Chapter 4
Part: 28
Both felt a bit awkward... Aarav asked her he will show her his house.. She has come for the first time... Sindhu walked along with him ?. She liked the way Aarav walked along with her but kept a distance? Sindhu was observing those gestures and smiling... Knowing how descent this guy is... and the way he was in the beginning? Keeping his arms on the shoulder and she would shiver standing besides him in the past? As Aarav's room came close... Sindhu felt how his room may be... she was feeling... the room may be filled with her pictures and that will be embarrassing to see... or may be her name... And she was feeling too uncomfortable to see the room? Aarav opened the door of his room? and asked Sindhu to come in and have a look? Sindhu tried saying 'no?' and Aarav told her, 'Don't worry the door is open ? I was just wanting to show u the Laptop which is the first one we assembled Kunal assembled and the screen is awesome? look at it? Sindhu entered and saw.. The room had none of her picture nor her name? Sindhu kept observing the walls which had no pictures at all? and later she smiled at her own stupid thought she was thinking too much filmy. Aarav wondered what Sindhu is looking at the empty walls and the tables.. As if searching something, Aarav removed a book he told her there were some 1000 puzzles in it? he gave her the book and told she has to keep with her. Sindhu looked and was quite happy? It was a very good collection indeed?
Aarav's parents came out of their room. And Aarav introduced Sindhu to them. Aarav's mom smiled and looked at Aarav knowing she is very glad to meet Sindhu finally. Aarav was a bit shy while he introduced them looking very excited and happy.
Aarav's Mom: Sindhu, My son likes u a lot? and always tells us.. U r his guiding force? But let me tell u.. U have given us our son in the true sense... The close family we have become is with Ur life that he read, followed, and understood? Thanks Sindhu for helping us in making our Son know what real joy is all about.
Sindhu: Aunty, I haven't done anything, really haven't ?. Aarav likes me.. and I don't know Why? I keep wondering about this though.... I haven't done anything for him? for anyone actually?
Aarav: Sindhu .. If u don't know why... I can tell U? U r a friend who always cares, always makes others to smile and have a good time?. Ur voice has the strength to touch the heart; Ur words have the truth that reflects rightness? U follow simple values for urself & stick to them? Ur positive spirit, which u try and capture within U makes u a strong woman? U don't look outside to search happiness... U make it to develop just right beside U in U in simple sweet ways?
I can't tell U the many things I like about U,
I don't know if U have felt the way I feel for U,
U for me, a guiding force, a caring friend, sweet, simple & charming,
U for me, a beautiful soul, a lovely girl, to be part of ur life is mesmerizing?
Sindhu heard and felt very touched... Aarav had praised her... She didn't know why she couldn't feel as if he was praising her; but as if he was reading out the conversations he heard and things which he felt while he was listening her? I don't know how much U think about me,I don't know how much U spoke about me, but I can feel how much u have read me, I can feel how much u care for me.. How big a space U have given me.. a part of ur family, ur life I can feel to be?
After they went from that room walking, Sindhu could sense different emotions? meeting his parents she felt strange, a sense of feeling they knew her from long, a sense of closeness with the words Aarav had said, a sense of feeling she was part of their life from a very long time. Walking besides Aarav she tried to recollect how much Aarav has changed? the little moments every month they shared? Sindhu never observed him that much as she did today?
He looks good she thought and smiled, 'Why I don't feel anything I don't know?. Actually, what's the feeling that I should feel? What happens in LOVE? Aarav is nice... I like him as a friend; he is caring too? he is always concerned about me? I remember during my graduation final exams Diya was feeling like vomiting and I asked him to bring coconut water and as he was going he said he would bring one for me too? he brought and he was rushing walking with those two in hands? and our bus came... Diya climbed the bus and I as well with her? Poor Aarav was standing there with two coconut's in his two hands running towards us. I felt a bit bad but Diya was stupid... Bus mey vomit bhi kardiya tha? ' Sindhu smiled recollecting those sweet memories? 'Ya I remember the day I told him to come to meet as there was festival in the college and attend. He was standing somewhere in the corner, watching me and my friends? and I had asked him to click a snap of all of us? Aarav every time was telling to change the place where we were posing? he was not clicking and I was telling.. click nahi karne attaaa hai ? and when I took that camera in my hand? I realized there were our college love birds romancing right in the background and Aarav didn't want to click for that reason.. We all were laughing and embarrassed?' Sindhu looked at him feeling how cute he is? Now she could feel him to be cute but at that moment why she didn't feel she wondered? she felt she must have felt.. but she she realised it ?
Tumhari woh pyaari batein yaad ati hai,
Tum kitne saaf dil ke ho batalatey hai,
Kya yeh sabhi baton se main anjan thi,
Nahi to, sirf ehsaas karney mey chook rahi thi?
Aarav showed her the backyard of their Bungalow? the beautiful Lawn was nice? Sindhu walked with the book in her hand.. and she relaised she has taken a gift but on given the birthday gift to Aarav?
Sindhu: Aarav? I feel so bad? I am taking a gift from u.. and not actually giving u anything on ur birthday.
Aarav: U came to meet me... Wish me... It's more than I could ask for?
Sindhu walked wondering she feel nice to talk to him?
Sindhu: Aarav can I ask U something..
Aarav: Sure..
Sindhu: How did u realize U WERE IN LOVE? WHAT U FELT AND KNEW ITS LOVE..
Aarav: When I started transforming into a better individual... I felt U were my guiding force... there was no thought or feeling of LOVE existing in me.. Later I wanted to be ur friend so that I could talk to U a lot... I could meet U .. look at U? smile along with U...and share so many things thoughts that I wanted to? slowly people around me realized Harshad actually that I was loving u... but I never felt it? I started getting attracted to U.. (Sindhu was feeling shy to hear it) Attracted... attraction was not the fair pretty face.. Attraction was smile reaching Ur eyes? happiness totally opened expressed all over Ur face.. I started feeling uncomfortable and scared to loose to .. fear was there that I don't want to go far way from u...and I cant see u going far away from me? Wanted to be part of ur life.. and Knew u were already part of my life? Sindhu.. when I realized all this is nothing but LOVE.. I was so happy.. HAPPINESS WHICH words cant express.. My heart was pumping faster, blooming.. Blossoming.. don't know what the adjective to use to express it.. But my heart was feeling absolutely thrilled to be in love.. as if GOD showered all my wishes and they came true.. I LOVED U..and that much made me feel so happy? U know the tune.. U hummed so many times.. I never ever tried to write a poem?but I don't know.. I tried to humm the tune...to show my happiness as u do always to show ur happiness? and I could give lyrics to it.. Unknowingly the lines came.. and I was shy blushing feeling.. LOVE made me shayar too..
Aarav was blushing even now recollecting all the feelings? Sindhu could see the truth in each word he said and the way his face was lite with happiness while expressing that... Sindhu was feeling very funny to see him blushing and feeling shy? The Stylish, strong Aarav was shy and smiling cutely, she felt attraction.. as if she wanted to capture that face?
Sindhu: Really U gave lyrics?. (She laughed loudly) I made the tune for my Zubby? (Sindhu hummed the tune just like that recollecting how warm and personal that tune is for her? )
As she sang the tune? LLLAaaa Laaa Laa? Aarav walked along and sang it with the lyrics..
OOo Rehnumaa, OOo Rehnumaa, Dil Ki Zubaa Sun Zara,
Dil Kya Kahey, Tu jaaan ley, Tujhse Hi jeevan Mera?
Tu hi to meri har ek tamanna ,
Tujhse Hi mere Sansoo ka chalna,
Meri taraf dekhey jo Tu ,
Tujhsey pyar hohi gaya,
Woh Bholi ankhen jadu chalaye,
Mujhko tera bana hi diya..
OOO Meri Jaan OO meri Jaan, Tujhse Jahan Khill gaya,
Apni hi Orr khichey mujhe, Tera Deewana main bangaya?
Sindhu stood there like a statue as she heard those words? Aarav sang it and was in his own walking not realizing how Sindhu reacted... Sindhu was extremely surprised by the wordings and when he ended it.. with Jeevan Mera .. She had a huge smile on her face, and her hadn on her mouth wondering how beautifully its sang? and the lyrics absolutely touched her a lot? she was blushing but she knew she should control herself.. She was to excited hearing it?. Biting her lips with the excitement and happiness?
Yeh tumhara ganaaa mujhe Kuch aur hi bana gaya hai,
Mujhe apne aap se churaa kar tumsey jodd gaya hai,
Main chahun to bhi Ganaa ab woh waise gaana paunngi,
Tumhara chehra samney ayega aur sharma ke muskuraungi?
Aarav realised Sindhu wasn't walking: Sindhu.. What happen? Hope U r not angry with the wordings I added to Ur tune? I never sing this in front of others.. I know its personal to U... and believe me it's as close to my heart as it is to U?
Both were walking towards the hall room.. Sindhu could hear the echo of the wordings even now? She couldn't hear the hum but the lyrics which touched her heart? and the voice which made her feel touched. She now could feel the way Aarav must have felt while listening to soemthign that touched his heart. She walked a distance but lost in her thought hearing the wordings? which echoed continuously? Aarav looked at her and realized she was lost in her thoughts and there was a huge stone nearby as the lawn ended to give way to the hall room's another entrance?. Sindhu was about to fall backside... Aarav rushed and held her waist.. Making her not to fall and Sindhu held on to his chain to get her balance?. Aarav and Sindhu both looked into each others eyes and felt a deep desire to keep looking into each others eyes? Aarav knew he has to control him, Sindhu may feel offended.. he quickly loosen his grip near her waist took his hand away and Said 'Sorry' he was trying to explain he didn't want her to fall so tried to help? Sindhu still had held his chain in her hand? and Aarav didn't knew what she was thinking... She was not smiling? but she was silent.. Aarav didn't look in her eyes feeling? he may feel the desire to be close? so shrugged himself to look the other side.. Sindhu realized she was standing there with his chain still clutched in her hand? the same chain which in the beginning Aarav once had given her to prove his gang that he had fallen into the pit? Sindhu laughed realizing.. Even now she was about to fall and has this chain in hand...
Sindhu smiled and laughed: Chain reaction..
Aarav didn't understand her laughter initially? Sindhu told him, remember this chain and the way u asked me to prove and tell that u had fallen in the gutter? see now I was about to fall and the chain is in my hand? so chain reaction? it's a big circle.. Life is a big circle... Both laughed and entered the hall room. Kunal was sitting there eating the cake... Aarav smiled looking at him while Sindhu was shocked... Aarav did not cut the cake yet and Kunal was already having it? She screamed...
Sindhu: Kunaaaaaaaaaaaaaallllll?
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Part: 29
Kunal was enjoying eating the cake. Sindhu went close to him and shouted at him. Kunal told her not to disturb and if she wants she can have a bite, but she should think about her increasing weight? Sindhu told him why he didn't wait for Aarav to cut the cake. Kunal said, Harshad just called up saying he too is bringing a cake. So he felt Aarav can cut that one later so he should enjoy this. Sindhu got furious while Aarav found all this funny? Sindhu told Kunal was he so hungry that he couldn't wait for a little while? Kunal told her when Aarav is fine with it?why She is getting irritated, and asked Aarav if he could get a glass of cold water.. Sindhu was more ticked as Kunal was ordering? she hit Kunal on his back.. Kunal had cake on his hand and he touched Sindhu's cheeks with that .. Sindhu yelled and both were hitting each other.. Aarav looked at them and came in between and Sindhu by mistakenly hit Aarav.. Kunal said to Sindhu, ' Di, Birthday boy ko baksho' Sindhu went on to hit Kunal while he ran? Sindhu asked Aarav to help her and catch Kunal... Aarav was about to ... That Kunal said, 'Aarav agar Sindhu se Pyaar hai to Mujhe na pakad?' Aarav got confused? Sindhu looked at Kunal getting angry on him.. and took her bag to hit him? Kunal said.. 'Di.. agar aap ko Aarav se pyaar hai. Then stop there...' For a sec Sindhu stopped and didn't knew what to do.. it came as a shock for her? Sindhu stopped and Aarav looked at her?While Kunal smiled.. Sindhu was feeling too awkward with Aarav and Kunal looking at her with surprise,
There is 'Love', Oh how to say it To U,
There is want to say but feeling Shy to,
It is confusing others I do very well know,
But I LOVE U Aarav how do I let U know?
She tried to divert the attention..
Sindhu: Where is Harshad? Kunal U r too much. U haven't given any birthday gift to Aarav.. Cake bhi khud pehley khaa liya.. Really too much.
Kunal: I am younger to all here, taking gift from me Aarav doesn't like.. he always tells me?
Sindhu and Kunal were arguing Harshad entered with the cake. He wished Aarav and was pleasantly surprised to see Sindhu there. He asked Aarav if he isn't disturbing his beautiful day by his presence? May be Aarav wants to divert all his attention somewhere else and he has come there... taking away his time... which is so very precious as Sindhu is so close today? Aarav blushed with Harshad's leg pulling.
Aarav: No, U all r my family? I am so happy by Ur presence here.. Sindhu and I.. I don't know if there is anything from her side.. I am very very happy with her presence here... but deep down .. I am very scared.. . Scared for myself... Will I be able to cope up with life... if she says No??
I LOVE U Sindhu, I need U to feel it too,
I CAN'T be always waiting, I want to feel U,
My LOVE is caring, loving U; as U r in my soul,
Life with U and for U has become my goal,
I cant take the pain of one day U saying just GO away,
Feeling nothing for me & saying I wont love U come what may?
Harshad: I thought she came here... she had feelings for U...Something happened I felt?
Aarav: No, nothing happened which make make her feel... I don't know.. I didn't feel she felt? I don't know? I feel more in love with her? with every thing that she says or shared? she came here? she discussed her sorrow to me.. And I felt more in love with her... Today... (He smiled looking down|) Today I touched her hand?not intentionally but it happened?And I felt.. as if , as if I was feeling her... she trusted to give her hand to me.. For a moment I felt we were as close as our heart could feel... BUT IT MAY BE FROM MY SIDE ONLY?
Harshad: These girls I tell U, reading their heart is a complicated process... they have their own weird logic and sensibilities? I always feel She admires what U do for her? when will she realize its LOVE all the way, I really couldn't trace? Sindhu My friend HOW CANT U FEEL LOVE that's there in Aarav's heart?
Aarav smiled and said 'Hope she does FEEL it... ?
Pyaar ko mehsus to har koi kar sakta hai kam ya jyada,
Kisi key Pyaar Ko apna ney mey samay lagta kam ya jyadai,
I LOVE U kehna kabhi asaan hojata hai,
I LOVE U TOO Sunaney mey waqt beetatajata hai?
Everyone was enjoying and the the cake was finally cut and Aarav his family everyone were there. Aarav cut the cake and gave the first piece to his Mom and Dad? second he was about to give to Harshad who stood close to him, Kunal just jumped in to take it?Sindhu was standing near Kunal... Aarav gave her the peice in her hand?and Sindhu looked straight into his eyes with a smile looking very beautiful as Aarav looked into her eyes.. Aarav could read she was wishing him a lot of things? happiness for sure... Aarav now shifted the piece of cake from her hand towards her mouth... and Sindhu slowly kept her eyes lowered and with shyness ate the piece... Aarav could sense something very very touching? her shy eyes made him to feel romantic... but he didn't knew why? May be her eyes were telling him how much affection she has for him?
Inn ankhon mey kitni baar Khushi dekhi thi,
Inn ankhon mey kitni baar Maine Meri Zindagi dekhi thi,
Aaj Inn ankho mey khud ko dekha hai,
Haii Yunh tum sharmayi Mujhe Pyaar ka Khumaar chadgaya hai?
Aarav and others were having the snacks, Aarav loved south Indian dishes, so on his birthday his mother specially prepared the batter and served him Dosa, Harshad too quietly had them?but Kunal looked at them and wasn't interested to eat it? Sindhu looked at him and knew Kunal will never want to adjust ? every time his way? Aarav's mom asked Kunal, she will serve him something else... she will tell the cook to make something else... what he wanted to eat?? Kunal was trying to explain the cook if he could make the Dosa more interesting not the masala Dosa, but with these vegetables n that? Kunal in between looked at Sindhu wondering how to explain how to add them and make?finally he asked Sindhu,
Kunal: Dii Tum banadoo na.. Paneer hai sab kuch hai? Cheese bhi hai..
Sindhu got up and walked with the cook, Aarav's mom too walked along? Sindhu was preparing Kunal's cheese Dosa, Panner Dosa and Vegetable Palak Dosa? Kunal sat there feeling surprised..
Kunal: Yehan Kuch to gadbad hai.. Diii itney asaani se maangayi?
Aarav and Harshad sat beside him asking him why he is looking so surprised?
Kunal: Aarav I tell u... Whenever I tell her to make these all different types of Dosa she doesn't... She needs a lot of promises from me... main banungi to tu agey se yeh nahi kahega .. woh nahi karega?and later we end up fighting...but today she didn't ask me anything ..aur Maangaii.. Either she is too happy or?
Aarav: Or...
Kunal: Or I am dreaming?
Harsahd: Do u think Sindhu is feeling something for Aarav finally? kuch pyaar ikraar hosakta hai? What r the chances..
Kunal: Don't know.. Is it for the Birthday ..Or is it for her love?
All three of them sat wondering, it is hard to get to know what's in her heart. Aarav smiled and felt very nice that Sindhu is happy... Aarav thought in his mind, when Sindhu is happy she cooks and she sings?. Now whatever she may feel but she is feeling happy that much thought made him feel his birthday is so very special this time...
Sindhu came and served hot Dosa.. and all ate nonstop even followed her to the kitchen so that they get the Dosa then n there as she removes the Dosa with all the ingredients from the pan?
Aarav, Harshad & Kunal were chatting about their business and Aarav was giving his MBA along with Harshad and their results were due ? Sindhu got Diya's call, she told Sindhu she will be meeting her in half an hour she is leaving from home. Sindhu told her she is at Aarav's house. Diya was surprised and asked if Sindhu started having some feelings for him? Sindhu told her she is feeling nice about him? LOVE and definitions she can't understand? but one thing is for sure... She never wants to hurt Aarav.
Pataa nahi yeh kya FEELINGS hai,
Shayad LOVE but Kehna Mushkil hai,
Mujhse Aarav pasand hai,
Mujhse Uski parvaah hai,
Ankho mey, Dil mey jagaa ehsaas,
LOVE hai yeh soch kar Rukjati hai saas?.
Diya: Sindhu U r mad.. I mean either U love him or U leave him so that he finds someone else?
Sindhu: Diya don't say like this? I need time..
Diya: What time... how many more months and years u need? Dekh Tu nahi to kisi aur ka ussey hojaney dey? Don't show u like him and increase his hopes?
Sindhu paused for a very brief minute?.
Diya: Kya gussa aa raha hai? Why?
Sindhu: He loves me, he will give me time?. He will wait? and I WILL FEEL THE LOVE? then? I? can decide?
Diya: When will that happen.. U r scared to believe U LOVE HIM? kya keh rahi thi... When he touched ur hand.. U felt as if he cared for U so much... If U r not in love U should feel How dare he touch me??. When he explained and shared Ur sorrow U felt he is such a mature nice guy? If u don't love him why U CAME here even when u were going through so much sorrow? Mujhse baat karna ho nahi raha tha .. and here U say U r enjoying cooking for him and his friends? If U DON'T FEEL LOVE.. why feel he is dear and close to U. To go that extra mile for him? walk into his house to wish him and change his mood though u urself were completely broken?.
Sindhu: But... LOVE IS DIFFERENT... It was my CARE..my CONCERN?
Diya: He is not asking U to care for him, U r feeling it? He isn't saying to share ur sorrow with him.. U feel like sharing, U got irritated by Sameer when he insulted Aarav? As U r feeling he is close to u and U trust him?
Sindhu: (she kept quite)
Pyaar To hai, Yeh Tu bhi jaanti hai,
Kehney se, Maananey se kyun jhijhakti hai,
Pyaar Woh tujhse Kitna Karta hai,
Tujhe bhi to who apna Lagta hai,
Ab Say U FEEL THE LOVE and want to be with him,
Cross ur heart and say U CAN LIVE without him?
Diya: Ohh.. If U don't feel anything? LET ME TRY? ( she said with a vey naughty like voice)
Sindhu: SHUT UP?
Diya: WHY HE IS URS?
Sindhu: HE IS MINE, he tells me every time?
Diya: But U r not HIS? U havnt said that to him? Just think about Aarav Sindhu.. U r happy to be so sure..assured.. He is all the way urs and doesn't think about anyone else?. But he is living a life where he is scared to loose U any time.. U may one fine day tell him like u do always that U DON'T FEEL for him? and one day U may also say..U feel LOVE for someone else?
Sindhu: Diya? I cant feel what I feel for Aarav for someone else.. I know that..
Diya: SO U DO FEEL for him?
Sindhu: Its not LOVE..
Diya: Its pity, sympathy?.
Sindhu: NO? I CARE, I FEEL, I ?. I RESPECT?. I KNOW HIM WELL? I ?.
Diya: U LOVE HIM?
Sindhu: MAY BE...
Diya: WHY r U scared to say U LOVE him?. In front of everyone U want to show how bold U R ?and here within urself... U feel scared?. LOVE is beautiful ? JUST FEEL IT? It will give U the strength?.
Sindhu closed her eyes and felt like feeling what LOVE means? she kept her hand on her heart.. and she thought in her mind LOVE.. she chanted in her mind.. 'L O V E'? almost the second time as well... and as she said the third time? L O V E? she had chanted LOVE in her mind? but she said Aarav in words?
I felt the Love when I said Love in my mind,
I thought about all feelings that Love defines,
I wanted to repeat LOVE LOVE to know how deep it's rooted in me for U,
I repeated it and reached the depth; Where I found nothing But U and U,
Diya: Whats happen, Aarav is standing close by? why r u calling him?
Sindhu smiled?. kept quite?
Sindhu: Diya? he is not standing closeby? he is close in my heart? I felt that often? BUT Now I know it's LOVE for him all the way?. Diya I LOVE HIM?.
Diya was thrilled?: GO tell him?
Sindhu: I am scared? will things change if he gets to know I love him? I feel too shy? I mean.. He will kiss me? Will he hug me? I feel too nervous of his reaction... its making me to shiver even as I think about it now...
Diya laughed loudly?.
Diya: Mann mey ladoo phontengey aur kya?.U r so sweet ? Why u don't want to feel how it is when the person who loves U so much.. . and U like him so much?will kiss U... or hug U.. How magic the moment gona be?
Sindhu blushed: I do want to FEEL IT (she said while she felt shy to say it).. but yaar? I am feeling scared inside... LOVE is making me very happy .. my heart wants to look at him and feel how much LOVE is there in his heart, in his eyes? I want to tell him and SCREAM to him..that I AM URS AARAV?Lekin? I feel very nervous ?..after I say I DO LOVE HIM?I DO FEEL THE LOVE?
Diya: U think he will make U pregnant after knowing U FEEL THE LOVE... (She laughed loudly)
Sindhu: Diya... U r sick? I trust him completely U and ur dirty mind..? I feel I LOVE HIM.. and I want to TELL HIM TOO?but I am nervous and scared.. I am thrilled ..but .. even when I look into his eyes I feel he may know I FEEL the love and that makes me so nervous... I am scared? how he will react.. as if I feel too shy to take that moment in front?
Diya: NO one can help U? I can't understand what Aarav liked in U? Such a darpok? I will call U tomorrow? and U need to tell me U have told him Ur FEELINGS ?gift him Ur FEELINGS Today on his special day?
Diya kept the reciever and Sindhu had the last line of Diya making her heart feel very touched? 'GIFT HIM UR FEELINGS TODAY' Sindhu smiled with that.. ' Oh I want to.. but?' she kept wondering her hearts wants to ..but she is too nervous to speak out?
Sindhu walked into the hall room. Kunal was waiting for her to come? and she had to leave as her parents called up. Sindhu looked at Aarav and felt.. She wants to gift him her feelings for him... but she doesn't know how she can... she is nervous? Sindhu looked disappointed by herself... this day would go without telling him she felt...
Kunal told her Aarav will drop her home... He and Harshad needed to discuss something... Aarav pulled him saying, 'Kunal chal?' Sindhu could sense how angry Kunal became when Aarav himself pulled him to go, she knew Kunal said only to give Sindhu and Aarav some more time alone.. Sindhu smiled and walked ahead? Harshad left in his car and Sindhu, Aarav and Kunal sat in their car. Aarav was driving it and Kunal sat with him while Sindhu was sitting in the backseat.
Time seems to be running out I wish I could say to U,
Feelings in my heart r true, Aarav I really LOVE U,
I feel too nervous, happy yet hesitation stays within me,
Scared or anxiety call whatever still is rushing in me?.
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Part: 30
Sindhu was trying to go through the days events and the memories which came alive today while she was at Aarav's place? how much her heart felt touched by Aarav and how much she today realised Aarva had gone through... When she can have so much affection by these memories...even Aarav may have felt many things which made him to feel the LOVE? Sindhu smiled and tried to look outside feeling? LOVE? LOVE.. she thought in her mind? How beautiful today it is sounding? As if nothing can be more pure & wonderful than this ever... Sindhu again blushed feeling? FEEL OF LOVE? is this... She smiled again? she looked at Aarav from the rare view mirror and smiled, she saw those eyes , the smile and the details of his forhead and said in her heart? ' Aarav? U know what... I CAN FEEL LOVE... I can feel the happiness that U were talking about? but I am not like U.. I cant have the courage to tell u, I know its nothing to feel ashamed but I am so very nervous, I am having cold feet as I try to tell U? Why don't u feel it through my eyes? FEEL THE LOVE in my heart Aarav? I may not be able to tell U? ' She blushed... she rolled the window down, the car had AC? Kunal told her.. AC on hai.. don't Di? ' Sindhu kept window open to feel the breeze and breathe deeply? Aarav tried to observe her from the rare view mirror? he couldn't properly see her as she went close towards the window? Kunal looked at Aarav and said,
Kunal: Bola tha? Main nahi ataa.. I didn't want to risk my life while U drive with Di sitting behind? accident matt karwana..
Sindhu now realised Aarav was looking from the rare view mirror to have her glimpse... She blushed and felt very nice, knowing Aarav is going through the same feeling as she did? Kunal asked her if she wanted to sit in the front seat.. Sindhu said, ok? Kunal sat behind.. In the front Aarav could sense Sindhu is shy and happy? Something new about her he could feel? Sindhu was shying away from looking at him..and at times when he felt she looked at him.. she would keep her eyes off? as if playing hide and seek ?
Dekho sath sath bethey hain,
Pyaar dil mey liye hain,
Kehdu tumhe Dil karta hai,
Haii, phir kyun Dil khabrata hai,
Chup chup ke dekhun tumhe Pyar dil mey basakar,
Aisa nahi ki Mazaa ata hai mujhe tumhe tarsakar?
Sindhu's house came and Kunal almost rushed inside and told Aarav, 'U go now? Good night' Trying to make him to go from there quickly... while both Sindhu and Aarav felt it a bit strange? Kunal was enjoying to see even Sindhu affected by this... And that's what he wanted to see. He went inside?While Sindhu stood there? Aarav looked at her... Feeling he wants to look at her properly and then only leave? Sindhu wanted to look at him and enjoy the many moments she had felt today?
Aarav: Bye Sindhu... U made my birthday vey special...
SIndhu: NO, Ur birthday became very special for me today..
Aarav: How come?
Sindhu: I found many emotions inside me, which were deep in my heart, but I never wanted to search for them. I could feel how much u care now and u have cared for me from long. How much u have felt for me and how much LOVE is there in Ur heart for me. There can not be anything more a girl may want?
Aarav smiled and felt at ease to hear it? But he felt somewhere scared she may say this all and in the end may ask him to forget her and start life fresh. Not to waste his time? Aarav stood there with the same emotions he had almost felt everytime he had met her and heard from her while saying Goodbye?
Aarav stood there but a lot of pain ran into him, a feeling that may be Sindhu did all this only as it was his birthday? he didn't want to hear sympathetic talks towards his LOVE. He walked away from mid way while she still was making herself strong to come to the point where Sindhu could tell him the true emotions deep inside her. Aarav walked away and didn't once looked at her. Sindhu stood there with shock and feeling to have lost him.
Aarav drove the car and went away. Sindhu cried and she was not aware when the tears flowed away. She didn't knew what she could do? she wanted to GIFT him her feelings for him? but she was not able to ? She went inside crying in her room?. Taking Zubby close she cried? She felt may be Aarav may never return to her? She was angry why she was not able to not only feel the LOVE from so long? but to know how much trauma he must have gone through all these months.. Waiting for her?. Now she understood wait can be more hurting ?
All night Sindhu couldn't sleep and felt recollecting hot Aarav's eyes looked at her and he left? She sat done and tried to write something.. later She looked at the watch ? she removed her mobile?and called Aarav,
Sindhu: Aarav..
Aarav was so shocked to receive her call late at night? he fumbled asking her if she was all right?
Sindhu: I am not alright? I am very bad.. I always hurt u? I am a tube light I couldn't FEEL the love which u felt soon? I am a darpok as Diya says.. I couldn't say a lot of things to U which I should have long back?
Aaarav: what happen? what r u saying.. I am not getting it?
Sindhu couldn't say much, again she got nervous,
Aarav: Kya hua hai Sindhu?
Sindhu: U should not be a tube light like me.. Understand me na?
Aarav: aaa? U r sorry for soemreason? and what to understand.. .. I am myself a looser I havnt got to make U FEEL FOR ME?
Sindhu: Who told u , U r a looser? U?. Ur LOVE won? UR LOVE won? my heart?
Aarav was freezeed, what he was hearing was it true.. he isn't dreaming he thought..
Aarav: U mean? U LOVE ME..
Sindhu: I? I ?
Aarac could sense happiness in her hesitation?
Aarav: U DON'T LOVE ME?
Sindhu: I didn't say that?
Aarav understood she is in love but shy to say? he threw his hands.. and the mobile fell down , along with it the parts of the mobile too.. Aarav threw his hand saying, 'Shucks'.. he quickly thought he has to meet her? he took the landline and told her.. he is coming ot meet her? and kept the reciver down.. Sindhu was shocked, and absoultey nervous? It was so later at night? Her hearts were beating faster?.
Sindhu slowly walked near the door, looked if Aarav had come.. soon she saw Aarav reaching it, she closed the door, feeling OH my God, what to say, what will happen? oh , her hands were cold, she was shivering? and Aarav walked towards her house, she immediately rushed out before her parents threw him out.
Aarav looked at him feeling very excited, even he was a bit nervous and happy. Sindhu looked a thim and shy away her eyes? They both walked close towards each other.
Aarav: I? couldn't stop myself? U LOVE ME Sindhu??
Sindhu: I FEEL? I .. I?
Aarav: Let me hear it once, my heart is beating as fast it could, I don't know what will happen when u will say ? may be it will stop beating..
Sindhu looked at him and was angry at him for saying that..
Sindhu: Don't say that? Ur heart beats for me? how can it stop when U r in my heart too? Our hearts r united for life? I know that?
Aarav smiled and didn't knew what more to say as if he couldn't believe the moment will come to him. His eyes became a bit moist. Sindhu looked at him and his moist eyes, she felt the pain his heart carried from long and the healing touch which he today felt.. Sindhu went close to him,
Sindhu: I don't know how U felt when U were in love.. for me.. LOVE is the moment when u think that the other person, respects U, cares for U, and it genuinely makes u feels a lot of happiness in every small & big way? Looking into each other can be very romantic after u have fallen in love..but it not as if U look into each other eyes and u feel the love..it has to be after u have fallen in love u can feel all th emotions to reflect from those eyes which r the world for u..
Aarav: U LOVE ME Sindhu? say those three magic words tome.. I want to hear it.. (his eyes had happiness and tears which were in his eyes but not a single tear flowed out)
Sindhu looked into his eyes and went more closer: I ? (She closed her eyes capturing his face and said) I LOVE U AARAV? I LOVE U?
Sindhu opened her eyes and saw Aarav's tears in his eyes flowed, a single drop came through and Sindhu too went teary and she went more closer almost feeling his breath.
Sindhu: 'LET ME FEEL THE LOVE I told u Aarav? I felt Aarav the love u have for me? LOVE which was mine all the way? LOVE which made u feel strong.. FOR me ur LOVE is my achievement, an achievement to have found, a life partner who is the best in the world? I am not perfect Aarav? Hope WE r perfect for each other... Will U be able to bear me.. I am tube light always feels it late... I can cry endlessly for hours? and I am not that strong, my judgment can be worng many times? I cant make.. Aarav kept his finger on her lips?
Aarav: I know what U r? I am not finding what should be in me.. or what should be in U.. I like u ? with the real U ?. We both have to be true to our self and true to each other... LOVE is neither Me? nor U.. Love has to be Us? and am lucky enough I know U may take ur time to say I LOVE U... but I know well .. When U say I LOVE U ?. U LOVE deeply and make the LOVE Sound like magic? We may not be perfect as individuals but for each other we r perfect?
Sindhu engrossed in his words and looked with love at him.
Sindhu: U r fine in telling U FEEL THE LOVE.. I was fine in telling LET ME FEEL THE LOVE? in front of my parent also u said I LOVE U.. now is this how u should say .. u have to learn to say all these in a better more filmy way?. HOW could I feel the love.. if u make it as a FLASHNEWS In my drawing room with my parents alogn with me?
Aarav looked at Sindhu she had made this cute face and was hiding her face while saying? Aarav held her face with both hands?
Aarav: That's was not good then how about this?
He kneeled and Sindhu blushed, Aarav took out his handkerchief and asked Sindhu to take it as a flower.. Sindhu took that and made a flower from it and asked him to holdit? Aarav felt Sindhu was so cute? he held in his hand.. and said,
Aarav: Sindhu, I LOVE U?. DO U FEEL THE SAME.
Sindhu took that flower handkerchief and said: I DO..
As she said I do Aarav held her hand and got up? Sindhu was pulled closer and Aarav sang, looking into her eyes?
OOo Rehnumaa, OOo Rehnumaa, Dil Ki Zubaa Sun Zara,
Dil Kya Kahey, Tu jaaan ley, Tujhse Hi jeevan Mera?
Sindhu replied looking into his eyes?.
OO Rehnuma , OO Rehnumaa, Pyaar ne Dil Ko chuu liya,
Dil to kahey, Main hun teri, Tujh sang hi jeevan Meraaa..
Aarav heard and with love conquering his heart all over, he took her in his arms..Sindhu almost felt a jerk and started shiver within? may be she was not ready to feel that so soon? Aarav realised she was shivering and maybe feeling uncomfortable? he quickly dropped her and said,'Sorry' I was too happy to hear that.. As Sindhu composed herself,? she was shy but surely she enjoyed every moment in his arms? She didn't look into his eyes.. and said,
Sindhu: I like when I am close to U? In ur arms I wasn't uncomfortable I was happy but a bit shy ..She kept herself close and almost pushed herself towards his arms? Aarav hugged her and sang,
OO Rehnuma OO Rehnuma, Tu meri janey jahan,
Dil mey Tere, Main bas gaya, Aur kuch ab main chahun Naa?
Sindhu smiled and loved each word that he said, she wanted to give him more than what he had thought? she knew he deserved all the love of the world.. She kissed him on his cheek... said, 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY'and Aarav himself got surprised? Sindhu kept her hand on his face feeing too shy with what she did? Aarav cuddled her up to make her not feel that shy and removed her hands off her face saying,
OO Rehnuma, OO Rehnuma, Yeh tuney kya kardiya,
Chum kar mujhe, Apne Dil mey, Apne Pyaar ka kardiya Ikraar?
He winkled looking at her.. and said, ' U R MY LOVE sweet, shy , cute , innocent and bold.. Beautiful u r ? as U r my soul?.
Sindhu sang for him?
OO Mere Pyaar, OO Mere Pyaar, Mujhko hai tujhpe Aitbaar
Tumsa na koi, ho sakta hai, Tuhi Meri Dil ka Karaar?
Aarav: Love is not looking at oneself but feeling within onself,
Sindhu: Love is not beauty to die for but beauty to live life for,
Aarav: Love is not talking & walking hand in hand,
Sindhu: Love is supporting each other from start to end,
Aarav: Love is about soul study including physical intimacy,
Sindhu: Love is feeling U can belong to one and not feel bored ever,
Aarav: Love is finding the place U may feel secure and stay forever ?
Sindhu: LOVE for me Is u? LOVE FOR ME is all about U?.
Aarav: I LOVE U? I will stay Urs always?
Sindhu: I LOVE U? with my heart and soul?
Aarav looked into SIndhu's eyes as if promising a life together wit \h Love binding them ? and SIndhu looked into his eyes expressing she is with him always making the journey of life as beautiful as it .. happiness embrassing them as LOVE and its feelings r with them. Both looked into each others eyes clsoeign their eyes they captured the moment? and the stars and moon were glowing in the sky.. SIndhu & Aarav came close they kissed eachother and became one soul?. Its mid night and the morning Sun is getting ready to welcme the new sparkle in their lives?
Let them feel the love, enjoy each moment,
Lovers for life, how beautiful they compliment,
In each other's lives, they bring charm plentiful,
In each other's arms, they look so peaceful,
FEEL OF LOVE is truly understood when U grow each day,
Knowing what LOVE is and understanding its depth all the way,
Love is the beautiful melody, which healsU and takes in all the pain,
Soothing U in every way & making U feel there is so much more to gain.
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~~~Love is the expansion of two natures in such fashion that each include the other, each is enriched by the other. ~~~
~~'Love would never be a promise of a rose garden unless it is showered with light of faith, water of sincerity and air of passion.~~
This was the last part of my story 'LET ME FEEL THE LOVE?' I thank all my readers for their support through out this lovely journey of posting my story. All my lovely readers 
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HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL OF U
I thought why not share a piece of OO Rehnuma in Sindhu's voice for U... I know she cant sing as well as Aarav... but it implies happiness and thats what i want this new year to bring to U all.... here is the link...
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