Chapter 15

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Chapter Fifteen

Asad was rooted on the same spot, when he came to know about the real truth of Zoya's presence in Bhopal. The only thing which dragged her to Bhopal was her identity, her parents. He became numb and his feet automatically hurtle him off from the door of Zoya's room. He was pushing himself with faltered feet being aghast.

Asad entered inside his room, the very first place which he found to throw himself, being numb. He put the pizza box aside, and dropped himself on the bed with a thud. Zoya sliding on the heavily rushed road with the feeling of losing everything which belonged to her was portraying in front of his eyes constantly.

He closed eyes when, the curt and bitter words he spilled out for Zoya in the past were started echoing in his ears, from the day he met to her till yet.

"First learn, what the manners and shame are...then talk!!"

"Khuda ney use tumhari Shaql se Nawaaza hai, par uski battein , ...nahi wo meri Aseemah jesi kabhi ho hi nahi sakti."

"Na kapde pehanne ki tameez hai na baat karne ki tehzeeb. Aisi badtameez aur Azzadkhayal ladkiyon se sakht nafrat hai mujhe."

"Ms. Farooqui. Mujhe ye kehne mein koi hesitation nahin hogi, that from the day you have entered in my house. I don't like you."

"Sab apki fault hai Ms. Farooqui, jabse aap iss ghar mein ayi hain tab se sab bigad ke rakh diya hai apne"

"What the hell were you doing? Itni irresponsible kaise ho sakti hai aap"

"Aap ke jaisi irresponsible ladki maine aaj tak nahi dekhi."

 

Asad's own statement and exasperation was kept echoing in his ears and a fresh lone tear drop fell down from his closed eyes and destined to the floor. He opened his eyes which became red and moist with tears of regret.

Now, he came to know that why tears did decide, Zoya's as their destination when Dilshad used to pamper and love her children. Why she became so attached to Dilshad, merely in few days. Why she was so eager to know about to that haveli and its reality. Why her heart shrinked after knowing the haveli's owner's name. Why she chose the path of the heavily rushed road.

Because she was an alone soul!! The soul, which was craving for the love, care and most importantly her identity!!

Asad, after a long time wasn't aware with his surroundings, all about which he was aware, was Zoya and his regret to hurt that poor girl of an ALONE SOUL.

He pressed his lips to control the tears when Zoya's conversation with Anwar. Asad's heart was paining at her every tear and his allegation on her as someone would have pierced it with a knife and then twisted it.

He was shocked that the chummy, chirpy and childish guest of his house, Zoya Farroqui was living her life, hiding her pain inside her soul and was showering happiness in the whole house with her childish behavior.

How is it possible? How can someone live a happy life with such a bitter truth and pain?

This was the only question which was echoing in his mind. Suddenly, his eyes fell on the veiled photograph, hanged in front of his eyes. He step his feet forward and unveiled Aseemah's photograph.

All what came to his mind was, if the girl of an ALONE HEART was living her life, veiling all her pain and emptiness inside her heart, then why he didn't. Why was he spending, no correction, why was he dragging all his life in the regret of the fault which even didn't belong to him? Why his soul died, 3 years back?

Indeed, Zoya was living a life of ALONE SOUL, but she at least had a soul. She never stopped living her life and died after knowing the truth, In fact she decided to live the life, in the same way as she was to find herself and her identity.

He shuffled his hairs and tears rolled down from his eyes. He kept wiping the tears but they were flowing constantly. He cursed himself for everything, and started moving backward.

He cursed himself to hurt Aseemah's SOUL who always wanted his happiness! He cursed himself to make his mother cry and suffer! He cursed himself to show his pain to his little sister!! He cursed himself to hurt Zoya and alleged her!

His cursed himself to not live a life, but to drag it!! He cursed himself and kept cursing!!

Asad was suffocating heavily and fell on the floor on his knees. He kept crying and crying the lone tears. He found the support of a wall and rested his back on it. He was hugging his knees under the warmth of regret.

But a familiar voice grabbed his attention and Asad lifted his eyes up from the knees to know, the voice belonged to whom. He look here in there but no one was there.

And suddenly, the voice came again, "Hey! Bro here I am!"

Asad looked in the direction of voice, which was in his right, on the mirror of his dressing area. He keenly observed the face, which was on the mirror. The man to whom the voice belonged was looking his perfect replica.

Asad creased his brows in astonishment and look here and there again, to observe, was someone else was there? But no, no one was there, except him and his mirror reflection that was completely different from him.

 Asad rubbed his eyes and whispered, "Who are you?"

"Me?", the impression laughed and answered back, emphasizing each and every word clearly, "Asad Ahmed Khan!!"

"Tum kaise Asad Ahmed Khan ho sakte ho. Wo mera naam hai", Asad asked in confusion.

"Don't temme that you really think that", the self impression sarcastically said.

Asad closed his eyes but the self-impression said, "Tum Asad bas naam ke ho, pehchan to meri hai", and smiled.

Asad asked with confusion, "Why are you here?"

"Hmmm! Tumne bulaye aur hum chale aye", the impression sung the song and winked.

But the impression continued himself, "Well! Badi der se yaad kiya! Poore 3 saal baad"

"Maine? When I called you? I didn't", Asad replied back to him.

"Arey! Abhi to bulaya. Regret aur guilt mein sahi. Bulaya to", the impression said.

"Ho kaun tum? And why are you here?", Asad yelled and chocked in between.

"Asad! I'm your soul. To whom you killed 3 years back. I'm your part which was buried by you only, with Aseemah. I'm that ALONE SOUL!!", the mirror impression said his reality to Asad.

"But now, whether with guilt or regret, At least you realized your crime", the impression kept muttering.

And finished itself, "And there is nothing greater than realization"

Asad laughed at his own condition which was created by him only and replied back, "Badi der kar di maine bulate bulate"

"I've not only killed you! I'm constantly hurting my Ammi, My siblings!! And now that poor girl...she also suffered just because of me", Asad said with moist eyes and regret.

The mirror impression in white shirt and a pair of denims, crossed his hands on the chest and said, "Baat to sahi hai, lekin khud ko saza dene se apni galti sudhar to sakte nahi tum"

"Sabko saza di hain maine. Ansu diye hai maine ab is guilt mein rehna hi meri saza hai", Asad replied back and a lone tear fell from his eyes.

"Really? Matlab ab aur saza doge sabko?", the mirror impression asked quizzically.

Asad asked with confusion, "Matlab?"

"Matlab! Do you really think, if you punish yourself it will not punish your Ammi and siblings?", the mirror impression questioned Asad, arching his brow.

"You know what it will equally punish them. And Zoya!! She is already dealing with her own pain, use is wajah se saza mile na mile, but tumhari help se uska pain zaroor kam ho sakta hai", the mirror impression expressed his views to Asad.

"History repeats itself. 3 saal pehle bhi mujhe maara tha...abhi bhi mera gala ghotoge mere bhai", the mirror impression chuckled.

"What should I do?", Asad queried.

The mirror impression shrugged, "Simple hai. Go and start living, not just dragging the life, with died soul...Just like Zoya!!"

Asad shifted his eyes to the floor and tried to consider the suggestion of his impression or the soul and quickly shifted his eyes to the mirror but the impression, it has disappeared.

Asad pressed his lips and think over it.

Few Hours Later

Zoya was sitting on the floor, resting her back on the bed, hugging her legs and her chin was resting on her knees. Her pale face and the dry lines of tears could easily be noticed by anyone. The room was filled with silence, but her eyes were asking the same question constantly, "Why only me!!"

She was not in her senses but something grabbed her attention. It was a sound of strings of guitar. She opened the door of her room to follow that mesmerizing sound of guitar strings, which was coming from the living area.

Zoya followed it and finally reached the leaving area. She came to know that the strings were playing by none other than Asad Ahmed Khan, which was quiet unexpected by her. But he was facing his back to her and when he realized she was there Asad shifted his face towards her.



Asad started humming with a smile and looking at her. She was surprised would be an understatement, she was shocked, with his behavior.

Ooh ooh, ooh ooh, ooh ooh, ooh ooh

Asad started singing in soft voice, while playing the guitar, which made her eyes moist with her scars of reality.

Zindagi ki yehi reet hai
Haar ke baad hi jeet hai
Zindagi ki yehi reet hai
Haar ke baad hi jeet hai

The lone tears started following the path of the floor. But seeing Zoya's tears, Asad felt something was piercing his heart and he turned his back.

Thode aansu hai, thodi hasi
Aaj gham hai to kal hai khushi
Zindagi ki yehi reet hai
Haar ke baad hi jeet hai
Thode aansu hai, thodi hasi
Aaj gham hai to kal hai khushi

She kept crying constantly; as the lava which was breathing inside her was trying to break his chain which moist Asad's eyes.

Zindagi ki yehi reet hai
Haar ke baad hi jeet hai

A lone tear fell from his eyes realizing his own pain too and the pain with which she was dealing and which he gave to her.

Zindagi raat bhi hai, savera bhi hai zindagi
Zindagi raat bhi hai, savera bhi hai zindagi

Zindagi hai safar aur basera bhi hai zindagi
Zindagi hai safar aur basera bhi hai zindagi



Asad came near her tried to explain the fact of life, and while putting his guitar aside, he caress her tears which she noticed.

Ek pal dard ka daanv hai
Dusra sukh bhari chhaaon hai
Har naye pal naya geet hai
Zindagi ki yehi reet hai
Zindagi ki yehi reet hai, zindagi ki yehi reet hai

The tears flowed from their eyes, and Zoya was amazed that why and how this man was familiar with her pain. 

Gham ka baadal jo chhaaye to hum muskuraate rahe
Gham ka baadal jo chhaaye to hum muskuraate rahe

Apni aankhon mein aashaaon ke deep jalaate rahe

But these lines of Asad's confirmed that he was no more unknown to her pain. He too kept singing with moist, as was saying that she has no need to cry anymore.

Aaj bigde to kal phir bane
Aaj roothe to kal phir mane
Waqt bhi jaise ek meet hai
Zindagi ki yehi reet hai

It seemed that as if, Standing in front of her, with the song he was trying to communicate her that, "Everything will be all right, in fact I'll do it"

Zindagi ki yehi reet hai
Haar ke baaz hi jeet hai
Thode aansu hai, thodi hasi
Aaj gham hai to kal hai khushi
Zindagi ki yehi reet hai
Haar ke baad hi jeet hai
Zindagi ki yehi reet hai
Haar ke baad hi jeet hai.

And he with these words of his, the lava of her heart which was drenching her soul bursted out and she knelt down while crying and crying. He too knelt down with her and again caressed her tears with his thumb pads, while nodding his head negatively, as saying, "Don't cry!!"

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A/N: Phew!! Updated Finally. Sorry not proof-read so pardon the mistakes. The comments and Like are decreasing after every update. Hope you all like this one, and If I was good enough to write then Please shower your love in like and comments. 

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-Aditi.2014-12-17 05:01:45