Chapter - 01 - Saavi's Point of View

Chapter - 01 

Saavi's Point of View

Those who know me, might use “Obnoxious”, “Hyperactive” or even “Control Freak” to define me. But if there’s one thing that no one can dare to call me, that's “Indecisive”. I have always been very clear about what I want and what I have to do to reach my destination. Or at least, that’s what I used to think. It has been a month since we defeated Mohana and I still don’t know what I am gonna do about Naman or more importantly how I feel about him.

When I decided to pose as his fiance, it had nothing to do with my feelings for him. I have never really opened up to anyone but Dilruba’s death affected me deeply. It’s ironic actually. When she was alive, I never trusted her or her judgement. I almost made Naman light her pyre because I thought that was the right thing to do. But when she died, all I could think about was how to bring her back. She was the reason we got Pari back. No matter how irritating she could be at times, I cannot deny that she had become my companion. And as much as I want to hide this, even from myself, I am partly responsible for her death. If only I had listened to Piya Di that day and hadn’t poured the wrong essence into Pari’s body, may be we could have come up with some other solution. Who knows? We might have found an alternate way to defeat Mohana and also break the pact between them, and my friend’s family wouldn’t have been destroyed before they could have even started. I know the pain and struggle of growing up without a mother. How ironic that unknowingly I played a part in a conspiracy that left an infant motherless. And that guilt - it's enough to crush your soul.

When Naman brought her picture from Chudhail-Lok, the logical Reevavanshi in me was vexed. However, another part of me was happy because finally I got a chance to help Naman bring her back. It’s not that I was only trying to assuage my guilt. As much as I get frustrated with Naman for his stupidity, I would be lying if I said he hasn't been an amazing Reevavanshi. He has suffered a lot in the battle between good and evil, and if there's anyone who deserves a chance at happiness, it's him. 

Unfortunately, nothing worked in our favor. We lost against the rule of nature. So the only thing I could do was respect Dilruba's last wish and take care of Dafli. However, when Naman said he loved me in his inebriated state, it changed everything. Did I feel happy? Yes! I did in that moment. But being the person who never really thought or cared about love, I was confused too. I tried to rationalize it but ended up orchestrating another drama so that Naman confesses his feelings. And now, I am not even sure about my stance in this entire scenario. If Piya Di’s one silly act and simultaneous attack from Van-Vetals could make me behave like a typical girlfriend in that forest, then how can I blame Naman? It’s not entirely impossible that Dilruba’s sudden departure and her giving Dafli’s responsibility to me have affected him somehow. Either way, we can’t keep running around the bushes. We have to address our issues and take a decision for Dafli. No matter what happens, she shouldn't suffer because of our indecision. 

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