Chapter 6

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MUMBAI- MY NEW ABODE.

(My journey in Mumbai as shilpa)

My first day in Mumbai exciting I should say. Settling down here wasn't difficult for I got a new friend and neighbour anjali joshi. She has really comforted me. She has a son Aryan,so cute a year older than khushi. she is helping me down with khushi. having learnt to crawl she can't just stop, always tries to get away from my arms, puts mud into her mouth. I have got a job of journalist in fashion magazine,my job is to summarize events in the fashion world, getting interviews.  It's really my job, summarizing events I can do that, my earlier job was to summarize of excavated things and now it is abt events.

 

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My first day at job. I left khushi with anjali,she insisted on taking care of her,though I proposed of leaving her in baby care centre.

I entered the office nervously, looking around for someone to come and ease me. I walked in files in my hands,was walking to the cabin,which looked like the one of the head of the office as there were no one in the office,don't know why it was empty.i entered the cabin but found it empty too. I left it immediately,wat if something wrong happens and they accuse me of it.then through the entrance came a guy whistling,twirling the keys in one hand. He saw me narrowed his eyes,don't know why but a smile crept his face,it was like a wicked smile,that really sent shivers through me. He came forward and with an air of attitude asked " you shilpa sial??" I nervously nodded my head, as smile crept his face it really irritated me this time, I felt that he was  enjoying my nervousness, instead of comforting me he smiled more wickedly. I decided to not show more nervousness, giving him no reason to enjoy. I smiled confidently and said yes extending my hand. He looked at my hand and ignoring it seated in a  chair threw few files at me and said to get on work snapping his fingers. I cursed him for being rude, could u believe the guts of this guy. I was tempted to ask who he was, but may be he read my mind or just wanted to show his authority that he said "I am ur boss, u will do thing as I say. Got it?" he again snapped his fingers. He once again snap his fingers and I will break them.

First day at job,can't mess up with anyone, I needed to settle safely here. So just did the work. I worked hard yaar, first understanding the content, it is totally like greek and latin for me completely an alien. However I successfully completed the work within an hour and was handing it over to him when the other people came. All of them came rushing, I was surprised to see all of them at once. It was like a marathon.

"hey armaan,lagta hai aaj jaldi aagaye" a guy said looking at the boss, who has by now stood up with a smiling face. "Ha,sapna ne kal kuch kaam diya tha,woh adoora rah gaya tha isliye jaldi aana pada. Waise aagayi hamari Hitler sumit" he asked. " ha,aarahi hai who. Abhi lift mei hai. Isliye toh sab aagaye baagte baagte." He said chuckling. "yeh kaun hai?" he asked looking at me.

"yeh,yeh shilpa sial hai. Hamari new member interview and event handling section mei" he said lightly. "Mai abhi aata hu, sapna ko yeh file deh kar" saying he forced the file out of my hand and ran away to the cabin. The other guy looked smiling at me, he introduced himself as sumit. When I asked him why boss has run away to that cabin. He laughed at me saying, seeing me embarrassed he said  "armaan is not the boss, he is a columist,he writes on fashion for the magazine"

 

The next day armaan came to me apologized for his behaviour. He said that he was just ragging me as I was new there. Could u believe ragging me, it's not college. Maybe he needed to be taught that he was in office and ragging Is a crime.

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And then I met the  armaan, a different armaan. A caring, good natured,soft and hard at the same time armaan. he is a very friendly guy, he cares for me. I liked him the first time I saw this new armaan, had a feeling he wuld be a good friend. As days passed by I sensed that his attention towards me was something different from other friends and it was same with me too, I started giving him my special attention. I liked to care for him and being cared by him,pampered by him which he does everyday. And the care he takes of khushi makes me more happy, and love him. Did I say love. Uh! Yes it's the truth I love him, atleast I admit to myself. I really can't admit it to him.  I can't tell him the truth and I can't start a relation based on a lie. He has confessed his feelings to me and I blatantly said no to him. I lied to him that I love my husband and child that I can't let anyone enter my life. Though first part may be a lie but that other part is not. I love khushi a lot, I can't let anyone hurt her,even If it is accidental. Wat if she is neglected, wat if I start neglecting her. It is possible, though I consciously don't want to or wuld never do it. But wat if in the world of ours I forget her. I can't throw her in a world of loneliness which I have faced or from which I have saved her. Its for her I am. I think it's the best way, escape from the love.

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He is still there for me as a friend. Though I rejected his love, broke his heart, he is still there for me as a best friend. He met me today, apologized and asked  if we culd be friends for the rest of the life. That was heart touching. I didn't want to lose him as a friend. We became more close friends, only friends.

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Whom am I cheating, myself. I love him. I know these feelings I get seeing him are unique and wuld never get for anyother person. He has distanced himself from me, keeping a distance of friendship. I can no longer see the glow in his eyes, they seem to glow now only for khushi. He is being a good friend,only a friend. He is hiding everyother feeling he used to show before,just to stand by the word he gave me of being  a good friend who wuld be myside forever and nothing else. I am missing the moments we were close. Now I am understanding what his every touch earlier meant, it was a way of showing me he loved me. I understood them but never let him know my feelings. Now I am missing them. i wish only everything was normal. I sometimes have the temptation to talk to him abt the whole thing, but doesn't have the courage to do it now. I am just leaving it to our fate. I only wish he wuld get someone soon who wuld be by his side forever and ever.

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hi,thanks for the comments. just tell me how this part was. i am really nervous. tell me if the part was not nice. Don't know if i had put riddhima's feelings in correct way or not.will be waiting for the reviews. Next part wuld be confrontation,semi ending.

 

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