2 - Breaking the Silence

Have you ever experienced any situation like where you badly want to be loved by a person but, all you could do is to suppress all that what you feel for them and have to act normal with them?   

If not, then you are truly the luckiest, I must tell you. Because, that experience is one such a hell! And I'm living in it since forever! 

After knowing siddhant has read what I wrote, though he might have not realized it's for him, I tried my best to be as far away from him as possible. 

Not that I'm avoiding him. But, I'm just avoiding the possibility of his avoidance towards me. 

I stood alone at a pool and watching the water in it. Wish my heart could be as peaceful as this water in the pool. 

I could hear the distinct chattering of my friends. Perhaps, they are sharing all those things they have done in the last one year. 

"Roli.." I heard ishani calling me, shouting my name actually. 

"What are you doing here alone? Come.." she literally dragged me towards others, even before I could deny to come. 

I could sense siddhant's gaze at me when I reached them. But, I didn't dare to look at him. 

They all continued to chat among themselves while my mind started wandering all around. 

And I'm brought back to the reality when I heard Rohan's question "so, Sid, till when you're going to stay here?". 

My eyes instantly drawn to siddhant, curiously waiting for his answer. 

"I'm here with a special purpose. Once it is done, I will leave" his eyes landed on me as he answered. 

I got froze the moment his eyes met with mine. And I couldn't look at him anymore whilst him watching me intently. 

But, wait, what is with the look though. Why he is acting in this way today. I felt like I'm overthinking. His eyes, however, not taking off of myself, making me even more nervous. 

"Okay, guys.. it's lunch time" someone interrupted. I silently thanked the person and ran off from the place, unable to bear his gaze. 

I quickly finished having lunch and went to the garden outside. Finally, my heartbeat returned to its normal rate. But, not for so long I guess. 

"So, how are you?" I'm stunned to hear Sid's voice. I wondered if he really asked me or it's just illusion. 

Slowly turning my face to side, I saw him standing right next to me and looking at me. 

"Fine" I could bearly hear my own voice as it came out as a whisper. I'm not sure if he heard it though. 

"You're still the same" he smiled ever so softly. God, his smile! I immediately looked away from him before I get lost in his charming smile. 

"Are you planning to become a writer?" My heart stopped beating for a second at his question. 

I just shook my head in denial, praying for him not to ask anything about that stupid thing I wrote. 

"That's so sad. I wish to read your writings. You're good at it" this could be the first ever complement I got from him. I found it hard not to blush. 

Oh! Wait.. not just complementing, this could be actually the first time that he is talking to me so directly. I just wish this not to be a mere daydreaming. 

"Don't you want to know what's the special purpose I'm here for?" He asked earnestly. I looked at him in confusion. I really don't know what it is about. But, the fact that he will leave after the purpose is done, making me feel sick already. 

"It's you" I froze at his words. What did he even mean by that? Did he came here for me? The mere thought is sending goosebumps all over my body. But, wait I couldn't be over thrilled. I calmed down myself and looked at him to know what he actually meant by that. 

"You still didn't get it?" He sighed while I watched him with the same confusion. 

Then I suddenly felt his hand holding mine. I looked down to find him holding my little finger with his. 

My heart skipped a few beats before it started a marathon race in its socket as I looked up at his face. 

"Even I remember the day" I'm surprised and shocked. My heart is mixed with a bunch of emotions right now. 

He knew it! He knew that the drabble is for him. He still remember the day when our little fingers got locked as if locking both of us in an eternity of togetherness. 

It was at the time of revision classes of our twelfth standard board examination. I was preparing by sitting alone in the library. Ishani came there with siddhant and asked me to help him in understanding mathematics. 

I was nervous like hell to do combined studies with him. But, still gathered my courage to help him. While ishani left from there leaving me and Sid in the library. 

I tried to explain problems while he wasn't paying least attention to me. He wasn't studious after all and I couldn't help it. Still I continued to explain and he grew getting bored. He might have even regretted the thought of asking me for help.

He just kept looking at surroundings and checking time as if he was waiting to get out of the revision class. I wouldn't have minded if he had left just by saying he wasn't interested in listening the boring mathematics. But, for some reason he tried to sit there and listen to my lecture. 

While I was explaining, he suddenly held my left hand's little finger with his. I raised my head and looked at him in shock. 

"I saw this in some movie. It's cute, right?" He said holding my little finger. 

"You continue, I'm listening" he said like a sincere student. But, where could I find my voice when my hand was in his hold. 

I tried to take it out but he didn't allow and held my hand tightly. I knew he was doing it purposely so that he could escape from my lecture. At the moment, I realized that people were not wrong in calling him a flirt. He would flirt with every other girl in the school. But, never done any such a thing with me. Perhaps, that's what made me feel in a special way about him. 

With him holding my hand, I couldn't utter a word and we sat just like that for hours until ishani returned. Only then he realised that he was still holding my hand. I've immediately pulled off my hand before the situation would get embarrassed. 

"Your friend explains mathematics really well" he said, glancing at me.  

The very day I've realized that he's special for me. The small amount of time I've spent with him together, I've cherished always. 

But, now I'm surprised to know he remembered it, too. I looked at him like he is my own life. 

"Though I've decided to come for you, I wasn't confident of how you'd feel about me. But, when I read your drabble, it made me realize that you too feel for me the same way like I do for you" he said, looking in to my eyes.

Suddenly the whole world seems to be stopped at the moment as I looked in to his eyes. This is the moment, I've craved for. And I'm still not able to believe it. 

"You think I never bothered to break the silence between us. But, the fact is your eyes would always speak everything to me then why should I trouble you to speak out" his words made my eyes get moist.

"Not only your heart, even my heart beats for you. Don't ask me when and how coz even I don't know the answer for it. But, just know one thing that you've always been special to me and I.." he slowly slided his hand on my cheek. 

Hearing those words from him felt like a dream. I smiled with tears in my eyes. 

He then cupped my face and said those magical words like a music in to my ears ".. I love you, Roli". 

"And now no more of your silence. I want you to speak now, not your eyes" he literally demanded authoritatively.

Here comes my nervousness again. I've always imagined expressing my heart to him many times; of course in dreams. But, when it came to reality, I'm unable to find the words. "Roli.." he called out eagerly and I witnessed the longing in his eyes. 

"I.. love you..too" I confessed to him, finally! 

Everything still felt like a dream until I felt his arms around my waist and found myself inside his hug. 

"Woahh!" We moved apart hearing the sounds and found all our classmates watching us in surprise. 

"So this is the reason our hero agreed to join the gathering" Rohan said, exasperated. 

"Did you think I agreed for you or something?" Sid retaliated in his usual playful nature. 

"Roli, even you never told me about this?" Ishani stared at me in disbelief. 

"Some things are not to be told, those are to be understood" Sid replied on my behalf and I sighed in relief to have his support. 

They all started congratulating us. While some girls even complained that they are jealous of me. For them he has his own style of reply like "you're not lucky enough like my Roli". 

I couldn't stop blushing when he said 'My Roli'.

And from now on there's no more silence between us, there was never been! For our hearts have always spoken to each other which our words failed to do. 

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A/N : I don't know why I even started this one coz it has no concept in it. It's like every time that I feel excited when I get a small idea to write. And may be that's what made me to write this one, which I got bored of so soon. But, still.. since I've started it already, I couldn't left it in the middle just like that. So, had to wrap it up with whatever I could think of

So, here I've finished it. I know it's crap and I'm extremely sorry for that And lastly, thank you so much each and every one for reading this boring thing