I looked at her dressed in that red and white saree. To
describe her in words was not in my capability then..the red matched the color
of her lips and cheeks and white symbolized the purity of her heart.
But it was not only then that, I remembered what she had
said when I had shown her the magazine. That red saree didn't catch her
attention but that my fav colour was white .I realized that she had worn a
saree comprising mine and her fav colour.
I could look at her forever.But my brain wouldn't let me
gape at her long enough. Each time I tried my brain reminded me what "Yash" had
said..She was leaving me. Yes she was she had accepted job in some other
company. She knew I couldn't live without her even for a minute but even then
she was trying to go away from me. I knew she loved me, I never doubted that
even for a minute but why was she trying to go away. Nothing had changed
between us, I could feel that and more. I could feel her love more now, every
second.The way she cared for me in the hospital, the way she had dressed up
just to welcome me home, the way she had promised that her lifes motto was only
my happiness now.
But then what had happened in these two days that she had
decided to leave me. I couldn't stand this any longer. I needed to talk to her
right away..
I saw her walking towards me. Her eyes full of love and I
could see myself in every bit of her. She blushed when she reached near. I
noticed that but I couldn't appreciate her beauty not at this moment when I was
in a turmoil with my own self.
She touched my face with love that on any day would have
swept me off my feet but right now it only made me feel as if she was doing it
so that she could take my feel with her when she went away and was trying to
savor every moment with me.
She put her down and turned..no I couldn't let her walk
away..i needed my answers right away..i kept my hand on her shoulder and made
her face me.she looked up to me with eyes full of love and shyness.
I looked away,..i couldn't be carried away at the moment..
"Geet.."
She blushed and looked down..
"geet, tum mujse kuch kehna chahti ho.."
She looked at me with eyes full of fear, hatred and pain..
Hatred and pain…but why..she didn't hate me and she knows I
would never do anything to give her pain..
If she was scared of anything..i needed to confirm it to her
that I was there and she need not be scared of anything..If there was something
that made her think I will give her pain she needed to know that she was more
important to me than anyone else here..if she thought that our relationship had
no name she needed to know that it had been sealed long time ago..
"Geet tum meri manghetar ho..tumhe darne ki koi zaroorat
nahi hai..tum mujhe bata sakti ho ki aisi kaun si baat hai jo tumhe sata
rahi..us din lift mein bhi aur phir sasha ke saamne bhi..geet bolo tumhe kaun
se baat pareshan kar rahi hai.."
She looked up at me..there were tears in her eyes..but why..
She held my into hers , looked into my eyes and said.." who
insaan jisne mujhe dhoka diya, jisne mujse jhooti shaadi ki aur mujhe airport
par chod kar bhag gaya..woh koi aur nahi aapka bhai dev hai.."
What did she say..the man who had betrayed her, destroyed
her life was my own brother dev..
No that was not possible..he could not have done something
so bad..
And then I remembered the time he was in need of money and
geet had already told me that the one who married me did it for her money..how
could dev do it..
I walked back to my room..
I was thinking deep.. the time me and dev had fought when we
were kids..he was always the naughty one..he would go any lengths to get what
he wanted..he would even take it from my hands and run away..
When he was in school I remembered the time when he had been
the favorite among the girls..he always knew how to flatter one..he would have
loads of friends and he would spend all the money in clubbing and then used to
ask my pocket money too which usually I provided him with..
And then in college he started becoming more reckless and it
was then I had decided that he needed to learn to take over responsibility and
I had send him to Canada..but his expenses increased with time and at one time
I told him that he will have to work and get the money for himself..and this is
what he did..
I couldn't believe it that dev could fall so low to get the
money..
I looked up at the watch and saw it was 2.. I came back at
around 7 and I had been here for so many hours..
And then I remembered GEET..i had left her dresses up like
that for me in the hall..
GEET..thst why she was not at the engagement, that's why she
left me that day, that's why dev and NT were so uncomfortable that day at the
hospital..oh god how could have I missed all this..
How could I not read it in her eyes on the day of engagement
when she had said "aaj maine use dekha.."
How could I have been so blind by my own ecstasy that I
overlooked her pain..how could have I not seen it in her eyes that she had said
those words today coz she knew that I will have to chose between my family and
her..
But I couldn't leave her alone..could i..she was my love,
she was the one who taught me to live, she was the one who showed the beauty of
flowers, she was the one who told me to smell the rain, she was the one who
stood up against me at any time, she was the one who never succumbed to MSK, she
was the one who had taken up every advice I had given her without a question
but had questioned me my every
order..beyond all this she was the reason I was alive..alive and living..If not
for her I would have given up the battle against life and death two days
back,..it was her mere thought deep within me that told me that I had to live ,
that I was the reason for her living too and I needed to go back to her and
take away all the pain from her life..
But what had I done..i had left her in the hall like that..
I remembered the last time I had done that..when she had
confessed..she had said the three words that had turned my world upside down
and then I hadn't stayed to listen to her and I didn't do it today..
Where was she now..what she must be going through..
Again I was lost in my own pain and had forgotten to look at
her pain..
How must have geet lived with it..how must have geet stayed
two days in the same house where HE lived..how must have she faced him day in
and day out in front of dadi coz she couldn't
say anything..how must she have been in two minds with me in hospital
and HE at home…
But then I remembered something..Yash..
Geet had met him in my absence and Sasha was talking about
truth, and no one knew about the truth of past life except me..That means again
I had left Geet midway in her talk and didn't listen to her explanation.
I saw the time it was 2:30 by now..but if I knew her well
she wouldn't be sleeping..
Maan singh Khuran..geet
is awake coz of u in this condition, u think its right..
I had an pang of guilt of keeping her awake,of making her go
thru so much for no reason and rushed to
the outhouse..
Yes she was awake. The Lights in her room were still on and I
just needed to talk to her so that she could rest for herself and our baby..
I reached the door of her room and she was sitting on the
window sill looking outside..lost in her own world..
I went closer and noticed that she was still wearing the
same saree . but what hurt me were the tears in her eyes…Yes she had been
crying..
Dekh liya maan, tumhari
ek galti se kya ho gaya..na jaane us par kya beet rahi hogi,use toh laga hoga
ki tumne use nahin apne bhai ko chuna hai is ladaai mein..
I needed to rectify
my mistake right away.."geet" I said placing my hand on her shoulder..
She turned around and saw me with eyes that were red and
swollen..
Oh no what had I done..she
had been crying for so many hours just because I didn't have the courage and
wit to listen to her..
"Geet..utho.."
She tried getting up but faltered and I held her
immediately..
After about a 6 seconds when
left her she tried to walk again but she faltered again and this time
she rested her head on my chest..i realized that she was dizzy..
"Geet tumne kuch khaya hai.."
Geet shook her head in negative..
"Geet tum jaanti ho.." but the way she looked up at me I couldn't
say anything to her..
"geet tum yahin ruko main kuch khne ke liye le kar aata
hoon.."
And I left the room..
I knew I will have to fend up something for her something on
my own and I went to the kitchen and made the easiest meal possible..
I went into the room and saw that she was still in the same position
I had left her but she seemed to be much relaxed..
Kitni ajeeb baat hai
na..mere sirf yahaan hone se ise itna sukoon mila ke iske annkhon ke aansoon
pal bhar mein sookh gaye..jaane pichle do din..
I went up to her and saw that she was half asleep .
But I couldn't let her sleep she had to eat something..
I touched her lightly on her arm and she got up..
I smiled at her and she smiled back at me with sleepy eyes..
I made her eat the entire plate of the meal I had
brought..she resisted once or twice but atlast she gave up and she finished
it..
Once she was done "Geet tum so jao.."
She shook her head in negative and looked at me..
I understood that she was scared if I will come back to
her..
I said again" Geet tum so jaao main yahin hoon.." and I held
her hand..
She smiled at me and she lied down while I kept standing…
She didn't leave me hand and smiled at me gesturing at me to
sit down..
I sat down next to her still holding her hand..
But that didn't suffice her either..
She sat up and she rested her head on my shoulder..
I said "Geet par.."
She shook her head and I understood what she wanted..
I removed my shoes and I crept into the blanket with her..
She immediately lied down and rested her head on my arm..and
there she slept off leaving me speechless at her simple gesture of love and
trust..
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