Authors note : So yeah these are the parts of last chapter of the book. *proud feels for finishing the book.
I am just going to go ahead and state the obvious, this book deals with LGBTQI (Lesbian Gay Bisexual Transgender Queer and Intersex) issues. (I would highly judge you if you didn't realise it till now. ) Jokes apart, I wanted to write something about the life and struggles people of LGBTQI community face and this is it. Before ending this I wanted to clear it out that Shahida is not a transgender she is an intersex. There is a difference between them.
If you have any query regarding that then feel free to ask me.
I hope you enjoyed reading as much as I enjoyed writing this piece. Rest will disclosed in the epilogue.
#LetLoveBe
Chapter four : Acceptance and Amendments
17th August 2018
Rehan tumbled across the suitcase while running carelessly towards the terminal. He could hear people complaining behind him but he couldn't care less. Right now he needed to find her anyhow.
She couldn't leave him like this.
Rehan sighed a breath of relief as he spotted the person his eyes wished to see all this time.
"Shahida!" Shahida turned around at the familiar voice, her heart pumping hard as she saw Rehan hurrying towards her.
He came!
Just as Rehan was about to reach out to her, someone blocked their view. Rehan looked up to find the same guy he had beat black and blue and frowned at him.
"Don't you dare come near her." The guy ordered and Rehan wanted to punch his bandaged face once again. "Don't give me that look, I have started going to the gym so now you can't overpower me anymore."
Rehan gave a look which said he was least bothered with this talking cartoon. But before he could reply, Shahida interrupted them.
"Can you please leave us alone for a minute Farhan?" Shahida asked him politely and despite not being convinced by her, Farhan moved away to give them space.
Rehan narrowed his eyes at Farhan as he disappeared into the crowd. He was out of the hearing range but not out of their sight. If god forgave one sin then Rehan would definitely kill Farhan.
"What is it?" Shahida asked, trying to sound uninterested.
"Why are you leaving? Where are you going?" Rehan quickly shot his questions.
"I have gotten a job out of the country." Shahida replied keeping the details to minimum.
"How can you leave me Shahida?" Rehan asked, his tone of desperation.
"Like you left me Rehan." Shahida bluntly replied.
"I never left you! You know what happened. Shahida please don't go. Please." Rehan came closer to her and cupped her face. Shahida closed her eyes at the contact.
"I promise I will make everything right. I promise it. Please chanda please don't go." Rehan begged her while kissing all over her face. "I will do anything you say. Please don't go."
"Marry me then." Shahida answered. "Right now. Make me yours."
"Its not possible. I am still married, Shahida. But I promise I will get out of this mess. I promise i.."
"Enough of your false promises Rehan! I am tired of you and your promises. I can not do this anymore Rehan. Please leave me." Shahida tried to control her tears yet failed as they fell out of her eyes like she had broken a damp.
"I can't. For once I can stop breathing but I cannot leave you." Rehan tried to convince her.
"Please don't make it more harder than it already is." Shahida said as she turned away from him. As on clue Rehan hugged her from behind. He kept whispering her not go in her ears. Shahida tried to ignore how his hot breath made her body shiver or how his soft kisses made her knees go weak. She slowly pulled away from his grip and cupped his face. She placed a single kiss on his forehead.
"I can not do this anymore Rehan. I need some time. Maybe some other day. Please let me go for now." Shahida requested him.
She slowly traced his lips silencing him with her fingers. She traced his face trying memorise it. Placing soft kisses on both his cheeks she gripped the collar of his shirt. She closed the top button of his shirt that he always left open. "Can we figure ourselves out please? Can I get some time to process everything. Will you let me go, please? For me. For us."
"Only if you promise me you wouldn't marry that clown" Rehan said pointing towards Farhan who's eyes were still on them. "Or any other clown as a matter of fact."
Shahida chuckled softly and nodded her head. Rehan pulled her in for hug and he took her lips hungrily. He kissed for the time they were going to be apart, she kissed him back with the same intensity. Shahida could feel eyes on them but right now she didn't care for anything except for the man who held her like she was the most precious possession he had. Like she would disappear in the next moment itself.
With a heavy heart she pulled away and walked away from him, leaving a big piece of herself back. While Rehan slumped on the floor looking at his life moving away from him.
..
"So this is where you live? Its beautiful." Jasleen complimented as she entered Avilasha's house with her.
Avilasha smiled at her as she led her into the living room. Technically it was Rehan and Rayan's house but it felt more like a home to her than her own parent's house.
"And is your husband home?" Jasleen asked already guessing her answer.
"No I don't think so." Avilasha replied.
"You know if I didn't know you better, I would come to conclusion that your husband is imaginary. He never seems to be around." Jasleen joked but her words hurt. Avilasha knew Rehan was running away from her. It had been ages since she last saw him properly, had a nice conversation with him.
Avilasha sat on the couch next to Jasleen and initiated a conversation. Soon they were both close enough to hear each other's heartbeat. Jasleen leaned in to Avilasha's face but before she could kiss her a loud sound interrupted them.
They looked up to find a shocked Rehan with his mouth open staring back at them.
"You?" He said after sometime. "And you? How? When? HOW?"
But before any of them could answer he continued on,
"Oh god I'm so tired!" Rehan sank onto the couch nearby trying to swallow the long day and the events.
..
"Are you fine?" Rehan nodded his head to Shahida's question as he gulped down the water.
After taking a deep breath he finally said, "Go on please."
"I am sorry you had to find out like this. I wanted to tell you since a very long time but you were never around." Avilasha started.
"When did you.. did you.."
"Realised the truth?" Avilasha completed it for him."Its been four years."
"Four years?" Rehan almost shouted in surprise. "Why didn't you ever tell me?"
"When I first realised I couldn't believe it. I thought I could change but I realised that it was not a habit that I could change, it was a part of who I was, a part of my identity. But with time I realised no one would accept me like this especially my parents thus I decided I would keep this all in, I would conceive this secret and take it with me to my pyre. But I couldn't keep it in for long."
Rehan listened to her quitely.
"I am sorry. I should have told you earlier. We are all in this mess because of me, if only I could confess my truth earlier." Tears started flowing out of her eyes.
"Ssh..ssh."Rehan slowly hugged her trying to calm her down. "Its alright Avu. Its not your fault, it never was."
"It is! Its my fault that Rayan has ran away, its my fault that we are in this marriage, its my fault that you and Shahida aren't together anymore. You don't deserve this Rehan!"
"We don't deserve this Avu!" Rehan corrected her. "Its not your fault, its just that the situation and circumstances turned out how they were not supposed to. Our marriage is your parent's fault and regarding me and Shahida, its complicated. And we all know how big of an idiot Rayan is!"
Avilasha laughed out and Rehan joined her soon. It had been long since they had spent time together.
"I missed you." Avilsha admitted and Rehan smiled at her.
"I missed you too."
"Can I have you back in my life?" Avilasha asked.
"I am always there with you. I am stuck to you like glue." Rehan teased and Avilasha laughed along.
"I am sorry with what happened between you and Shahida."
"Don't be. Its not the end. We will figure something out probably. I wouldn't give up and wouldn't let her give up on me too" Rehan said in a determined voice and Shahida truly believed him. Still a silent prayer left her, wishing him to have all the happiness he deserved.
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