Chapter 20

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Chapter 25:

I stare at myself in the mirror, into the depth of my eyes, paining, and remorseful my life had taken a drastic turn that night he came into my room, I had gone weak and lost all conscious, and now a month later I stand in front of the mirror, and stare at my stomach. I turn to the side and begin noticing a bulge, that very moment I realized what a mistake I had made, I had lost all emotions and made love to the man who deceived me and now I was carrying his child. This was all a mistake, all a mistake a sin, I think to myself, but this child…what was his fault? He was another reason for me to live, I smiled, I would keep the child and raise the baby with all my love, even though this pregnancy was unexpected the baby would be my life along with my other two kids. But what would I tell my parents, I had told them Shaurya/Angad walked into my room that very night and made love to me, but they refused to believe so and so did kripa, I tried telling them the truth but it was all for nothing.

I wake up from a passionate night, the very night that made me feel as though my Shaurya was back, his soul had been screaming out to me, the smell of his breath, his gorgeous eyes filled with love and something else…was it pain? I come out of my thoughts hoping to find him here or there, I glance here and there but find nothing, he was gone in a wink of an eye. I glance at myself, fully dressed in my sari that I wore the night. But how as it possible I felt his presence next to me as we reunited. I run out of the bed desperately hoping to find it wasn't a lie, but to no help. He was gone, I vowed to take revenge.

I walked out of my room full dressed, however my eyes failed to see the love bites on my back and around my neck. That was living proof he was back, I walk downstairs to the breakfast table and talk. "mama, last night, I felt as though Shaurya was back…" I continue on as my mother stares at me, the pain completely visible. She nods her head left and right, she didn't believe me. I turn around upset to find kripa behind me, completely a color of crimson red staring at me in utter hatred. "I cant believe you Anjali Khanna, you lost your husband and now you are trying to prove your brother-in-law as your husband, this is angad, for goodness sake why don't you believe him, this is my angad! Look, at this!" Kripa lifted angad's shirt, to reveal a birthmark on his chest. My world completely shatters as all memories and moments I spent with Angad come back to me, this truly wasn't my shaurya. I fall to the ground in despair and watch as they walk away from me, completely hating me for all I had done.

And for the first time in my life, I looked up to find angad looking at me with tears in his eyes, he had tried, tried telling me the truth, but I refused to believe him. He walked near me as I refused to look into his eyes any more. He placed his hands on my shoulders and forced me to look at him, their was pain evident as well, a similar pain I had seen once before. Exactly four years ago when he had told me about his heart break. "im sorry!" he said letting the tears stop and a small fake smile appear on his face. My tears stop and a sudden outburst runs through me as he walks away, for the first time in my life I was completely alone, my family gone, my husband was either dead or faking his death, and now my kids were beginning to hate me…..

End of flashback:

I walk into Payal's room who stared at the brightly colored walls surprised to find me here, she still was with me physically but she wasnt there emotionally, because of the accusations i had put on angad. I had accused him of lying, but i knew the truth it couldnt be, he couldnt not be my husband because he loved kripa, shaurya loved me and had promised to be back. Sighing, i walk towards payal, who glances at me, as i talk, "Payal im sorry for all the pains i caused you sweety, please forgive me and i hope that you can let me start afresh and give me a second chance to clear things out. im terribly sorry for not believing you!" Anjali said as payal pulled her mother into a hug and silently wept, her mother had finally learned the truth and now she could begin to live a normal life.... Chapter 26: