Confused feelings 🌝🩷, unspoken loved 💔

4 years ago

Mikky

@MidnightLibrary

She continued" I mean not everywhere.. but you should tell me na , we have another meeting on Sunday... This Sunday I thought I'll spend the entire day with Ariyan. As I hardly get any time to spend with him "

Prithvi paused and he understood why she was upset.

" Okay this Sunday we will not have any meeting"

Sanyogita looked at him with a surprise "what???

" I mean yes we have, The meeting will be held Next Monday. Then I was unaware of the fact that you wanted to give time to my best buddy. And I thought you were going with Vishal . ."

Sanyogita cut him in the middle and slipped out in frustration" I don't want to go with that Vishal ..... and I don't like how he approached me since last night " she said out of frustration without caring about what she said and the receiver was none other than her boss.

Prithvi looked at her with twinkling eyes, his heart was jumping with happiness" Sach!!!...

Sanyogita looked at him ..with a Little frown

Prithvi cleared his throat " I mean you don't want to go with him ?but why ?..."he sounded "Ohh alas Attitude, Yet he was curious as well as expecting her to not go with Vishal

" Yes .." Sanyogita nodded her head negatively, she sounded panicked. " I wanted to tell him that I can't meet him on Sunday but he is now our business partner and he is your friend now. So that's why..

" That's why you thought perhaps I will be angry with you if you reject his request. "

Sanyogita glanced at him, she gave him an '" I caught look"

Prithvi chuckled " Sanyogita we are also friends now don't you forget. You can share anything with me. I mean as we are friends. So I should think about my friend's uneasiness too, don't you think so?" "

Sanyogita looked at him with a blank face then suddenly her lips went stretched

Prithvi motioned his eyes on her gorgeous eyes and lips " anyway it's too late.. let's go home"

" But these files aren't complete yet"

"Take this home I'll check it out in 2 days "

Sanyogita looked at him with a gap, unblinking with wide open eyes .

He continued" I shouted at you because I know who is capable. I have lots of expectations from you. This company has expectations from you, you are a talented girl . And besides this, you have to be Harding working too. Jeweler beats metals to give it an extraordinary shape that's why it is kept in the showroom, we always keep those stones in the exhibition after beating because it becomes priceless then. An ordinary stone can't figure out its value. You are a priceless stone for me .. I mean for this company "

Sanyogita glanced at Prithvi with a gap in her mouth, his words developing goosebumps across her spine.

Prithvi gazed at her as if she were. Their eye lock was broken by the sudden entry of Arjun.

In the end, he Dropped Sanyogita at her home.
She bid him bye, and Prithvi left the place.

Sanyogita gazed at the way Prithvi's car faded away. She felt extraordinary today. Prithvi's words reverberate in her brain.

She kept the remaining files in her almirah, and abruptly some letters fell on her legs.

Every night before sleep she read those letters. Tonight she glared at them. Last night she felt guilty after thinking about the party incident when Prithvi was going to kiss her even though she was ready to reciprocate to the same magnitude. With the same devotion, the same willingness.

Sometimes Life is so funny as well as mysterious. Why did she feel so fragile in front of Prithvi? Why couldn't she maintain that rigid sanity in the presence of Prithvi?? Many more boys approached her but she rejected everyone but what happened to her when Prithvi was around her? After the incident last night she was sure enough about his feelings that he was interested in her. And he gave effort every time to win her heart. At first, she misinterprets him but gradually the day he flashes out Trisha in the mall and also saves her from that horny manager, she finds another ambiance within him.

But again she was perplexed. His behaviour sometimes made her confused. What precisely did he want from her? Sometimes he yelled at her. Another moment he showed her concern as if nobody could care for her like him.

She asked herself " what she wanted . she waited for the man for 7 years, the man who she never met, nor even seen. He didn't have a name but she could feel his vibes around her.

She was damn confused now . And last night's incident made her restless.

Today she felt the tension between the two guys. One was Prithvi and another was Vishal Kapoor.

Vishal was interested in her. She could sense that in his approach . He was a good-looking man too, but he was not what her heart was carved for . Yesterday night she made some excuses and was happy when Prithvi asked for her dance before Vishal asked for it. She could have rejected anyone but why was it so difficult with Prithvi? The closer she got to him she thought back to those letters. And felt guilty as if she was betraying her saviour. What would happen when one day she would find him? Although there wasn't any commitment, they didn't make a promise that they would always belong to each other only. But he was there whenever she was in trouble . He came like a saviour and solved her difficulty and vanished in the air. As if he was an Maseeha of God.

Prithvi is nice to her, he made her laugh, he wanted to know her more, sometimes he shouted at her and got angry all of a sudden. But yet he was conscious of her. He was very punctual and serious in his work, he is a workaholic man.

Sanyogita chortle.

It was late at night, she kept her head on the soft pillow. She wondered every night before sleep she used to think about that secret guy. But tonight
There was only one name she had in her mind....
It was her Boss .

**********

Prithvi stood on his balcony, the city's twinkling lights spread before him like a canvas. Sleep eluded him, his mind restless.

His gaze drifted upward, where the moon played a game of hide-and-seek with the clouds. The celestial dance mesmerized him, yet his thoughts remained elsewhere.

His fingers instinctively sought the solitary earring in his pocket. The delicate curve of the metal, the glint of tiny stones, seemed to hold a thousand memories.

As he brought the earring to his lips, a wave of tenderness washed over him. The kiss he bestowed upon it was a gentle benediction, filled with longing.

In that moment, the world narrowed to the contours of the earring, a tangible connection to a past he couldn't shake.

The night air carried the whispers of memories: laughter, tears, and promises. Prithvi's heart swelled, his soul aching with a mix of nostalgia and yearning.

The moon reappeared from behind the clouds, casting an ethereal glow on his face. Prithvi's eyes closed, his thoughts surrendering to the emotions that had haunted him for so long.

Sanyogita's slumber was filled with vivid dreams, her subconscious weaving a tale of longing and nostalgia.

In her dream, she stood amidst a lush landscape, the gentle roar of a waterfall providing a soothing backdrop. The sun cast a warm glow, illuminating the lush greenery.

Suddenly, a figure emerged from the misty veil surrounding the waterfall.

Their eyes met, and Sanyogita's heart skipped a beat. The same piercing gaze that had intimidated her in the office now held a tender, heartwarming smile.

Time stood still as his eyes crinkled at the corners, his lips curving upward. The killer smile, once reserved for boardroom triumphs, now seemed crafted specifically for her.

Sanyogita's dream self felt an inexplicable sense of belonging, as if she had finally found a long-lost piece of her soul.

In the dream, she reached out, and his hand enveloped hers, warm and reassuring. The world around them melted away, leaving only the promise of forever.

Sanyogita's subconscious stirred, her mind struggling to reconcile with her saviour of her dreams with the ruthless boss she knew.

As dawn broke, Sanyogita woke with a start, her heart racing. The dream lingered, leaving an indelible mark on her thoughts.

Her eyes grew wider with horror and shame.
The person she saw in her dream wasn't her secret lover.

But it was ...

Prithvi .

***********"
Many days have passed. Vishal is like an obtrusive boy stuck behind Sanyogita. He did everything when a man wanted to impress her.

It was another day when he asked her to meet at a coffee cafe.
He finally expresses his feelings and opens his heart to her. But in the end, he was disappointed to hear that she wasn't interested in him. He asked for the reasons, but she was confused and said she loved someone else. He asked for the name but she stayed mute.

Vishal was persistent and inquisitive to know about details of the man who she loved so much, even ready to let go of such a successful businessman, a young handsome, and eligible bachelor upon him any girl can say yes to this single approach.

" Who is that boy who you want?? I too want to know who that lucky guy is.

Sanyogita kept aside her dilemma and tried her best to make him understand with politeness.

She told him " Vishal I respect you as a human but .. I'm not that girl who you are seeking.. I know you could find someone better than me. If we always remain friends I'll be more glad. And talking about the boy he is my Messiah . Except that I couldn't tell you more . I'm sorry. Please don't force me to let out "

Seeing her pleading Vishal paused and then gradually a smile crept on his lips
" Sanyogita tells you one thing.. I think that man is lucky to choose a diamond like you. How many girls have I come across most of them show their attitudes at first but then change their mindsets and agree to have to date with me ..You are an honest woman in spite of offering you a high salary job yet you don't want to leave Malhotra company, glad to meet such a loyal employee . I will try to impress you for the last 2 months but it is my bad luck. "

Sanyogita looked at him with guilty eyes

Vishal continued" Anyway please invite me to the wedding. I would like to meet that man of your heart ." He said with a wink " akhir mein bhi toh janu kon hai woh khush naseeb Jose apka pyaar hasil hua hai!!

Prithvi followed Sanyogita as he had a doubt seeing his repeated approach of Vishal towards Sanyogita. He was in disguise so neither Sanyogita nor Vishal could recognise him . He took a table near them so he could hear them. Although he was sitting there with his ears fixed to their conversation zone. He was anxious that if She chose Vishal what he would do?.. he would again lose her. But he was happy to hear she wasn't interested in him but he thought back to whom she loved. It was more shocking to him as she was in love with another man. Who was that man?? Where does he love ??? Why do most people select the girl whom he has an eye on ??

He knew Sanyogita was so beautiful and her nature was more adoring than any bachelor who could lose their heart for a girl like her.

Here,

Sanyogita closes her, and Prithvi's face flashes before her sight. Her heart omitted a beat.

Their meeting ended. She took a cab and headed towards her home. On the way she thought If Vishal was another man, she could reject or ignore him as she did. But he is now a business partner of Prithvi and she couldn't take the chance to disappoint him. She was happy as Prithvi now understood her choice and thought about her decision. She respects her Boss as he has a lot of expectations from her as well She adores his dedication and affirmation towards his company. She too loved this company and gave a word to herself that she would do her best, to be honest, and sincere to the Malhotra fashion Company, don't let his dignity be below.

Prithvi on the other side was disturbed, by what he heard in the coffee cafe. He was curious to know who her lover was.
Sometimes he was angry at her why she couldn't see his pain, his feelings, how long his soul was craving just to catch a glimpse of one of the most attractive smiles on her adorable face.

Again he cursed himself it was his fault he never let her know he loved her only since the day he saw her for the first time. It was his love at first sight. He fell for her without caring whether she could reciprocate him or not. It didn't matter to him sometimes as in his dream she was only him. Nobody Can't have the power to break that house which he dreamt of with her ..............

He remembers, All stories will have endings, and new beginnings started after the end of the previous one.
So he restarts his incomplete story "

……………

"'" Sanyogita,..Sanyogita?"called Raima one of the colleagues of Sanyogita

Sanyogita came out of reality"''; Were you saying something? "she asked in confusion.

''' I have been calling for you for so long. Where is your attention?" complained Raima

"; Woh..woh.. Nothing elsewhere''"; she replied with a mumbling

"Please help me in it, Sanyo, looked at this" requested by Raima

It was a meeting room, everyone came and took their respective seats. Prithvi was waiting for Sanyogita who had entered. At last, she was looking for another seat far away from him but there was one seat left near Prithvi. She had to take her seat there.
During the meeting, Prithvi asked everybody's opinion regarding their upcoming project. He was waiting for Sanyogita's answer as if she had been ready for that, after several times finally she replied that she was fully comfortable with this.

Prithvi called for Sanyogita to meet him in his cabin and when she went there he asked her"'" from the past few days I have seen you that you have been going through some kind of difficulties, did everything is alright, or didn't?" he was sounding very worried

She at first did not express anything but after the continuous insistence of him she had to reveal""" sir, Ariyan condition wasn't going well, Doctor said that we should admit him to a big hospital, he had to need well treatment and should be kept under isolation and 24 hours of observation which will be difficult for them among all patients there."''tears roll down her cheeks.

Prithvi got up from his seat and moved close to her """How can you do this Sanyogita? If your condition of Ariyan is deteriorating so much, you should at least tell me, right?
Although she felt rage in his tone all the way above she could also feel the concerns behind his anger toward Ariyan.

Prithvi said, ""Mujhe laga ki hum dost ban gaye hai, padh tumne mujhe abhi bhi apna dost hi nahi mana,("I thought that we have become friends, but, you still do not consider me as your friend)"""[looking at the wall , keeping his both hand inside his pocket]..We should admit Ariyan immediately to another hospital, if; in case you need money I will help you"""

Sanyogita refused him"'"No, Sir , I can't take money from you "

"But why? What's the problem with taking money from me?"

Sir, you helped me a lot of times, I can't afford that , I won't be able to reciprocate all your help"""

Prithvi tried his best to interrupt her but she did not listen to him ''' Sir please try to understand " she solicited him

One day Prithvi again called back Sanyogita and informed her that they have to visit Malaysia for 20 days for some business-related projects. He had chosen her along with another employee for this project. He had also told her that if the company chairman agreed with them then it would be very beneficial for her as well as for their company.

Sanyogita asked, "; sir, why are you doing this for me?"

"I have done nothing for you, Miss. Sharma," He leaned against his chair and I have been doing all these only for Ariyan.

She glances at him """toh, you have been doing all these only for Ariyan?; questioned Sanyogita

"; Yes, Of course. I know you don't think of me as your friend but at least Ariyan addressed me as his friend" He said. Sanyogita found one sort of coldness in his voice and Lightness in his expression

"Okay, Sir""She further said nothing and left the room. She was thinking in her mind "" if sir wanted to do everything for Ariyan she should happily accept this, another time she thought. She is happy but why is she feeling an ache inside a corner of her heart..

Time had passed like a river,
Prithvi, Arjun, and Sanyogita along with an employee from their office had reached Malaysia. All of them had taken their room in a big hotel of Prithvi's father. The hotel was very vast and expensive and luxurious.

The company with whom they had visited there for the business meeting had thrown a birthday party for the chairman's daughter, Risha, a gorgeous, young lady at 26. She lived the life of a princess from her school days as his father was a rich businessman in Malaysia. She had fair and flawless skin and sparkling eyes. Any boy's heartbeat can increase just by a killer smile on her face. She had a tattoo behind her neck which gave more charm.
The party had started, Mr. Chairman; Rakesh Sisodia introduced Prithvi to her beloved daughter, Risha who was wearing a violet color tunic off-shoulder long dress.

She was looking very gorgeous'"'; muttered Arjun

After the cutting of the cake, her friends advised her to dance.

Risha asked Prithvi to dance. He took her hand beautifully. When they were dancing they were talking to each other by gazing into their eyes, both of them were smiling, laughing go-heartedly. Mr.Chairman had observed them putting a pleasant smile on them. He made up his mind that he would talk to Mr.Malhorta Prithvi's father about the marriage of Risha with Prithvi . Everyone was whispering that they were looking beautiful together, a perfect match.

Sanyogita heard all these. Moreover, she did not like this though she was still unaware of the answer. Meanwhile, a handsome man approached her and asked for a dance, she was still looking at them, nevertheless, she did not reply to the man who again proposed to her for the dance. Now she gave a glance at the man, she did not say anything without looking back for a single time she went away from there.
Prithvi squinted in the direction where Sanyogita stood; , but Now he did not find her, by making an excuse from Risha, he had started to search for her.

He was looking here and there but couldn't find any trace of her.
He came out of the party zone and again tried to find her. Unfortunately, the street was lonely, nobody was there though it was only 10 at night and he had hardly found anyone on the road. He dialed the receptionist's telephone number of the hotel but he also did not know anything about her. He was feeling restless passing each second. After a few hours of searching, he saw a girl who was standing alone, keeping her both hands on the railing near an artificial waterfall.

Prithvi came out of his car after keeping it in the parking lot. Sanyogita turned back at the sound of the car.

Prithvi walked near her "; Why are you coming here alone? You know this is an unknown country and you should not come alone like this. Sanyogita it is not okay to do your arbitrariness every time, after all, how many times will I have to make you understand??"He shouted at her, he had reached the highest level of his rege

""Sir, Wherever I go, What is it for you? ? every time Sanyogita doesn't do this, don't do that, don't go there, sir I am your assistant only,, nothing more than that. Why have you always acted like you are very much concerned about me?; she said in anger

""Mujhe bas tumhari chinta ho rahi thi, isliye mein tumhe dhondne nikla tha( I was just worried about you, that's why I went out to find you ) He said softly[lowering gaze]

"" Am I telling you to come in search of mine? And anyway, my family is always there for me whenever I need them. Now you are just my boss; nothing more than that""""""She was very angry at him, her heart was racing.

Prithvi was feeling disheartened by her words, his heart was squeezing in his chest""";Tum ne sahi kaha,mein hota kon hoon tumhe rokne wala (You are right, who am I to stop you?) You are just an assistant, just a simple assistant of mine, Why should I have shown concern for you? By the way, it is a long night, it is better to return to the hotel now.""

"Sir, I can go myself, You don't need to act all the time like these ; She said irritatingly

"Thik hai jaisi tumhari marjee(ok as you wish) !!''"; He turned back without any delay. He was moving forward towards his car by shaking his hands in the air.

At night there was heavy rain outside, Prithvi was standing on the road leaning against his car. He was drinking her words making an echo in his sense, and he was crying heavily in the rain. Today his heart is immersed in anguish. He had a feeling to take out his heart and throw it somewhere. If you had the chance, would you go back to the past and erase the memories that chase you over and over again, but you can't? You will remember each and every single drop of tears you have cried for your beloved one but you could not do anything, your heart will be sobbing all the time, aching, you may wish to scream but no one will hear you, you are alone in this game and no one can help you. Prithvi returned to the hotel and entered his room, He was still drinking by sitting on the sofa.

Sanyogita was in her room, and a stream of tears came out of her eyes. The cold war was going on between her brain and her heart.

Her brain had told her all she had done today was good. It was her life and she would do anything, nobody could restrain her.

On the other hand, her heart was saying that She should not behave with him like that harshly , however, he had saved her life a lot of times, and moreover, all he was doing was only for her sake, in concern for her. What was his mistake, because he was dancing with that girl, if he had danced with that girl, at least she had no right to behave harshly. It was his life where he could choose anyone, who the hell was she to be frantic at him?

At last, she had chosen her heart, She wept her eyes and looked forward to his room. It was a 12;"O" clock at night though the lights were switched on in the big corridor outside the rooms. She was about to knock on the door which was suspiciously opened. She entered the room, the lights were off, and she moved to his dark bedroom. She switched on the lights, startled to see that, she rushed to him. She had found Prithvi lying on the floor unconsciously.

She touched his body ""Hey Bhagwaan, Sir has a very high fever.""She saw the empty bottle on the floor and smelled the odor of alcohol in the air of the room. She still did not move away. She tried her best to lie to him on his bed. The way a diary had fallen there by her leg some pages came out of it.
Sanyogita glanced at them but at that moment she thought Prithvi was more important to her. She called the manager of the hotel, to bring a doctor, and also afford some lemon, some ginger, and other vegetables.

In the late-night Doctor had visited there, he assured her he had a normal fever. The whole night, Sanyogita stayed there, caressing his head and wetting clothes on his forehead frequently.

Sanyogita was going to close the door on the balcony but the suddenly torn page came on her feet from the diary. After closing the door she took the diary and opened it
On the first page of the diary had written """TO MY FIRST LOVE WHO I COULD NOT CONFESS"''