Part 5-Part 7

PART 5

as she looked at angie who was looking at armi...waiting for an answer...as armi started saying facts...the truth...which was the last thing she wished....or wanted she panicked further...in the air conditioner office she found herself sweating..."i meet her at de"

"angie did u see the time u should rush, 5 mins r only left for ur reporting" she said cutting him...in single breath...wishing nothing goes wrong...n the talk gets finished there itself....armi looked at her confusedly

glancing at her wrist watch she picked her bag..."omg...batein karte karte mein bhul gaye" she said while signing the register as fast as she could...giving a warm hug 2 both of them left

seeing the cabin door closing n walking towards him she yelled at him for the first time, "wat the hell were u doing??"

he looks at her completely taken back as he never saw her talking like this...after thinking for a while, he still couldn't figure out wat wrong he did??

she looked at his blank face while he questioned her after failing to understand "watt? I didn't get u?"

she signed sitting on the chair...looking at him sitting down patiently waiting for an answer for her she mumbled "u don't know angie she loves me alot...and if all she knows ur the guy who..."

the thought of angie knowing the facts scared her... .images of the consequences

were running wild in her brains....shutting her eyes she composed herself

after ridz explained him in short wat AA know and wat they don't he asked her, "y haven't u told her about me...she loves u soo much and ur hiding this from her"

seeing he wasn't still getting wat would happened she felt... a look of pure horror came over her face...horror of thinking wat was going 2 happen...holding her painful temple she yelled again in trebling tone "i can't and i will never let her know this...u don't know her she hates u, her day doesn't end without cursing u"

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"Im soo glad u came here...i thought things between us will change after all the Delhi trip...i mean by...actually jus forget it...im happy to see u...just wanted to say that" he said while they sat 2gether after the dinner...he felt extreme happiness seeing she came over 4 dinner after a hectic flight n shifting her stuff back 2 mumbai from Bangalore

"u meant by ridhima right??" as armi nodded sapna smiled "armaan i feel whatever happened has happened we cant change it...y should we make a issue out of it after two yrs also"

"thanks sapna ur a gem of a person...im glad to have u as a friend" he smiled feeling little lighter inside but still he felt bad as he recalled her and ridz's today's meeting...how much he wished that ridz would tell AA who he was...how much he wanted to tell everything to angie that movement despite knowing the consequences wouldn't be pleasant but sometime in life unpleasant things should also be done...things which would not be good for ourselves...but he couldn't tell her he signed with disappointment

"can i ask u something??" sapna asked breaking the long cold silence...seeing he nodded she once again thought while looking at the dark black clouds, does she had a right to ask him such a personal question and how would he feel after listening to it...as she glanced at him she felt she should go ahead..."do u still love ridz?? And now that maya is not there anymore would u like to get back to her??"

after a min or two silence he finally looked up at the sky n answered back as he thought of saying things which he was thinking from the movement he meet her once again "i do love her but i dont think we can get back"

glancing at her shock look he continued "i mean two yrs is long sapna...things have changed, we r not teenagers who have no responsibly and priority...we have over the time changed too" sapna nodded thinking with time they have changed, become more mature n started thinking more about heir loved ones

"n we have some people around us whom we love more...i love minnee more, i have some responsibly towards her, i know im not her real father but i swear i never thought she is not my blood...she is my part of my life, something which is the very precious to me" sapna nodded anjali had mentioned her about armaan n minnee's sweet relationship once or twice when she had a talk with her on phone n once when she visited her n amit at bangalore

"plus ridz has her parents and AA whom she loves may be more than me...and they hate me, they are right, i deserve their hate rate...if we get back together, few people may not approve and dislike too which i don't want plus u know...i...i feel some relation don't have fairy tale relationship, ours is one of them" he signed...this is wat he is explaining himself from past few days

"i understand" she smiled n said...while thinking somewhere he was right...life is definitely not that easy as we think plus something happen for good only, 'may be some people meet for a while only' she signed

seeing she looked lost in some deep thoughts armi kept thinking wat it could be??...finally coming up with some pts he questioned her "u must be thinking i still love ridz then wat about maya, didn't i love her??"

as sapna tried to answer she wasn't thinking that she heard him explaining "actually to be frank i did love her...yea the love was different, i mean we were never like normal husband-wife...we never loved each other that way...but u know we did love each other...loved each other more than friends and less than a lover"

sapna smiled listening to armaan n then looked at a photo frame...frame in which her n maya's photo n was written FRIENDS FOREVER... placed on one of the shelf, in the hall...she sat there for an hr listening to him patiently...as armaan told her maya fought with him countless times when she got to know he loved someone else, asked him to go back to the person he loves, asked him to divorce her but he never did...how maya died with cancer...in that one hr sapna noticed few tears in his eyes sometimes and sometimes smile on his lips but no trance of complains from god for whatever he gave him

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the love of my life is just like a sun to me...and the distance between us is equal to the distance between human being n sun

the place where he lives is quite far for me, its impossible to go there

if all i reach there ever i will burn myself and most importantly burn people around me

people who r soo close to me...people who mean world to me...with whom i lived from birth and from whom i knew wat life is...i can't burn them for my selfish needs

thats y all i can do is see him from far, let his shadow fall on me

i know his shadow also will do wonders in my life...and im happy to see him again in my life

im happy with wat im getting rather than asking for more

  -DAIRY PG 96

Laying on rocking chair she smiled and closed her dairy

closing her eyes she remembered one of her past day...the day when everything between her and armaan changed...the day when her life took a turn which wasn't pleasant and welcomed by her...day which made her realize she was in love but she will never find him besides her

**FLASHBACK STARTS**

remembering nainital and corbet trip that too only with him she smiled...remembering how they were enjoying with each other despite knowing soo less about each other...remembering how in few days she felt this is guy i always thought of she smiled silently thanking sapna for bringing her here but

still confused is she in love with him?? How can she be in such a short span of time?? This cannot be love may be its liking?? or may be love?? No love is a big thing

after fighting a battle inside one thing she understood something is surely there but couldn't compensate her feeling...is it love or liking??

playing the music high she smiled at the beautiful day which would soon turn a unpleasant day...a day in which she would come face to face with harsh reality...a day in which she will get understand her feeling...

as she walked outside the room after a shower she spotted armaan-amit talking...looking serious...talking seriously which seemed to unlike...last few days she never saw him soo serious...soo tense

out of blue she decided of something which she never did and didn't knew y she is doing today...standing there silently she was now listening to their serious chat while hiding behind the small white pillar

"i don't know...i...i can't understand...wat is wrong...wat is right...is it liking or love i dont know" armi said while holding his head in his hand trying 2 get wat is happening 2 him

amit looked at his old friend...who was soo confused regarding his feeling...he smiled seeing the guy he sweared never 2 fall in love has finally bowed down...finally was in love

"u love ridz armaan" he heard amit n smiled, he knew amit knew him better...he knows him soo well, his frame of mind and heart...sometime he fails to understand himself but amit never fails

as amit's words fell on her ears she didn't knew how to react...unknowingly she smiled and blushed but still doubted her own feeling

armi frowned as something knocked his senses "i think ur right...i love her but"

"but i can't tell this too anyone not even her" his heart ached thinking he will never be able to utter these words to her...looking at amit sadly he continued "after 8-10 days im getting married"

listening 2 his last few words she felt emptiness inside...as if some1 jus took her precious belonging 4m her...a pt her has jus left her in middle of no way...

"i know but u don't maya" amit couldn't help but reason out

"yea but i can't ditch her...she has only me...how can i...i can't do this to her...she lost vivek first...she has just coped from this loss...now she will never be able to bear another...she will die" he tried 2 make amit understand or rather make himself understand...convince himself his decision is right...but saw he failing inside but also felt a determination 2 convince himself...2 make himself understand the reality

"but armaan"

"nahi amit...i can't do this to her and u know the reason" amit signed he knew after maya lost her husband vivek she lost her senses...she was living for her daughter minnee only...just for her daughter...by fate minnee always saw his dad in armaan that's y armi-maya had decided to marry...after thinking and arguing for an yr finally maya agreed for this marriage...agreed to marry to one of his friend

in one day she got everything...happiness that the person she loves, loves her too...sadness that the person she loves, cannot be hers all her life...

after listening to their conversation she finally got her answer...answer which she failed to get this morning...answer to was she in love or just liking??...when the learnt the harsh reality...when she learnt he wasn't hers...she felt she was torn inside...her heart sinked...died thousand death...that movement she got her answer...she was in love

**FLASHBACK ENDS**

PART 6

relationships, feeling is always ruled by heart and soul not by mind

they r not like water...it can't takes shape in whatever mould u put it into

but it is like a river who makes his away on his own, u have no control on it and no one can stop feeling n relationship to reach its destination

 -DESTINY'S DAIRY  (lolz this time no ridz's dairy, but destiny, fate's dairy)

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sapna signed out from the office after her first flight from mumbai base was over...

glancing at ridz while she signed in for her flight mumbai-shrinagar which was with armaan she remembered armi's last words few night before "i never regretted my derision of marrying maya...and she is still alive in my life somewhere or somehow...ridz is a nice gurl she should marry a nice guy who deserves her and  her love too"

was he right that she should settle down with someone else? was this only in their destiny, When they r still in love with each other? y can't they get back together?

hearing ridz cried out "ooo no now wat will i do" she turned back 2 present world back 4m her the world of thoughts, confusion...as she turned to see her, she saw her sitting with a drained out expression as if she just got into a biggest problem

"i just got a call from rahul that he wants to meet up dunno y" she heard her saying in a tensed  voice as if she is trying 2 understand y suddenly he wants 2 meet her

"wat u told him?"

glancing at her watch she reminded herself she has a long day...long flight she should better hurry n think about these problem rahul later "i told him i will meet him tomorrow as i have off tomorrow" she answered while taking hold of her bag, giving a assuring smile n walking out of the office

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walking on the lonely streets of shrinagar she looked at him after looking around for a brief time, finally speaking after a long silence "u know sapna is back to mumbai?"

smiling at her he nodded while remembering sapna and her conversation, "she came to my place for dinner a couple of days ago"

he continued without thinking once also "she was talking about"

cursing himself mentally as realization stuck him he quickly asked leaving his previous words in middle of no way "u wanna walk back as it is quite late"...silently praying he succeeds in covering sapna's topic

as his words registered she smiled sadly at his discomfort, as she always felt whatever path they choused was right and there is NO REGRET within them and definitely NO COMPLAIN from each other or god...today they r indeed happy with wat they have, "firstly can u plz complete ur first sentence and secondly im don't wanna back, just feel like walking more ahead" she completed while smiling warmly

"about us...ahh...i mean just like that only...that...that working together is not a problem naa" noticing his discomfort and awkwardness...n the way he was looking ahead n not at her while saying this she wondered where their relationship heads?? Will there always be this discomfort road block between them??...the thought continuous played inside her while they continued walking

finally thinking of talking openly rather than they keep bottling stuff inside themselves she smiled n informed him after seeing still his posture was saying how weird he is feeling inside "she asked me the same question, the actual question, not the one u made up right now"

finally looking at her, but looked taken back by her answer, "ahh...k"

after thinking for the 10th time in past few secs he finally decided to pope the question as he couldn't resist himself from popping the question "n wat u said?" he asked with a curious look but then quickly added "if u dont feel like answering its fine"

seeing she shook her head and indicated i don't mind answering, he looked forward keenly to listen to her part of thoughts "i said the fact, that things have changed, one can't just one day get up n take hold of past, start mixing past with present for his own selfish needs"

he smiled as he analyzed they were more or less thinking on the same lines...same grounds

'but wat kind of relationship they have currently?' was the same question which rang inside them that movement

"but we can be friends, friends forever naa??", she smiled n nodded in agreement to his question which was the solution to the question which was ringing inside her

looking ahead she asked or rather informed him "we will take things as they come, right now we can be good friends"...seeing he nodded she smiled with a certain relief

but the million dollar questions at that movement which they never thought was: is friendship the end to their incomplete love life or it is a starting to complete their incomplete love life??

Wat relationship fate had written for them, friendship OR love??

Perhaps only time can answer these question...may be two people may come together with me or they will live this incomplete life forever happily like today

"the weather is soo good naa, i love cold weather"  rubbing her hands he heard her exclaiming, a smile poured on his lips unknowingly seeing she still loved cold weather

as his eyes fell on the small ice-cream stall he smiled remembering how they used to have ice-cream in chilled weather of nainital n delhi while sapna n amit used to have coffee to warm them, "ice-cream?" he tilted his head as he asked her but saw her beaming with delight before he could ask seeing the stall

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Ridhima sat in her hotel room after a long flight and long walk...hearing her phone ringing she picked up..."hello angie...im fine...no the weather here is bad soo we r still in shrinagar...our flight is postponed for mostly tomorrow"

"oh thats sad...im glad armaan is with u, or else i would be soo worried for u" she smiled as she analyzed the trust angie has on armaan through her words n soft tone, "by the way our surprised got spoiled" angie sadly continued

"surprise??" she asked as she was blank with the about the surprise thing...simply had no idea wat surprise was and for whom

as she remembered she forgot to tell ridz about armaan's surprise she mentally cursed herself becoz she just hated if anything related to her ridz didn't knew, finishing cursing enough she found her voice back "Tomorrow is armaan's birthday soo i and atul were planning to surprise him at 12, tonight"

"wat happ ridz?" she questioned seeing she didn't respond from past bunch of long seconds

looking back from the calendar to her mobile phone she answered back while feeling bad as she forgot his birthday and questioning herself who could she forget it, just how could she???..."nothing angie, don't worry i will surprise him here from urs and atul's side"

after awhile chatting with angie a little more absent mindedly she laid down while questioning herself with the same question endless time 'well perhaps suddenly meeting him made me forget everything even his own birthday...the day which i celebrated all alone last two yrs' she finally came up with a raw answer which was little easy to digest

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walking inside his room, "happy birthday to u" she sang while clapping her hands...letting her hands mingle with her soft n sweet voice...

letting her heart smile as warmly as it could becoz she felt soo happy today...wishing him on his birthday was a dream come true, a dream which she thought would never come true but today seeing it actually happened, her heart was over joyed

as she appeared infront of him he smiled mouthed "thanks" but deep down his heart rolled down little tears remembering his wife maya who sang the birthday song for him last two yrs in the similar manner...a part of his heart was very happy to see ridz but a part was sad too as he couldn't be able to see maya on his special day of his life infact he couldn't be able to see her forever

"no formality in friendship" saying she sat on the cough next to him but suddenly feeling his shoulder, bare arms brushed hers she shifted her weight little away keeping enough room between them

noticing her shifting act he smiled and woke up from this inbuild conversation back to the reality...deciding to speak up to cover sudden discomfort, "departure for tomorrow morning at 9 is fixed, just now i received the call from office"

nodding at him she smiled as she just felt a little better and more comfortable "i couldn't find a cake at the hotel's restaurant in such a small span of time sorry...that's y i brought this"

as she handed him a box of pastries he smiled "its k u don't need to say sorry n thanks for the this"

as they finished their share of pastries they looked at the clock displaying 12:30..."u miss maya?" she asked looking at him keenly, couldn't understand y suddenly she wanted to know this answer and y she expected him to answer her without questioning her too...y she popped this question right now, today...all she could understand was this answer she needed and its important

looking up at her he stared at her to look up for this sudden question but all he understood or found out was a confused expression...understanding she herself was confused at her sudden action or rather question he smiled n shaking his head he decided to answer "yea i do" looking at her he tried to find did she felt bad knowing he did miss her but seeing her smiling warmly, happily he smiled back n continued "we were two yrs together soo im bound to get attached to her, i did love her but little differently...and i miss her badly"

noticing her smile had widened he smiled broadly

a little more happiness filled inside her as she heard him becoz this is what answer she thought she could receive plus she still felt his love around her...covering her still

 PART 7

Let yourself fly...fly like a free bird in this huge sky...huge world

let ur feeling free while flying, soo ur mind is free from all the long hrs of thinking

relax, enjoy take things as they come...just don't think much...just keep flying, enjoying

this huge world has loads of things to give u...take them as he gives u...don't think much...take things as they come, as sooner or later DEFINATELY u will get ur dues

just fly like a free bird in this huge sky...huge world

-ridz dairy's pg 89

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"so?" she asked titling her head to look at the moon and dark clouds was now making a move...or making room for sun to shine and pearl white clouds to merge with mountains covered with snow

"soo wat?" he asked seeing her smiling as her eyes were now looking outside...welcoming the new morning

"becoz of this so so continuous dialog i will get late...im leaving now...i need to get ready as i have to report before u Mr pilot" she laughed n got up realizing the time...teasing him, addressing him like before she used to...like two yrs ago

seeing her laughing n addressing like before he smiled n got up too... announcing to her, "i think i will catch up some sleep or else the pilot will only fall off to sleep in the middle flying the plane"

"i think the 8-10 coffee we had over night will help us to stay awake" she said as she walked towards the door waving a bye sign to him while a different smile was shining on her lips today...a smile which said she is feeling lighter...which said she is satisfied with the way things r shaping out...smile which said everything yet nothing

as he laid on his bed after she left he thought of the main events of yesterday n last night...the walk, the 3 ice-creams they had while chatting about atul-angie...the little surprise she gave him by appearing at 12 with pastries...lastly whole night they spent chatting non-stop...

they chatted about everyone n everything plus decided they will take things as they come, right now they r better as friends but in future IF with the flow, with the time things are less complicated n if they feel things which they had wrapped long ago can be unwrapped they will be again together...smiling he ended the pouring of thoughts in his mind...

n within seconds he doze off with the same smile she carried while walking out of his room...feeling somewhere good inside after all it was the first time he chatted soo much after maya died, after maya she was the one only one with whom he would chat soo much...with whom he could pour his heart out

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seeing her leaning on the wall next to the main door of his house he smiled while he received the birthday wishes from AA, muskaan, sapna who were standing with her

"come on in" he smiled welcoming his surprise guests or rather friends

as she had the last bite of the tempting dish she declared firmly, "armaan i must say any gurl will droll over u...u look hot, have a awesome nature and most importantly ur amazing cook"

hearing her ridz looked at him flashing muskaan thanking smile but looking slightly uncomfortable with the open statement but silently she nodded...becoz she felt muski was certainly right

"agreed muskaan...any gurl actually hang on" eyeing atul from the corner of her eyes she continued "even i would if i wouldn't have been married...right ridz any gurl would drool over him naa??" as she finished she looked at ridz for a support to her statement as she loved teasing her husband

"ohh i wish u would have meet angie before me u see then i would have been enjoying my life rather than...u know wat i mean" he chucked as he left his words hanging letting angie figure out the rest...hearing atul ridz felt relieved, as indirectly he rescued her

"someone is jealous...anyways ridz u tell me isn't armaan better than atul...a perfect life partner material"

"no one is perfect angie right ridz??" atul interrupted once again but this time made matter worse for her n she could sense the worst matter...'whom should i agree? N wat would be the after effects? what would he think if i said yes? Or if i said no?' a series of question rang at the door step...the consequences scared her

while he jus couldn't wait for her answer but somewhere he shouldn't stop curiosity  which was building inside him

as she thought more she finally decided 2 answer in a diplomatic manner as she didn't wanted 2 hurt both ie atul-angie...she refused 2 favour any1 in her mind, she jus couldn't do it "ahh well actually...guys i...ah i meet him few days ago only naa soo how can i say...i mean...i know very less about him naa"

as her words registered inside him he smiled as he understood she wasn't ready 2 hurt AA or rather did not wanted 2 be stuck between AA...he chucked seeing how stuck she was in between them..."u mean he is bad" angie looked from atul 2 armi n finally settled her eyes on ridz waiting 2 see how diplomatic her next statement will be

shaking her head she signed while her mind ran 2 find rescue ways...ways of rescuing  her from this uncomfortable movement, "no i didn't mean that actually he is nice...ah i need water, i will be bak" seeing her walking towards the kitchen AA looked at each other 4 a brief movement after noticing armi's silent smile

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As they sat in the living room to play truth n dare to pass some time off after they decided to stay over the night at his place only

seeing armi sitting comfortably on the couch she smiled unknown to the true intention of AA behind playing this game

leaning on the wall angie sat comfortably on the floor, looking at armi and  atul who were sitting together on the couch she stated "ok here i go since we r not kids anymore we r not going to sit around the bottle n spin it again and again"

seeing ridz was laughing at how she said she shook her head hitting her arm playfully "don't see me like this n stop laughing...k so one truth or dare has to be attempted by everyone" as she completed saying she saw sapna, muskaan sitting opposite to her nodding in agreement

"k lets start with the birthday guy...wat say?" sapna suggested while looking at armi to ridz who was laying on angie's lap...thinking about them n angie

"kool...k armaan im sure u will take dare soo i can sing while u play the guitar...yea minnee told me u play guitar very well n how dare u hide such a talent"

shaking his head he laughed at angie who said everything in one breath n didn't even let him choose between truth n dare and on top of it she declared the news to everyone which only ridz knew among his friends, not even sapna or amit "k...chill man...im on"

as he started playing with the guitar's strings she felt he was touching or rather playing her long lost chords of her heart too and producing a melody of effervescent love

You say u want to be just friends,

But do u mean goodbye?

Is that the easy way to end

The wish without the way?

listening the words of the song, they felt soo connected...soo related...last night long walk chat came flooding back within seconds

You owe me nothing, as i owe

Myt equally, and yet

There's something in the undertow

I cannot just forget.

"did angie know about them?...is the song just a coincidence?" they wondered

There's something lovely like a song

That's waiting to be heard,

Or like the feeling that belongs

to some unspoken word.

And so with u i cannot simply smile and stay aloof.

seeing the tense look on her face he mouthed "no ofcourse not ridz" but somewhere down the lane he tried to convince himself too

I take the risk of asking frankly

lets get back baby

o plz lets get back

lets complete our incomplete life

our incomplete relationship

after convincing herself very hardly for a long time she smiled at him noticing lines of worry, concern etched on his face plus was glad as the song ended too

as time flew muskaan attempted her dare, ridz was the next person to play her game...while muskaan dare turned out to be a horrible experience she wished hers turns out to be a good one...remembering muski had to cook something for the first time in her life as a dare she laughed...as she remembered how immediately the dish was thrown by them she silently laughed more

"hmmm soo ridz" hearing atul she walked back from her thoughts n looked at atul slightly sacred thinking wat dare he has thought for her "k u have to tell us most important people to u after ur parents ofcourse...that too in order of importance in ur life...u know rate them" she shook her head in protest hearing atul's dare for her, as this was worst than ever, she last thing she thought of n wanted to do...while armi, sapna n muski chucked curiously

"u can't deny" angie stated looking at her with no sympathy at all

"hmmm k...let me think...first AA ofcourse" as she continued she looked at armi, "no one can beat them" seeing him smiling n not feeling bad regarding her choice n statement she smiled back

"second...hmmm u all know him...he is always after AA but before others too" as she finished she noticed AA frowning n armi smiling, a mixed smile, a mix of sadness n happiness, all she could do or rather did was passing a smile which said she is happy n has no hard feeling, "third sapna n muskaan, i can't choose between them...fourth my darling friend cum long lost brother amit"

"ah im first yippee" seeing atul hugging her she smiled...'ofcourse they were first after all they did everything for me, things which no one could ever do, they did that too and...and he will not feel bad i think...i hope' she said inside her, just to herself

as the game went on...sapna as a dare called amit, yelled at him for no reason scaring him at 1 in the night...angie sang song for atul...armaan kept glancing at ridz who slept on angie's lap on the floor

thinking may be she must be tired becoz of long flight n lack of sleep the night before he requested to call off the day

as he started getting up explaining atul the sleeping arrangement he heard angie calling him, diverting his attention to her he heard her saying in a humble tone "armaan...ridz is in a deep sleep can u carry her till room...i mean atul can't he is such a...ahh forget it, he can't pick me how will he pick ridz?"

hearing her he felt his mind frozen...unable to respond to her request as somewhere he could neither refuse nor accept

noticing she was really in deep sleep he felt they shouldn't wake her up now...considering he is the last option to transport her to the bed he signed but couldn't judge his inside feeling that movement...thinking 2 judge them later on taking a deep breath he spoke up "ahh...well...ohhk angie"

as he scooped her up in his arms like a child he smiled...as he never thought he could see her again in his arms, he smiled broadly letting his dimples visible like never before

leading to the room where muskaan n she was going to stay for the night he kept his eyes still on her...trying to read her thoughts, unspoken words...trying to judge y she was smiling in her deep sleep as he picked her up...trying to fill himself with the warmth he felt as he picked her...trying to live the movement completely as he watched her in awe...trying to do all the above things together, at once

as he laid her on the bed he noticed her hands had tightly grasped his shirt like one holds the sheet in deep sleep sometime...but indirectly she was holding him too close for his comfort

freeing himself from her grip he felt like dropping a kiss on her forehead just to say indirectly he still somewhere loves her but the guilt still runs inside him...inside his blood...inside his heart, soul...however hard he tries he just can't get out of it

resigning himself from the line of thoughts and instead of dropping the affection kiss on her forehead he just squeezed her hand while wishing to the almighty "may u find ur true soul mate soon who makes u sit on cloud of happiness forever as u belong there only"