Chapter 17

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Much Love Guys.

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CHAPTER 16 – WHAT IS THIS ‘THING’ BETWEEN YOU AND ME?

Arnav’s POV

Bangalore – Ritz Carlton – 11:10 PM

We’v just finished a late dinner with the team and are now making our way back up to our rooms.Some of the boys just got off the elevator on the floor, and now its just Ravi and Me.I look at Ravi as he’s tapping his feet nervously in the elevator and I say –  “ seriously you gotta stop doing that everytime we are in the elevator, Ravi..”

Ravi leaned back against the other side off it as he says – “well, you do know I am semi claustrophobic right??”

I nod – “ ofcourse, I know that..”,and I pause as I ask – “ but you did say it was getting better..”

Ravi nodded – “ it is..”

So me and Ravi played together for the Mumbai team in the IPL

And I say honestly – “ I am sorry..”

Ravi gave me a shrug and a sad smile , because he knew what I was hinting about – “ well thank you for trying my friend, but I guess your sister has it all decided in her head already..she wont just listen..and honestly im done trying now, maybe I should just let it go..”

I shrug – “ maybe..”,and I state softly – “ but you aren’t over her yet..”,and I admit now – “ and I don’t think she is over you..shes just very hurt, I just hope the two of you can atleast talk things out..”

Ravi smiled – “ I hope so too..but maybe I just need to let it be for a while..iv been trying to get her attention in the last two months too but it hasn’t worked in my favour right..”,and the elevator opened and we both stepped out, our rooms were on the same floor, and he spoke as we walked down the corridor – “ anyways im excited about the semi’s tomorrow, and if we win , we met Cap in Chennai for the finals on Sunday..”

I grin – “ yes…we will be meeting him in the final in that case for what the fifth time now??”

Ravi grins but admits honestly – “ it still amuses me how we have to play on all these different teams in the IPL pitched against each other and then go back to being one team again..but then I guess it is what it is..we learn so much from playing in the same team as our various international counterparts..”

I nod – “ exactly, and the talent that’s coming up every year , all these amazing players are given a chance..i think it’s been amazing platform..”

Ravi grinned – “ yes indeed…and time flies look we are the end of IPL almost..and then in a weeks time we are off to the West Indies..”

I grin – “ you love Jamaica..”

He grins – “ you love it too…….”

I chuckle – “yes I do…”,and I admit honestly – “but im glad its only a ten day tour with the five odi’s..”

Ravi nods – “ I know what you mean man, its been so hectic, I am so looking forward to that little break we have post the west indies tour..”

I smile as I admit honestly – “ I am too..”,and we reach Ravi’s room and he gets in and I wish him goodnight and make my way to my room.

I step into my room and look at the time on my phone its 11:10 PM, which means I still had to wait for another 20 minutes to get on that video call with Khushi.

I feel myself relax and smile immediately as her thoughts return,and I sit in my bed and relax myself into the

She was probably finishing her shift at the café now.

Khushi.

What can I say??

I mean – where should I begin??

She was my Sunshine.

She really was the light of my Life.

If I just start talking about how many times iv fallen in love with her all over again in the last two months, it will literally be morning right here.

To cut the long story short – I am truly, madly and deeply – in Love with Khushi.

She was that missing major puzzle piece that my Heart had been longing for, all its Life!

So when I was a kid, I used to love my lego and puzzles (mom goes on and on about it till date and she says that the only way to get me sitting straight for hours could be by giving me a puzzle or a lego)

Anyways, I loved them because it fascnitaed me greatly.I mean you know how you go about bit by bit trying to fix all these smaller pieces together to finally come to that big picture.And how in the process you twist around a smaller piece so many times trying various combinations,until it finally fits right in its place and then you go on and on trying to do the same with all the other pieces until this picture is complete.

So when Khushi came along, it felt like my heart finally picked out a little puzzle for itself on reflex,and then started throwing all these pieces together in order to finally reveal that final picture to me, the picture that would be the answer to all that longing in my heart.

And I had realised it precisely two months ago that the picture in my heart was now complete.

And the picture of was that of Khushi’s.

She was my answer to two very important things – Happiness and Love

Everything about her fascinated me greatly, not only because I Loved her, or because she was such an amazingly pure and innocent person in her heart , or because she was definetly one of the most inspirational persons id ever met, or because she was just so beautiful inside out.

It was because – There was something very exquisitely wonderful about the way she made me feel.

It was because she was the perfect fit into the puzzle of my Heart.

Everything about us is all signalling to the fact that – We are meant to be!

Gosh.

Only I know how difficult it is for me to still hold onto all this love and emotion within the walls of my heart as a secret.

I am doing so because I have to take it slow and steady with her.

I know she was falling for me.

We were heading in the exact direction my heart wanted, but I was being extra cautious also because I didn’t want to overwhelm her or scare her away by all these heavy duty emotions that im feeling deep inside for her.

Oh.

And why do I call them Heavy Duty Emotions??

Because that’s what they are.

The roots of her Love have marked my heart in a way that’s way too deep.And along with being deep, they are also directly proportionate to all these happy and thrilling emotions, my hearts been glowing and basking in the warmth off.

Iv had so much endorphin release into my system due to all this happiness she makes me feel that I think I am permanently just high on Life, these days.

I pick up my phone on reflex and I open up our whatsapp conversation and look at our conversation from a while ago and I find myself grinning from ear to ear.

This is what I mean.

Even though I am physically alone right now, I am not alone.

She is with me.

Until her, I had no tale of Love brewing up in my heart ever, and even though I was living a very hectic and a busy lifestyle and was always surrounded by people, there was that corner in my hearts that was always just alone, basking in longing and hope that maybe one day it would meet the one who was meant for it.

She was the one meant for me.

And now I was starting to kind off also believe that she was falling for me hard and fast too.

It was on her face.

In her voice.

In her eyes.

In her words.

But I still had to hold onto that patience for a little longer, because I obviously didn’t want to confess to her over the video call.

I wanted to do this in person, face to face.

And that is why I was super excited about this little break we had after the West Indies ten day tour.

Because I had full plans to fly into Cape Town and surprise the daylights out of her mind and then hopefully out of her heart too.

The time was nearing for me to sway her up in the air with that UpperCut shot in my signature style.

I am literally grinning like an idiot as I imagine the look on her face when she would see me standing in front off her.

She’d probably just stay rooted to her spot in shock, with those big innocent eyes widened up,and the emotion of complete surprise and emotion on her face.

What would I do then??

Kiss her mindlessly maybe?And then tell her a little bit about all these emotions I was felling, so that to get things going for us in a official way.

Or maybe the other way round??

Maybe I will just leave that to my heart to judge and decide once it was in that moment.

I probably still had to wait to tell her about how deeply I loved her.

I planned to tell her that by flying in to see her on her 23rd   bday in November, which would also give her enough time to be comfortable in our new phase as well.

Her comfort with our pace was very important to me.

I loved her.

I respected her.

I admired her.

I wasn’t going to do anything to cause her any sort of a discomfort.

To be this patient wasn’t easy ofcourse!

But then they do say – That the fruits of patience are very sweet.

Im still lost in her thoughts when my phone buzzes.

Its Mom on a video call.

I grin as I pick up immediately and I see Mom’s and Anjali’s faces fill in my screen and I smile – “ hey you guys..why aren’t you asleep yet??”

I see a worried look on their faces.

And they are not smiling.

I feel worry creep in immediately as I ask – “ is everything ok at home?? Dadi?? Dad??? Guys pls??”

Mom gives me a small smile – “ yes yes, it is ok ..i mean we are all ok..but..”,and she pauses as she nudges Anjali – “ go on tell him..”

I ask on reflex – “ what is it??”

Mom sighs – “ gosh I feel like this is all my fault..im so sorry beta..”

I ask on reflex – “ mom relax, why are you sorry??what happened??”

Anjali takes a deep breathe – “ ok bhai…so because you are not on social media, you are not aware but the public and your fans and the media have literally gone beserk..”

I look at her confused – “ what do you mean??beserk?? why??what??”

Anjali – “ and this time its about your personal life..”

I ask – “ huh?? Whaatttttttt??”

Mom takes a deep breathe – “ so, remember how we were at your match the other day at the Feroz Shah Kotla for the quarter finals and then because Sheena was in Delhi because of Aisha’s shoot, I asked them to accompany us for the match..”

Ok.

Sheena aunty was Mom’s old friend from her theatre days in Bombay.

And Aisha was her daughter.She had made her Bollywood debut last year with a major blockbuster.

Sheena aunty has been Moms friend for so long that obviously Aisha is an acquaintance, from over the years.

I remember catching up with her a little after the match in a little casual chat.

I wait for Mom and Anjali to continue and I ask – “ go on…”

Mom – “ ok, so I think I shouldn’t have ask them to accompany us in the first place..”

Me – “ huh??”

Anjali – “ ok..just so you know, the media and the fandom has gone crazy..”

I look at them confused – “ about what though???”

Anjali – “ bhai you can be so naïve sometimes too..obviously about you and Aisha..the media, the fans, twitter, theyv snapped a picture of the two of you talking together after the match and its gone viral now, and #asraisha #bollywoodsprincesscricketsprince #thehottestcoupleintown..its all trending on twitter now..”

I sat up in my bed in shock as I asked – “ whattttttttttt?????? What the hell???????? From where did the media conjure up something like that??”

Mom shot me a worried look – “ I think the fact that me and Sheena are such good friends may have something to do with it..”

Anjali – “ ofcourse it has everything to do it..its all over social media..people are predicting a engagement on the cards already?? There is a picture of mom and sheena aunty talking to you both gone viral on the media too..”

I groan – “what the hell?? Such bullshit..”

Anjali – “ yes bullshit, we know..but because you aren’t on social media and we are obviously not going to react to this news and keep our silence…people are obviously going to keep talking..”

I say – “ look I don’t care about what the people say..i think sheena aunty and aisha will be as upset about this..”

Anjali – “ so yes about that..aisha was just cornered by the media outside a restaurant 30 minutes ago, and I think to get them off her back , she did tell them that you were just a family friend, and then people cornered her again and she just joked about the fact that there was nothing ever going on in between both of you even though shes been crushing on you forever..”

My eyes widen in shock – “ waittt??? Whattttttttttttttt?????????is she crazy??? Who talks like that ya?????

Mom sighed – “ she is in Bollywood beta…things work like this in there..and then ofcourse a rumour of a link up between you and her, is publicity right??she cant help it even if she wants too, infact she messaged us right now to let us know about this..”

Anjali – “ now the netizens have gone crazy half your female fan following is heartbroken because of the though that you are probably taken now, some are trolling her, and the rest half are already conjuring up memes about the couple name theyd like to give you both, or the date of your wedding, for that matter…”

I feel my anger boil now – “ what bloody bullshit dammit..”,and I ask Anjali – “ how many articles are there in the papers??”

Anjali – “ on all major dailies and page 3’s, but all online still..but its trending on twitter and insta now..”

Mom sighed – “ that’s why we called you first thing, you need to tell Khushi before she sees any of this yourself..i know its not official between you both yet, and that’s why this can be damaging, because you cant fly down to Cape Town yet..you have the ipl matches still and then the west indies tour beta..”

Oh SHIT.

I feel dread grip my heart.

Khushi was anyway very jittery because of all my limelight and now this.

God, I have absolutely no idea how was she going to react.

This was going to scare the shit out of her and overwhelm her on another level all together.

Anjali took a deep breathe – “ bhai you have paled into a white sheet..”

Mom sighed – “ obvious because he loves her..”

Mom and Anjali both knew how I felt about Khushi- ofcourse.

Anjali – “ ok so you did say that khushi isn’t very much into all this social media, so lets just hope she hasn’t seen any of this yet and you get to give her a heads up..”

I nod as I say – “ ill figure it out..i will call you guys later??i have to speak to khushi asap..”

They nod and hang up immediately.

Right then my phone buzzes.

Its khushi.

Her : Hello hoodie guy, I came to my room fifteen minutes ago but I thought ill get ready first for the dinner and then message you, so that I can talk to you until I have to leave.Are you free hoodie guy? I am good to connect on a video call.

I instruct myself to calm down as soon as possible and drink two glasses of water and I take a couple of deep breathes to steady my nerves.

And I finally call Khushi.

She picks up in a second.

And the minute her beautiful face fills in my screen.

I feel my worry ease a little.

She gives me her gorgeous smile – the one that lights up my Life.

And I feel myself at ease a little more.

She’s standing in front of her little fridge sipping on some coffee and shes looking so freaking gorgeous in that dark grey – boat necked knee length skater dress and she wore sheer black stockings underneath and flat pumped shoes.

And her hair are left straight open,and shes had them flipped them to one side.She didn’t have too much make up on, just a sheer natural base and some nude matt lip stain.

Godd.

She was so naturally stunning , so so so bloody gorgeous.

I cant even begin to talk about how attracted I was to her.

I was attracted to her from the very beginning.

She had been a magnet to me from the start.

But now.

It was different.

It was heading onto a very high spectrum on the scale.

And it had everything to do with the fact how deeply I loved her.

Attraction obviously heightens to a different level when you feel love root your heart.

Now - Everything about her was a magnet to my mind, body and soul.

I see her walk up to that little chair of the dining table and she sits on it and keeps her mug aside and she finally speaks, waving her hand in front of the screen – “ hey you…where are you lost????can you see me?? Is the connection ok????????i can see you hoodie guy, but I feel like youv kind of hung up on the screen..can you see me??wait ill just call you again..”

She hangs up and my phone buzzes the next second and I instruct myself to conjure up a way of wording it to her.

I pick up and I see her grinning face fill in the screen, and my heart warms up.

She looks so happy.

I smile – “hey you..sunshine..look at that smile..now I know that your paper was more than just amazing…”

She grins – “ yes it was hoodie guy…ok..you tell me did you have a good dinner?? Im so excited for dinner tonight..aunty and diya have all my favourite dishes ready..”

I ask on reflex – “ really????”

She nods in excitement.

I smile – “ that’s amazing khushi…I hope you have a good time..”

She grinned – “ yes I will…you tell me have you settled in and relaxed a little?? Its going to be a hectic day tomorrow no?but then by now I know its nothing new for you..god Arnav..i still don’t know how you all pull all this travel off…its amazing..”

I nod and give her a small smile – “ yes khushi I have settled in and relaxed and had a good dinner too..”

She grins – “ amazing..ok..so I think I forgot to tell you about one thing..”

Me – “ what thing??”

Khushi – “ so there is a little get together for all of us big bus guides tomorrow at the head office like a networking mixer..i think I will go for a while and then just leave early for my uber schedule..you know how I haven’t been able to do any of that all week…”

I smile on reflex – “ that already sounds like an interesting event khushi..”

She now folds her hands on the table and asks looking straight at me – “ somethings worrying you right?? What is it??”

I ask in a surprised reflex – “how do you know??”

She rolls her eyes – “ I know you yaaa…now cmon tell me is everything ok with you?? Or back at home??”,and she oaused as concern was evident on her face – “ or wait..have you injured yourself again??tell meee…and don’t you dare lie..i can see that worry frown lines on your forhead and your nose wrinkles up a little when you are deep in thought always…can you please talk to me now???Arnav?? please????????????”

I feel Love gush through my heart.

Now you know what I mean by How she was the perfect fit for my Heart and Soul.

I take a deep breathe – “ ok khushi..so I was just on a call with mom and Anjali..”

She nods – “ ahann..Anjali still not forgiving Ravi yet??”

I nod – “ yes that’s there..but this isn’t about that..”

She asks – “ ok..then what is it??”

I take a deep breathe.

I have to tell her.

I speak – “ ok so, the other day after the quarter finals at the firoz shah kotla in delhi..you know because the match was in delhi, mom and Anjali came for it ..”

She nods – “ yup, you told me..”

Me – “ ok..and remember I did tell you Mom had one of her friends from her theatre days visiting with her daughter who is an acquaintance??”

She nods and asks with a small smile – “ yes yes I remember…what about it?? Is your friend ok??”

I take a deep breathe – “ I was just on a call with Anjali..and she’s told me that the social media has gone beserk conjuring up rumours between me and her all because they snapped us having a casual chat…she says its all over the bloody internet, insta, trending on twitter etc etc?you know how it is right..”

She nods, but is silent.

OK.

Why is she silent?

I ask – “ khushi??”

She nods and gives me a small smile – “ go on..im listening hoodie guy…”

I take a deep breathe – “ok, so I just wanted to make things clear that its all freaking bullshit ok..theres no truth to it at all..infact iv only met her like once after like what five years or something..”

She nods and now sips her water.

She does that often when she needs to buy time to contemplate over what to say to me.

And she looks at me straight in the eye and she says with a polite smile – “ its ok Arnav..i understand..””

I look at her confused – “ what?? Wait?? You aren’t mad at me??”

She gives me a polite smile again, and she shakes her head in a negative and sips her water again in silence.

That stupid painful silence.

And that smile.

It was a smile that wasn’t from her heart.

I knew it.

I know her way too well.

I take a deep breathe as I say – “ khushi..please talk to me..tell me whats on your mind..”

She gives me a polite smile again as she says – “ I don’t know what to say honestly, because this is so alien to me as in something like this happening to someone whom I am..”,and she paused.

And I ask on reflex – “ I am what??”

She takes a deep breathe and flips her hand through her hair – “ I mean..happening to someone I know..someone who is a good friend...”

Wait.

What the hell?

And I ask on reflex – “ really? Is that who I am? Just someone you know, or someone who is a good friend??

She sips on her water as she says the conflict very apparent on her face – “ I mean, someone im very close too..someone who is way too important to me…I don’t know what to say Arnav..you know all this glamour and limelight and public scrutiny is something that’s very alien to me..i don’t understand it..so I don’t know how to react when you are telling me that something like this has happened to you..”.

I always appreciated her honesty.

But right now.

This honesty was scaring the hell out of my mind and heart.

I see her put her head in her hands for a second and I say on reflex – “ please talk to me sunshine..”

She finally looks up and our eyes lock and she speaks – “ look, I know this is a part of who you are..i mean all the glamour, the limelight etc , this just keeps reminding me of the fact that we are from different worlds Arnav..it shoves it over and over again in my face..and im conflicted because in my emotions..you are just you…hoodie guy..but I cant take the ASR out of the hoodie guy and the hoodie guy out of the ASR..and I don’t want too..im just working on being more open to accepting all these new things you are telling me..give me some time to process this?please??”

I nod.

And she nods in silence.

And I ask – “ so other than the fact that you need time to process this..we are good right???you do trust me when I say this is all bullshit..”

She nods and gives me a small smile – “ yes… I do trust you Arnav..”

Ok.

Thank God.

That just made me feel like I could breathe again.

Right then the screen goes blank and the call gets cut.

Im just about reconnect.

My phone beeps.

Its Khushi.

Her : So the call got cut because Rahul is calling to check if I had left yet.i think ill leave now, because im getting hungry hoodie guy.

I quickly type : ok khushi.no worries about that. are you ok ??

I get a smiley in return.

But I knew her way too well.

She wasn’t ok.

She was scared the hell out of her mind.

Goddammit.

There was no way I could make it to Cape town before 20 days from now.

I felt so freaking angry right now.

My blood boiled.

I pick up my ipad and then go to the online website of all the dailies to see what the hell that was written.

And I am flabbergasted.

Theres no truth in here at all, and yet people are going on and on about it as if this was the news of the freaking decade!

I shove aside my ipad and I quickly call Khushi.

Thank god she picks up.

“hello hoodie guy….”

“khushi…once again..this is all freaking bullshit ok..none of this is true..”, I say, immediately.

I hear her calm and composed voice – “ I know hoodie guy..like I said I trust you..”,and she paused as she spoke – “ can I call you later??im driving right now..”

I took a deep breathe.

Her safety was important to me.

I sighed – “ ok khushi..please text me once you are back home like you do always..”

Her calm and composed voice – “ yes, I will hoodie guy..dont worry..you sleep now..you have a hectic day no tomorrow..ok I gotta hang up now..”

And before I could say anything.

She hung up.

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Khushi’s POV

I had to hang up.

I had to get off that video call.

I had cut it on purpose and used Rahul as an excuse to run away.

I had to hang up now too.

Before my voice gave my emotions away.

I did my best to cover up my turmoil within.

The turmoil was because of two reasons.

First – I did trust him.And this was not his fault.

Second – But I also truly didn’t know how to react to this news yet!

Anyway I just need some time to process this, and then figure out how I feel about all of this.

Maybe later in the night.

After I was back home from dinner.

Right now I was going to have to focus my attention on the road.

Or I was going to get myself killed.

Focus.Khushi.Focus.

I take a deep breathe and I return my attention to the road, my finger going up on reflex to wipe a tear that was threatening to leave my eye.

…………………….

Fifteen Minutes Later

I step into Rahul’s home and I am pulled into this crazy hug by both Rahul and Diya, and I hug them both a little longer than I usually did.

It relaxed me a little.

I couldn’t obviously talk to anyone on this planet about the turmoil I was in.

The only person that I could talk too – was a central party to this party too, and I also didn’t want to hurt him with my inner conflict for this was not his fault.

I walk into the dinner table,and I hug aunty and uncle and I ask – “can we start eating already??im starving..”

Everyone nods, and we start to eat dinner.

And I try to laugh and smile and keep myself distracted throughout with what was happening around me, and I pretend to eat like im starving.

Even though the appetite in the pit of my stomach was dead anyway.

…………..

Thirty Minutes Later

We finish dinner and we all gather now around the sofa and I am now talking to uncle and aunty about my plans for the upcoming months.

And Rahul plonks besides me and puts his hand around my shoulder – “ so proud of you Khushi..”

I give him a side hug and right then I see Diya walk in to the living room from the kitchen with the ipad in her hand and she exclaims, excitement evident in her voice – “ omg omg..omg..how did I even miss this all day…maybe because I was so busy prepping up for dinner….”

Rahul looks at her confused.

I do so too and I ask – “ what happened?????????

She plonks on the sofa next to Rahul and she grins – “ news of the freaking decade..omg..apparently ASR and Aisha Khanna are the new hot couple in town..”

I feel my insides freeze.

Rahul takes the ipad from her hand as he asks – “ you mean the Bollywood actress aisha Khanna?? The one who made that blockbuster debut last year..god she is bloody gorgeous..when did that happen..”

Ok wait.

The friend he was talking about was a  gorgeous Bollywood actress??????????????????

I feel like something in the pit of my stomach died.

I think it’s the death of that theme park Adventureland.

I just sit frozen to my spot trying to put up a straight face, and then pretend to be busy in my phone.

Rahul exclaims – “ they do make a crackling pair…they would complement each other…”

Diya grins – “ I know right..apparently their moms are really good friends…”

And she takes the ipad from Rahuls hand and she browses through it all and she exclaims – “ oh my god..the netizens have gone beserk…aisha and ASR are literally trending on twitter.. look at all these trends.. #asraisha #bollywoodsprincesscricketsprince #thehottestcoupleintown..its all trending..”

OK.

What was that??

#asraisha

#bollywoodsprincesscricketsprincess

#thehottestcoupleintown

Right then Diya shoves the ipad across into Rahuls hands again as she says – “ look at these pictures..they are sharing a laugh in this one..they do look like they know each other..and look at this one..their moms are talking with the two of them..”

Ok.

So now my eyes finally fall on that screen in the ipad.

And as I take in the sight of those pictures, and look at Aisha Khanna in that frame with him.

I feel like.

I don’t know.

I don’t know what I feel like.

I mean what word can I use to describe a feeling like – as if reality has butchered its axe through my heart.

This woman was a drop dead gorgeous diva, totally belonging into his side of the world.

Diya asks on reflex – “ they look good na?? what do you think khushi..such a handsome couple if this is true..i think it is..??”

Ahaan.

I take a deep breathe as I give her a small smile and I admit honestly – “ yes a handsome couple indeed..”,and I now need to be alone for a couple of minutes, so I excuse myself to go to the bathroom.

The minute I am in,I just lean in near the sink and then look up to see my reflection in the mirror.

There was so much angst in my eyes right now.

I couldn’t believe this was me.

Goddd.

How am I supposed to react to this??

My heart reminds me immediately of his worried face as he explained things out to me.

I remember his words.

“its all freaking bullshit khushi..”

I know that was true.

I know this was just a casual chat up that was blown out of proportion.

I know that part of it.

I know Hoodie guy.

But no matter how hard my heart wanted me to look at this fact that this was my hoodie guy.

My mind couldn’t ignore the sight it had just seen.

The Slap of Reality that I was just stupid goofy crazy Khushi living in a world way too humble and different from his.

This connection between of us was very like supermagnetic kind.

It was super strong.

I knew that.

But then.

These differences between our worlds was really very Vast.

It was like I was on ground zero and he was well – a Skyscraper.

Not just a skyscraper actually.

Probably the Burj Khalifa.

(Which was the tallest building in the world – in Dubai)

My emotions tell me to just give in and jump onto the elevator and make my way up to the top floor through the push of our connection.

But can I ??

For real??

Life wasn’t a fairytale.

My heart probably wanted me to believe otherwise.

Goshhhh.

I remember his words again.

I feel so conflicted in my being right now.

I am overwhelemed and I am scared.

I cant stop talking to him.

I cant.

I just cant.

I cant pull myself away from him.

Hes way too important to me.

And yet as I stand on ground zero and look up at this  Burj Khalifa in front off me – I cant help but feel so intimidated and overwhelmed.

My phone beeps.

Its Him.

This bloody magnetic and telepathy pull in between of us is insane.

Him : I cant sleep Khushi.I need to talk to you.Are you ok? Please reply.

I take a deep breathe as I reply : At dinner with everyone, and I am ok Arnav.(I add a smiley )

And tap send.

Phone beeps.

Him : you cant lie to me Sunshine! i know you through and through remember?

I take a deep breathe.

I have to crack a joke now to make him believe that I am ok.

Me : No really Hoodie guy…I am ok.and diya also showed me the articles you were talking about coincidentally.you should have mentioned no that this friend of yours is a hot shot Bollywood actress.

Him : Does it matter??? Who she is doesn’t matter to me at all? Only you matter to me.You are my Sunshine Khushi.You know that.You are way too important to me, please get this straight into your head once and for all.All I care about is You.please tell me that you are ok??

That warms my heart.

That Theme park Adventureland in the pit of my stomach just comes back to Life.

Me : I don’t know what to say Arnav.Honestly, I don’t want to lie to you, maybe I just need to sleep over this.ok diya is knocking on the bathroom door now, I need to go.i will call you in the morning as I wake up Arnav.

Him : Ok Khushi.I understand.do message me once you are home though?so that I see it in the morning.

Me : I will, I promise.

Him : Thank you Khushi.

I was just about to step out the bathroom and my phone beeps.

Him : please tell me that you are not going to push me away or stop talking to me.thats all I need to know.

I sigh as I write honestly : I will not do any such stupid thing hoodie guy I promise! I don’t think I can stop talking to you.

Phone beeps.

Him : thank you khushi,I think I will be able to sleep now.

Me : please sleep Hoodie guy.

I put my phone in my pocket now and I finally make my way out the bathroom.

Totally conflicted still.

What was this thing in between of us?????????????????????????

What Name Could I give to this Insane Magnetic Pull/Connection that ties us both so fiercely to each other???????

I had no clue!

I absolutely had no clue!

I don’t know where is this going to take Me Now Anyway!

I don’t have the strength to think about this right now

I feel emotionally drained like iv never felt before.

Just Why did our worlds have to be so vastly apart???????????

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