Chapter 10 Matured

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I had lots of doubts on whether to post this part or not. This part involves discussion on sex so marking it as mature. 

~10~

It had been a pretty hectic day. With 3 team dance competitions coming up and 4 new students appearing for individual rounds, she had literally been on her feet the whole day. She was tired and so had gone for a warm shower after dinner. As she came out of the shower, she saw him sitting on the bed gazing at her. She gave him a small smile as she sat on the bed. He pulled her towards him and nuzzled his nose against her neck.

"Hmmmm... My favorite shower gel...."

Slowly he moved her suit off her shoulder and placed a wet kiss there. She shivered at his touch. As he started trailing kissed down her neck, she closed her eyes trying hard not to show her emotions.

With Mr. Shah it had always been like that. She could never be vocal about her emotions. Whether she liked it or not if he wanted sex, they would have it. Many times she had faked pleasure to please him. If by any chance she would refuse or show her discomfort, he would be very angry. He always refused to hear her and over time she had gotten used to it. Sex had been more of a duty to her husband than pleasure for her.

"Anu..."

Her eyes shot open to see him looking at her intently.

"What's wrong?"

"Woh... sorry... sorry I was... did I do something wrong or say something? Why did you stop... I..."

He gave a small sigh and pulled her suit back up. He took her hand in his and looked into her eyes.

"Anu... I can see you are not in the mood..."

"I... uh... sorry I will try... I... u continue..."

"Anu look at me... it is absolutely fine if we don't have sex. You know that right?"

"Woh... woh... I didn't mean to... I"

"Anu?"

He pulled her into a hug and she held on to him tightly. Slowly she started talking 

"Anuj... I am sorry..."

"Why?"

"You were in the mood and I spoilt it. I.. uh... I am really very tired today and I didn't feel like... uh.. sorry... sorry.."

He pulled away from her and held her by her shoulders. 

"Listen Anuj's Anupama. Never ever feel sorry for what you feel. Understand?"

"But... I..."

"No buts Anu... someday I may be the one who is tired and you may be the one wanting sex. Would you want me to feel guilty?"

"No... how..."

"We have sex for our pleasure... we love each other and sex is a way of showing our love just like a hug or a kiss is. If at any time any of us don't feel like showing love in that way, then we can show it in a different way. I just want you to be vocal about this, Anu just like you would say no to any random thing you don't like. I love you in every possible way. Just because you don't want to have sex on a particular day, my love will neither grow less nor will it die."

She wiped the tears that had formed in her eyes and took his hand to her lips. She placed a loving kiss on his hands.

"Thank you..."

He smiled and said

"Don't bore me yaar... it's late... let's sleep."

As they lay down on their bed, he felt her roll close to him and place her head on his chest. He looked at her with an eyebrow raised. She just shrugged, hugged him tight and whispered 

"My way of saying I love you..."