Mujhe bhi aise chup na rehna tha

Tumhe bhi mujhse kuch toh kehna tha

Kaha nahi jo aaj, vo kabhi toh keh sakenge hum

Hai dekhna ye khammosi kahan talak sahenge hum

Na bole tum na maine kuch kaha

Magar na jaane aisa kyun laga

Ki saath hoge tum to chen se jee sakenge hum

Magar tumhaare bin lagega zindagi me kuch hai kam...

Credits : Na Bole Tum Na Maine Kuch Kaha (Season I Track)

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