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Dhamaka update guysss..longest I have ever written- like 13k.
And I shall now let you all dive in without further delay
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CHAPTER 20 – THE IMMIGRATION COUNTER AT THE ARRIVAL ‘TERMINALS’ OF MY HEART
Khushi’s POV
So For the first time in My Life, I am being shoved into this MRI Machine.
I take a deep breathe as the attendant asks me to take a deep breathe and asks me to stay still for the next 45 minutes, and I am now pushed into this crazy huge machine,and thank god I asked them for a blanket, for its cold in here ya..maybe I will just catch on some sleep.
I feel like I need a lot of sleep right now in order to reboot my system to shut out all these viruses that are now starting to infiltrate my heart on the command from my brain and my heart is busy shutting them out.
This bloody conflict is what gave me this killer migraine in the first place.
And I am now being pushed into this machine because I did loose out on my consciousness in Ashers car in Zara’s arms until I was patted really hard on my cheeks and arms really bad by couple of the doctors and nurses in the emergency. My cheeks were flaming red surely because they were feeling like they had been slapped.
I now hear the attendants voice come through that tells me , that he is now starting the scan and that I have to stay still and that I can press on the red button they shoved in my hand incase I feel uncomfortable in here and want them to stop.
Ok Khushi.
You can do this.
I am not supposed to move or flinch in there, as they are now scanning my brain.
Ok so this round joystick kind of wired red button in my hand reminds me of my love for Video Games.
And Now.
Its like my heart and mind have started to play a Video Game of Nitendo’s Super Mario Land with each other in this very moment,as one is asking the Mario avatar to just so straight on whats its seeing in front of it and not be tempted to fall into these little secret tunnels that you dunk into and and we will get some extra bonus gold coins.
Greattt!!! Bravo Khushi!! Bravo!!
The medical practioners of Cape Town are now all going to figure out - that I am Crazyyy In My Head.
That’s a secret that I have been guarding within the walls of my head only revealing it to the close ones – and now with this MRI checking on the wiring in my brain – I am sure it is going to be written in black and white that – I have same crazy short circuits going on in there in my brain.
Jeeeeezzzzzzzzzzzzz!!!!!!!!!!
Ok Guys.
The Plan for catching on some sleep is defiantly going to work in here.
Nope.
Because this damm machine is now starting to making some shit crazy jamming noise in my ears.
Really.
So Much Noise in a MRI Machine too??
And to think – our brains should be scanned under the environment of peace and tranquality!!!!
Anyway, I think I just gave to keep working on my crazy thoughts to keep myself strong in here.
Because, all of a sudden, I am starting to feel like a little girl whose got locked in a cupboard while playing hide and seek.
And to be honest it did happen to me whilst I was 7 years old.
But at that time.
Dad found me and he immediately got me out and cradled me in his arms in a warm hug that instant comforted my nerves , then.
And I cant help but help but think – Who is going to come Hold me now incase I want This - Hug??
Because,in my reality today.
Dad is not here.
Mom is not here.
Krish is not here.
Uncle and aunty, Rahul and Diya are in Johannesburg (they left yesterday)for a wedding function in aunty’s extended side of the family, and they are only scheduled to return on Tuesday evening.
No one is Here.
And the only other person I can think off at the back of head is also not here, the one whose smiling face revolved in front of my eyes before I blanked out.
My Hoodie Guy.
He is in Jamaica and he still has one more match tomorrow.
And then he did tell me that they were all scheduling to go to back to India the next day on Tuesday as well because they had some major cricketing meetings with the BCCI.
Ok.
I am channelizing all of my inner strength that I gained while coping up from the loss of my family, and I don’t want to cry, but all of a sudden now – my eyes are welling up with tears.
And I think I shiver a little and right then the attendants voice comes through the machine – Please don’t Move Maam.
Greattttt.
Statue Khushi Statue.
I cannot even wipe the tears that are now starting to fall of my eyes and blurring my vision.
I close my eyes on reflex and the string of tears now starts to fall of my cheek as I realise a very important analogy in my being right now.
And I think.
That - We Human beings are Like Airports.
You know how airports Stand Fixed in its place, not moving even an inch from its place, no matter how many flights Take off and Land in to its Terminals each day.
And maybe all these different flights with Take off and Landings are like moments and people from our lives that are just going to fly in to pause for a while, stay there in transit, chill at a lounge probably for sometime, enjoy duty free shopping, and then eventually get on that plane that will take off the run way and fly out into the air towards its next destination, and the airport is just left standing right there, watching and being surveillant to the smooth functioning of all these routine moments that will happen anyway – just like in Life – as Time continues to flow and does not really stop for anyone.
And then there are some flights that crash and take precious people away from you and what do you do then as the airport?(just like the crash that took my family away from me) Do you stop the daily functioning.Not really, you grieve a loss in your heart but because the very next moment a different moment of time is all set with its arrival, you go on anyway.
And then sometimes- The Best Maginificent Jumbo Jet comes into your arrivals for a shortwhile, making you feel like totally in awe of this brilliant machine, and you on reflex pause the rest of the flow on that run way of emotions and give like super importance to this one big jumbo jet, and then probably as you are lost in all the excietemt of having this maginficient machine stop at your terminal for a shortwhile – you realise in a flashy moment of time that this Jumbo Jet is going to jet away sooner or later – for this airport was probably just a stopover, and not really its final destination.
But that’s my problem now – that’s why I am in so much conflict ya!Beacuse my head is telling me that its almost time for this plane to fly away and reminding me every now and then about my very own fear of flying and in my heart I don’t want this magnificent Jumbo Jet to leave the airport of my being ever.
Because in that one moment as My Hoodie Guys smiling face revolved in front of my eyes before it all went blank for me – I realised that hes tip toed his way into me – way to deep than I had been realising.
And.
I want This magnificient Jumbo Jet - Parked into the Gates of my Emotions Forever.
I just feel like it doesn’t matter how gruelling and hard it will be to maintain the smooth functioning of this jumbo jet with that small aerobridge and garage available at my humble airport , because I truly don’t want to let it go – because One Very Important passenger from this Magnificent plane has deboarded the plane and made its way through those Immigration Counters – straight into all the four arrival terminals of My Heart at the same time.(four terminals because the heart has four chambers right??)
And you know the funny part??
This passenger is kind of like a illegal immigrant into my heart that I have allowed to sneak into my gates myself.
Because although I did issue the visa he did not get that official stamp at that immigration counter that gives the status that – the passenger is allowed to stay in here.(and Damm him..he snuck his way right into the deepest chambers of my heart)
And I let him.
And I am sure its all been figured out by now.
That the passenger, the illegal migrant who has caused so much havoc in my heart is none other than – My Hoodie Guy who is also very much that Jumbo Jet Plane – that came with the magical wings of Love.
Yes – that’s what I think I have been feeling in my being all this while and not realising it.
I am in Love.
I am truly, madly and deeply in Love with My Hoodie Guy.
That’s why I am feeling all of this.
That is why this conflict in my heart and head had the power to have the kind of affect on me like it did today – with that killer migraine and my almost crazy accident.
Because if it wasn’t Love – I wouldn’t be this shaken.
This is deep.
This is way too deep already.
And its too Late now.
Its Too Late to Pull Away Now.
I cant pull myself away from him.
My heart is revolting on my mind full on right now – asking me to just listen to it.
And my Mind is telling me that – I am in deep shit Because there is literally nothing Official in between of Us.
And here – my stupid Heart has gone and surrendered itself into the Hands of Someone – who is probably all that I’d ever want – also all that I can never have – both at the same time.
And I miss him.
I miss him so damm bloody much.
I haven’t been able to write a text to him or speak to him at all ever since that last message I wrote to him, and just these hours of feeling the thought of being cut away from him – are literally killing me.
God.
What am I going to do now???
This is shit complicated.
I continue to keep my eyes close as everything about him now starts to make its way into my head, every talk we have had, every message in between of us, everything..it all gushes through my head and I feel my heart starting to warm up and glow a little.
It felt so bloody good to have him occupy every corner of my heart.
And so I could only pray to the Gods above that maybe even if there was tiny miny chance – please have this Jumbo Jet wanting to park his engine into the gates off my emotion forever.
I could only Hope and pray that my humble airport continues to be deemed fit for a long term parking by His eyes.
Because in this excruciating lonely and caged moments in this MRI Machine I just realised – that if this plane ever took off my runway to go to another destination and to never return – I was going to feel like as if all the Planes ever manufactured by Boeing and Airbus in this entire universe would come crashing down on me – all at once.
And My Humble Airport would definitely not be able to come out of those flames – that would be burning my heart – if such a thing happened.
God Help Me.
I hear the attendants voice coming through that the scan is now nearing closure in 5 minutes.
I take deep breathes again.
I love you Hoodie Guy.
I love you so damm much.
And in this moment I also realised one more thing that because I truly loved him so deeply, I had to keep my silence and not talk to him at all until his match was over tomorrow.Because if I heard his voice right now or saw him on a video call – hed be able to see it right through me.And he would immediately sense that something was wrong on my side and there was no way that I wanted him to know about my this adventure into the hospital – because in my heart I knew – that this would rile him up and I didn’t ever want to be a cause of distraction in his head that could come in between his duty as a national player, because I know that cricket was the first love of my hoodie guys Life.
Right then I feel myself being pulled out of this MRI Machine.
And as I get on my feet, I just wipe a tear outta my eyes because even though my insides are now longing to feel the arms of any of my loved ones around me, I know I have to be strong and face this head on.
Because in this Moment of Time – I am Alone.
You can do this Khushi.
I take a deep breathe and I smile at the attendant now as he’s helping me get off.
And I remind myself – that Daddy is watching from Up there, and I have to make him proud.
I take a deep breathe as i say thought to my father in my head – Don’t worry Daddy, I got this.
I am still your brave Little Girl Daddy.
I am still your Brave Little Girl.
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Fifteen Minutes Later
The Nurse adjusts the backrest of my hospital bed and I thank her, as I ask her to help me with the glass of water and right then the door of my room opens and I see Asher, Zain and Zara and a doctor and two nurses walk in to my room.
I have to thank Asher, Zain and Zara for this.
I make a mental note to thank them properly after these doctors leave.
I see Asher walk up to my bedside as he give me a smile and he asks – “ is your head still hurting khushi??”
I give him a polite smile and I admit honestly – “ just a little…”
Zara sits on the bed next to me as she laces her hands around my shoulder as she says – “ don’t worry ok..Zain has taken care of all the formailities too with your medical insurance and everything..”
I smile at Zain as I say – “ thank you so much Zain..”
And I can feel Ashers gaze on me and I smile at him politely and now sip on that water.
The doctor now looks at me as he says with a courteous smile – “ ok..so I am the radiologist and I was just going through your MRI..we will have the formal reports ready in a while, but all is good, there is not even a single sign of any internal injury at all..so miss khushi..everything is more than normal in that head of yours..”
I want to know like for real and I finish sipping on another sip of my water as I look at the doctor and I ask – “ for real??? Nothings wrong?? Everything Is normal..????”
The doctor looks at me puzzled and so do Asher, Zara and Zain and he says with a reassuring smile – “ yes khushi, everything is ok…”
I give him a little smile as I say – “ I mean wait..you don’t get it..im not talking about injury or something..”
The doctor is now definitely amused and so are the three of them as Asher folds his arms across his chest as he now asks – “ then what are you talking about khushi???”
I take a deep breathe as I look at Asher briefly and then at the doctor as I say – “ see doctor, it was my first time in the MRI machine and stuff and getting my brain scanned, but its not the first time for you right since you are the radiologist, you probably scan like hundreds of brains in a week..so I just wanted to know..my brain does look like its wired normally right??????????”
The doctor looks at me – “ huh?? What do you mean??”
I look at him as I speak honestly – “ I mean..im asking because in my head I feel like im really crazy sometimes, so maybe there is some major short circuiting in my brain that’s been going on..and honestly while I was in there, I was kind of worried about the fact that now all of you will know that im kind wired crazy in my head, a fact that I know off actually know within but have been guarding it as a secret from the world..”
Literally everyone is the room apart from me bursts out laughing.
Zara is in splits.
So is Zain.
And I didn’t know Asher could laugh like that.
The doctor and the nurses are laughing too.
And I just sip on my glass of water as I tell them – “ see..now you know what I mean…”
The doctor controls his laugh and so do the nurses as he says with a grin – “ never in the last decade of my practice have I been asked such a amusing question…maybe I should go have a look at that MRI again..”
I nod at him as I say earnestly – “ yes please…if you can look again and tell me that I do have a normal brain just like most of others..id be very happy…”
They all laugh again.
Asher grins at me as he says – “ khushi, he was being sarcastic..”
Oh.Stupid Khushi.
My brains having a major hang ups and upgardes going on because of all this fighting with my heart.
I give the doctor a smile as he now says – “ ok anyway, we will be keeping you here tonight, and send you off in the morning..after we check on you and you feel better..”
I say politely – “ thank you, I do feel better though..”
He smiles as he instructs the nurses on the multivitamins and drips to inject me with in the IV and the painkiller too, to keep the migraine in it’s place and right then the doctor says – “And oh khushi, please if you can id like you to keep away from your phone for a while as in don’t talk over the phone, don’t use the wifi etc..”
And I look at him confused – ‘why doctor??”
Doc – “ so I know it sounds lame to you all , but youv just received some major magnetic radition in your head because of the MRI..and that smartphone is kind off like not healthy for you right now with all its radition and rays..the body is vulnerable right now..hence just give it some time to be in a radiation and ray free space..??maybe just keep it off for tonight??”
Ok Then.
How am I going to be in touch with Hoodie Guy Then?
I was aching to hear from him.
I was sure I had some messages from him on my phone.
On that Note.
Where is my Phone????????
Right then the doctor and nurses are walking out and Zain says – “ ill just check if any more formalities are to be done..”
He walks out and now Zara is sitting next to me on bed and she takes out my phone from her bag as she asks – “ shall I switch it off and keep it in this drawer next to you??
I nod.
Maybe it’s the best for now.
Because Hoodie Guy shouldn’t know about this episode yet.
I will tell him when I go back home tomorrow.
And that will also give me some time to detox my head from all this toxic noise from the news articles.
It will be good for my brain too.
I think I need this space to just reboot my systems.
She keeps the phone in the drawer and shuts it close and she now asks – “ what will you eat khushi??i think you should eat something..can I get you a sandwich or something??”
I shake my head – “ thank you but Zara, you and Zain have a flight tomorrow..i don’t want to keep you guys here..”,and I look at Asher as I say politely – “ thank you so much to you all, but im much better now..please you all carry on…im just going to sleep anyway..its 730 pm..must be getting late for you all too..i am ok..”
Zara rolled her eyes at me as she spoke – “ oh please khushi..im going to get you a sandwich anyway..you want some tea or coffee??”
I say politely because I did feel my stomach rumble a little at the mention of food, I hadn’t eaten lunch as well – “ thank you Zara..some coffee with it will be good..”
Zara looks at Asher – “and you asher..some coffee or another cup of tea..??”
Asher smiled at her – “ a cup of tea will be good Zara..”, and she now walks out and I see Asher settle himself on the stool next to my bed and he leans forward folding as he places his hands crossed at the palms at the edge of the bed and he asks – “ are you sure you are ok?????????”
I give him a polite smile as I say – “ thank you asher, yes I am..”
Asher smiles – “ good, and are you sure you don’t want us to call anyone right now??”
I take a deep breathe – “ like I told you I lost my family, my parents and my little brother in a plane crash, and I live alone now and my uncle aunty and my best friend Rahul and his fiancé diya are my closest to kin now and they are all in Johannesburg for a wedding function on auntys side of the family, they will be returning on Tuesday..and its also Uncles bday today..i do not want to worry him..i am ok now..”
And he nods as he asks his gaze on me – “ ok and what about your what did you say..your kind off special someone..?? youv stored his name in your phone as Hoodie guy right????why don’t you call him and ask him to come here???”
My eyes widen at that im sure as I ask – “ how do you know..???”
He gives me a smile – “well because while you were in the MRI…your phone was constantly ringing…and It was with me..i was not going to take the call, but it kept on riniging…so..”,he paused.
And I spoke immediately, sure the worry was in my voice – “ soo please tell me that you didn’t answer that call…you didn’t take the call right????????”
Asher looked at me confused – “ why don’t you want him to know??”
I admit honestly – “well, I will tell him ofcourse, but maybe later once im back home tomorrow..because I do not want to worry him with this..hes kind off at a very important job assignment right now, and I do not want him to worry..i am fine now..”
He gave me a puzzled smile as he asks – “ is he here in the country atleast?? I mean if not Cape town??..”
I admit honestly – “ no he isn’t in South Africa..he lives in India and kind off travels all over the world for his job..so..yeah..”
Asher – “and you don’t feel like you need to see him right now??you miss him ofcourse, that’s what that call was also about right? The other day at Cape Point??”
I give him a smile as I admit – “ ofcourse I want to see him, I miss him all the time, but I understand him and its ok…this was something I was aware about from the start..”
Asher – “ hmmm you mean about his job and all this geographical distance..??”
I nodded – “ yup..i knew it from day one..so honestly it doesn’t matter if he isn’t here.., itll be ok once I talk to him….and he is probably busy right now so..ill just talk to him later..im here only no..its just a little complicated between us for now..but that doesn’t change the core of the connection eight..i mean short circuits happen sometimes right..but the current still flows right..”
He gives me a puzzled look and he smiles as he says – “you are an interesting puzzle do you know that??”
And I ask on reflex– “ why do you say that???”
Asher – “ well because to be honest in this day and age all I hear about is people giving up on each other due to these issues that sprout up you know like distnace, change of location etc, because they want that physical presence, and its refreshing to hear you say that all you need to do is just talk to him and that you will be ok..”,and he paused as he now grinned and he said – “And ofcourse also the way your brain works is kind off very amusing..i have never seen a doctor laugh that hard…”
I chuckle on that on reflex and we share a laugh and then I admit softly – “ but id like to thank you so much again, you , Zain and Zara..really..”
And right then his phone buzzes and I tell him – “please take it..”,and right then the nurse also comes in to change my drip ,and Asher gives me a polite smile and he gets off his seat and I ask before he can take his call , sure the worry was back in my voice – “oh so you didn’t take hoodie guys call right??”
He nods as he gives me a smile – “ I didn’t..dont worry, I let the phone buzz..”
I smile – “thank god..”,and I watch him Leave and the nurse comes to change my drip.
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Asher steps out the door to Khushis room and takes his sisters call and he tells her that the three of them might not be able to make it for dinner.
Just as he hangs up , he spots Zara walk towards him with the trey and she’s about to go in as Asher says – “wait Zara..the nurse is changing her drips or something..lets wait till she comes out, incase Khushi is uncomfortable with any of us in there..whilst the nurse is tending to her..”
Zara nods and she sees her best friend lean against the wall and she leans right next to him as she looks at him sideways as she asks – “ she’s been on your mind right?? Ever since Cape Point??”
Asher nods.
You can’t lie to your best friend of 15 years.
Zara – “ I knew it..its the just way youv been worried for her today, and how you were so restless outside the MRI..you like her already don’t you????”
Asher nods again as he says – “ yes Zara, I do like her..”,and he pauses as he smiles at his friend – “ her brain freaking fascinates me..shes so interesting and honestly Iv not met anyone like her..i was kind off affected the minute she shoved those revised tax rates on that napkin paper in front of me on that Big Bus Mixer itself..shes beautiful and very intelligent, and very brave and very very honest..its rare to come by these days..isnt it??”
Zara nods – “ I know what you mean..”,and she now grins at her friend – “ cmon..woo her then no..ammi will love her…so will aasra aapi…asher I think she is exactly what you need in your life right now..”
Asher shook his head as he said – “ Zara..you say so because you are biased to your best friend but its not going to work according to how you or I want it right?”
Zara – “ what do you mean??”
Asher gave a disappointed smile to his friend – “ well, she already has her kind off special someone in her Life..and hes into her too..i spoke to him a while ago when her phone wont stop buzzing..and the worry and concern was dripping in his voice.. and she was worried inside right now hoping that I didn’t tell him anything about her episode, because that would worry him and he is on a very important job assignment..”
Zara gave him a disappointed look – “ oops ya asher…hard luck ya..i know you’d never make a move knowing this..you are all about your ethics and doing things fair and square when it comes to all this..”
Asher nods as he says , giving his friend a disappointed smile as he wraps his hand around her shoulder – “ hard luck it is Zara..what can I say..to that..”
Zara looked at him sideways – “ but why do I feel like this look on your face is telling me that the fact that she already has someone in her life may stop you from making a move on her, but wont be able to stop all this liking you have towards her..shes caught your head and heart both..right?”
Asher grinned – “and you are the bestest friend in this whole wide world do be able to read me like that…”
Zara grinned – “oh that I am..”,and right then she saw the nurse come out the room and she said – “ lets get khushi to eat something now??”
Asher nods – ‘ totally…”
And as he makes his way into the room behind his best friend Zara and catches on the sight of Khushi giving her a heartwarming mesmerising smile –and he knew that it was true that – it really was hard luck that she already had someone in her Life.
Whoever This Hoodie Guy was – better know and realise– that he’d hit a jackpot here!
A Bumper Jackpot indeed.
Khushi was Precious.
He sips on his tea silently as he watched Zara and Khushi talk as she now starts to eat the sandwich and the happiness on her face as she takes the first bite – allures him.
Tough Luck Asher!
Really…Tough Luck!!
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26 Hours Later – Monday NIGHT – 1030 PM – Cape Town
Arnav’s POV
I am looking out of the plane window as we are bow about to land into Cape town in the next 25 minutes.
Thank God.
I cant wait.
The last twenty hours of flying time and then adding the time difference of Cape town being seven hours ahead from my port of boarding back at Jamaica -These have been the longest twenty six hours of my bloody Life.
And the fact that I had not been able to get in touch with Khushi at all was driving me insane too.
I had tried to call her from the airport before boarding the first flight, but her phone was switched off – in the hope of getting to just listen to her voice or the fact that I didn’t even mind the tricky bouncer Asher Khan answer her phone – all I needed was an update on how she was.
I had tried again and again, like almost ten times in between after landing in London and my layover time at the terminal but then her phone was still switched off.
And I had no way of knowing how she was doing.
Because there was no one I could ask!
And that fact killed me even more.
But thank god for Mom and Anjali’s subtle support to me whilst I spoke to them over the phone before boarding this final flight to Cape Town, because they helped me calm my nerves.
When I told them about my decision for just skipping on that match and rushing to Cape Town and then confessing to Khushi straight out – they totally backed me up.Mom did ask me to just keep listening to my heart in here and have faith– because she says – that in the matters of real and serious relationships – Love was the most important ingredient.
It topped everything else.
I had the best family in the world.
Anjali was kind off a little upset at me that such a deceptive video had gone around about me in the first place, as she reminded me of the time how broken she was , when Ravi’s pictures went viral, and then next minute she also did subtly support me that point in case – I hadn’t actually indulged in a wrong doing.It just looked like that, but the first impact damage was done nonetheless, and now I just had to focus on getting things working on my personal front and get things on track with Khushi because I couldn’t risk loosing her forever – because of some stupidity on my behalf.
It would kill me.
They did assure me that I was going to be able to tackle this, all I needed was to now be honest to Khushi about everything.
And also About how strongly I feel for her.
I had earlier thought in my head that I would only tell her that im in love with her so deep by her 23rd bday in November so that she had a little time to adjust to the new phase of our relationship, but now after everything that has been happening around me and these crazy rumours, and everything that I have been feeling at just imagining this haunting image of Khushi being shoved into an MRI machine, and me not being able to be by her side right now as she’s lying alone in that hospital bed, all confused and stressed because of me – I don’t think I will be able to push confessing my emotions longer.
She needs to know.
She needs to know, now.
I know I might be taking a risk of overwhelming her, but something in my heart is telling me that it’s a risk I gotta take right now for its almost like a do -or die situation for me.
So all this while as I was in transit I have literally seen that bloody video like a hundred times because id asked Ravi to share it with me on whatsapp , and iv also gone though all these posts and articles, and in my heart I can only imagine what Khushi must have gone through at seeing that video.
Because it was deceptive indeed.
It was like as if this is an affect of the ghosts of my ‘casual hook ups ’ was now coming to haunt me in my present.
When I decided to help Cata in that moment when she was feeling sick, I never thought things could get escalated to another level like this.
So see, I always believe in taking responsibility of my actions and face the consequences head on.
I don’t like to play blame games or mind games or denial tactics with my head in order to try to evade the option of gutting up and take responsibility of my errors.
And yes,I know – I mean I didn’t do anything wrong intentionally but my that one action in which I let Cata take me by the hand off the floor towards closed doors– was totally wrong! I shouldn’t have probably helped Cata at that point, and should have probably gone up to the yatch roof to get those models friends of her from up there itself.
Because I know whatever my intention behind the action will kind of come into the frame later, because my precious Sunshine has been hurt already.
That video has hurt her a lot and the fact that Cata was the same one – id hooked up with last year and Khushi knowing about that – would have ofcourse escalated that hurt in her head.
Its only natural.
I have to apologize to her for this and get her to forgive me.
I take a deep breathe as take out my phone and open my whatspp and see the last long message shed written to me.
Her turmoil, her conflict is very much evident in here.
I can feel it in her every word.
Its breaking my heart to know..that i made her feel this way.
When all I want her to feel is Loved and Cherished and Secured.
OK.
I need to compose myself, because just as I land, I need to rush to the hotel, change and then go see her.
I know I will only be able to feel peace once I feel her in my arms.
God – I need her in my arms, now more than ever.
Its also the first time that I am on a flight and khushi has no clue about it.
The pilot announces about landing in ten minutes and I can hear the wheels make their way out..and I thank god for this torturous time has finally passed.
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Fifteen MINUtes Later – 11 :00 PM
Just as i put my flight mode off and get up to get my cabin bag off, my phone immediately starts vibrating in my pocket.
I quickly make my way out the flight after thanking the crew politely and I literally whip my way out on the aero bridge and I take my phone out in my hand,and I literally feel my heart come alive as I see various texts from Khushi.
Khushi’s message at her 7:00 PM : Hello Hoodie guy, first hand out I need to apologize to you straight away because I missed so many of your calls yesterday.Before I get to that, I think it must be Noon for you there no in Jamaica?? And today is the final match, although you guys have already clinced the series, but all the best to you Arnav..just enjoy yourself out there and it will be a good game anyway.Lets get on a quick call if you have some time??
I feel like I can breathe again.I increase my pace as I walk to the arrivals.
Khushi’s msg at her 710 PM : My last message hasn’t gone through, for the blue ticks haven’t come up.Are you somewhere where there is no network hoodie guy??i think so…these networks na..so crazy..dont they know that there are some of us who rely on their towers signal receptions for a lot of our vital communication..ok..anyways..incase you see this message before the match..please text me, I want to wish you all the very best in voice time too..
How did I get so bloody lucky to have been blessed with her in My Life????????
My pace has increased ten folds, more.
Khushi’s msg at her 9:30 PM : ok Arnav..so..i have just come up to my room , and I think you must have reached the stadium and are probably already playing the game, so I think I will message this to you now, so that you will see this after the game and please know that I did not write about this to you in the earlier messages because I want you to only read this after the game is over, because in my heart I feel like this might just rile you up and worry you, I do not want to distract you right before a game..you know I would never know that..cricket is the love of your life..and I respect that..so yes..coming to the point – First thing out..that stupid conflicted rant to you..pls forgive me for that..but then I was just being myself without any filters telling you everything, and then maybe I realise that I should probably think before ranting out like a stupid first..so I was just about to write a next to you telling you that Arnav im feeling better after listening to some of your favourite songs in the playlist but then right then Zain and Zara popped into my backseat as my Uber pick up from the mall and I couldn’t message you.
The things this girl is Making me Feel right now.
I am literally running to Immigrations.
Khushi’s message at her 940 PM : I was dropping Zain and Zara at Ashers place, and whilst I was just leaving from their gates, this throbbing headache happened, and I kind of had a little tiny miny migraine episode, nothing major ok..dont worry about it at all…anyway asher, zain and zara were very kind to take me to the hospital since you know that uncle, aunty, Rahul and diya are in Johannesburg for that wedding functions.And that is why I missed so many of your calls Arnav, because these docs wanted to scan my brain in the MRI to make sure all was ok, because I did loose on consciousness in the car in Zara’s arms.And shall I tell you something..once I met the doctor after the scan and he told me that everything was normal I actually asked him if he was sure that my brain was wired normally as everyone-else – since you know I think im a little crazy in my head anyway and I asked him – that he would know since its my first time in the MRI machine but hes probably seen hundreds of brains in a week- so he could be the better judge.You have no idea how much Asher, zain, zara and the doctors and nurses laughed at that.It was very amusing.
I am next in line to get to the immigration counter and I feel my heart glow.
Only she can make me smile even when im like consumed with so much emotion in my Heart.
I walk up to the Immigration officer and get my passport stamped and make a run towards the Luggage belt.
My eyes move to the next message.
Khushi’s next message at 945PM: And you are probably wondering why my phone was off hoodie guy.it was the doctor ya, he advised I switch it off in order to not let the phone radiations have somekind off a negative impact on me since I had just come out the MRI,and then I have to be honest to you..i also switched it off because I thought in that moment Maybe it’s the best for now.,Because I didn’t want you to know about this episode yet.And that will also give me some time to detox my head from all this toxic noise from the news articles and social media videos...and I thought.. I need this space to just reboot my systems.
I cant wait for my suitcase to pop on this belt.Maybe just leave it here for now and come collect I tomorrow morning.
I cant wait to meet Khushi
Khushi’s text at her 955 PM : So hoodie guy, iv rested well and I have thanked Zara, Zain and Asher over and over again, for all of them were with me until I left the hospital, and do you know Zain was very kind to even help me take care of Rahul’s car from that damage, its all good now, I can resume uber tomorrow.And thank god for I have my medical insurance details in my phone..because Zain helped a lot with all those formailities too in the hospital.Asher has been very very kind too me too.Do you know I had a little chat with him about you?he asked me why am I not calling my kind off special someone..and I told him its because he is at this very important job assignment and I do not want to worry him, and I was relieved when he told me that Hoodie Guy had been calling but he just let the calls buzz..i was so worried that he would have spoken to you and told you about my episode and that would have worried you right before your games.i was kind off glad he let your calls be.He refers to you as Hoodie Guy too now.So yes..thats much all of what has happened and I have also taken three four more days off from the firm..doctor has advised me to just take it easy for a while...arnav..I hope you are having a good game..lets talk once you are free.
Oh Yes.
I am aware about Tricky bouncer calling me as Hoodie Guy too.
My Sunshine has really caught Tricky bouncer Ashers interest – because I think the reason he didn’t tell her that he had already spoken to me and told me everything would be so that it didn’t worry her in that already vulnerable situation.
My suitcase comes up and I pick it up and wheel out the terminal straight into the cab,and I tell him to take me to the Hotel.
Khushi’s message at her 10 : 00 PM: and my heart is telling me that this video was deceptive..im working on closing my eyes to it…I want to keep my focus on just trusting you on this until we are able to talk and I know your side off it..
My heart literally stops beating again as I read that.I quickly ask the cab driver to take me to Chai and coffees address.
I am not going to the hotel.
I need to see Khushi first.
Khushi’s message at her 10 30 : I was just on the tablet when a news popped about the match and I didn’t spot your name in the playing eleven today.and I looked in further and it tells me that - YOU ARE RETIRED HURT IN THE MATCH TODAY?????????????YOU ARE HURT?????????????????? WHERE ARE YOU Arnav?????????where are you dammit?? Are you ok?????????????????????please mesaage or call the minute you see this.pleaseeeeeeeeeee…….is someone with you???what happened to you???????is it your wrist again?????
Every bit off me was dying to message khushi right now that I was on my way to see her and that I was going to see her in fifteen minutes.
But I hold on.
I have waited for so long for this moment.
I want to see that expression on her face.
I track her location on my gps app and it tells me that she is at chai and Coffee and I look at my phone – its almost Midnight.
I know no one would be there at Chai and Coffee right now.
God and the emotions I was feeling right now…after reading all her messages and the last one in which I can see worry dripping in her every word for me, after all that she has been through because of me, she still is worried for me??????
God.
I am going to Love this woman till the end of Time.
Five minutes more.
I quickly redo my plan in my head.
I was totally going to just knock crazily on that back door like I did on the last I saw of her on that door, months ago before I left Cape town at 3 am in the morning.
And then first thing out im going to pull her into a crushing hug and Not Let GO.
And then just flow with the moments in between of Us.
And
It was a good thing – that I was also wearing the same Hoodie that I had on – the very first time I met her.
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12.10 AM
Khushi’s POV
OK.THEN
So I can see that there are Blue Ticks on all the messages that I have sent to Arnav..means he has read them right.
These Blue ticks just came a while ago because I had my eyes on them.
Then why is he not replying????????????
Is he so hurt that he can read these messages but is not in a situation to reply or call???????
God No.
I gulp down a glass of water quickly and then walk to my bath and I wash my face like two three times with cold water and I feel like so worried in my being right now.
And I have no way of asking anyone anything too.
I take deep breathes to calm myself.
Calm Khushi Calm – you were just at the hospital yesterday.
And right then I hear some crazy banging sounds.
I walk out to the door of my studio and lean in a little towards the stairs.
Yup .
This noise is coming from the back door of Chai and Coffee.
But just in case it’s a thief – do I have the strength to swing my taekwondo kick???? – Yes I do.
But I am in my pink tank top and black shorts too.Do I have the time to change before this crazy theif breaks in???
Probably not because - the banging increases!!
Ok no time Khushi!
Gotta go and tackle a potential thief.
I rush my way down the stairs and just as I reach the door, I take a deep breathe and prepare myself to swing my signature kick just as I opened the door to catch this thief off guard immediately by breaking his nose.
I swing the door open immediately and swing my legs in full force in the kick but I see this thief duck down just in time – as if he was expecting this kick.
And it’s a little dark and I cant see his face as hes still ducked down, but I can see that hes dressed in this crazy hoodie. And he is still ducked down.
Whats with these crazy criminals and their love for Hoodies?????
I gotta tell Hoodie Guy that I was not wrong in my head to presume him to be a thief or a criminal when I first met him when he walked into Chai and Coffee months ago.
I see this thief now springing up to his feet immediately and I still cant see him, when did the bulb of the backstreet lamp fuse…I immediately step back two steps into the door immediately and I say in a warning tone – “ hey you..i am just about to press the button and police is going to be here in just three minutes and just so you know I can handle you till then because I am trained in marshall arts..and he now steps in the door and I swing another kick at him , which he again ducks and dodges, and now takes step towards me, his crazu hoodie covering his face.
When did amateur thieves have such good reflexes??
I take a step back and swing another kick at him as I now say – “ ohh you think you can break the till off my coffee shop and get hold on that cash stash?? No way…”,and right as I am about to now press the police alarm button and the light button on of the corridor, which I should have switched on first so that I could have atleast seen some of this thieves face..the police was going to ask me for face recognition features surely.
Right then this thieves hand shots up and holds my hands as he tugs on it himself and pulls me crazily close into him
OKKKKKKKKKKKK.
ALL MY BRAVERY HAS JUST VANISHED OUT THE WINDOW.
And right then I see this thief reach out to the light button but does not switch it on he whispers – “ i am not here for the cash…”,and just as I feel like I have heard this voice…I know this voice….this voice is crazily similar to Hoodie Guys..no how is it possible..i am hallucinating..all this new found realisation of how deeply I love him has driven me insane probably, and I am just standing frazzled and shocked and the light buttons click and the light finally flows through the corridor right when this theif flips off his Hoodie and he grins as he says with a smirk that my eyes are now able to instantly recongise – “ I am here for my Sunshine..”
Who am I seeing in front of me right now???????????????????
My Hoodieeeeeeeeee Guy???????
Arnav.
Its him.
I close my eyes three times and I now step back in shock as I say, putting my hands on my waist as I shrug and fan my hand in front of my eyes and I tell myself out loud – “ no no..this is a hallucination…khushi all those painkillers from yesterday are driving you crazy..”
I peek in through my hands but I can still see Him standing right there now leaning with his arms folded against the side wall and he is grinning and is clearly very amused as hes looking at me from top to toe.
I put my hands in my face again as I tell myself – “ its still looks like him..”
And right then I am tugged by both my hands straight and before I know it I am pulled into a crushing hug and now feel his hands go around my waist possessively and all that doubt of hallucination fly out of the window as I feel a familiar warmth flow go through my being and he whisperes kissing my head softly – “ its me khushi…”
I am too shocked.
Too shaken.
Is this happening for real and right then I feel his hands just wrap more tightly around me and it finally dawns on me that its really him.
Its Arnav.
And just like that.
All the emotions that I have been going through, finally engulf me, and I hug him back as tight as I say – “ hoodie guy…its you…its really you….”
And he now pulls apart and cups my face with both his hands as he says rubbing his thumb on my cheek, giving me goosebumps, as I am standing frazzled, shocked and shaken in the loop of his arms and just frozen to my spot staring into his intent gaze – “ I was expecting your kicks, so I didged them in time, but seriously khushi..that first one could have still broken my nose..”,and he now grins,and I insuatntly tip tow on both my feet and wrap my hands around his neck instantly and hug him as I just hold on to him tight and I whisper – “ god I was so worried when I could reach you Arnav..it said you were retired hurt..”,and I pulled back as I now cup his face on reflex – “ where are you hurt???”
He takes my hands off his face and kisses them softly as he looks into my eyes and he now takes my hand and places it on his heart and then takes our grip and puts it on my heart and then tugs on my hand so that I am closer into him as he whispers, his eyes gazing intently into mine, he is so bloody close, I can almost feel his breathe on mine as he says – ‘ somethings hurt here..”,and he gestured to our hearts again and he says softly kissing both my hands – “and I am here to fix it Sunshine..”
He just called me Sunshine for the first time ever standing right in front of me in real time and in that intense voice of his and that piercing gaze of his eye that refuses to look away from my eyes and I am so drawn to just continue looking into his eyes too – I cant look away.
I am dead.
And he leans in to kiss my forhead – “ I am so sorry that I only saw your messages right now Khushi after I landed here in Cape town..”
I shiver, literally shiver as his hands go around my waist again as he says – “ my suitcase is outside, I came straight here from the airport Khushi..”
I looked at him and I just hugged him close into me again and he hugged me back, and I feel like..my heart feels like its all true..all of these emotions that I have been feeling for him its all true in real time and not virtual time..its true..the intensity of this connection between us…its there..its real…and I just hold onto him in silence by clutching onto his hoodie and probably many minute later as im clutching on his hoodie I look up at him and I ask with a smile – “ this is the same hoodie right?? The one you were wearing the first time we met???”
He grins as he says – “ the very same hoodie…and its your very same hoodie guy..”
Ok.
I will shy now.
And I instantly pull apart as I see that the backdoor is still opened and I say , as I tuck my loose hair behind my ear in order to hide my nervousness – “ lets get your suitcase in…”,and he walks with me holding my hand to the door and wheels his suitcase in and I close the door and lock it and I say – “ let your suitcase be here..i think it will be too heavy to take upstairs, I don’t want to risk you getting hurt on your wrist again..”
He pulls me into a crushing hug immediately and I hug him back too and I say many minutes later , pulling apart – “ how about we finally get around to having that cup of coffee together in my studio upstairs..??”
He grins as he says – “ about time, don’t you think..”,and I hold his hand and now take him him the stairs as I say walking up – “ here you go hoodie guy…the stair case you have seen a zillion times…”
He grins and just as we near the landing he shoves against the wall and cups my face tenderly and he asks kissing my forhead – “ is your migrane ok??”
I shiver in his arms again.
I can only nod in silence and I escape under his arms again, and he stops me by holding my arm and shoves me back into the wall and he whispers now leaning close into me – “ I told you..im not going to let you escape once I see you for real..but..before I get to caging you in my arms again and not letting go of you..i need to talk to you..”,and with that he whisks me in his arms and now climbs up the remaining stairs two three at a time and I am just looking at him dazed and shaken and he gestures me to ask which one is the door to my room and I gesture him to the right and I help him swing it open with my arm too as he uses his back to shove it out of the way and once we are finally in, he finally puts me on my feet and closes the door behind us and I just look at him all shy and frazzled as I can now feel his intent gaze travelling up and down, and I am in this crazy tank top and shorts nightsuits.
And I just put my hands on my waist an dthen use my dramatic antics to fan my face as I say – “ you gotta stop looking at me like that Arnav..”
He chuckles and he asks – “ can I have some water???”
I nod as I now walk up to my mini fridge and I pour him some water and just as I take it to him, I see him look around my room with so much emotion, and he speaks taking the glass off my hands – “ god finally, I cant believe im here for real…this place is so You Khushi..its you..”
I smile and just as he gulps down the water, I walk to the little kitchenette and I start preeping the coffee, and all this whilst he just comes to stand next to me and keeps watching me intently, and I know I am literally burnt and toasted to a shade of stark red tomatoe puree all over my face and probably also my arms and legs of all that is visible to him.
Why is he looking at me like that???
Is he crazy???????????????????????????????????
I don’t have the guts to look into his eyes right now so I just continue to work on that coffee and just as I am done minutes later I just pour out some in my usual cup and I take the other cup and I turn to him with a smile – “ this is your cup..”
He smiled now and he holds it in his hands and I pour his coffee to him and just as I pick up m y cup, he holds my hand and takes us to my little dining table and I sit on one chair and he pulls the other chair front up right up close into mine and he sits himself too and he holds onto my hand, by lacing his fingers in my hand and he takes a sip of the coffee as he says now with a wink – “ so my imagination didn’t do this moment justice at all..for I have been planning this in my head all along..and have imagined that expression of shock and surprise..on your face a zillion times in my head…”
I am sure my eyes widened to cups and saucers as I asked – “ what do you mean???”
He grins – “ I had a little break after this West Inides tour khushi…I had my flight booked for Cape town anyway on for tomorrow scheduled to arrive here on Wednesday night…I wanted to surprise you..iv been planning this for months..”,and he paused as he clutched on my hand as he says now softly – “ but after all that’s been happening around me lately khushi…aisha khaana controversery and then specially that video after the yatch party.…I felt like my heart was gripped in so much emotion..I had to fly out…I had to come see you Khushi..after I read that messaged of yours, when I woke up…I felt dread grip my heart because I felt like I was going to loose you if I didn’t come to you now…and then I spoke to Cap and I asked him to list me retired hurt, and got on the first plane out…”
My eyes widen in shock as I now , sure my voice was shaking – “ you left your match for me?????? You didn’t play the final match so that you could come see me????”
He keeps his cup aside and now holds both my hands in his as he kisses them again – “ and I got to know about the video after I woke up and read your message because I crashed to bed the minute I entered my hotel room..and then after I saw your message I immeaditealy seeked Ravi to show me what you were talking about..and I couldn’t reach you too..i was calling you frantically…I was so scared because I couldn’t get through to you..and on that note let me make it clear about the video…you know in the start in which Cata has got her hands around me and I am shoving her away politely and I am shown leaning in to tell her something…”
I just nod my head.
Those scenes are drilled in my head.
He takes a deep breathe as he says – “I am telling her that I already have someone in my Life..”
I freeze.
I am sure my voice is shaking as I ask him – “ you told her that??”
He nods and then continues – “ and then she tells me that since thats the case if I didn’t mind helping her get into the bathroom in that room because she was feeling very sick..because shiv and kunal had literally mixed up everyone drinks..and because she didn’t want to create a yucky scene on the dance floor or fall whilst she was walking to the door, so I just helped her and the minute she got in the room she puked her guts out and minutes later I was out as I called one of her friends from the upper floor of the yatch to help her..i swear to god khushi that was what it was..and I realise I was wrong..i probably shouldn’t have helped her, because my intention would come in the frame later, but once I saw the video a hundred times myself..i was sure..that the damage was done anyway..because it hurt you in the worst possible way..im sorry khushi..forgive me please…im sorry khushi…”
I just kiss his hands this time and just as I am about to say something he sgestures me to stop and to just let him talk and I nod and just clutch onto his hands and he says – “ so that’s the explanation about the video..and khushi I owe you explanations..please don’t ever think that you don’t have any right on me..only you have all the rights Khushi…you wrote something like how you will never be able to fit in my world…you know what??
I just raise my eeyes to him in silence and he takes my hand and places it over his heart as he says – “ you fit in the most important piece of my being Khushi..which is my heart…everything about you is custom made exclusively for the template of my heart dammit….and this is where you fit perfectly and that’s all I care about…you have no idea what you mean to me Khushi…”
I AM SPEECHLESS.
HE KNOWS HES MAKING ME SPEECHLESS.
BUT HE WONT STOP.
He kissed my hand again and I just sip my coffee, because everything inside of me is shaking now, trembling now and he continues – “and after I got to know of this entire controversy.. I spoke to Cap and asked him to book me on the first flight out..ravi asked me to call again and this time when I did..asher did pick up..and he told me everything about what happened…”
My eyes widened at that as I kept my coffee mug aside – “ he did????? Then why did he tell me that he didn’t..”
He kissed my hands again – “sunshine he probably didn’t want to worry you after all that you had told him…but I had to come..i had to see you formyself…you have no idea what I went through when the thought of just you being shoved in the MRI machine all by yourself started to haunt me…it screwed me up dammit..you have no idea what I went through all these hours..”,and he he laced his fingers through mine he speaks now looking intently into my eyes – “ please say something..anything…”
I take a deep breathe as I say – “ I am..spe..echless..”
He grins now as he asks – “ will you come into my arms please???”
I nod and I get up, and he instantly tugs on my hand so that I fall straight onto him and he tucks a starnd of my hair behind my ear as he says , looking into my eyes – “ please..say something..”
I close my eyes as I take deep breathes.
His intense touch in my side face is destroying me.
I just open my eyes as I admit – “ you know when I was in that MRI machine..i had these thoughts Arnav..”
He is now brushing my other cheek tenderly as he now adjusts me to sit on the table and his arms go around my waist as he conrinues sitting on the chair, and so that I am looking down on him and he now picks up my one hand and kisses it and he asks softly – “ what thoughts??”
I take a deep breathe as I gather all my guts – “ oh there were many..i want to start with this one first…”
He nods – “ go on..”
I take a deep breath as I say – “I felt like you were this illegal immigrant that snuck its way Straight through the Immigration counters at all the four arrival terminals of my heart and that I had let you sneak in through these gates into my heart myself..but..Because although we did issue the visa to each other it felt like none of us that official stamp at that immigration counter that gives the status that – the passenger is allowed to stay in here..and that is one of reasons why I have been so nervous Arnav..because this thing in between of us was not official…”
He immediately gets up from the chair and now stands tall in front of me looming over me as he now cups my face with both his hands and he says – “ you have some coffee froth on the side of your Lips Sunshine..”
Oh You Stupid Khushi.
I am just about to wipe it off my hand when he holds it mid air as he asks – “ how about we first take care of all this official stamping first at the immigration and then talk it over…”
He brushes his thumb over my lips tenderly and he looks into my eyes as he says – “ you know..i think its better too..to first seal all these official matters…”
I am shivering.
They way he is looking at me and touching my face and my lips and the other hand running down my neckline…I think he is going to kiss me.
He grins as he is surely loving the affect he is having on me right now and he says softly continuing to brush his fingers on my cheeks, and he is not even wiping that coffe froth away – “ I have never been in a real relationship before..but I think I know how it works…you gotta seal and stamp these matters officially with a kiss right..”
Did he just say that out Loud to Me???????????????????????????
Oh God.
He is going to kiss me right now.
And I am going to hyperventilate right here.
I ask him sure my voice was shaking – “ are you going to kiss me now..hoodie guy???????”
He is looming danegerously close into me as hes still standing over me and I am still sitting on this table and he is cupping my face and pulling it a little upwards towards himself and he asks – “ I have been dying to khushi..for ages now..but I want you to tell me if its ok for me to just take your lips into a ravishing kiss and not let go…because I don’t want to do anything you wouldn’t want…”
OHHHHHHHHHHHH GODDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HAVE LITERALLY GONE DUMB.
I CANT FIND MY VOICE.
And I just gesture to him by putting my one hand near my mouth and I say shaking my thumb gesturing to him that I cannot get a word out.
He chuckles as he asks – “ oh so my sunshine is speechless now??”
I nod.
He asks now looming dangerously close over my lips – “ can I kiss you now Khushi????just nod if you cant get a word out..because im not going to let you get a word out as you nod your head anyway…”
I look into his intent gaze.
The intensity of it is destroying me.
I can only look at him Dazed and I finally instruct my neck to move up and down in a nod,and just as I do , I feel his lips close over the side of my lips over that coffee broth as he takes it in..driving me insane and he whispers against my lips – “ lets take care off all this coffee broth first..”,and I can only shiver as he does the same to the other side of my lips and takes in all that coffee broth from there too,and once he is done, I open my eyes to look into his and right then he just opens his too and he whispers – “ you are mine Khushi…and I am yours..only yours..for youv already stamped your entry into my heart long ago…and now I want to thank you for letting me in through those immigration counters straight into the arrival terminals of your heart,and I am now going to seal and stamp this entry of mine officially once and for all…”
I AM BLOODY DEAD.
I AM SWINGING IN BETWEEN ALL THE ROLLERCOASTER THRILL RIDES IN THIS WHOLE WIDE WORLD – ALL AT ONCE!!!!
I just instruct my neck to nod again,and just as its half way through the nod – his Lips finally close over mine, and just as he starts to kiss me and probes his way into my lips in a deep prolonged kiss, I finally find myself react to the moment too as I wrap my hands around his neck and start to kiss him back too.
I HAVE SHOT UP TO SPACE IN LESS THAN ONE SECOND.
IN A NANOSECOND PROBABLY.
He tugs my hair into a harsh fist as he pulls me closer into himself and continues to kiss me over and over again, in a way that I have never been kissed before.
I have never been made to feel what hes making me feel.
I am trying to match his moves and kiss him back too, as I try to pour in all these emotions I have been feeling for him and I am shaking and shivering because I can feel him do the very same mirroring all my emotions back to me, and pouring it all into this kiss that’s roaring high on crazy passion now.
THIS IS BLOODY INTENSE
His hands now starting to brush down my arms and one of them goes around my waist possessively, and as he continues to kiss me over over again.
I realise one thing in that one moment.
Hoodie guy would not be able to destroy me anymore.
BECAUSE.
I WAS NOW DESTROYED BEYOND REPAIR..ALREADY!!
And I just surrender to all these things he is making me feel as I let his lips work their magic over mine over and over again.
And I REALISE that I can forget anything in this damm world now – but I would never forget this.
I would never forget how I felt when he first kissed me..or what I am feeling as he continues to kiss me madly, deeply and passionately.
Maybe there is something indeed true about all this MAGIC they talk about Kissing - the one you love for the very first time.
How do I know??
Because I was living and experiencing that very Moment with My Hoodie Guy.
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Tadaaaaaaaaaa !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Much Love Guys..
Happpy Weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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+ 32
1 years ago
Aww ASR is here in SA woohoo. Omg she was again abt to hit ASR lol. Damn der confession n der kiss uff u kill us with the lines.
Jai Shri Ram @SoniRita
+ 32
1 years ago
Wow they kissed wobhi passionately woohoo
redpetals123 @redpetals123
+ 4
3 years ago
I have reached heaven ....no other words