Dil Ki baatein, dil hi jaane ' kya ehsa ho sakta hai?
Ek ajeeb si "kashmakash" si chayi hui hai, ek ajeeb ehsaas se jhooj rahi hoon main, ek ajeeb si tadap horahi hai mann mein, na jaane kyun, mann mein harbarahat ki ashunka uth rahi hai. Na jaane kyun, yeh aankhen kis ko aur kyun dhund rahi hai, kyun uski ek jhalak pa ne ke liye, main yanha tak chali ayi, kyun mere mann ko uski talaash hai ' kyun main kisi ajnabee ke liye itna "machall" rahi hoon ' kya lagta hai woh mera? ' kya hai yeh ankhayi, andekhi, ajeeb se kahaani? Kyun mujhe lagta hai ke uski aankhen mujhe kamzor kar deingi? Kyun main uss se nazrein nahi mila paati.
Kyun uske na hone se, mujhe takleef ho rahi hai, kyun bura lag raha hai ke voh yahaan nahi hai ' kya hai yeh ajeeb khichaav ' jo mujhe har baar laake uske saamne mujhe yeh mehsoos karvaati hai ke shayad woh mujhe kuch kehna chahta hai, kya use bhi vohi mehsooss hota hai? Kyun mujhe uske saamne rehne se sakoon aata hai ' kya hai yeh ajeeb dil ki laagi joh mujhe uski yaad dilaati hai. Kyun uske door hote hui bhi mera dimaag usse hi yaad karta hai? Itna toh maine kabhi "...149..." ke baare mein bhi nahi saha na socha ' kya main galat to nahi kar rahi. Haq toh hai na mujhe yeh mehsoos karne ke liye lekin main theek nahi soch rahi ' na koi jaan na koi pehchaan, phir kya hai yeh joh mera dil mein chal raha hai mujhe kya horaha hai ' yeh pyar nahi hai, infatuation bhi nahi ho sakti, yeh kya hai, isko kaise main samjhaoon. Kyun main har baar uske baare mein soch soch ke, kahin kho jaati hoon ' kyun mujhe kuch nahi nazar aata uske saamne!?! Yeh kaise samjhaoon ' isko kaise bayaan karoon ' kyun mujhe umeed hai kuch hone ki ' kya hai yeh ajeeb ehsaas kyun main jaan na chahti hoon uske baare mein ' kyun mujhe uski haar baat achi lagti hai ' kyun mujhe gussa aaya uski ek uss baat se jo mujhe achi nahi lagi ' kyun mujhe uss baat ka bayan karna zaroori laga ' kyun mujhe zaroori laga ke main uss ko uss baat ke liye sunaoon, uss se jaake ladayi karoon, jis baat se mujhe dil mein choobhan hui ' kyun mujhe bura laga- woh toh koi nahi hai mera, phir kyun mujhe har baar use pe haq jatana ehsaan lagta hai ' baaki sab pe toh ehsi tarhaan se kabhi nahi barsi-kyun mere paseene choot rahe hai? ehse lagta hai jaise uski nazar mujh pe hai? Yeh jaante hui ke woh yahaan nahi hai, mein kyun abb bhi usko hi dhoond rahi hoon, kyun main chahti hoon ke hum dost bane ' hum kuch toh bolain ' iss bechani pe banii hui dori ka kuch to naam ho - jiske sahare yh ehsaas ki neev ban rahi hai ' par kya yeh zaroori hai?
Uske saamne mujhe kuch nazar kyun nahi aata? Baaki sab kuch bhool jati hoon ' pichli baar yeh sirf "...149..." ke liye hua tha ' par yeh waise ehsaas nahi ' kuch aur hai ' kuch naya ' kya horaha hai mujhe.
Dil ki baat shayad ek dil hi samjhe
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