** So I take up the scene from where Shilpa gets to know about AR and tries to make Armaan Happy again While Ridhima is jealous to see them like that and asks Shilpa to stay away from Armaan..Honestly I didn’t like the negative feel of the Ridhima’s character.. DMG creatives made a complete joke of love and marriage in the end.. so I’m changing it here.. Ridhima is happy with Sidhant and respects her marriage and now she promotes Shilpa as she wants Armaan to be happily settled aswell..**
In the Recreation Room..
Shilpa sees Armaan practicing his kick boxing and in turn hurting himself aswell.. she gets teary to see her first love burning in anger and humiliation given to him by her own sister.. without thinking any further she rushed and stood next to him with bottle of water.. she extends her hand softly saying “Bas karo Armaan.. khud ko aur kitna dard doge..?”
He ignores the water saying “Mere dard se kisko farak nahi padta Dr.Shilpa toh aap bhi yahan se jaiye aapki duty khatam ho gayi hai.. ghar jaiye araam kariye..”
“Mujhe farak padta hai..” she fumled and covered up “I mean mujhe aur aapke sab doston ko farak padta hai Dr.Armaan.. yahan aise log hain jinko apke dard se dard hota hai..”
He gave her a sarcastic smile and mocked at her saying“Haan.. sahi baat hai.. sabko farak padta hai.. bas ussi ko nahi padta jisne iss mod par laakar mujhe akela chod diya hai..” he said throwing away the waterbottle in anger..
“Aksar hume gusse mein apne aaspaas ka pyar nahi dikhtaDr.Armaan.. kabhi thande dimaag se sochkar dekhiyega.. kya pata k jis pyar ko aap pichle ek saal se Dr.Ridhima ki aakhon mein dhundh rahe ho voh kahin aur aapka intezaar kar raha ho..” Shilpa softly said and left a confused Armaanbehind thinking “Mujhe tumhari baatein kabhi samajh kyun nahi aati Shilpa..?tumhari nazar kuch aur keh rahi hoti aur tumhare lafz kuch aur..”
He picked up his jacket and left towards the locker room..he was about to enter but he stopped seeing Ridhima and Sidhant there.. he was about to turn and go but when he heard his name he stopped..
“Armaan aajkal bohot zyada disturbed hai.. duty k baad gayab ho jata hai lekin ghar nahi jata.. Dr.Kirti ne aaj usko last warning di hai to resolve his personal matters and get back to normal self..” Sidhant told Ridhima..
“Sab meri galti hai Sid.. har waqt maine Armaan ko voh banana chaha jo voh nahi tha.. ek aisa insaan jo papa ko pasand aaye.. jo zimmedariyon ka matlab samjhe.. aur usne apni zindagi bhul ke meri sharton par zindagi jeena shuru kar diya.. usne mujhse bohot pyar kiya Sid par shayad meri hi taraf se kuch kami reh gayi.. main tumhare saath aage badh gayi Sid parArmaan aaj bhi vahin khada hai aur aaj jab usko zindagi uska khoya pyar lautana chahti hai Dr.Shilpa ki shakal mein.. toh voh usko andekha kar raha hai..”Ridhima said in a shaking tone Surprising Armaan to hell..
“Dr.Shilpa mujhse pyar karti hai..?” Armaan whispered to himself and rushed back home in anger..
Saajan saajan main karun
Mhaaro saajan jeev jadi
Soorat likha doon, jood le
Baachun ghadi ghadi
~~~~~~~~oOo~~~~~~~~
It has been a week that Armaan has come across the fact that Shilpa is in love with him.. all this time he was making sure that she is no where close to him.. even if he sees her in the corridor he walks away in theother direction.. While on the otherhand, his behavior was worrying Shilpa alot.. Even though Armaan was hell bent on pushing her away she kept checks onhis routine in her own way..
It was late at night when both Armaan and Shilpa had night duty.. Armaan sat in his cabin holding his head that was bursting due to restlessness.. He looked up when he saw a steaming mug of coffee in front of him.. his gaze traced the arm only to find a non-plussed Shilpa standing there.. He was surprised to find her there.. “Confusion mein baad mein ghoor lena Dr.Armaan.. Pehle apne dimaag ko thoda rest dijiye..” Shilpa said in asarcastic way placing the mug near his hand..
“Mujhe koi coffee nahi chahiye.. aur aap iss waqt yahan kyakar rahi hai Dr.Shilpa..? aapki night duty toh nahi thi na..?” Armaan said in arude manner..
“last minute night duty maangne se pehle mujhe aapse poochnachahiye tha kya Dr.Armaan..? taaki aap koi bahana banakar ekbaar phir bhaagpaaye..?” she replied in an equally rude manner surprising him..
“main kyun bhaagunga aapse Dr.Shilpa..?”
“Kyunki darte hain aap.. darte hain kisi ke apnepan se.. kisi ke kareeb aanese.. main jaanti hoon ke aapko pata hai ki main aapse pyaar karti hoon.. parmain yeh kehne se aur maan-ne se darti nahi hoon aapki tarah..” Shilpa said asa matter of factly..
“Mere paas iss pyaar vyaar ki bakwaas ke liye bilkul timenahi hai Shilpa.. jao yahan se aur akela chhod do mujhe..” he said in afrustrated tone.. He expected her to retort back or atleast say something butnext moment he froze when Shilpa kept his diary in front of him.. She has veryneatly taped those torn pages with cellotape and made them readable again..
“Pyaar ko aap toh kam se kam bakwaas nahi keh sakte Armaan..jis insaan ne kabhi itna toot ke pyar kiya kisi se ke uske pyaar ke dhoke kiaag mein aajtak jal raha hai voh pyar ko bekaar nahi keh sakta..”
Armaan’s fist tightened as Shilpa said that.. he was feelingmore humiliated rather than angry because Shilpa knew him in and out because ofhis diary now.. He at once pushed back his chair and pulled her by her shoulders and spoke in a dangerous voice “Tumhe kisne haq diya meri zindagi mein dakhal dene ka..? main kisi se bhi pyar kar hi nahi sakta hoon.. naRidhima se kiya tha.. na tumse kar sakta hoon aur na hi kisi aur se.. mujhemere haal par chhod do aur chali jao meri zindagi se..” he jerked her away..She smiled at him and looked at him with tears.. she at once turned and walked towards the door.. She stopped for a moment saying “Pyar karte hain aap.. bas maanenge nahi kabhi kyunki aapko lagta hai ki agar aapne kisi aur se pyar karliya toh aapka pehla pyar chota pad jayega.. aur yeh mujhe kisi diary ne nahibataya..” She turned and looked at him in the eyes saying “I know it Armaan.. I can feel the same.. jis tarah aapke pyar ne aapko thukraya ussi tarah mera pyar bhi mujhe khud se dur kar raha hai.. coffee pikar hi rounds par jaiyega please..”
Armaan thumped into the chair.. he wiped afew tears thatwere threatening to fall any moment.. he was surprised at the depth with whichShilpa understands his every gesture.. He was getting this kind of care and attention for the first time in his life and that scared him.. he was not ableto understand what this feeling was.. if it was love then why didn’t he feel sowith Ridhima.. and if it is just friendship then why was he so scared to acceptit.. “Tum kabhi meri samajh mein nahi aasakti Shilpa..” he said sipping the coffee in confusion and distress..
Mann baawraa hua jaaraha
Kaisi lagan ye lagi
Mujh mein kahin bhi main nahin
Tu hi tu hai mujh mein har kahin
~~~~~~~~oOo~~~~~~~~
Next morning
Armaan was at the nurse station picking up his last file for the day.. He choked onto the water he was drinking when he saw a red rose keptin his file.. He quickly looked here and there and then threw the flower awayinto the dustbin.. He was walking to the ward mumbling to himself “dimaag kharaab ho gaya hai iss ladki ka.. peeche hi pad gayi hai..”
He entered the ward only to be hit by a puff ball.. he sighed seeing her there playing with the children.. seeing him they all stopped at once and walked away to their beds.. Armaan walked to her “Yeh kya mazaak lagarakha hai yahan..?” he asked..
“Children’s ward hai Dr.Armaan.. bache hain mazaak masti toh karenge hi na..” Shilpa quipped and left before he could say anything else..
A few hours later he was walking out of the hospital when he saw Shilpa standing at the entrance on call with someone.. He walked away not looking at her but was surprised when she didn’t do anything to get his attention this time.. he looked at her only to see her busy in a serious conversation with someone.. He got to see a completely new aspect of her personality in the way she was talking on the call..
“aap fikar matt kariye.. mujhe yaad hai ki main sanjeevni mein ek maksad ke saath aayi hoon aur main ab bhi apna sach kisi ko batane keliye taiyaar nahi hoon.. abhi kuch waqt lagega mujhe yahan aur.. aap apna khayaal rakhna kaki..” she said in a very soft and a respectful tone.. Armaan hid himself behind the piller as she turned and walked away..
“Tum mere liye ek mystery banti ja rahi ho Shilpa..” Armaan thought to himself and went to his home to take some rest before his next shift..
Armaan stood at his doorstep with his jaw hanging.. he saw abig bouquet of roses with a small card saying “Inn sabko samhaal ke rakhiyega subah vale rose ki tarah fenk matt dena..” He sighed in frustration and wasabout to kick the flowers but then picked them up and threw them on the sofa inside..
“Har jagah har waqt mere dimaag mein aur meri aankhon keaage rehne lagi hai yeh.. jahan jao ya toh vahan khud hoti ya koi nishaani..aafat hai yeh ladki mere liye..” he said to himself.. and looked longingly atthe kitchen.. he knew he was hungry but was too tired to cook.. he huffed and got up making up his mind to settle for a sandwich and sleep.. but next moment the door bell rang irritating him..
“Kya chahiye ab mujhse kisi ko..” he mumbled and wadded to the door.. he saw a man in red dress standing there.. he confirmed the name and address and left after giving him a food packet.. “Oye.. yeh kisne mangaya hai..? maine toh kuch order nahi kiya..” Armaan called after the guy..
“Pata nahi sir.. paid order hai aapke liye.. shayad kisi ko fikar hogi aapke khane ki..” the man said and left.. Once again Shilpa’s face crossed Armaan’s mind.. he for once thought to throw it away but then it was smelling too gud for him to do that.. he made a face and took the food forhimself.. unknown to him that Shilpa was hiding there looking at his expressions and enjoying his confusion..
Kisi raah bhi main chalu, tujhse hi aake milu..
deedar karke tera taaron ki tarah main khilu..
Khata maaf rabba kare, sajde mein tere jhuku..
teri ek hasi pe yaara bina mol hi main biku..
~~~~~~~~oOo~~~~~~~~
Following week Armaan was sitting in the fire escape recollecting how whole week Shilpa has been making her presence felt around him.. everytime he would hurt himself she would be there to stop him or takecare of him.. unknowingly all week he only thought of Shilpa but the pain inside him was not going away.. one thing that worried him was her serious conversation.. he was confused at her behavior.. one minute she will be all around Armaan chirping and making him happy and the other minute when she is alone shewould cry holding the tiny pendant in her chain.. “Kya maksad hai uska yahan aane ka..? kya dard chhupa rahi hai voh apne andar..?” he asked himself..
He felt a hand on his shoulder but he jerked it away saying“kuch waqt ke liye mujhe akela rehne do Shilpa.. main ab akela baith ke kuchsoch bhi nahi sakta kya..” but next moment he was shocked when he heard RIDHIMA’S voice..
“Toh usne apni jagah bana hi li na tumhari zindagi mein..?”she said smiling..
“Kisne..? tum kya keh rahi ho mujhe kuch samajh nahi aarha..” Armaan fumbledlooking away..
“ussi ki baat kar rahi hoon jiske bare tum soch rahe thhe.. vahi jo tumhari har choti se choti baat ka dhyaan rakhti hai.. vahi jo har waqt chhup chhup ke tumhe dekhti rehti hai.. vahi jisse duniya se yeh kehne mein darr nahi hai kevoh tumhe chahti hai..” Ridhima said as a matter of factly..
Armaan looked at her only to see her in tears.. “Main kuch nahi sunna chahta hoon Ridhima.. tum jao aur khush raho apni shadi shuda zindagi mein.. main samajhta hoon ki tumhare liye kitna hi bada samjhota kyun na ho par tum iss shadi se peeche nahi hatogi.. sid tumhe acha lagna laga haipar tum mere mann mein zabardasti Shilpa ko nahi la sakti..”
“zabardasti kahan Armaan.. voh toh pehle hi tumhare mann mein hai.. Agar hum saath nahi ho paaye Armaan iska yeh matlab nahi ki tum pyar karna hi chhod do.. maine jo kiya uss waqt voh zaroori tha.. shayad yahi kismatthi humari ki hum jeevan saathi nahi balki sirf dost banke rahein.. main galat thi Armaan.. maine tumhe bilkul ek alag insaan bana ke tumse pyar kiya kyunkimain darti thi ke koi kya sochega humare bare mein.. aur ab tum vahi insaan banke reh gaye ho.. tum aise nahi the Armaan.. tumhe zindagi jeena aata tha.. yaadkaro voh 3 saal pehle vala Armaan jo har situation se ladta tha aur jeetna uskiaadat thi..” she sobbed on his shoulder saying “aage badho Armaan.. apni zindagi mein pyar ko aane do.. mujhe iss guilt se azaad kardo ki maine tumhari zindagi barbaad kar di..”
Armaan lightly patted her hand and nodded.. he got up to go,while Ridhima cried to herself feeling the pain and confusion he has been going through..
In the Evening
Armaan was all day long thinking of his conversation with Ridhima.. he realized thatshe was right in a way to say that he was a totally different person now.. he sulk more than he smile now a days.. He smirked at the thought when he compared himself to what Shilpa has been doing around him.. “Voh har ek koshish kar rahi hai ki main uski taraf react karun.. har waqt mere dimaag mein rehne lagi hai..sab kuch vaise hi kar rahi hai jaise main karta tha pehle Ridhima ke liye..” hetold himself and it was then that he realized that she was giving him a taste of his old life.. He shook his head lightly and smiled looking at the plasticlizard hanging onto his locker.. “Itne mediocre pranks toh nahi karta thamain.. huh..” he flipped open his locker and took his stuff..
He was signing the register when he saw that her duty is finished for the day and she has just signed out 5minutes back.. he quickly rushed to the parking to see if she was gone.. seeing her car there he was sureshe was still at sanjeevni.. he asked the wardboy only to be told that Shilpa was at the terrace..
He reached there with heavy steps.. he had many things toclear off before letting anyone into his life now.. he stopped when he saw hersobbing in the corner.. he came by her and kept his hand on her shoulderstartling her..
“Aap iss waqt yahan..?” Shilpa said quickly wiping off her tears hiding her weakness from Armaan.. “Kyun ro rahi thi tum..?” he asked directly..
Not getting any response from her he too settled besides her and looked up in the sky saying “Tum kehti ho ki tum mujhse pyar karti ho.. par bharosa toh bilkul bhi nahi karti na..? har waqt meri zindagi asaan banane ki koshish karti rehti ho.. par aaj tak nahi bataya ki tanhai mein kisko yaad karke itna roti ho..”
She looked at him as if she was seeing a ghost.. there was not an inch of coldness in his voice rather he spoke all that very calmly..“Main nahi bata sakti kisi ko.. bas itna samajh lijiye ke apni buri kismat pe roti hoon..” Shilpa said painfully “Sabke saath hokar bhi akeli hoon.. apno ko apni aankhon ke saamne dekh kar bhi unke gale lag kar mann halka nahi kar sakti..” she completed in trance confusing Armaan like hell..
“Kya matlab..? Pyar na sahi ek dost ki tarah toh bata hi sakti ho na..” Armaan said
“Dost nahi hain aap mere.. usse bohot badhkar hain.. yahan aana meri bhul thi..zindagi ne jo mujhe chheena tha voh vapas lene aayi thi.. par ab choice bohot mushkil ho gayi hai mere liye.. ya toh selfish hokar khud ka sochun ya kisi aur ke baare mein sochkar sab kuch bhul ke chali jaun yahan se chup chaap..” Shilpasaid crying abit..
Armaan quickly held her hand asking “Chali jaogi chup chaapka kya matlab..? tum kahin nahi ja sakti apni internship adhoori chhod kar..”
Shilpa smiled at him sadly saying “Aapko toh khush hona chahiye Armaan.. na main rahungi yahan na aapko koi har waqt pareshaan karega..”
“Mujhe sab sach batao Shilpa.. kyun aayi thi tum yahan aur kyun ja rahi ho.. I.. I just need to know everything.. pagal hota rehta hoon yeh soch kar ki kya gham hai tumhe..” Armaan said in a frustrated tone..
“Parivaar hai yahan mera.. jisko pata bhi nahi ki main zinda hoon ya nahi.. papa ki death ke waqt mujhe pata laga ke meri mamma aur di bhihain kahin iss duniya mein.. ab jab voh mile hain toh sab itna complexed hai ki unse kuch bolne se hi dar lagta hai..” Shilpa said sobbing..
“darne se kya hoga Shilpa jao jaakar unko batao sach.. tumhe kaun nahi apnayega yar.. kaun hain voh batao I’ll come with you..” Armaan said giving her the much needed support..
“aapse nahi hoga Armaan.. jab mujhme hi ab aur ladne kihimmat nahi hai toh..” Shilpa said geeting up “Kal main ja rahi hoon vapas Delhi.. vahin internship bhi karungi..”
Pal.. do pal ki kyunhai zindagi
Iss pyaar ko hai sadiyan kaafi nahi
Toh khuda se maang loon
Mohallat main ek nai
Rehanaa hai bas yahaan
Ab door tujhse jana nahi...
Jo tu mera humdard hai
Suhaana har dard hai
~~~~~~~~oOo~~~~~~~~
Next morning Armaan came to sanjeevni in a hurry he looked terrible as if he has not slept all night.. he quickly ran to Shashank’s office as he knew he would find Shilpa there for the last time.. he sighed of relief when he saw her through the glass door.. he waited impatiently for her to come out and as soon as she stepped out he pulled her to the terrace not listening to her any word of protest..
He stopped when they were on the terrace.. “Pyar ka dawaa karke bhaag rahi ho haan..? mujhe yeh care aur apnapan jata ke dhoka hi diya na tumne bhi..” Armaan said in anger.. “Jahan jana hai jo karna hai karo.. apne parivaar se aur mujhse durr rehna hi tumhari sahi hai tumhare liye Shilpa..”
That led Shilpa to extreme now.. she jerked him away shouting “Kya sahi hai haan..? jaante kya hain aap mere parivaar ke baremein..? meri kismat thi ki mere papa mujhe meri mamma se durr le gaye.. meri kismat thi ki itne saal mujhe kuch nahi pata tha.. meri kismat thi ki jab patalaga toh aate hi sabse pehle main apni hi behen se ladayi kar baithi.. meri kismat hi thi Armaan jo mujhe apni behen ke pehle pyar se hi pyar ho gaya..Haan Dr Armaan Mallik.. Ridhima hi meri behen hai aur nurse Padma meri mamma..ab main apne parivaar ko sach kahun to aapko kho dungi aur yeh sach jaane kebaad vaise hi aap mujhe nahi aane denge apne kareeb main jaanti hoon..”
It all came as a big blow to Armaan.. it took him afew minutes to realize what Shilpa has said.. he looked at Shilpa who was layed onher knees sobbing badly.. and the only question in his mind was “If he was ready to leave everything behind and move ahead with her..” he bent on his knees and hugged her saying “I’m sorry Shilpa.. maine itna hurt kiya tumhe..mujhe farak nahi padta ki tum Ridhima ki behen ho ya nahi.. par main yahan harwaqt usko kisi aur ke saath dekh kar aage nahi badh sakta apni life mein..mujhe bhi apne saath aane do.. ek mauka do mujhe ki main tumhare pyar ko mehsuskar paun..”
Shilpa just hugged him tightly and sobbed in his arms letting out all her pain and taking away his aswell.. It took them afew hours to finally decide and move to delhi together to get hold of their lives away from where they both felt vulnerable.. They both felt weak and incapable infront of Gupta Family to start afresh and shape their new lives together at sanjeevni..So they stepped out and started sticking the torn pieces of their lives together in Delhi..
Noor chaand mein hai naya, Nayi hai fiza mein nami
Tum jo aaye thhe naa meri, Zindagi mein thi har kami
Jab se teri sangat hui Duniya meri jannat hui
Badalne lagi rut jaise Khuda ki ibadah hui
Sajna ve, Sajna ve
Rabba tu hi apna ve
Dekhe mere naina jisey
Tu hi woh sapna ve
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